if i could love you

The evening breeze in June gently brushed Jiao Er's face, and her blush from alcohol had faded by now.Thinking of the scene just now, Jiaoer still couldn't calm down the complicated mood at the moment.She let out a long sigh, hesitating whether to go back or not.

I don't know when Xin Yu had already stood silently behind Jiaoer, she patted Jiaoer's shoulder, and softly called Jiaoer's name.

"Xin Yu, when did you come here?" Jiao Er, who was immersed in her emotions, was taken aback.

"Just now", Xin Yu said, and sat beside Jiao Er.She paused for a moment, and then said, "Jiaoer, can you pretend that you didn't see what happened just now? I'm sorry, I lied to you before that I didn't know him."

Jiao Er nodded and did not speak again.

It was already dark at this time, and a few street lamps propped up the darkness.There was a cicada lying on the tree beside it, screaming tirelessly.Jiao'er felt her eyes hurt for no reason, she raised her head and looked up, but she could only see the darkness, not a single bit of starlight.At this moment, there was a little chill in the night wind, and the two people in thin clothes couldn't help shivering.Xin Yu had already stood up, and said to Jiaoer, "It's getting late, we should go back."

"Well, Xin Yu, did you do it voluntarily?" Jiaoer's worries had been ups and downs for a long time, and she tried to say it out.

"..."

"I don't mean anything else, I just..." Jiao Er was afraid that Xin Yu would misunderstand, so she hurriedly said again.

But Jiaoer was interrupted by Xin Yu before he finished speaking, "Jiaoer, I know you are worried about me. Thank you. I have been with him for a long time, there is no such thing as coercion or not!"

"But why did he pretend not to know you before?" Jiaoer asked with a frown.

"He is on the rise in his career, and he doesn't want to announce the two of us."

Xin Yu smiled lightly under the dim light, her smiling eyes curved into beautiful arcs, making her look so delicate and cute.

"That……"

"I respect his choice, and everything is under his arrangement." Xin Yu interrupted Jiao'er again, with an unquestionable tone.

The breath was twisted and turned in Jiaoer's body, she endured it but did not sigh after all.She had a bad feeling, but couldn't bear to say it.In the end, she only said to Xin Yu, "I just hope that you can protect yourself in this relationship and not get hurt."

After Jiaoer finished speaking, she suddenly realized that this was what Simon had said to her!Then is this Xin Yu, who is crazy about love now, very similar to the self who was desperate at that time?Thinking of this, Jiaoer couldn't help feeling chills down his back.I hope he will not disappoint Xin Yu's continuous affection.And Li Li must not let himself down.

When I returned to the box again, the banquet had been withdrawn and the crowd had dispersed.Only Lin Sen was left sitting on the chair alone, his peach blossom eyes were covered with mist, and his face was also flushed; seeing Jiaoer and the others, he twitched the corners of his mouth, but smiled insincerely. The alcohol-soaked voice became hoarse when he spoke, "Where did you two go? Everyone is gone, let's go back too!"

Jiao Er thought that Lin Sen still didn't know anything, and she felt pity for her little kid.Although she knew that Lin Sen was a prodigal son in love, every time Lin Sen looked at Xin Yu for so many days, Jiaoer believed that he was sincere.She said in a soft tone, "Let's go outside to get some fresh air. I didn't expect it to be this time. Let's go back together!"

Lin Sen stood up, walking crookedly.Seeing this, Jiao Er was about to go over to help Lin Sen, but saw him fall towards Xin Yu, Xin Yu helplessly stretched out his hand to hold Lin Sen's arm.

Jiaoer didn't know if Lin Sen did it on purpose.She pulled Lin Sen's other arm calmly, and then said, "Xin Yu, you go outside and call Lin Sen's assistant. I'll just support him."

Xin Yu nodded, and walked out quickly as if she was saved.

It was already one or two o'clock in the morning when Jiaoer finished everything and returned to the hotel.After she took a shower, she lay on the bed but couldn't wait for sleep.In the middle of the night, all disguises are removed for people, and people are caught off guard to face the fragility of their hearts.Wen Jiaoer fell into a kind of unspeakable panic and anxiety. She turned on her mobile phone and looked through the WeChat chat records with Li Li. The last sentence stayed half an hour ago. It was she who told Li Li that she had returned to the hotel.Li Li didn't reply to her, he must have fallen asleep.

She looked forward to the chat records with Li Li, and she re-read it word by word.Jiaoer hopes to be able to read from this whether Li Li's sincerity towards her is perfect or not. Looking at those gentle words, Jiaoer gets great satisfaction, but at the same time falls into an unprecedented emptiness.She felt as if a hole had been cut in her heart, and she was blowing wind into her heart against the wind.

"Li Li, I miss you so much."

After Jiao Er sent this sentence, she put the phone aside and forced herself to sleep.If you don't sleep any more, the night will be over.

Jiao'er didn't sleep well that night, fragmented dreams cut off her complete sleep.She dreamed that Xin Yu cried and told herself that she had been cheated, and the tears turned red as they flowed down.Jiaoer touched it with his hand, but found it was blood.Her heart trembled, and for some reason, the person in front of her changed from Xin Yu to Li Li again.Li Li held someone else's hand.The man's face was covered by white light and shadow, and Jiao'er couldn't see clearly.She could only see Li Li's affectionate eyes, but those eyes were no longer looking at her.

She was anxious to grab Li Li's hand, but what she held tightly was the soft bed sheet under her body, Jiao Er woke up and found that everything was just a dream.Fortunately, it was just a dream.Jiao'er curled up into a ball, letting the quilt wrap herself completely.This night's sleep did not relieve her tired body, but the muscles all over her body were extremely sore.She felt that her mind was in a mess.She reached out and fumbled for her phone, wondering what time it was.But when she turned on her phone, she saw a WeChat message from Li Li.She hurried in, without even looking at the time on the phone screen.

"Honey, I miss you too."

"When do you have time, can I go to visit the class?"

When Jiaoer saw these two words sent by Li Li, the uneasiness and panic brought about by the night and the nightmare disappeared immediately.In fact, love is sometimes very simple. When all your anxiety and panic can be responded to by the other party in a timely manner, all the sacrifices seem to be worthwhile.The heart that had been separated by the night became intact again, and she was beating alive for her young love.

"Okay!"

"I'll be on vacation for the next two days tomorrow, do you have time?"

Jiaoer's fingers danced quickly on the screen of the mobile phone, like a brisk dance.After sending these two sentences, the soreness and fatigue in the body were released.Jiao Er stretched out on the bed, all the joints in her body were rustling.

"it is good."

"Fortunately, there is still a plane ticket tonight."

Seeing Li Li's two words, Jiao Er immediately jumped up from the bed.A vibrant morning probably starts from this moment.

When I went to the studio to film in the afternoon, the few emotional scenes with Lin Sentian were basically passed by.The director said that Jiaoer is getting better.But only Jiaoer knows what's going on, the girl who is immersed in love probably has a sweet aura.

There are still a few scenes to be filmed in the evening, and Jiao Er originally wanted to check his lines with Xin Yu before the filming started.But she couldn't find Xin Yu on the set, she guessed that Xin Yu should be in the dressing room.But as soon as she arrived at the door of the dressing room, before reaching out to knock on the door, Lin Sen grabbed her arm and dragged her out.

"What are you doing?" Jiao'er was confused.

"Let's play against each other!" Lin Sen said, taking Jiaoer's script and casually flipping through it.

"We have no rivalry tonight." Jiao Er looked at Lin Sen, wondering what the hell he was doing.

Lin Sen's hand flicked through the script froze, and then said, "What about tomorrow's?"

Jiaoer took back the script, glanced at Lin Sen in disbelief and said, "Why haven't I seen you so caring before?"

Lin Sen didn't speak, but just touched the tip of his nose with his hand.

Seeing this, Jiao Er thought that Lin Sen was joking with her as usual, and then said, "If you're okay, I'll go and play with Xin Yu."

"Hey! Don't go." Lin Sen called Jiaoer again, "Xin Yu has something to do."

"What's the matter? What's the matter?" Jiaoer couldn't help asking.

After Lin Sen heard this, he reached out and touched Jiao Er's head, and said with a wry smile, "Jiao Er, you are really a child!"

Jiaoer belatedly realized what was going on, but she didn't know how or when Lin Sen knew about it.The two were relatively speechless and fell into a kind of silence.

"Jiaoer, I want to smoke a cigarette. You go back first!" Lin Sen broke the silence.As he spoke, he had already pulled out the cigarette case from his pocket.

Jiaoer frowned after hearing this, she didn't know when Lin Sen had this problem.After all, he doesn't care how old he is.

"When did you start smoking? It's not a good habit, and it's not good to be photographed by reporters."

Lin Sen smiled noncommittally after hearing this, and then teased, "You're not a big person, so you can take care of a lot!"

"I...", Jiaoer was angry, paused and then said, "You can smoke, I don't mind."

The light is gradually weakening, and the sky is also getting darker. In the distant sky, thick clouds are churning, and a few wisps of ink are slowly blurring, as if a heavy rain is brewing.The sun was still shining brightly at noon, but in the blink of an eye it changed in the evening.

With a little orange-red sparks flashing in the night, Lin Sen let out a contented sigh.

"There are still many good girls in this world." Jiaoer said this for no reason.

Lin Sen laughed at himself after hearing this, and said, "I'm not good enough for a good girl."

Jiaoer flipped through the script in his hand and said hesitantly, "Lin Sen, you're actually pretty good."

"What's the matter? Are you confessing your love to me?" Lin Sen grinned, as usual.

"Can you stop joking?" Jiaoer said angrily, she didn't know when Lin Sen would be serious.

"What's wrong with you today?" Lin Sen asked.

Knowing that she shouldn't get angry with him, Jiaoer calmed down and said, "Lin Sen, you can meet someone more suitable in the future."

A trace of doubt climbed up Lin Sen's eyebrows, he didn't care to flick the long cigarette ash, and asked again, "Hey! Jiaoer, what are you talking about?"

Jiaoer looked at Lin Sen with a face that really didn't know anything, and suspected that she had guessed wrong before, but she reminded unwillingly, "It's you and Xin Yu!"

Lin Sen laughed out loud after hearing this, flicked the cigarette ash and said, "That's why you co-authored it, why did you tell me such a bunch of inexplicable things here?"

"I..." Jiaoer opened his mouth but couldn't say anything.

"You what?" Lin Sen asked with a smile.

"You really don't like her?" Jiao Er said, pointing in the direction of the dressing room.

Lin Sen took another drag on his cigarette, then looked at the rolling clouds and said calmly, "I really like this girl."

Jiao Er looked at Lin Sen's relaxed appearance, not to mention heartbroken sadness, even the slightest trace of sadness could not be captured on his face.

"You... Oh! It's all right." Jiao Er felt that she didn't need to say anything more.

"Are you trying to tell me why I don't look sad at all?" Lin Sen turned his head and asked with a smile, his peach blossom eyes were really sparkling.

Jiaoer nodded, but said nothing.

Lin Sen took another puff of the cigarette, and after blowing out a few smoke rings in satisfaction, he said, "For us people, love is the easiest thing to get. If you have money and a good skin, what kind of prey will Worrying about not being able to get a deal? I never try to force others to do what they want, it’s the same as doing business. You can only make a good deal if you like me. If she doesn’t want it, someone will. As long as you don’t lose money, what’s there to be sad about? "

When Lin Sen said love, it became an exchange of equal value. It was hard for Jiao Er to imagine that this was the words of a 20-year-old boy.She couldn't agree but couldn't find words to refute him. After a while, she could only say awkwardly, "We're going to be filming in a while, so I'll go there first."

"Yeah." Lin Sen flicked the cigarette ash again while talking.

"Sister." Lin Sen suddenly called her again.

"What's wrong?" Kyoer turned around and asked.At this time, the night was dark, and Jiaoer could only vaguely see Lin Sen's figure from a distance, only the orange-red sparks twinkled very eye-catching.

"The more you want to grasp something like love, the faster it will disappear. You are still young, but you have to know that there are many things in this world that are more important than love. You must not lose the big because of the small. "Lin Sen's voice flowed slowly in the humid air, and entered Jiao'er's ear with a hint of coolness.

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It will be 2018 as soon as you open your eyes tomorrow. I hope everyone will have a smooth new year.