if i could love you

With previous experience, Jiao Er's emotional scenes were much easier to shoot.She always had a scene with Li Li through mobile phone video the day before, and the emotional scene on the second day really went smoothly, and most of the time, she could go through it one by one.After finally finishing the day's filming, Jiao Er was resting on the sofa in the hotel.She was still chatting with Li Li with her mobile phone in her hand.

"The staff of the film crew sent some oranges, let me peel one for you and eat." I don't know when Simon came in, still holding a bag of oranges in his hand.

"Simon, when did you start to walk silently. I didn't even notice you coming." Jiao Er seemed to be carelessly putting the phone upside down on the sofa while talking.

"You are too focused on playing with your mobile phone!" Simon glanced at Jiaoer's mobile phone and said.

"I'll peel it myself! You go to rest, I'm quite tired today." Jiaoer stood up and planned to take the orange from Simon's hand.

Simon turned sideways, avoiding Jiaoer's hand that was about to take the orange, and said, "It's okay, I'm not tired. Let me peel it for you."

"There's nothing wrong with your emotional drama here. I'm going back to the company in a few days. There are still some things to deal with over there in Pingcheng." Simon used his fingernails to peel off a small piece of orange peel, and a hint of orange fragrance wafted through the air. Flowing slowly.

"Well. You can leave at ease. I have assistants here and they will be fine." After hearing Simon's words, there was a little glimmer in Jiao Er's eyes.

Simon looked at Jiao Er's shoulders that had been tensed into a straight line since she entered the door, and immediately relaxed after hearing her words to leave, she lowered her head and hooked her mouth with a helpless smile.More than half of the orange peel in his hand has been peeled off, revealing the juicy flesh, and the rich fruity aroma flows wantonly in the air.

"Did you know Zeng Xi, the little student that Xingcheng wants to promote, has been hidden in the snow?" Simon broke off a peeled orange and handed it to Jiao Er.

"Don't Xingcheng praise him very much? Why hide him?" Jiaoer's teeth just touched the orange flesh, and the sweet juice immediately burst out, overflowing in the mouth.

Simon raised his head and glanced at Jiao Er, then took out a tissue from the paper drawer and wiped the green juice on his hands carefully, then said slowly, "He fell in love when his career was on the rise and was discovered by his agent. The company executives asked him to break up, and he No. So I was hidden in the snow, this is the price of disobedience!"

The sweet juice slowly flowed down the throat and into the esophagus, but when Jiaoer recalled it again, he felt the tip of his tongue was sour.She frowned and said, "Why must he break up, as long as he doesn't get photographed."

"Starway has always been strict in the management of artists. It is said that Zeng Xi signed an artist contract with a rule of 'no dating for three years'." Simon handed another piece of orange to Jiao Er, and continued, "Since he was willing to sign the contract at the beginning, it means he agreed. But now he has contradicted his promise. Is he a vegetarian when he is a star?"

Jiaoer took Simon's orange and put it into his mouth mechanically.The rich orange fragrance permeated the mouth in an instant, but Jiao Er was tasteless.

Seeing Jiaoer's dazed look, Simon softened his tone, "In this circle, falling in love has never been a ban. As long as you do your job well, the company will generally not interfere in the private life of an artist."

Jiaoer's pupils turned pale, and his eyes were looking at a certain point unfocused, saying, "I know."

"Since you know, you shouldn't hide it from me!" Simon's voice suddenly increased, and the slightly sharp voice hit Jiaoer's eardrums.

"Simon, I didn't hide it from you!" Jiaoer panicked for a moment, as if he had been caught.She bit her lower lip, her fingers curled tightly together.

At this time, the phone vibrated without seeing it.

Simon sighed, turned his face away from Jiaoer and said, "Aren't you looking at your phone? During this time, I hold it like a baby every day."

This is the first time that Simon has spoken with her in such a strong tone for so many years.Jiaoer sat blankly on the corner of the sofa, she didn't rush to get the phone as usual, she just called Simon with a weak voice.

"Jiaoer, I took you with me for five or six years, and took care of you like my own sister. Now that you have grown up, you feel that you can make decisions on your own, don't you? Even notifying me is troublesome, isn't it?" Simon knew that she was just an agent, but she also knew that her dedication to Jiaoer far exceeded what an agent should do.That's why she was so angry with Jiao Er's concealment.

"I'm sorry, Simon." Jiao Er kept rubbing the corner of her clothes with her hands, her head still hanging down.

After all, she was the one who brought up the child, and Simon couldn't help but feel distressed when he saw Jiao'er scared like a cowering little animal.She said slowly, "I'm not angry with you about falling in love. I don't object to your falling in love, but why didn't you tell me when you fell in love? You kept hiding it from me again and again. What about my cold heart?"

Seeing that Simon's words had reached this point, Jiaoer knew that he could no longer pretend.She slowly adjusted her breathing, trying to calm herself down, "I didn't want to hide it from you, but the other party is a girl. I don't know how to tell you."

Jiao Er's voice has a kind of calmness that has been carefully modified, but there is still an imperceptible tremor.

Simon frowned immediately after hearing this, and she asked in disbelief, "What did you say?"

"I said the other party is a girl." Jiao'er repeated what she said just now. At this time, there was no panic in her eyes, but a certain certainty instead.

After confirming the answer again, Simon closed his eyes tightly as if accepting his fate, then leaned on the sofa and asked, "Who? When did it start?"

"You know, it's my roommate Li Li. It happened after our winter vacation together." When Jiaoer said "Li Li", there was still some blush on his face.

Simon froze, speechless.She never thought that the docile and well-behaved Jiaoer would take such a step.She leaned on the sofa, her eyes fixed on Jiao Er.

"Simon, I really like her!" Jiao Er didn't avoid Simon's eyes, but greeted her with a pair of almond eyes.

"Jiao Er, you are still young..."

Before Simon finished speaking, he was interrupted by Jiaoer, "I am the only one. But I can distinguish the difference between love and friendship. My feeling for Li Li is love!"

"Do you know how difficult this road is? There are many homosexuals in this circle, but most of them are just playing for fun. When it's time to get married, they will naturally get married. Not many people will take it seriously." Simon leaned forward, and He explained the truth to Jiao Er word by word.How much she wished that the child she watched growing up just took a detour because of a moment of confusion.But based on her understanding of Jiao Er for so many years, she knew that this child was serious.

"Simon, I really like Li Li, and I just want to be with her! These reasons are not as real as my feelings for her." Jiaoer had already calmed down her mood at this time.No matter what Simon said, she was mentally prepared.

"Nonsense! Do you still want to be an actor?!" Simon didn't expect that the always docile and well-behaved Jiao Er would confront her face to face, and she stood up angrily.

"Does being an actor have anything to do with my liking for girls?" Jiao Er's beautiful eyebrows were twitched, and the corners of her mouth were also drawn into a straight line.

Simon looked at Jiaoer who seemed to be possessed at this time, shook his head helplessly, and said after a long delay, "Jiaoer, I will pretend that I didn't hear anything about these words tonight. I will give you time to think about it tomorrow night. I'll ask you for an answer again. I only think you are impulsive."

Simon walked out with heavy steps.She thought that the child was just secretly in a relationship, but she didn't expect that things were not that simple at all.Compared with Jiao Er's liking for girls, what shocked her more was Jiao Er's attitude.She has brought Jiaoer for so many years, and Jiaoer seldom says "no" to her.The most common words Jiaoer said were "Okay", "Don't worry", "I will work hard"... Sometimes Jiaoer would play a childish temper, but she would still be obedient afterwards.She believed that Jiaoer was just playing with her temper this time, and she would turn into that well-behaved entertainer again when she woke up the next morning.

"Simon, I thought you would be on my side." Jiao paused, as if she was about to make up her mind, and then said again, "After all, when I was 16, you told me that you would always be with me." It's a team."

When Simon heard this, the hand holding the doorknob couldn't help but stop.She turned her head and saw Jiao Er sitting on the sofa with her back facing her, her back straight as a ruler.The light in her eyes dimmed inch by inch, and then she said with a wry smile, "Jiao Er, you are threatening me!"

Back then, it was because of Simon's suddenness that cast an irreparable shadow on the 16-year-old Jiaoer.Simon has regretted it countless times. If he hadn't gone out to have dinner with those assistants, and hadn't left Jiao'er alone at the dinner with the tigers and wolves, maybe Jiao'er would not have fallen into the hands of that beast.Even though the matter did not develop to a substantive step, Simon hated himself very much every time he saw Jiaoer who had been troubled by nightmares for these years.Simon can still recall the 16-year-old Jiaoer trembling in his arms.She said, "Simon, don't tell anyone what happened today."

Jiao Er's choice is not only to protect herself, but also to preserve her, Simon.If Mr. Wen and Jiao Er's parents knew about it, let alone their job was ruined.I'm afraid it will be difficult for her to gain a foothold in the entire entertainment industry.It is precisely because of this matter that Simon does his best to Jiaoer, because she has a guilty conscience.Although she is very reluctant to admit it, the fact is true. The occurrence of this incident has made her and Jiao Er's relationship closer.But neither she nor Jiao Er mentioned this matter again, as if it had never happened.Because she knew it was Jiaoer's shadow, a shadow that no sun could shine.But now Jiaoer is not afraid of pain and takes the initiative to bring up that incident back then, presumably she really loves each other with all her heart.

Hearing the sound of Simon walking out, Jiao Er gradually removed the tough shell of his disguise.The tensed body just now also went limp, her arms hugged her legs tightly, her upper body also leaned weakly on her legs, and she curled herself up in the corner of the sofa.The muscles all over his body suddenly became sore because he had just recovered from his recovery.

She looked up at the watch on the wall, it was 12:30 now.She had talked with Simon for so long!After many years, Jiaoer also remembered this night very clearly, it was the first time she dared to insist on her own ideas.Perhaps from that moment on, she was no longer a lifeless and delicate doll in front of the window.

In Jiaoer's heart, Simon is definitely not just her manager.For so many years, Simon has taken good care of her, and she has taken it all to heart.Maybe one day, Simon won't take her with him anymore, but Simon is still her sister.

She knew that Simon felt ashamed of her because of what happened when she was 16 years old.But she also knew that it wasn't all Simon's fault that happened.If I had been more cautious at the beginning, that thing would never have happened.For so many years, she and Simon kept silent about that matter, not only because it was her psychological shadow, but also because it was a scar on Simon's heart.

She carefully maintained her relationship with Simon, even if she had a nightmare later, she never mentioned it to Simon easily, because she couldn't bear to see the distress and guilt on Simon's face.But now she insists on picking up this scar because she wants to gamble on Simon's love and guilt for her for so many years.

This is the first time Jiao Er felt so despicable.But if it's to protect her relationship with Li Li, then make yourself despicable once!

At this time, Jiaoer suddenly remembered Li Li who was left aside by her.She hurriedly picked up her phone and saw that the last message from Li Li was "Are you asleep?" at 11:30 in the evening.

She replied to Li Li, "The production team suddenly called me over for something, and I didn't have time to reply. You should be asleep, right? Good night. Let's talk tomorrow."

After Jiao Er finished sending the message, she just put down her phone, when she heard the phone vibrate suddenly, it was Li Li!

"Good night, baby."

Jiaoer stared blankly at the message from Li Li, everything she did was worth it, right? !

The author has something to say:

First of all, I would like to apologize to everyone. I originally said last week that I could stick to the daily update.However, due to some urgent matters at home on Friday, I have been busy at home recently, and I only have time to update the article today.I am very sorry for this.

Still hope you enjoy reading!