if i could love you

Life went on as usual, and everything seemed the same at school, except that Jiao Er came home a little more often.As long as there is no class, Jiaoer will run home or stay in the company, and the dormitory becomes a place where she sleeps at night.She also no longer accompanied Li Li to Verlaine.

Li Li didn't seem to care about her estrangement, or in other words, she didn't realize that there was a person who wanted to enter her world so much.

On Sunday night, it was past nine o'clock in the evening when Wen Jiaoer returned to school after filming the cover of the magazine.The dormitory was still completely dark, she opened the door of the dormitory, didn't even bother to turn on the lights, just groped in the dark to find her own bed and lay down on it.She was really tired and had been on a diet for a while in order to get a good shot.At noon today, I just ate half a dragon fruit and started shooting. For the sake of the cool girl, she kept her face dark all afternoon.But the shooting effect was not satisfactory, she could guess from the way the photographer kept pursing his lips.

She has never had anything to do with being cool since she was a child, and the most compliments she has heard of her are being obedient and sweet.What is it like to be a cool girl?Tattoos, wearing a black leather biker jacket, playing rock 'n' roll, cutting hair super short... Aren't the cool girls who do these things?

Wen Jiaoer was so tired, she lay down on the bed and fell asleep just thinking about it.

"Crack!" Wen Jiaoer felt a dazzling light in front of her eyes, and she snorted twice in dissatisfaction.

"You fell asleep?"

It was Li Li's voice!She has come back!

"Are you back?" Jiaoer barely opened his eyes and said in a daze.

"Well, did I disturb you?" Li Li was talking and wanted to turn off the light again.

"Ah! You don't need to turn it off. I just lay on the bed for a while, but I fell asleep unexpectedly." Jiao Er felt completely awake at this moment.

"Oh! Good." Seeing this, Li Li withdrew his hand to press the switch.

The two of them had nothing to say, each was busy with his own business.Jiao Er went into the bathroom to wash up, while Li Li changed outside.

"Have you finished washing?" Li Li had already changed into pajamas.

"Well, you go in!" Jiaoer replied.

"Well, good." Li Li went into the bathroom while talking.

Jiao Er lying on the bed listened to the sound of water in the bathroom, and fell into a deep sleep again.She was in a trance and fell into the nightmare that had troubled her for a long time.The tight entanglement made her breathless, and she still couldn't get rid of the entanglement even though she shouted loudly.In her suffocating dream, she suddenly heard someone calling her name.

"Jiaoer, Jiaoer, Wen Jiaoer." One after another.She suddenly woke up from the dream.

"Are you having a nightmare?" Li Li's voice came from the darkness.

"Yeah." Jiaoer woke up covered in cold sweat.

"Are you okay?" Li Li continued to ask.

"Did it wake you up?" Wen Jiaoer's back felt chills, and he was afraid for a while.

"It's okay, I'm a light sleeper and wake up easily."

"I'm fine. Go on to sleep!" Jiao'er was exhausted and didn't want to talk anymore.

She picked up the phone by the bedside and glanced at it, it was 01:30 in the morning.It's only midnight, I'm afraid it will be more difficult later on.She didn't dare to close her eyes, for fear that those scenes would invade her mind again.She habitually went to get the earphones, but she couldn't find them no matter what.It should have been put in the bag, but the bag is now on the table.She couldn't get up to look for it, for fear of disturbing Li Li again.She could only open her eyes and look at the roof, but still, those scenes still flashed in her mind like frames of movie frames.She rolled on the bed, clutching the sheets tightly, but it didn't help.

"Still can't sleep?" Li Li's voice came from the darkness again.

"Yeah." Jiaoer replied helplessly.

"Are you ok?"

"Li Li."

"what happened?"

"May I sleep with you?" Wen Jiaoer made a lot of determination before saying it.

"En. Yes." In the darkness, Li Li's voice dispelled the vast black mist on the sea like a lighthouse.

"Thank you." Jiao Er said, turned on the flashlight of the phone, and followed the light to Li Li's bedside.

"Do you sleep inside or outside?" Following the light of the flashlight, Jiao Er saw that Li Li's eyes were not as cold and lonely as during the day.

"It will be all right."

"Then let's go inside!" Li Li moved aside for her while speaking.

The night became quiet again, as if nothing had happened.She and Li Li were lying face to face, and the aroma of the burning pine branches was stronger than ever.She felt much calmer in her heart, as if she had returned to that rainy deep winter, and a flame lit by a pine branch was right in front of her, driving away the damp and cold for her.She approached Li Li unconsciously.

"Is it better?" Li Li's voice came from above his head.

"Yes." Wen Jiaoer agreed in a low voice.

"Then sleep!"

"Okay. You can sleep too."

Jiaoer slept in the scent of pine branches until dawn, and didn't even hear the sound of the alarm clock.When she realized it, she looked at her phone, and it was seven o'clock!She jumped up from the bed suddenly, but forgot that she was on Li Li's bed, and Li Li was still sleeping beside her.

"What's the matter?" Li Li was woken up, and his tone was still unpleasant to be woken up.

"We're late!" Jiaoer didn't care too much, and was about to get out of bed while talking with Li Li.However, Li Li, who was sleeping outside, had no intention of moving at all.

"What time is it?" Li Li lying on the bed didn't even open his eyes.

"It's seven o'clock!" Jiao Er said anxiously, hoping to convey the mood at this moment to Li Li.

"Then what's the rush?"

Jiaoer didn't know whether it was her own eyesight or Li Li's sleepiness, but she actually saw Li Li smiling.

"Ah?" She obviously didn't understand what Li Li meant.

"Lie down and continue to sleep!" Li Li stretched out his hand to bring Jiao Er to the bed.

At this moment, Jiaoer, who was not prepared, was caught off guard by Li Li's pull and lay down on the bed again.

"Anyway, I'm already late, and I was scolded in the past, so it's better to sleep more." Li Li opened his eyes at this time, looked at Jiaoer and said.

Wen Jiaoer and Li Li were lying face to face, she saw Li Li opened his eyes, his eyes just woke up were blurred and gentle, not as cold as before.She stared blankly, but Li Li didn't dodge, looking straight at Jiao'er.Time seemed to have stopped... Both of them looked at each other motionlessly, until Li Li stretched out his hand to cover Jiao Er's eyes, and said, "Don't look at me! Close your eyes and sleep!"

"You obviously looked at me too!" Jiaoer muttered in a low voice, but closed her eyes obediently.

Jiaoer who closed her eyes couldn't fall asleep any more.She is so close to Li Li!It was close enough to hear Li Li's heartbeat and breathing!She seemed to be in Li Li's arms, oh no, she was in Li Li's arms, there was no "like".She couldn't control the upturned corners of her mouth, and the facial expression management she had learned before was all ineffective here.She felt that she liked Li Li more than ever, and all the determinations she had made were gone.

Love is both fragile and pure, so fragile that you will be sad because of an unintentional word from your sweetheart, and so pure that you will look forward to it because of a hug from your sweetheart.But we all know that there is no more exciting existence than love.

After the two of them got up in the morning, they cleaned up and prepared to go to the classroom.Today, Jiaoer wore a smoky blue turtleneck sweater, a white short casual cotton jacket, and a pair of black bootcut trousers underneath; due to plenty of time, she put on makeup seriously today, eye shadow The milk tea color is still used, a light blush is applied on both sides of the cheeks, and the lipstick is bean paste color today.The whole makeup looks natural and warm, which is very suitable for winter.

Today, Li Li wore a ginger sweater, a black padded flight jacket, a pair of black skinny jeans, and a black baseball cap on his head.She didn't use eyeshadow today, but just drew eyeliner, mascara, and dirty orange lipstick, which made her look much brighter.

After arriving in the classroom, the two found seats at random and sat down.The person sitting next to her happened to be a female classmate in the same class. As soon as Jiaoer sat down, the female classmate came to her side.

"Jiao Er, you are familiar with Jagger, right?" The female classmate had girlish expectations on her face.

"Ah? I don't know you very well!" Jiao Er didn't know why the female classmate asked.

"Yesterday's new issue of "Brother Gacha", you and Jagger seem to be very close!" The female student still had a gossip look on her face.

Jiao Er heard her finish this sentence, glanced at Li Li carefully out of the corner of her eye, and found that she was reading a book, and didn't seem to care about the conversation between them, and then asked with a full face of doubts, "Yesterday's broadcast The period I went to?

"It's on the air, you promoted it on Weibo yesterday! You forgot, Jagger was still commenting!" The female classmate stared, her face full of disbelief.

"Oh! I forgot, I forgot." Jiao Er lowered her eyes not to look at her female classmate.The promotional Weibo post yesterday was not posted by her at all.After filming the magazine yesterday, she couldn't be in the mood to post on Weibo. When the assistant reminded her, she also feebly asked the assistant to post on her Weibo to help promote it.Her Weibo is basically managed by the company, and when and what to post is basically edited by the staff for her to post.Occasionally, she wanted to send something on a whim, but she had to check it with Simon first, and then she would send it after confirming that there was no problem.

"Then do you have Jagger WeChat? Can I add it? I really like him." The female classmate looked at her pitifully like a little mouse.

Wen Jiaoer didn't expect a female classmate to make such a request, so she didn't know how to answer it. Jagger's WeChat is definitely not allowed, but she can't think of anything to say to reject this female classmate.

"What's the matter, can't you?" Seeing that Jiao'er was silent, the female classmate asked cautiously.

"Then why don't I ask Jagger for you? I'm afraid he will be unhappy if I send you his WeChat privately." Wen Jiaoer couldn't bear to reject the female classmate, so she said so.

"Okay, thank you! Jiao Er." The female student's eyes flashed with light.

While talking, Jiaoer's cell phone vibrated.It was a WeChat message from Lin Sen.

"A lot of people on Weibo now say that I'm about to lose you, my little green plum!"

"What the hell?" Jiao'er saw Lin Sen's WeChat, not knowing why.

"Look at Weibo"

Lin Sen only sent three short words.

Jiao Er casually opened Weibo, and found that the first hot searched item was "Jagger Jagger". She clicked on it and saw all of the cute interactions between her and Jagger in the new episode of "Brother Gacha" that was broadcast yesterday. video clips and animations.In fact, it's just some simple dialogues, with bgm and pink subtitles, it really feels like a love affair.Of course, the most popular part is the part where Jagger carried her to pick grapefruits, but when she came down at the end, the sentence where she yelled for Jagger to let her down was cut off.The comments are almost all "good match", there is no unbearable abuse.

This is almost predictable. Although Jagger is very popular, he is a newcomer who has just debuted. In terms of status and fame, he is far below Jiaoer. If this CP speculation is successful, Jagger can use Jiaoer to improve himself fame.Fans are not stupid, they know what is beneficial to their rightful owner, but based on such unanimous praise, it is not difficult to speculate that someone in Jagger's fan circle should be directing this matter, it is definitely not as simple as spontaneous.As for Jiaoer, she basically grew up in the public eye. For her and Jagger's CP, her fans basically have a sense of relief that the child has grown up. This is the benefit of the cultivation system.Moreover, fans of female celebrities are rarely as crazy about such things as fans of male celebrities, after all, their positions and perspectives are different.

Jiaoer sighed, then quit Weibo and replied to Lin Sen.

"It's just to cooperate with the program group."

"Not to mention, it looks like the real thing."

Jiao Er could imagine Lin Sen's gloating expression at this time.

Jiao Er sent him a white-eyed expression.

Jiao Er suddenly seemed to remember something, and replied Lin Sen again, "I want to ask you something."

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