Worship [Entertainment]

After a long silence, Fu Jianyu finally opened his mouth.

"While waiting for you, I met Director Pei and the others. Teacher Pan said that you didn't promise him to go out to shoot together."

He paused, turned his head and asked, "It's because of me, right?"

Xia An and Fu Jianyu looked at each other with dark and deep eyes, their heartbeats and thoughts were in a mess, and they only judged with their first reaction, he nodded in a daze, and added another word: "Yes."

Fu Jianyu slightly twitched the corners of her mouth, but this smile stripped away the smile, leaving only an empty shell, and it didn't give Xia An any comfort, but made him feel even more panicked.

The silence that seemed to have spanned a century just now made his heart sink continuously. Xia An tried his best to think about the matter and point that made Fu Jianyu angry, and he was also recalling the past, but their thoughts There was a disagreement.

The final result Xia An came to was: Fu Jianyu didn't want to hide anything from herself.

He curled up his toes, changed his posture, leaned over, and tried to pull Fu Jianyu's hand.

There was no failure, which gave Xia An a little comfort.

He tried his best to calm himself down, and then slowly said: "I'm sorry, I will pay attention to it in the future, and I will not hide anything. I... I didn't mean it, I just—"

"It's just that I'm worried, and I'm afraid of causing trouble to me."

Fu Jianyu held his hand instead, the palms of the two of them joined together, fingers intertwined, hot ironing, but soon, Fu Jianyu let go of his hand.

He fixedly looked at Xia An's pale face, and said slowly: "That's not what I care about, Xiao Xia, what do you... like me? What do you think I like about you?"

Xia An was stunned for a moment.

The other party asked two questions, but he could only answer one.

He likes Fu Jianyu's radiant appearance on the stage, his every expression and movement, his deep and slightly hoarse voice when he calls his name, and his soul under his flesh and blood.

But Xia An has not yet understood how the opportunity for that first kiss in the snowy night was born.

Everything about me can only be called mediocre and well-behaved. When I am in the crowd, I will be naturally ignored, not as dazzling as Fu Jianyu. They are two completely different existences.

He felt that he was clumsy, dull, and too ordinary, so he couldn't guess where Fu Jianyu's liking for him came from, and he couldn't figure it out, and he often felt that the life of living together was like a dream.

Before waiting for an answer, Fu Jianyu raised her hand, stroked Xia An's dimples gently with her fingertips, and said in a low voice: "Xiao Xia, what you like more is the me in front of the camera, or in other words, I Now I feel that you worship me more, it's fans' liking for idols, not love."

Seeing the bewilderment in Xia An's eyes, he felt unhappy, as if he was pressing a heavy stone.It's just that he understands that if these issues are not brought to the fore, their relationship will always be covered in a film, unable to truly touch the essence of love.

He didn't want to do this, so he chose to ask directly, to make it clear.

"The night before yesterday, you noticed the red lip marks on my clothes, right? It was a prank by Fang Zhiyong and the others."

Xia An clasped her hands and said, "I know."

"You didn't ask me, why?"

"Because... Brother Fu is not that kind of person."

Fu Jianyu nodded: "If I really cheated on you, and all the evidence is solid, what would you do?"

At this moment, Xia An's subconscious thought opened its shell like a clam, allowing people to glimpse some pearls in it.

He agrees with Fu Jianyu's soul and character, but subconsciously feels that he is not good enough for her.So even though he knew that he would not do such a thing, there was another thought deep in his heart——

Even if Fu Jianyu really did it, it seems to make sense logically.

"I..." Xia An became dumb after saying a word, and finished speaking after a while, her voice lowered to the dust, "I will... find a suitable time to talk to you."

Fu Jianyu twitched the corners of her mouth, lowered her body, lifted Xia An's chin with the index finger of her right hand, looked straight into his eyes, and said word by word: "Xiao Xia, you should accuse me righteously, saying that I am a Heartbreaker, I don't deserve your love, so I want to break up with me."

Xia An's lips trembled, and she nodded slightly: "Yes."

After a while, Fu Jianyu withdrew her hand and returned to her seat, feeling somewhat frustrated and depressed.

The answer he wants is not "yes" that means complying with the requirements. He is not the one giving orders, and he does not want to be the absolute leader in this relationship.

He wanted them to stand on an equal footing, wanted Xia An to dare to reveal his true thoughts in front of him, and wanted the two of them to be free from fear and shrinking because of their status in the relationship.

Night had fallen, there was a crackling sound on the window panes, and it was raining.

The sound of the rain grew louder, and water droplets fell from the sky, hitting every corner of the city.With the windows closed, the air became increasingly stagnant.

Fu Jianyu started the car, turned the steering wheel silently, and drove towards the city center.

Xia An sat on the co-pilot's seat, pinching the corner of his clothes with his hands.

The heartbeat seemed to be tuned to the same frequency as the sound of the rain outside the window, becoming as dull and low.

He really messed up the matter, and now he seems to vaguely understand the reason for the other party's anger, but he doesn't know what to do to make it up.

The three words "sorry" are too pale, and what Fu Jianyu wants is not a word of "sorry" from him.He wasn't blaming himself, Xia An realized this.

The car drove into the underground garage, Fu Jianyu opened the door, a cold and clammy breath rushed in from outside the car, the rain was still falling at night, and there was no sign of stopping.

Fu Jianyu stared at the night for half a minute, then turned around, looked at Xia An and said, "Your feet just got medicine, I'll go back and get the umbrella first."

Xia An hummed, her eyes caught every emotion on his face, the cautious look made Fu Jianyu a little helpless and soft-hearted.

He silently shook Xia An's hand, turned around and got out of the car.

Five minutes later, he returned to the car, let Xia An hold an umbrella, and carried him back to the warm room.

As soon as he entered the door, Fu Jianyu's phone rang.He picked it up and went to the balcony to make a phone call.

Xia An leaned the wet umbrella against the entrance, water droplets rolled down the umbrella onto the black carpet, and then disappeared.

He stood there numbly for half a minute before walking into the living room.

Fu's mother said weakly on the phone: "Jian Yu, Mom is a little unwell, can you come and have a look?"

Fu Jianyu tightened her hands on the phone: "Uncomfortable? Where is the heart?"

"Well, a little stuffy."

"Have you taken any medicine these two days?"

"Well, the medicine is still on. It may not be so uncomfortable after a while, but Mom still wants you to come and accompany her."

Lifting the watch on her hand and taking a look, Fu Jianyu nodded and said on the phone: "Okay, I'll be over soon."

After hanging up the phone, he let out a deep breath, then turned around and walked out.

Xia An was sitting on the sofa in the living room, and immediately stood up when he heard Fu Jianyu's footsteps, watching him approach step by step.

Fu Jianyu carried a box in his hand, leaned it against the coffee table, then stood in front of Xia An, helped him wipe off the rain from the side of his neck with his hands, and sighed softly.

"Tomorrow afternoon, I'm going to go with the crew to run the promotion. I have a city in two days, and the schedule is very full. I packed my things in advance and planned to leave here tomorrow, but my mother needs me to go there, and I will go there tonight. , and leave City D directly by plane tomorrow afternoon."

Xia An's face turned pale, and all blood was gone.

Fu Jianyu felt as if a tumor called Xia An had grown on her heart. The other party hurt, so did he.

His hand went down Xia An's neck, put it on his waist, and then pecked his forehead.

"This month when I'm not here, you can do what you like. I don't want you to delay your career and ideals because of me, Xiao Xia, we should not contact each other during this time, I think we all need to think about it The position in this relationship. When I come back and you come back, I hope we can find the best answer."

Xia An hummed in a daze, and he heard what Fu Jianyu said next, but there seemed to be something wrong with his nerves in analyzing language, his thoughts were overwhelming, he couldn't find the beginning and end, and he couldn't find any breakthrough.

"...Set the air conditioner at night, cover yourself with a quilt, and don't catch a cold. Okay, I'm leaving. You still have an ankle injury, so don't send me off."

Fu Jianyu put on the mask, said goodbye to Xia An, and went out with the suitcase.

Xia An watched him go away by the door, stood for a long time, his hands and feet were so cold that he lost consciousness, and then slowly turned around and closed the door.

Not long after, Xia An stood in front of the huge bookcase in the study, quietly looking at the things placed on the second floor.

I still remember the day when he just came back from City C and moved in.Fu Jianyu hugged his waist and moved step by step from left to right, counting the precious and irreplaceable souvenirs on the shelves for them.

They are still hugging and kissing passionately here, and the love is entangled in their breath and between their lips and teeth, lingering.

When his thoughts finally turned, Xia An returned to the living room and called Pan Qin.

The other side quickly picked up the call, feeling a little confused about Xia An's call at this time: "Xiao Xia still not sleeping at this late hour?"

Xia An asked anxiously, "I'm sorry, did I bother you?"

"No, I've been sleeping late these days, so why don't you call me?"

"Well... Teacher Pan said before that he wanted to take me to practice, I... I am willing to go with you."

"Eh?" Pan Qin was a little surprised, and paused for a few seconds, "Okay, if you are willing to go, I can only wish for it. I have company on the way, and I plan to leave the day after tomorrow..."

At this moment, Fu Jianyu had just arrived at the door of the house.

He took out the key and inserted it into the lock, opened the door, and saw Fu's mother sitting on the sofa with a smile on her face, chatting happily with the guest opposite.