To Xia Xia

Bai Xia was walking on the street, and he left the scarf at Li Jiashu's house. It was already cold and windy, so cold that he turned up the collar of his sweater and put his chin in it.

He didn't have any cash on him, so he only took his mobile phone out yesterday, so he had no choice but to go to a nearby convenience store to exchange cash. Bai Xia was in a mess, walked with his head down, and almost bumped into someone at the door of the convenience store without noticing it.The other party was a little girl, holding two boxes of freshly bought strawberries in her hand, she said sorry to him in embarrassment.

Bai Xia was a little dazed. He remembered that one night he suddenly wanted to eat strawberries. It was past eleven o'clock in the evening, but he just wanted to eat and couldn't sleep. Li Jiashu, who had already taken off his clothes, got up and bought it for him. .Because it was too late and many fruit shops and supermarkets were closed, Bai Xia didn't know where he got it, but in the end he bought it, washed it and fed it to him.In fact, he is just greedy, and he doesn't want to eat after eating one or two.He didn't feel anything at that time, but now he feels a little sad because things are different. He has no right to blame Li Jiashu at all. He has tried his best to compensate himself, but he is so ignorant.

Or this is just one reason, the more important reason is that Li Jiashu is too good and treats him too well, so good that Bai Xia feels that he is not good enough for him.

Bai Xia was still feeling unwell, walked very slowly, and even lost his mind. Li Jiashu ran fast, and caught up with him within a few steps, panting and calling his name, "Bai Xia!"

Bai Xia had already entered the convenience store, looked at him through the transparent glass door, was speechless in surprise, Li Jiashu didn't even change his clothes, he was still wrapped in a nightgown inside, and a coat outside, and the cotton wool on his feet The slippers looked very out of place, even a little embarrassed.

He strode towards Bai Xia, and when he opened the convenience store, his clothes were picked up by the wind, and he rubbed his hands in the cold, "Huh, luckily I caught up."

Looking at his appearance, Bai Xia couldn't match him with a celebrity, probably the paparazzi wouldn't recognize him, so she wanted to laugh for a while, so she held back, and secretly laughed in her heart.

"Two sandwiches, two cups of hot soy milk." Li Jiashu said to the clerk.

Everything was ready-made, and it would be ready as soon as it was heated. Bai Xia found a corner seat to sit, and Li Jiashu followed him calmly, and sat opposite him.

"I have good news and bad news, which one do you want to hear first?" Li Jiashu held two straws in his hand and placed them in front of Bai Xia.

Bai Xia thought for a while, picked up the red and white one, and put it into her soy milk cup.

Li Jiashu nodded knowingly, "The good news is that my mother let go, and she said she doesn't care about the two of us!" Thinking of something, Li Jiashu added, "Oh no, it's our mother."

Bai Xia was stunned, Aunt Li... actually agreed?

"The bad news is..." Li Jiashu handed the sandwich to Bai Xia, frowning, "You haven't promised me yet."

Bai Xia didn't dare to look at him, and wanted to be perfunctory, asking knowingly, "What?"

Li Jiashu had a serious expression on his face, "Shall we start over?"

Bai Xia didn't know how to answer, he had too many worries, and he really wanted to abandon everything and follow his own heart, but reality didn't allow it.While hesitating, there was a sudden nausea and dizziness, Bai Xia squatted on the ground clutching his chest, wanted to vomit into the trash can but couldn't vomit.Seeing this, Li Jiashu hurried to help him, and patted his back lightly. It took a long time for Baixia to feel better.

Li Jiashu helped him sit down next to him smoothly, and poured him a cup of hot water, but he didn't realize what was going on for a long time, thinking that Bai Xia was tortured by him last night, and the things inside were not cleaned, " Your stomach hurts?"

Hearing his words, Bai Xia felt weird, and shook his head, his symptoms have not been a day or two, and it seems to have gotten worse in the past few days.Li Jiashu saw that he was really uncomfortable, and when he thought of something, he didn't even have the heart to joke, and kept stroking his back with his hand, "Did you finish the medicine I gave you last time?"

"What medicine?" Bai Xia was taken aback by the question.

Li Jiashu realized that he had slipped his mouth, "No...not medicine, but those health care products."

"Well, I finished eating last week."

"Then why didn't you tell me?" Li Jiashu was a little nervous, and also blamed himself for being careless. The doctor specially ordered that drugs should be used to prevent the spread of malignant cells at this stage. How could he make Bai Xia stop taking the drugs?

Bai Xia glanced at him suspiciously. In fact, he had already noticed that something was wrong. If Li Jiashu could hide it from him, could he hide it from his own body?

"What's wrong with me?"

"No... just anemia, just take some medicine."

Bai Xia was dubious, didn't really believe it, but didn't ask him again, drinking warm soy milk silently.Thinking that maybe he really had some terminal illness, Li Jiashu didn't want to tell him.

"What are you thinking?" Li Jiashu saw him in a daze, "Are you thinking whether to promise me or not?"

Bai Xia's heart was in a mess, and she nodded indiscriminately.

"Do you still need to think about it? Of course I agreed!" Li Jiashu was a little excited, as long as Bai Xia was thinking about it, there was hope.And the two of them have been together for so long, how could Bai Xia really be willing to part with him.

"I remember everything you said. Really, it's all listed on the phone one by one." Li Jiashu unlocked the lock screen and showed him. Sure enough, there were screenshots of the memo on the desktop, and each one was what he thought he should pay attention to. .

1. Call Xiaxia every day.

2. Go home more often to spend time with Xia Xia.

3. Xia Xia can no longer be photographed by the paparazzi.

4. Refuse to gossip with others.

5. Don't make him angry and let him cry.

6. Be careful when doing it.

......

The first few items are quite serious, but the last one...why is it so unserious, Bai Xia felt as if she was being molested again, she was ashamed and annoyed, and glared at him.Li Jiashu didn't feel anything, "If there is anything else to pay attention to, you tell me, and I'll add more."

Bai Xia didn't speak, how could he tell Li Jiashu that he felt that he was not good enough for him?

"It's not your problem, it's me... I'm not good enough." Bai Xia hesitated with his head down. In the final analysis, he was still not good enough, and it was difficult for him to keep up with Li Jiashu, let alone get along with him. He stood shoulder to shoulder.

Li Jiashu was stunned for a moment before he understood Bai Xia's worry, "Baby, you're already fine."

"No...I'm not good at all, I don't know anything, even if I go downstairs to buy something, I will be photographed, and it will only hinder you..." He was talking about scandals, "It's very bad use."

Li Jiashu pretended to be angry when he heard him say this about himself, "Don't say that about yourself! I will feel bad."

"I like you, and I also like all your advantages and disadvantages. I like your petite temper and blushing. I also like your coquetry and shyness. I also like your sensitivity and timidity..." Li Jiashu never Not so serious, "Don't you like me the same way?"

Bai Xia was taken aback by what he said, and couldn't grasp the point, her face turned red, "Who... who likes you? Besides, I'm not timid."

Li Jiashu saw that he had interpreted the term "no silver 300 taels here" very well, so he couldn't help laughing, "Okay, okay, you don't like me, I like you, okay?"

Bai Xia was not very satisfied with this answer, and muttered in a low voice, "Who said I don't like you anymore?"

Li Jiashu was amused by his inconsistency, and temporarily won a staged victory, "Then let's start over, shall we?"

Bai Xia thought for a while, and finally nodded slightly.

Anyway, he was going to be entangled with this person to the end in his life.

Li Jiashu wished he could hug his little face and kiss him right away, but he held back because he was in public.

"That..." Bai Xia pointed at his phone, "You delete the last one."

What if someone sees it, Li Jiashu is too blatant.

How could Li Jiashu know what he was thinking, he was eager to get rid of the last one, and whispered in Bai Xia's ear, "Then Xia Xia don't beg me to be softer when I do it next time..."

Bai Xia's ears turned red with embarrassment at his words, and she didn't want to talk to him.

The day before Christmas, Li Jiashu's first concert was held at the B City Gymnasium as scheduled. I heard that the tickets for the concert were sold out in less than a minute. No matter whether it is positive or negative news, it seems that there is no way to affect his life. High popularity.

Bai Xia was a little depressed. He had saved money for a long time and was waiting for this day, but he just opened the link and didn't realize that the tickets were sold out.As a result, he has been staring at his mobile phone during this period of time, wandering around the major Li Jiashu support clubs to ask for tickets.

Li Jiashu was also a little depressed. Recently, Bai Xia was always staring at his mobile phone. He didn't understand the beauty of the mobile phone. He refused to ask Bai Xia to accompany him to the rehearsal, saying that there would be no surprises.

"Bao, talk to me for a while." Li Jiashu has been staring at Dongdong all day today. Bai Xia is always absent-minded, so Li Jiashu boldly took his mobile phone away. Bai Xia was asking Regarding the tickets, the mobile phone was taken away and gave him a sharp eye.

Now Li Jiashu can finally understand Bai Xia's previous mood, it was not loneliness, it was aggrieved, Dongdong was also a victim, and followed behind him meowing.

"I have something for you." Li Jiashu turned out a box from behind, with a bow tied on it, which looked like a little girl, "Open it and have a look."

Bai Xia glanced suspiciously, then untied the tied rope and took it apart.

Inside is a camera, and a...concert ticket!Still a VIP!

"I must come to my concert." Li Jiashu handed him the ticket, which he grabbed for himself, "I will come to every concert in the future."

Looking at the tickets, Bai Xia was so moved that he couldn't speak. He originally wanted to surprise Li Jiashu, but he unexpectedly surprised him instead.He will definitely get a ticket next time!Well, it will definitely work!

Li Jiashu picked up the camera, "This is a birthday gift for you." They were in the hospital on Bai Xia's birthday, he completely forgot, and Bai Xia didn't mention it. We have to change it slowly. "Like it?"

"This is too...too precious." Bai Xia couldn't tell if she liked it or not, but she just thought it was too precious.

"The camera is not given for free." Li Jiashu had long thought that Bai Xia would not accept it because it was expensive. "From now on, you will be responsible for taking pictures. Such an important task, you must be responsible."

Li Jiashu taught him how to use it, pressed the video button next to it and added, "You can also take a video during the concert."

After thinking about it, Bai Xia realized that the responsibility was really heavy, so she decided to study hard.Dongdong, who was sleeping late on the sofa, began to practice.

"After the concert is over, let's go on a trip together. I have a long vacation. Then we will go to sea to see dolphins!"

Bai Xia's eyes suddenly brightened. He has always had a soft spot for cute and intelligent animals like polar bears and dolphins, but he hates going to the aquarium, thinking they are too pitiful.There is no hope for polar bears, but it is still possible to see dolphins.

Thinking about it, he pestered Li Jiashu to teach him how to use a camera.

On the day of the concert, Bai Xia really went with a heavy camera on her back. At first, she thought it was weird, but later she found that there were not a few people with cameras, so she thought it was nothing.He has tried it, and the camera has high pixels, and the effect is very good whether it is taking pictures or videos. Of course, the price is not low.

Bai Xia arrived an hour early, sitting on pins and needles, his palms were sweaty, why was he more nervous than Li Jiashu?

At this time, Li Jiashu had finished putting on his makeup, changed into his first set of clothes, and was doing some equipment adjustments. When no one was paying attention, he secretly took a selfie and sent it to Bai Xia.

Bai Xia didn't know what he sent her, so she opened it, and she didn't feel nervous when she saw his photo, but she said unforgivingly, "I promised to keep it mysterious!"

But I couldn't help but look at the photo several times.

Bai Xia stood up and looked around a few times, but she didn't see Li's father and Li's mother. After asking Li Jiashu, she found out that the two of them didn't come. It turned out that the scene was too noisy.

The lights dimmed, replaced by thousands of blue and purple fluorescent sticks, Bai Xia also had one in his hand, held it up high, and swayed to the rhythm of the music.At this moment, he is just an ordinary fan, just like the boys and girls sitting next to him.

Li Jiashu didn't seem nervous at all, he was calm and controlled the rhythm of the whole stage.No matter what style of song it is, he can control it, affectionate, steady, rock and roll, brisk, even Bai Xia saw him dance for the first time.Bai Xia's mood fluctuated with different styles of music, completely immersed in his music, following his emotions, crazy, or depressed, the constant clicking of the camera in his hand was drowned in bursts of screams .

The huge LED screens on both sides of the stage clearly projected Li Jiashu's face in front of his eyes, and Bai Xia could even see tiny beads of sweat on his forehead while sitting here.

The concert lasted for two and a half hours, from 09:30 pm to [-]:[-], but it was no surprise that it was timed out, and the enthusiasm of the fans remained undiminished. Li Jiashu sang so enjoyable that he completely lost time.The chorus several times in the middle almost made Bai Xia cry. It was a completely different shock from watching it online, especially when standing on the stage was someone he had liked for so many years!

During several interactions, Li Jiashu walked towards Bai Xia, glancing at him from time to time, causing the fans next to Bai Xia to scream crazily.

"The next song is the last one." Li Jiashu's flawless face was presented on the big screen, a little more serious than before, and he looked a little tired.The light hit him directly, and the orchestra had already withdrawn, leaving only a piano in the dark.

He signaled the fans to stop shooting, and only allowed the professional photography teacher in the front row to continue. The fans put away their mobile phones very cooperatively, and the huge stadium fell silent, waiting for his last song.

"This song has a very special meaning to me." Li Jiashu said with a smile, like a warm sun, innocent like a child, "This is the first song I wrote."

"Today, I want to sing this song to someone on this special day. He is the only person who has heard this song besides me. He is my first fan, my relative, and my dearest The most important person." There was an uproar in the seats, everyone began to guess what, Bai Xia frowned, he was a little at a loss, and he didn't even know if Li Jiashu was talking about him.Li Jiashu walked to the piano and sat down. All the lighting effects were gone, even the light sticks were turned off, as if the only light in the world was shining on him. He adjusted the microphone slightly, and the piano pressed a few The melody said, "This song, To Xiaxia, "To Xiaxia"."

Bai Xia was completely stunned.

Li Jiashu actually sang...a song for him at his concert?

The familiar melody sounded, bringing Bai Xia's thoughts back to Lijiaping. Under the old pear tree in front of the house, in the evening when the sunset dyed half the sky red, the boy was playing the guitar and humming a nice song.

There are also some naive dialogues at the beginning.

"Brother Jiashu, what is your dream?"

"Be a singer, sing on stage, write many, many songs, and sing many, many songs."

"It must be possible!"

"What about you?"

"I have no idea."

"Then you can be my fan and listen to me sing to you."

"Okay...can you sing this song for me?"

"This is the first song I wrote!"

"Just sing it to me, just sing it."

"Well... just give me a kiss, and I'll sing for you."

"..."

Although Bai Xia refused to kiss him in the end, Li Jiashu still sang this song to him quietly. At that time, the song didn't have a name, but Li Jiashu promised that it belonged to him alone.

It was a song written by Li Jiashu to him. After many years, it has a nice name.

"To Xia Xia".

"...

My whole life is a love letter to you,

You brought me down and brought me to eternity,

Save me from deep water and fire.

My life is a rushing muddle,

You are the sober redemption in the mist,

my love my summer my way home

......"

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