To Xia Xia

The night in Lijiaping was very quiet. Before ten o'clock, no one in the whole village turned on the lights.The sound of grandma's deep sleep in the next room reached Bai Xia's ears, but he couldn't fall asleep after tossing and turning.

Bai Xia remembered that once the teacher left a composition about dreams, but he couldn't write it out, so he ran to ask Li Jiashu what his dream was.He remembered very clearly that it was a night full of stars, they were sitting by the river, Li Jiashu said that his dream was to become a singer and write many, many songs.

At that time, the concept of a singer was still very vague in Bai Xia's mind. He only knew that he was a person who could stand on TV and shine on the stage, but he didn't think it was a fairy tale, but he thought it was great , Unlike myself, I have no dreams.

However, how could a person with big dreams stay in this small village, willing to live an ordinary life?

In fact, Bai Xia understands this truth better than anyone else.

He had a lot of wild thoughts. From the time he remembered things since he was a child, to the time he separated from Li Jiashu just now, memory scenes flashed through his mind in succession.When he was a child, he always followed Brother Jiashu. Sometimes Li Jiashu felt annoyed, and he would not leave when he was driven back.Later, Bai Xia grew up, perhaps because of his family, he was more mature and sensible than his peers. Although he often stayed with Li Jiashu, he knew to walk away when he was impatient.

Li Jiashu is very popular in their school. First, he is handsome, and second, he doesn't like to study.This kind of boy is very popular with teenage girls.

This kind of welcome is not only among high school students, but also among junior high school students.For a while, Li Jiashu always went downstairs to the junior high school to wait for Bai Xia, and there were very few girls who passed by without looking back.A girl in the same class asked Bai Xia to hand over her love letter, but Li Jiashu never responded.

In fact, Bai Xia secretly tore up that love letter.

Li Jiashu knew that he had many admirers, but he never thought that one of his admirers would be named Bai Xia.

Bai Xia liked Li Jiashu, and he never told anyone this secret, not even a single word in his diary, because this secret could only be buried in his heart and could not be seen.

This can't be Bai Xia's fault, his parents died young, the first person in his memory is grandma, and the second is Li Jiashu.Since I was a child, I like to follow behind him, inseparable.Grandma Bai is sometimes very busy, and he even feels that he spends more time with Li Jiashu than with grandma.

Bai Xia's introverted personality made him have few friends in his childhood, and everyone was reluctant to stay with him, so his only friend was Li Jiashu.

Compared with those who can only admire Li Jiashu from afar, he is undoubtedly lucky. He doesn't have to be distracted in class every day thinking about how to meet him, and he doesn't have to count on his fingers that the two have not seen each other for a few days. You can walk side by side with him on the road and attract envious eyes, or you can sit in his car seat after school and wait for the wind to blow the corner of his clothes...

He can call Brother Li Jiashu, let him carry himself home, listen to him sing at any time, and enjoy the happiness that no one else can enjoy...

But compared with those girls, he is unlucky. Maybe it's because he has been too reckless in the past ten years and used up all his good luck. They were born so that they couldn't be together.

He is a boy.

How can boys like boys?

It's already September when school starts again, and both of them have reached the most critical period for further studies. Even this summer vacation, they spend less than half of their time together.

Li Jiashu is fine, he has never been interested in studying, but Bai Xia is different, since he entered the third year of junior high school, he has obviously become more nervous than before, and he can still be seen holding small slips of paper to memorize knowledge points when eating every day.

Seeing that he was so serious, Li Jiashu didn't understand, but he didn't say anything, just let him eat well, and then recite after eating.

Bai Xia was under heavy homework and had no time to spare. In this way, the time for the two of them to see each other was greatly reduced. Apart from commuting to and from school every day, gradually there was no time for lunch.

Although Bai Xia was not used to it, fortunately, he was still able to meet him twice a day.

Gradually, he felt the distance between the two of them. On the way to and from school, the two of them also had their own concerns and rarely talked.

Their first fight happened one day not long after school started.

After school at noon that day, Bai Xia went to the cafeteria to eat by himself. Today, he finished his homework ahead of schedule and raced against time, but met Li Jiashu in the cafeteria.

There was a girl sitting across from him, and Bai Xia recognized that it was the same girl who handed him water that day.

Li Jiashu turned his back to Bai Xia, didn't see him, and was chatting and laughing with that girl.

Bai Xia, who was queuing up, didn't go over to say hello, she just looked at the two people from afar, and when she got to his place, Bai Xia looked at the dishes and suddenly didn't want to eat anything, so she took her meal card and found a seat silently.

It was Wen Xi who saw Bai Xia first, and asked Li Jiashu, "Is that your brother over there?"

Li Jiashu looked back, it was really Bai Xia, but he seemed not in a good mood, sitting there with his head down, there was not even lunch on the table.

The two of them haven't eaten together for a long time, it's not because Bai Xia is nervous about studying, but because of herself.In the past few days, he was either with Chen Hao and the others, or with Wen Xi.He knew that Bai Xia loved to study, and he didn't want to delay him because of him.

Li Jiashu looked at Wen Xi who was sitting in front of him, hesitated for a moment, and didn't go over to say hello.

After a while, when he was about to leave after eating, he realized that Bai Xia had already left.

This incident seemed very ordinary to Li Jiashu, but he did not expect it to become a crime, igniting the first war between him and Bai Xia.

Now Bai Xia is in the third year of junior high school, and she also has evening self-study at night, so she happens to finish class with Li Jiashu.

Bai Xia packed her schoolbag early and went to the carport to wait for Li Jiashu. Looking at the rows of bicycles, Bai Xia thought, maybe it's time for him to learn how to ride a bicycle.

"waited for so long?"

Bai Xia shook her head.

While he was in a daze, Li Jiashu had already unlocked the car, "What are you thinking?"

Bai Xia didn't speak, even he himself didn't know what he was thinking.

Li Jiashu saw that he didn't say anything when he asked him, thinking that he had encountered some difficulties in his studies. It turned out that Bai Xia would frown whenever he encountered a problem he couldn't do.

"Brother Jiashu." Sitting on the car seat, Bai Xia called his name, "Let's take a small road today."

There are two roads from Lijiaping to the school, the main road takes a long way, and the small road is short but dim.

Sure enough, Li Jiashu showed a puzzled expression, but he still said, okay.

In the past, Bai Xia always thought that the road would go on endlessly, but now he just wanted to go home quickly.

It was night again, Bai Xia turned off the light and lay on the bed, thinking about what happened today. In fact, he saw Wen Xi and Li Jiashu walking together two days ago, but he didn't think much about it at the time, but this time, the one in his heart The terrible conjecture was finally confirmed.

He is not the only one who can stand by Li Jiashu's side.

The more he was afraid of something, the more he would come. Bai Xia was very afraid of meeting two people, but he ran into them again the next day when he was running on the playground. It happened that Li Jiashu and Wen Xi were walking in the playground. This time they ran into each other head-on, hiding Can't escape.

"What a coincidence, Xia Xia." Bai Xia had to take the 1000-meter high school entrance exam, and had been practicing running for a while.

Bai Xia smiled embarrassedly and helplessly, and said, "Yes."

Seeing that he was listless, Li Jiashu guessed that he had something on his mind, but Wen Xi was here, even if Li Jiashu asked him, he wouldn't say anything, so he said something in Wen Xi's ear, and Wen Xi went back with a smile.

Bai Xia felt a twinge of pain in his heart. Li Jiashu would whisper to him like this before. When did he have a secret with others that he couldn't tell himself?

Does he also call other people's names like Xia Xia?

To like someone is to be suspicious randomly, this is a common problem of human beings, and Bai Xia is no exception.

"What's on your mind?" Both of them were tired from walking, so they sat down on the steps.

"No." Bai Xia denied.

Bai Xia's obviously lying tone made Li Jiashu frown, "Tell me about it?"

Even though Bai Xia was extremely irritable, he couldn't say anything, he still had to pretend that nothing happened, and told Li Jiashu, "Nothing really."

Li Jiashu knew that he didn't want to talk about it, but he had seen him frowning for several days, and he was afraid that his emotions would affect Bai Xia, "Tell me."

Seeing Li Jiashu grabbing his hand, Bai Xia felt uncomfortable when he thought that this hand had held someone else's hand not long ago.He knew he shouldn't be doing this, it was wrong, but he couldn't help it.

"You don't have to worry about me." As he said that, he shook off Li Jiashu's hand.

His action far exceeded Li Jiashu's expectations. She kindly enlightened him, but she didn't expect Bai Xia to throw him off and say such things to him. Suddenly, she felt angry, "I don't care who you care about?!"

It was only then that Bai Xia realized what she had just said to him, but what she said was like pouring water, and it could not be taken back.Li Jiashu was seldom angry with him, only when the two of them were ignorant when they were young, Li Jiashu would be angry with him, but now Li Jiashu is actually angry with him.

Bai Xia didn't care so much, the scene just now kept replaying before his eyes like a movie.

"You don't care about her! Why do you care about me!"

"Damn, it's none of her business!" Li Jiashu didn't know how Bai Xia got involved with Wen Xi, and felt that he was simply making trouble for no reason.

Tears poured from Bai Xia's eyes like a faucet that couldn't be turned off. He was arguing with Li Jiashu, and he didn't want to.But he was so angry that his heart ached when he thought of Li Jiashu being with someone else.

People passing by on the playground looked over one after another. Li Jiashu dragged him to find a corner where no one was around. Today he and Bai Xia must speak clearly!

"You speak clearly!"

He spoke in a hurry, Bai Xia could hear the nervousness and worry in his tone, and smiled wryly in his heart.He didn't answer Li Jiashu's question, but instead asked him, "Are you with her?"

In fact, this matter is well known, but Li Jiashu did not tell Bai Xia about it, thinking that Bai Xia would not care about such matters, and instead of discussing relationship issues with him, it would be more practical for him to do a few more questions.

Unexpectedly, this incident caused such a big disturbance here in Bai Xia.

Li Jiashu didn't speak, and Bai Xia knew that he had acquiesced.

"You said you didn't like her!"

Faced with Bai Xia's questioning, Li Jiashu felt more impatient than ever. When did he get a girlfriend and it was Bai Xia's turn to take care of it?It was his fault that he didn't take the initiative to tell Bai Xia, but Bai Xia's reaction was too big.

"Bai Xia! Don't make trouble for no reason!"

Li Jiashu would only call him by his full name when he was angry, Bai Xia knew that he was not willing to make him angry, maybe he was really making trouble for no reason.

"Why..." He seemed to be talking to himself, but he was also asking the person in front of him.

Li Jiashu didn't know what happened to Bai Xia today, thinking that maybe he was under too much study pressure and couldn't find an outlet to vent.

"She likes me a lot."

This answer seems ridiculous, but sometimes two people don't have so many reasons to be together, stay together if they like it, and separate if they don't like it.

Bai Xia quietly wiped away her tears, not wanting to make a fool of herself in front of Li Jiashu.

"that's it?"

Li Jiashu was in a very irritable mood when he asked him. He originally planned to stay with Wen Xi for a while today, but now Bai Xia made such a fuss and it was all ruined.

"That's it, otherwise!"

Even if he has a good relationship with Bai Xia, he interfered too much.

Bai Xia's heart was cold for the most part, why would others be rewarded for liking, but her own liking was worthless?

Li Jiashu didn't want to argue with him anymore, they both needed to calm down.So he turned around and planned to leave. If the two of them went on like this, it would only be endless.

When he turned around, Bai Xia's murmur suddenly came from beside his ear, "But, I like you too..."

The sound was very small, but he was sure it wasn't an illusion.