Second Love Handbook

For the students of Binda University, the freshman year should be the fastest semester. Not long after the start of school is the Ching Ming Festival holiday, and after the Tomb Sweeping Day is the May Day holiday. Soon after May Day, every freshman must experience The military training, and after the military training, it is the annual sports meeting.In short, the freshman semester is basically a flash.

After these holidays are over, it will be June, and Binda has turned from a gray area into a green ocean, and all kinds of flowers have begun to bloom.

At [-] o'clock on Sunday night, Chen Zhengze came out of the bath with a small basket containing toiletries. He played basketball with his classmates all afternoon. The hot weather and heavy exercise made him sweat all over.As a school in the north, Binda’s dormitory has four rooms, but there is no private bathroom. The toilets and water rooms are public. If you want to take a bath, you can only go to the bathroom in the school.

After taking a good bath in the bathroom, Chen Zhengze walked slowly to the dormitory humming an out-of-tune song.The cool night wind blows, and the sound of couples fighting in the distance can be heard.

It takes 10 minutes to walk from the bathhouse to Chen Zhengze’s dormitory if you take the main road, but it only takes 5 minutes if you take a shortcut. The young couple suffered an annual dog abuse punishment.

Chen Zhengze usually walked the main road, but today he was really tired, so he didn't care whether he would be abused or not, so he walked directly to the small road after he came out of the bathhouse.

Today's path was extremely quiet, Chen Zhengze walked for a long time and did not see any young couples.He wondered, thinking what happened today, but just after turning a corner, he saw a person in a white T-shirt sitting on a bench not far away.The man was sitting on a bench, bent over, with his face buried in his hands.As for other details, Chen Zhengze couldn't see clearly.

It was dark, the street lights were blocked by the trees, and the shadows in the forest could not be seen clearly. Chen Zhengze glanced at the white figure from a distance, and for some reason suddenly felt a little panicked.Although it's not too late now, the woods are already dark, and all the young lovers who used to be here are gone, leaving only a person in white sitting there, who can't see clearly.

At that moment, Chen Zhengze felt that the surrounding sounds disappeared, only the thumping sound in his chest remained.He stared at the white figure in front of him, afraid that he would fly in front of him with a green face and fangs in the next second.

Although he was afraid in his heart, Chen Zhengze's many years of materialism experience told him that most of this was because he frightened himself. There are tens of thousands of people in a school, and it is so popular, how could it be haunted.

So Chen Zhengze moved forward in small steps while singing "Skateboard Shoes" in his heart.

After 2 minutes, Chen Zhengze moved to the side of that person.Just when he was about to rush over with a few steps, the man moved and slowly straightened his waist, revealing his face.

Chen Zhengze was taken aback by the man's sudden movement, and wanted to run away, but because of the little curiosity in his heart, he looked back at the man, only to find that the man was actually Liang Yan.

The feet that were lifted up came down again. Chen Zhengze swore with his 5.0 eyes that he seemed to see Liang Yan crying.

What's going on here?

The more he got in touch with Liang Yan, the more Chen Zhengze felt that something was wrong with his heartbeat, so since the beginning of school, he has not gone to find Liang Yan when he has nothing to do like last semester. It's also hard to find Liang Yan all the time.

Although he hadn't seen him for a while, seeing Liang Yan like this, Chen Zhengze realized that he was still worried.However, since he got to know Liang Yan last semester, after getting along with him for several months, he found that Liang Yan is an exceptionally strong person. If someone finds out that he is crying, he will not be happy.

Just when Chen Zhengze was debating whether to stay and take care, Liang Yan also saw Chen Zhengze, and he said in a nasal voice, "Chen Zhengze, why are you here?"

Now that he really couldn't leave, Chen Zhengze walked to the bench and sat down, raised the small basket in his hand, and said, "I sweated a lot from playing golf this afternoon, so I came here to take a shower."

Liang Yan didn't speak anymore, and Chen Zhengze didn't speak again, but he hesitated in his heart whether to ask.He spent almost the entire winter vacation with Liang Yan, and basically he went to Liang Yan's house, so he found some problems, such as he had never seen Liang Yan's parents, and every time he talked about his parents, Liang Yan They kept silent.

Chen Zhengze was still struggling, but he heard Liang Yan beside him say, "Chen Zhengze, do you hate me?"

"What, what?" Chen Zhengze was taken aback by the question, wondering if Liang Yan found that he sometimes looked at him wrongly?He found out that he likes boys, and may be interested in him?

This series of question marks made Chen Zhengze's heart ache, but before he could figure out how to answer, Liang Yan asked again: "Chen Zhengze, do you hate me?"

Before he had time to think of a proper answer, Chen Zhengze said vaguely, "I don't hate it."

"Why do I feel that I shouldn't have come into this world?"

Hearing Liang Yan's sighing voice, Chen Zheng wanted to say something to persuade him, but he didn't know what to say.

But Liang Yan didn't seem to need Chen Zhengze to talk, he continued: "I went to see my dad today, and he told me many things."

Chen Zhengze didn't speak, and Liang Yan's voice came over again, but instead of following the previous incident, he changed the topic: "As long as I can remember, my family has been incomplete. My dad has been doing business in Binshi all year round. When I go home, I will quarrel with my mother once in a while. Every time they quarrel, the house is a mess, everything that should be smashed is smashed, and there is nothing complete in the whole house."

"My father left after the quarrel, my mother was crying in the room, and my grandma was holding me and crying in my room. I also cried at that time. I don't know why the two of them quarreled, and I don't know why others Dad treats his son as a treasure, but my dad looks at me like an enemy. He never even hugged me, and even Uncle Qin downstairs sometimes hugs me when he sees me."

Liang Yan sucked his nose, and said: "When I was seven years old, my mother committed suicide by jumping off the building. In front of me, she jumped from the balcony of my house with a face of relief. Since then, I have hated my father. Because my mother told me before jumping off the building that the reason why my father didn’t go home for so many years was because he had a mistress outside. He had another home outside and had been divorcing my mother. She fights."

"I still remember how she looked before she died. She looked at me and said viciously: 'I will occupy Mrs. Liang's position even if I die!' Then she jumped down."

Chen Zhengze was shocked when he heard it, and called out hesitantly: "Liang Yan..."

Liang Yan turned his head and glanced at Chen Zhengze, the mottled light cast on his eyebrows and eyes.With the help of the light, Chen Zhengze saw his red and swollen eyes clearly, and then he said pleadingly: "Chen Zhengze, listen to me, I feel sad."

Chen Zhengze felt sore from what Liang Yan said, and he held his hand involuntarily.

Liang Yan didn't respond, and continued: "I have been living with my grandma since my mother passed away. My father still doesn't come home, or my mother's death freed him from the marriage. My grandma is the one who treats me the most in the world. The best person, she will make dumplings for me, make me a little tiger pillow, hug me when I have nightmares, tell me not to be afraid, she will always be with me."

"But she only stayed with me for five years. She also left when I was 12 years old. After my grandma passed away, no one took care of me. My dad finally remembered me and took me to Binshi. But he just took over, he bought me a house, hired a nanny, found a school for me, and then let it go, he didn’t even come to see me during the Chinese New Year.”

Speaking of this, Liang Yan sniffed his nose again, and said: "After so many years, I'm already used to this kind of life, besides, I'm an adult, I can find a job soon, maybe working for a few years can make him feel better." Pay back the money you gave me, and you won't owe me anything from now on, which is pretty good."

"On Friday, he gave me living expenses as usual. But this time I didn't ask for it, because I had a scholarship and found a part-time job to make some money. The money is enough for me to live for a while, so I don't want any more money from him. Yes. But he may have been drinking too much because his business was not going well, so for some reason he came to the house where I lived and scolded me."

"I couldn't help arguing with him, but he told me that my mother was the mistress and my grandma was the executioner who killed his love. After he finished speaking, he staggered away. I didn't believe him at first Yes, but the expression on his face doesn't seem like a lie. I thought about it all night and decided to ask his friends and former neighbors, and they all said—”

Liang Yan held Chen Zhengze's hand tightly, and continued: "What he said is true, my mother is the mistress."

He looked up at Chen Zhengze, and a tear slowly rolled down from the corner of his eye: "I went to talk to him again today, and he told me everything. Chen Zhengze, it was my mother who ruined his love. It's Xiaosan's child."

Chen Zhengze's heart trembled suddenly, he couldn't help but hugged Liang Yan into his arms, and said, "Stop it, don't say it, don't say it if you feel uncomfortable."

Liang Yan didn't speak any more, and let Chen Zhengze hug him honestly.

After a while, Chen Zhengze endured the soreness in his heart and said: "When I was seven years old, my father had an accident on the construction site, and the foreman paid my mother 20 yuan, and then it was over. My mother didn't touch that money at all. She opened a breakfast shop in Binshi by herself, and she worked from dawn to dusk just to support me. But because she couldn't take care of it, she sent me back to my hometown and let my grandma take care of me. "

"My grandma has liked me since I was a child, and she clings to me for everything good. But when I went back that time, I found that my grandma had changed. Apart from taking care of me for three meals a day, she hugged my uncle's child every day, I didn’t even look at me. Then I fell ill and had a high fever. The old lady probably didn’t pay attention, so she didn’t care. It happened that my mother came back to see me. When she saw me like this, she quarreled with the old lady Woke up."

"As for the quarrel, I don't know, I'm already confused. Later, my mother accidentally slipped her mouth and said that she gave 15 of my father's pension to the old lady, and then we broke up. relationship."

Speaking of this, Chen Zhengze paused, looked at Liang Yan's expression from the corner of his eye, and found that he was listening to him seriously, so he continued: "I don't have any thoughts about money, but I just hate the old lady. I'm so nice, but just after my dad died, she changed her face."

"But later, when I was older and was able to go back to my dad's grave alone, I found that she also went to my dad's grave secretly. At that time, she was much older than before, and she wiped her tears silently when she saw me. Later I After thinking about it, she probably thought that my mother would take me to remarry if my father was gone, and she would have no one to take care of her in the future, so she did these things."

"I don't know if what I said is obvious," Chen Zhengze continued, "I just want to say that everyone does wrong things, and there may or may not be a reason for them. But we can't stand still in the pain they caused , things have come to this, we have to move forward, after all, there are countless wonderful people and things waiting for you in the future."

In fact, Chen Zhengze didn't know what he had said. This was the first time he had spoken out about the bad things at home. He just wanted to make Liang Yan think about it, but he didn't know if what he said was right.

Liang Yan has been very quiet since Chen Zhengze spoke, until Chen Zhengze finished speaking, and after a while, he came out of Chen Zhengze's arms, sat up straight, and said, "Chen Zhengze, thank you."

Chen Zhengze's heart is still sour because of Liang Yan's words. Seeing that Liang Yan has returned to his usual appearance, his heart is even more sour, but he still looks calm on the surface and says: "Why are you being polite to me? .”

At this time, Chen Zhengze took out his mobile phone and looked at it, and found that it was almost half past eight, and he and Liang Yan had been talking here for almost an hour.

Glancing at Liang Yan, Chen Zhengze tentatively said, "Let's go back to the dormitory, it's getting late."

Liang Yan let out a long sigh, as if he had vented all the unpleasant things just now, he nodded to Chen Zhengze and said, "Okay."

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a little late because i got stuck