Second Love Handbook

At around nine o'clock the next morning, Chen Zhengze took Liang Yan to the cemetery.Because it was winter, and the cemetery was on the mountain, Liang Yan couldn't take a car yet. It was too cold to walk this way, so Chen Zhengze deliberately waited until after nine o'clock, and took Liang Yan over after the sun came out.

It is almost the twelfth lunar month now, and the taste of the new year is gradually showing, and people have started to come to visit the grave one after another.Chen Zhengze bought some fruits in the city, and bought burnt paper and joss sticks in the shop at the foot of the mountain, and then took Liang Yan up the mountain.

Because the cemetery is cleaned regularly by the administrator, it does not look dirty.Chen Zhengze squatted in front of the tomb, arranged the bought fruits, lit the incense, and then lit the paper money he brought in the small pit where the paper money was fixed.

While adding paper money to the fire, Chen Zhengze said, "Dad, I've come to see you. I haven't seen you for a year. I don't know how you are over there. You don't let me dream of you, so we two I can still talk."

"I'm doing well." He turned his head and glanced at Liang Yan who was squatting next to him, and then said, "Now I have a partner, and he's right next to me. Bring him over to see you. His name is Liang Yan, and I The two met in June this year, and it was my mother who led the line. My mother likes him very much. If you are still here, you will definitely like him too. We are very good—"

Speaking of this, Chen Zhengze smiled embarrassedly, and said: "It's just that I like to be narrow-minded sometimes, but he let me and doesn't care about me."

Chen Zhengze muttered a lot of words, then paused, and said: "I know you must miss my mother, she is very good, go to the shop to sit in the morning, and go to practice yoga with friends in the afternoon, Or go shopping."

"You don't know," Chen Zhengze said, wrinkling his nose, "She likes to buy clothes for me as soon as she goes shopping, but the clothes she buys are ugly, and she gets angry if I don't wear them, and then she will buy uglier ones next time." Let me wear it."

After he finished speaking, he sighed and said, "She misses you too. She told me to come back to see you some time ago, and her eye circles turned red after saying that. If you miss her, give her a dream and let her see you , talk to you."

Chen Zhengze finished what he wanted to say, and the paper money that happened to be brought was also burned. After the sparks went out, he turned his head and said to Liang Yan, "Let's go, it's time to go to the car."

Liang Yan had been very quiet when Chen Zhengze was talking, but now that Chen Zhengze said he was going to leave, he didn't get up, but said a little embarrassedly: "You go first, I will chase you after I talk to my uncle."

At first, Chen Zhengze didn't realize it, so he subconsciously asked, "What did you say?"

Then he came to his senses, looked at Liang Yan's red ears, couldn't close his mouth with joy, and said, "Say, tell, I'll wait for you over there."

It wasn't relative, but Liang Yan wanted to talk to his father alone. Chen Zhengze couldn't understand what it meant.He grinned happily and walked to the side of the cemetery, looking at Liang Yan from time to time, trying to eavesdrop on what Liang Yan had said to his father, but Liang Yan's voice was too low, he couldn't hear anything standing in this position.

Liang Yan saw Chen Zhengze walking away, and after making sure he couldn't hear him, he looked at the tombstone and whispered, "Uncle, we meet again. I don't know if you will blame me. I told you that year that I would take good care of him. Chen Zhengze, but when I went back, I encountered such a thing, I was fine, but Chen Zhengze was lying on the bed."

"When he was lying on the bed, I swore that I would lose 20 years of my life and never see him in exchange for him waking up. But after he woke up, I broke my promise. I couldn't help but secretly went to see him, even When my aunt asked me to go on a blind date with him, I didn't hesitate for a second and agreed directly."

"Uncle, I can't live without him. If there is any punishment from God, I will bear it alone. I hope you don't blame me. I will treat him well and not let him be wronged."

After Liang Yan finished speaking, he saw from the corner of his eye that Chen Zhengze was not looking this way, so he knelt down and bowed his head at the tombstone, then stood up and walked to Chen Zhengze's side, and said very naturally, "Let's go."

Chen Zhengze bumped Liang Yan with his shoulder, and asked curiously, "What did you and my dad say? Tell me about it."

Liang Yan didn't answer Chen Zhengze's question, but took his hand and said, "Let's go, it's time to go to the car."

Chen Zhengze didn't get the answer he wanted, but he wasn't in a hurry. Ever since he introduced Liang Yan to his father, he was in a particularly good mood. If Liang Yan didn't say anything, let's not talk about it. Anyway, he will have plenty of time to ask in the future.

The two of them went down the mountain and walked slowly all the way to the bus station, which happened to be the time to drive.Chen Zhengze still bought the two front seats this time. He pulled Liang Yan into the car, let Liang Yan sit in the seat inside, and then took out the snacks he bought along the way from his backpack and stuffed them into Liang Yan's hands. , Said: "Eat something to pad your stomach first, and then eat when you get home."

This time, Liang Yan’s complexion was a little better than before. He took the snacks and didn’t eat them. He just held them in his hand and said, “Go home and make noodles. I always heard Xiao Yu say that your noodles are delicious, but you didn’t I did."

Hearing what Liang Yan said, Chen Zhengze thought about it for a while. He cooks for Liang Yan in various ways every day, but it seems that he really hasn't made noodles for him, so he said: "Okay, I'll make it when I get back."

Speaking of Xiao Yu, Chen Zhengze remembered that he had never bothered himself to make noodles for him since he was with Song Liancheng, so he complained to Liang Yan: "People, they are all of the same sex and inhumane. Look at Xiao Yu, I used to hang around me every day just to eat noodles, but now that I have the Shanxi guy, I can eat noodles every day, and I never came to see me again.”

Liang Yan wanted to laugh a little at what he said, and said, "You still have me, and I also like noodles, so you can make them for me in the future."

"Oh—" Chen Zhengze sighed exaggeratedly, and said, "It's better to have a boyfriend."

When the car started, the carriage shook, and Liang Yan's originally relaxed brows frowned again.Chen Zhengze let him lean on his shoulder, held his hand tightly, and said, "Go to sleep for a while, and you'll be home in a while."

Leaning on Chen Zhengze's shoulder, Liang Yan said softly through the padded jacket, "I can't sleep."

"Then let's talk." Chen Zhengze changed his posture, trying to make Liang Yan lean more comfortably.

The two chatted aimlessly for a while, and then Chen Zhengze carefully changed the subject: "You were really not angry that day, right? It was what my grandma said."

"No." Liang Yan said: "If the old man and I are angry, she can say it if she wants to, as long as you don't think so."

"Of course I don't think so." Chen Zhengze said.

After Chen Zhengze finished speaking, he began to hesitate in his heart whether to continue this topic.He took Liang Yan to see the old lady on purpose yesterday. Ever since he met Liang Songchen, every time he thought about it, he felt a little sore in his heart.

He and Liang Yan had no father relationship in this life. He lost his father since he was a child. Fortunately, Li Jianguo was able to make up for this lack of affection a little later.Compared with him, Liang Yan looked worse. Although he had a father, his life was not as good as if he didn't have one.

But even if the other party makes thousands of mistakes, in the face of death, one's heart will inevitably be shaken.Chen Zhengze knew that Liang Yan was not a cold-hearted person, otherwise he wouldn't have secretly looked up liver cancer information.But what's the use of secretly checking, the doctor has already diagnosed, the most important thing for Liang Songchen now is to ask Liang Yan's forgiveness in the remaining few months of his life.

So if Liang Yan really wanted to do something for Liang Songchen, then letting go of the past is the best way.

But Chen Zhengze didn't dare to talk about this matter rashly. He was afraid that Liang Yan hadn't thought about it yet, so if he said this, he would add trouble to Liang Yan and the relationship between the two of them.

But now, Chen Zhengze wanted to give it a try, because he didn't want Liang Yan to leave any regrets. After all, it was easy to say anything when a person was alive, but if a person died, then everything would be in vain.

Thinking of this, Chen Zhengze said cautiously: "Actually, I was a little angry last night. I didn't expect the old lady to say that kind of thing. But I'm not too angry, because I already know what kind of person she is and what she does. I wouldn't be surprised."

"I've already thought about it. She has that kind of character, which cannot be changed. And after I grew up, she also realized that she did something wrong back then, and now she is trying to remedy it. She will call me occasionally, Every time I went to see her, she would hold me tight and let me eat."

"Actually, if you think about it, this is enough." Chen Zhengze continued: "I just don't want to wait for the day when she leaves and leave regrets. I regret that I couldn't forgive her at that time. After all, when a person dies, nothing is left. All the grievances and grievances from the past are gone with the wind."

Hearing this, Liang Yan already understood why Chen Zhengze said this. He didn't pretend to be confused, but said: "I thought about forgiving him, but every time I think about forgiving him, the image of The picture of my mother jumping off the building in front of me, my grandma's appearance before she died, and the experience of him letting me fend for myself after I was taken to Binshi by him. Then I realized that I couldn't forget all these things, face him again..."

"Okay, don't talk about it, don't talk about it." Chen Zhengze said distressedly, he regretted talking about it with Liang Yan, if he knew that Liang Songchen was mentioned, Liang Yan would be in such pain, he wished he would never talk about it again in his life.

At this time, the car had already driven into the urban area of ​​Binshi City. Chen Zhengze sat up straight from his seat, turned around and faced Liang Yan, and said, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't advise you from the perspective of a bystander. I don’t have the right to speak, I did something wrong.”

Liang Yan shook his head, he didn't blame Chen Zhengze, he knew that Chen Zhengze was doing it for his own good, so he said, "It's okay, don't blame yourself, I know you are doing it for my own good."

Chen Zhengze regretted it in his heart, but he couldn't say any more. He turned his body back, looked ahead, and changed the subject: "I'll make you noodles with fried sauce when I go home. Do you like it?"

However, before Liang Yan could answer, a car suddenly rushed over in front of the bus. The driver hurriedly turned the steering wheel, and the whole car tilted in an instant, and all the people in the car were thrown out with inertia.

At this time, a picture flashed in Chen Zhengze's mind. He couldn't help calling Liang Yan's name, then rushed over, and hugged Liang Yan into his arms.

The car stabilized, and following the scolding of the driver, Chen Zheng felt that he was plunged into darkness, but one after another flashed before his eyes, and the flashes became faster and faster, and finally became a film.