my brother became a scum

The nursing home is not too close to my home, and the bus is slow in snowy weather. When I arrived, it was already dark, with an insulated box in my hand, and my boots stepped on the freshly fallen snow. Instead of being anxious during the day, I felt calm.Probably in this world, the most reassuring thing is the presence of relatives.

Voices could be heard at the door of the ward. I thought it was someone from the neighboring ward who came to visit me. I was stunned when I opened the door. Looking at the person who shouldn't be here, I blurted out: "When did you come here?"

"Zhang Chen has been here for a long time." Grandpa's hand was still holding Zhang Chen's hand. He was very energetic and seemed very happy. I've been waiting for a long time."

I glanced at Zhang Chen, who was very calm, and couldn't do anything to disrupt the situation: "This chicken soup is almost ready, it's a bit late, grandpa, I'll scoop it up for you."

"Okay, okay, okay." Grandpa nodded, like a child, "You have a bowl, Zhang Chen has a bowl, and I have a bowl."

"Don't worry, Grandpa, enough is enough."

Fortunately, there are disposable bowls and chopsticks in the nursing home. I poured three bowls of soup, divided one bowl for each person, and ate together on the small table next to the bed.

I don't like to talk when I eat, but my grandfather and Zhang Chen have a very happy chat. The topics are all over the place, and they often talk about politics just now, and then turn their heads to talk about food.It wasn't a jump in thinking, but the old man had a bad memory, and he forgot as he spoke. Zhang Chen was not angry, and patiently chatted with new topics.

He was holding the soup bowl, and the orange light shone on his fair and tender cheeks. The corners of his mouth were slightly raised, gentle and beautiful. For a moment, I thought, it would be great if he was always like this.

Grandpa ate half a bowl of rice, drank two bowls of chicken soup, and fell asleep while chatting. I gently cleaned up the bowls and chopsticks, raised the table, and walked to the bathroom with the bowls, chopsticks, and dishwashing liquid. Sure enough, he followed.

I lowered my head and finished brushing, but he didn't make a sound. When I finished brushing, he lowered his voice and said, "Let's go for a walk."

I wiped my hands with a towel and left the ward with him.Zhang Chen walked to the end of the corridor and opened the door again. It happened to be an external corridor. In summer, there are vines climbing up, which is very beautiful. In winter, the dead leaves are covered with snow, which is also beautiful. It has a more bleak taste.

I followed him out, raised my hand and rubbed my palms together, only to realize that he was still wearing the camel-colored windbreaker he had been wearing before he was imprisoned, so I said, "It's not cold, why don't you wear so little?"

"Cold," he replied, but his eyes were fixed on my thick padded jacket, "Chen Heping, I'm cold."

I knew he was playing tricks, but I still couldn't bear his cry of coldness, so I finally took off my padded jacket and put it directly on him.

The cold wind blew over, the sweater was soaked, and I was shivering from the cold, as if I just remembered: "Why are you talking here, let's go back, I can't stay on the first floor, go upstairs and talk about it."

Zhang Chen smiled very naturally and didn't talk to me. He just put on my padded jacket and walked back. We walked back again, went up to the second floor, and found an empty room.

As soon as the door was closed, Zhang Chen said, "Happy Chinese New Year."

"Happy Chinese New Year." I replied reflexively, and Zhang Chen stretched out his palm towards me.

"Well?" I pretended to be stupid, as if I didn't know.

"Where's my red envelope?" Such an adult is not ashamed to ask for a red envelope.

"It's for Xiaotian, but you don't have it." I don't know why I have to tell the truth, maybe it's more fun to tease him.

"Oh, like this," he retracted his hands, lowered his eyelids, and his whole body was like a frost-beaten eggplant, lacking energy.

Of course I know he's acting, but I still prefer him to act weak. I can't see him being wronged even though I know it's all fake.

"When I go back, I'll pack another one for you."

"Chen Heping, I'm not happy."

"Why are you unhappy?"

"You don't give me a red envelope."

"I've said it all, I'll pack another one for you when I go back."

"You don't call me."

"..."

"you do not miss me."

"..."

"You won't even be jealous."

"..."

"you do not like me."

"...Zhang Chen, it's almost over."

"Chen Heping," Zhang Chen raised his head, his eyes were terribly sharp, "It's a big festival, let me have a good time, okay?"

I also looked straight at him: "What do you want?"

"Come back with me in a while, let's go back to the house on the west side."

"Oda lives in a villa in the suburbs. It's not appropriate to let him alone during the holidays."

"He's different from you, Chen Heping."

"You fuck Oda, I fuck you, it's quite different."

"Chen Heping, as I said, you are different from him..."

"Zhang Chen." I looked at the coat on his body and interrupted him.

"What?" He replied, with a look of inquiry in his eyes.

I remembered a long, long time ago, when we woke up hugging each other, he put his arms around my waist and said with a smile, "It's a good life".

"Zhang Chen," I stared into his eyes, there were countless words that could hurt him, but I couldn't say it, "Happy Chinese New Year."

"That's not what you want to say." He gathered my coat and said casually, "Say it, don't leave it, it's uncomfortable."

"You opened Xiaotian, cut off the bunch of friends with sex outside, and don't mess around in the future, I will move to the house on the west side, and we will settle down."

I don't know why I said this, probably because I was tired, crazy, and tired.

Zhang Chen closed his eyes when I said the first five words, and there was no expression on his face. After I finished speaking, he paused for a few seconds, indicating that he had heard it and thought it over seriously.

He said: "Chen Heping, I can't agree to you. I'm a businessman, and this deal is not worth it."

"It's not worth it." I didn't feel much surprise in my heart. I was expected to be rejected. If he agreed, I would be surprised. "Then forget it."

Most of the houses in the nursing home are decorated warmly, but for some reason, this one is all in cool colors, which adds a bit of chill.The sun shines on Zhang Chen's face through the window, casting a layer of coldness on it.

Zhang Chen remained silent, and the room became more and more oppressive.Always wrap the ambiguity on the surface, after a long time, it seems that I can forget the naked coldness.It is human instinct to tend towards a more comfortable direction. Zhang Chen is used to living a life of multiple relationships at the same time. He is used to enjoying the love and flesh of others, so he will no longer control himself, and he will not be willing to "wrong" "self" with only a single sexual partner.

Not being too sentimental, I know that if one day I go into danger with his lover and friends with benefits, he will choose to save me first without hesitation.But I also know that it is absolutely impossible to tell Zhang Chen to give up Nuo Da's forest and stay alone.

The ancients said that you can’t have both, but Zhang Chen has no reason to give up one if he can have both.

"Chen Heping," Zhang Chen interrupted my meaningless thinking, he opened his eyes at some point, and lit another cigarette, "Didn't you promise me before I went in?"

I stretched out my hand to him, and he lit another cigarette and handed it to me. I took a sip between the cigarette and spit out a few round eye circles. I couldn't help laughing at myself: "I was I was thinking, if you go in for three to five years, the people around you will be scattered, and you will be unaccompanied when you come out, so I will take you home and raise you, that would be fine."

"What you said is that you still like me." Zhang Chen suddenly laughed, and his brows and eyes became a little more relaxed.

"Chen'er, please do something."

"what's up?"

"I made it clear just now, you are coming out now, let's break up."

I said this sentence calmly, lightly, almost happily, and Zhang Chen replied to me with almost the same attitude: "Impossible."

I just said "oh" and didn't say anything else. After all, I still didn't want to be beaten up by him on the first day of the new year.

Right now, I don't have anyone I like, and there is no psychological barrier to fucking Zhang Chen, and even some pleasure, so let's continue pestering like this.

In this indifferent mood, I finished smoking this cigarette, and just as I stubbed out the butt, I heard Zhang Chen say, "Would you like to give you something, a car, a house, money, and a woman are also fine."

"No," I knew he wanted to be nice to me, but there was really no need, "You and I are brothers, so there's no need to do this."

"Chen Heping, you said that you don't like me, and you don't want anything from me. What a disadvantage to be with me."

"It's been so long, you just think I'm a loser?"

"I already felt that you were at a loss."

"Oh."

Zhang Chen came over and kissed the tip of my nose. He said, "Chen Heping, I really like you."

I reached out and patted his cheek, and I said, "I know."

I replied that I know, and Zhang Chen breathed a sigh of relief, the hidden danger between us was tumbling out, and was firmly suppressed again, and the atmosphere became harmonious and harmonious again.

Zhang Chen didn't mention leaving this room, and I didn't mention it either, just sat in a daze for a while, then lowered his head and played with his phone for a while.

"Hey, Chen Heping, do you have something to do in a few days?"

"I have to accompany my grandfather through the third year of junior high school, and there is nothing to do after that."

"Accompany me to the hot spring?"

"Just you?"

"Just me."

"Okay, wechat contact when the time comes."

The conversation stopped, and I became inexplicably embarrassed, and I looked up at him again: "Are you sure you're all right, can you go out and play?"

"There is no evidence at all, don't worry," Zhang Chen raised his hand and rubbed his temples, "Stay with you for a few days, and I will go to work in the next year."

"Do you think I have to buy some of your group's stocks? The chairman is back in power, so it should go up?" I joked very seriously.

"Don't buy," Zhang Chen replied solemnly, "It's too high, Lao Wu has some moves, and it's expected to fall for a while."

"You're going to reveal the inside information like this, Chen'er?"

"You are not an outsider, and I have nothing to hide from you."

This topic became more and more embarrassing, and the room became more and more depressing. I yawned a little, and said, "Then I'm going down to see grandpa."

"You go."

I stood up straight, turned around and wanted to leave, but I heard Zhang Chen's last words: "Wherever you go, you can't do without me."

I unscrewed the doorknob, stepped out of the room, and scolded Zhang Chen in my heart.

This world is so big, there are so many people, and the time is so long, who can be with whom forever, who can hold whom forever?

Not to mention Zhang Chen's character and his environment, even if it is an ordinary loving couple who can go to the end with He Meimei, in today's world, it is considered rare.

One day, let's just pass one day.

In the blink of an eye, it was the fourth day of junior high school. Early in the morning, Zhang Chen drove downstairs to my house and called me to go down and drive.

I didn't wash my face or brush my teeth, so I got up and answered the phone and scolded "nerves" directly.

Zhang Chen smiled on the other end of the phone, and said shrilly while laughing: "Chen Heping, I miss you."