my brother became a scum

"You really make me sad." Zhang Chen casually threw the water bottle in his hand on the carpet, and he started to unbutton his shirt, revealing his beautiful collarbone soon.

I looked away and stared: "What are you doing undressing?"

"Is this your year?"

"no."

"Undressing is of course sex."

"You're crazy." I said this in a low voice, but I didn't dare to move my eyes to him. I had no confidence in my self-control, and I knew that I couldn't forget him at all.

Every time I self-exhaust between work, I only have his shadow in my mind-maybe because I only had sex with him.

"I have explained everything that needs to be explained. The wife is not mine, and the child is not mine. I haven't done it for a long time. I want to have sex with you, okay?"

My eyes dimmed, and Zhang Chen covered my head with the shirt he took off.I took off my shirt, just in time to see him kicking off his pants. His long legs were white and long, and his underpants were also pure white, with a bulge at the top.

In fact, I was already lustful, and the things under the towel had already hardened, but I still had reason to tell me not to move.

"What are we? I can't give up what I want to do, and if I do, you can't forgive me."

"I'll talk about the future. I just want to have sex with you tonight. When tomorrow morning, you go your way and I go mine, just pretend that we had a spring dream tonight." Zhang Chen His hand crossed the coffee table and grabbed mine, it was cold but tight.

My fingertips curl up slightly, I yearn for his flesh-body, but I am afraid that I will be trapped in it and cannot get out.He let go of my hand all of a sudden, stood up naturally, and sat on my lap while holding my shoulders.

I didn't push him away, in fact, it took a lot of courage to control the instinct to hug him-I was thinking about him, thinking about him, thinking about him.

He pinched my shoulders, kissed my cheek lightly, and said, "Just one night, this year, I haven't found anyone."

"It's none of my business whether you find someone or not," I said, but I turned my head and grabbed his lips. We began to kiss tentatively, cautiously and reservedly, but we couldn't tell whose movements changed. It was so intense that it was hard to tell whose eyes were overflowing with useless emotion first, lips and teeth intertwined, body fluids fused into one, and even if they went crazy, they would bring the other party into madness.

Stumbling and rolling on the bed, the flesh-body entangled on the opponent's body leaving bruises, the most secret place was tightly embedded, sweat rolled down his cheeks and dripped on his lips, he smiled and moaned and leaned over to ask for a kiss.

After a night of no dreams, when he woke up again, there was no trace of Zhang Chen around - he left cleanly, meeting the definition of all gun-friends.

I got up from the bed, only to find that last night's clothes had been neatly folded and placed on the head of my bed. In my memory, it seemed that this was the second time Zhang Chen did this, and the first time, in our first time. The morning after rolling.

The day Zhang Chen and I rolled into bed for the first time was no different from the past.It wasn't that I was drunk, nor was it an important festival, but it was just that in an extremely cold winter, I was writing my graduation thesis in the library, and when I looked up, I saw Zhang Chen sitting directly opposite me.

He can no longer be said to be a boy. He joined the mall prematurely, and time has polished him into an exceptionally charming man. His hair was a little wet, but he didn't realize it. He just said to me: "It's snowing outside." .”

I kept the file, closed the notebook, and did not take it away—the library of University A is very safe, even if I put the notebook here, it will not be lost the next day.I left a coat once, but after a week, I went looking for it and found it.

We walked down the escalator on the third floor. Zhang Chen was wearing a black woolen coat. His legs were thin and long. From the back, he looked like a tall model.

I took a light breath and looked away with difficulty. I think I was confused by my appearance, so I gave birth to a bit of charming thoughts that I shouldn't have.Since returning from Shencheng, Zhang Chen and I have established a default rule. He will no longer say those misleading words, and he will no longer do provocative actions. We are within the safe range of friends, and we don’t have to do anything out of line. thing.

We walked up the stairs on the side, Zhang Chen and I were the only two people in the corridor, he walked so fast that he went down several steps more than me, but he stopped suddenly, turned sideways and stretched out his slender right hand , said to me: "You are walking too slowly, I will help you to walk a few steps."

The sunlight shone on his face through the small skylight, bright and beautiful, and there were tiny dust suspended in the air, but it couldn't stop the warm smile on the corner of his mouth.My heart is pounding and laughing, but I don't know why it looks like this.

I clenched the armrest tightly, managed to stabilize my mind, and said, "Don't do this, you go your way, I'll go mine."

He withdrew his hand, put it behind his waist, puffed up his face, clearly unhappy: "Brother Ping, I'm angry."

I went down three steps, and seeing his appearance, I couldn't control my hand. I pinched his cheek with my upper hand, and he laughed like a boy.

We walked out side by side, the thick curtain pressed against the door, he opened the curtain and told me to go out first.I didn't back down and went straight out the door. I saw snowflakes dancing in the wind, and the whole world was completely white.

I can't help but think about that winter, Zhang Chen stood in the snow, waiting for me to come out under the street lamp.After a moment of trance, a hand was put on his shoulder, and Zhang Chen's voice rang in his ears: "It's too cold today, shall we go for a walk together?"

The snow was heavy, and the janitor cleaned it up, but still couldn't keep up with the speed of the snow, so he had to take a rest temporarily. There was a thick layer of snow on the road, but Zhang Chen only wore thin boots on his feet. After only a few steps, he was shivering with cold.

"You're so afraid of the cold, how did you come here?"

"When I came, the snow wasn't so big."

I didn't see through his obvious lies, I just quickened my pace, he trotted along and followed me, without putting his hands on my shoulders, he directly took my arm, I stared at him, he pretended he didn't see it.

I'm not happy in my heart, this scum may have time, or maybe it's too boring, so he came to tease me again.He forgot what he said, we just want to be friends, and he also forgot what he said, telling me not to like him.

I hated him for easily overturning what I said, and I also hated that I was not firm enough in my stand, but I just walked for a while arm in arm, but I faintly wavered.

When we arrived at the school gate, he withdrew his hand, let out a breath into his palm, raised his eyes again, his eyelashes were stained with glittering ice, and smiled at me: "I will take the bus with you today."

I stood where I was, with my hands in the pockets of my down jacket, and looked down at him: "Didn't I say that I would walk with you?"

"We can't walk in school, let's go out for a walk, shall we?"

I should have said something bad, but when the words came to my lips, they turned into one word "good".

When the No. 375 bus arrived at the school gate, I got on the bus, swiped my card, took out two yuan of change and threw it in, without looking back: "Didn't you bring your card?"

"Ah."

There were not many people in the car, but there were no seats left. I held on to a railing, and Zhang Chen stood there in a daze. But the car was running smoothly, and I didn't remind him. Scattered to hold a handle, I did not speak, he did not speak.

The car walked for a while, and saw an electric car coming at the fork, I clenched the railing with one hand, and grabbed Zhang Chen's waist, the bus braked suddenly, and the whole bus leaned forward collectively, Crashed into my arms, still in shock, Zhang Chen leaned over and kissed my cheek, and left as soon as I touched it, but it was like throwing a bunch of fire on dry wood.

I can't say that he seduced me, it was clear that I hugged him just now, but it's not an exaggeration to call him a villain.

I withdrew my hand, and he stood up straight again. Our eyes no longer intersected, but it was different from before.The bus finally stumbled to the stop, and the bus was mostly empty. Zhang Chen and I got out of the bus at the end. The bitter wind blew again, and his hair rose, revealing his red earlobes. He said: "Chen Heping, let's go Let's watch a movie."

"There doesn't seem to be a movie theater around here."

"Go and see in my house."

He spoke very naturally, but his cold hand inserted into the pocket of my down jacket and touched my warm hand.

He added, "It's really cold today."

I glanced down at his flimsy boots, and I said, "Come on, hurry up."

We finished watching "Brokeback Mountain" on the big projection in that house. I watched it for the first time, and I ended up in tears, but Zhang Chen tore open a bag of potato chips, showing a lack of interest.

I asked him why he felt so indifferent, and he stuffed potato chips into my mouth, and he said: "I can't change the rules, so I will be in a mess. I won't do this, why should I be sad?"

I didn't say anything, feeling a little uncomfortable in my heart, he grabbed another handful of potato chips and stuffed them into his mouth: "If I like someone, I will always get it."

"You can't get it," I retorted him, "this time is only in people's hearts, and you can't get it by means."

"What do you want people to do? When two people are together, no matter what, they are comfortable on the bed and take care of each other on weekdays. This is much more practical than illusory feelings."

"That's different. Being together sincerely, and being together unwillingly are always different."

"You are sincere to Lin Danni, but are you two together?"

He rarely mentions Danni Lin, and I still feel bad when he mentions it abruptly.I stopped talking, and he also consciously made a slip of the tongue, and changed the subject: "I don't know what love is."

"You understand, it's just that after you weighed it up, you chose to give up." He stabbed me just now, and I naively wanted to stab him once, "You like Li Yang, and you like that boy from Shencheng, but they don't like you enough , you give up."

Zhang Chen casually threw away the bag of potato chips. He took a wet wipe and wiped his fingertips carefully. Then he took out another cigarette, lit it and put it in his mouth.I didn't like the way he looked, but I couldn't speak, so I told him to stop smoking.He finished smoking the cigarette and twisted the butt in the ashtray.

He said: "Chen Heping, I want to try with you."

"Try what?" I had a premonition, but I wasn't very flustered at the moment.

"I've been thinking about you recently, and I've been having sex with you every day in my dreams, can you try with me?"

Zhang Chen said this frankly, without any concealment, he looked at me after he finished speaking, waiting for my answer.

I held out my hand, palm up, and I said, "Give me one of your cigarettes."