my brother became a scum

I stood there in a daze, my brain was so empty with a humming sound.

It took maybe a quarter of an hour, maybe even longer, before I regained the ability to think. I turned around and pushed open the door. The nurse woke up suddenly and straightened up to look at me.

I held onto the door frame and said softly, "The old man is gone, go and talk to the doctor on duty."

The nurse covered her mouth with her hand, wiped her face vigorously, said her condolences, turned around and went to the duty room.I turned around slowly, returned to the room, and turned on the light at once.

Under the light, Grandpa slept soundly, and there was no trace of pain on his expression.He is eighty and three years old this year, and this age can be regarded as a very long life. I know that life, old age, sickness and death are inevitable for human beings, but I can't stop the sadness of the collapse of the world.

I sat by his bed, but I couldn't say any farewell words. In the end, I could only say: "Grandpa, goodbye."

Doctors and nurses entered the room, and someone was patting me on the shoulder and calling me to mourn. The white cloth covered half of it. I held the edge of the cloth myself and covered the other half.

I called my uncle and aunt to inform them that the old man had passed away, and then contacted the funeral company. The nurse took a glass of water and handed it to me. I took it and drank it trembling.

"Is there anyone else in your family?"

"It's not very convenient in a foreign country. Let me take it easy. Do I have to go through some procedures?"

"Yes, my condolences."

I staggered into the bathroom, rubbed my cheeks and the back of my hands repeatedly with cold water, and then went out to follow the doctors and nurses to send my grandpa to the morgue.

The hospital went through a series of procedures. After confirming the signature on the death notice, he began to flip through the long address book, picking up his grandfather's closest friend, who was also in good health, to inform him of the news.

I worked all night, and the next day, people from the funeral company had already arrived. I followed my grandfather's last wish and kept everything simple and did not hold a memorial service.

Everything fell into place, and I felt a little more real when I got home again.Zhang Chen called my grandfather on the first morning after he left. I looked at his name and pressed the reject button—I'm not sure if my weak nerves can resist his encroachment.

Grandpa's departure made me miserable, but being entangled with Zhang Chen meant more pain after a brief sweetness.

Loneliness made me miss him, and the past made me fear him. He is a drug addict who knows he will be addicted. I don't want to try to hook up with him lightly.

Zhang Chen didn't come on the day of grandpa's burial, but he entrusted Mr. Wu to come and gave him a generous gift. I didn't refuse and thanked him solemnly.Mr. Wu said a sentence of condolences, and he was very sincere.

After I dealt with all the follow-up matters, I returned to work, only to find that a lot of changes have been made in the bureau, and many newcomers have been added.

The higher-ups further stepped up efforts to protect the environment, and the work tasks were overwhelming. When I returned to work, the leader stuffed me with [-] projects, which was only a week's worth.

The Environmental Protection Agency approved the special car, and my daily task is to go to the on-site inspections of various companies to check whether it should be closed or stopped. Fortunately, I have never accepted any bribes before. I am ruthless at the moment, but I don’t feel sorry for it psychologically. of.

More people tried to bribe me, the shopping card was discarded and replaced with something more attractive, and some superiors even handed me a note to greet me.I have no desire to be promoted, and I am in the midst of the grief of losing a loved one. I feel a bit broken, and I don't want to show any sympathy.

I didn't care about the notice from the superiors, the performance at the end of the year was inexplicably reduced by more than half, the salary table was perfect, but Cary just had no money, and the little girl in charge of salary blushed when she saw me, I guess she was a little embarrassed.It’s just less money, I don’t care too much, and the retaliation was upgraded soon. All the projects that I have passed will always be suppressed. Any system that I want to implement will almost be criticized as useless. , Hard knives and soft knives are used in turn, and even colleagues and subordinates are wise and safe, keeping a proper distance.

It's just that they went too far and accidentally kicked the iron board. The first-class environmental assessment company under Zhang Chen's name was actually disqualified from the environmental assessment when there were no mistakes throughout the year.

Zhang Chen also changed his low-key style of acting, and directly warned the relevant personnel through the network. In addition to this matter, there was another sentence: "Chen Heping is my man, you should bully him lightly."

The leader gossiped with me with a smile, as if she wasn't the one who snubbed me before, and I also smiled and talked to her, sincere and gentle.

I thank Zhang Chen for this sentence, even though it is not true.I found that I found the meaning of my job, which is to be a person who is worthy of my conscience and follow the rules as much as possible.I don't know how long I can hold on, but I always want to hold on a little longer. In this case, the deceased grandpa will also feel relieved.Now that I'm alone, with nothing to worry about, there's nothing to be afraid of.

When I got off work that day, I saw Zhang Chen. He was standing at the door of my unit. He was wearing a suit. I don’t know when he cut his shoulder-length hair. of.

From last year to this year, it turns out that we haven't seen each other for nearly a year.

He took out a cigarette, lit it, stuffed it into his mouth, and said with a bite, "It's been a long time since we saw each other, let's talk."

Regarding the matter of grandpa, recently, I accepted his favor twice. I don't like to owe others. After thinking about it, I left without turning around.

So we found a quiet coffee shop, sat down and had a cup of coffee.

Zhang Chen stubbed out his cigarette butts before entering the coffee shop, and he still smelled faintly of tobacco. He just merged two old state-owned companies and opened several new projects. Quite a few, you don't need to look at it deliberately, and you know that the actress who is quite popular nowadays is his "confidante".

I didn't speak, and he didn't speak. He lowered his head and poked his phone, looking a little bored. Knowing that the waiter brought the order, he took the order and said, "A cup of black coffee, a cup of caramel macchiato."

"Two caramel macchiatos."

Zhang Chen glanced at me: "I don't drink sweets."

"Oh."

"It's good to drink once in a while, two caramel macchiatos, thanks."

He is a person who can put half a jar of sugar in braised pork, and he told me not to drink sweet ones, as if he was teasing me.

"Chen Heping."

"Ah."

"You miss me?"

"No."

Zhang Chen snorted and laughed.

I didn't know what he was laughing at, so I just let him laugh enough, and when he finished laughing, I picked up a tissue and wiped the corners of his mouth.

"Chen Heping, what is your current price? People say that you are very greedy, and you don't like cheap ones."

"Oh."

"I'll give you 1000 million, can I cover you for one night?"

"No."

"So expensive?"

"Well, Jin Diao."

Zhang Chen was stunned for a moment, then laughed again, and said sincerely, "You're doing a good job."

The waiter served two cups of caramel macchiato, and Zhang Chen poked the red heart on it with a small spoon: "Chen Heping, what's wrong with you recently, you want to die?"

"No."

"I've never seen you so righteous before."

I raised my coffee cup and took a sip: "I've always been like this."

"Nonsense, in the past you would be wise to protect your safety and make a detour, but now, it's a suicide bomb."

"Oh."

"I can't find my girlfriend, are you angry?"

I almost lost my grip on the coffee cup, so I raised my eyelids and glanced at Zhang Chen: "Nonsense."

"Chen Heping, I saved you this time, how can I repay me?"

"Thank you."

"Just a thank you?"

"Thank you."

"Two sentences?"

"You can say as much as you want."

Zhang Chen turned his head away, and cursed softly: "I'm stupid."

When he turned his head, his eye circles were red, and his sad appearance was so realistic that he didn't need eye drops at all.

"I miss you, Chen Heping."

"It's rare," I stirred the rest of the coffee with a coffee stick, "you and Wang Bing, Xiao Tian, ​​Paol, and others have sex, and you still have time to think of me."

Zhang Chen shrugged his shoulders and said nonchalantly, "You still understand clearly."

"You held a party at Haitian Shengyan, and you slaughtered entertainment news headlines for a few days."

"Oh, it seems that I can't fool you."

"Ah."

"Are you jealous?"

"Zhang Chen," I drank the coffee in the cup and wiped the corners of my mouth with a paper towel, "You'd better restrain yourself, someone from above is going to investigate, the relationship is too chaotic and high-profile, and accidents are prone to happen."

"I know it in my heart, you don't have to worry," he said steadily, but he leaned lazily on the seat, "Chen Heping, I came the day my grandpa left, and I was at the door. I called you, and you But he didn't accept it."

"Ah."

"Nothing to explain?"

"No."

"You are really cruel."

I have nothing to say, but I have no regrets about refusing to answer the phone at that time. Zhang Chen loosened his tie and continued, "I went to grandpa's funeral. I watched from a distance. You were so sad to see at that time."

"Thank you."

"No thanks, I'm going to Grandpa."

"Ah."

"You don't talk much today."

"nothing to say."

"It's a sad thing to say."

"Sorry, that's the truth."

"It's you, Chen Heping, if someone else said this, he wouldn't be able to get out of here completely."

"In a society ruled by law, don't engage in illegal activities."

Zhang Chen snorted and laughed again.

He beckoned the waiter to pay the bill, I transferred Alipay neatly, and said to him: "AA."

Zhang Chen transferred the money over again and doubled it ten times: "Play with me again, a hundred times."

My brain ached for a long time: "What are you doing?"

"I don't want to settle with you, to be an acquaintance who has to settle accounts when drinking coffee."

"Then what the hell do you want?" I had no choice but to simmer a fire in my heart.

"Chen Heping...I really miss you so much, I miss you so much that I can't sleep, and when I close my eyes, it's all about you."