my brother became a scum

"You always talk hard, but your heart is very soft." Zhang Chen rubbed the back of my hand with his fingers, as if playing with a plaything, "Chen Heping, I need you, please don't leave me."

"There must be a time limit, Chen'er, I'm tired."

"You only feel tired when you think too much, and you don't feel sad if you don't have to think about anything."

"I'm not stupid."

Zhang Chen came over and kissed me lightly on the cheek: "You are not a fool, but you are reluctant to part with me."

I seemed to be standing in the middle of an empty stadium, with spotlights from all directions blinding my eyes. Under Zhang Chen's gaze, I had no way to hide, couldn't hide. He took advantage of my weaknesses, but made a gentle and harmless appearance.

"I dont want you to go."

The corner of Zhang Chen's mouth curled up in a mischievous arc.

"But with you, I'm not happy. Even if I can't bear it, I have to learn to be willing."

He grabbed our interlocking hands, brought them to his mouth, and bit down hard.

It hurt so much that I frowned, but I didn't break free. The bright red blood gushed out from the back of my hand and stained his bright red lips. He lifted up a little, but licked the blood that emerged from the wound with his lips and tongue - alive and well. Like a vampire.

"Chen Heping, what do you want?"

I was silent, just watched the blood rolling out from the wound, and even the pain became insignificant.

"I'll give you whatever you want, okay? Don't talk about leaving anymore. You know it very well. I like you."

My eyes moved from the bright red blood to his bright red lips, and then paused at his still calm eyes, thinking for a while: "You scattered those people, just you and me, two people."

"Okay," Zhang Chen almost didn't think about it, and immediately agreed to me, his thumb pressed on my wound, causing more blood to flow out, "I promise you, don't fight with me in the future, inspector The group is also suffering, so don't go with them."

I'm not curious how Zhang Chen knew about the inspection team. I think Han Jin probably leaked the news, so he just replied, "Let's make an agreement?"

"What agreement?"

"The next time you bump into someone else, you and me, don't get entangled anymore?"

Zhang Chen laughed and replied "Okay", and after a while, added another sentence: "Can't even be friends?"

"Well," I don't know what's wrong, the words are heartless and serious, "Zhang Chen, we are one-on-one, if there is a third person in this game, there is no need to be friends."

Zhang Chen restrained his smile, but his fingers hurt me a lot. He asked seriously: "Why do you care about this? You only use the hole in the back, it's clean, I only let you touch it."

"Because," I took his hand, let him fall into my arms, and stretched out my arms to hug his waist, "I'm a man, and I'm also possessive."

"that's it?"

"that's it."

Zhang Chen rested his head on my chest and rubbed his cheek against my chest: "I thought you would have an awkward fight with me for a long time."

"No, I'm more afraid of trouble."

It's really troublesome, Zhang Chen's attitude is clearly that he doesn't want to let me go, I want to have a good time with him, and I don't want to make an ugly scene.I wasn't a tough character originally, Zhang Chen took a step back and promised not to mess around anymore, and I don't want to make a fuss anymore, it will affect my mood, work and sleep.

As long as the future lives smoothly, the past will be written off and it will be as if it never happened.

He kissed my lips, I hugged him tightly and kissed back tenderly, but I don't know why some pictures always flashed before my eyes.

There is snow covering the sky, there is Zhang Chen sitting with Xiaotian and calling me to eat, there is Zhang Chen entangled with the little boy, there is that half-exposed buttock...

It is impossible for Zhang Chen to maintain a dedicated relationship. I said that he agreed so much, but it was a foreshadowing for a complete separation.

I hugged him, he put his arms around my shoulders and looked at me obsessively, we fell on the soft mattress, eagerly tearing at each other's clothes, the back of our hands pressed against the white sheet, blood oozing again, Zhang Chen couldn't help leaning over to lick it.

"It will leave a scar." He licked my hand, smiling with crooked eyebrows.

"Yeah." I pledged this hand to him, and forced my way into his crotch.

He snorted, his body was very tight, his thighs were around my waist, but my waist was leaning towards me, instinctively catering to my desire.

The lust gradually subsided, I pulled out the evil root, rested for a while, then picked him up to take a bath, and after taking a bath to clean up, I hugged him back again.He was very energetic. He wanted to touch a cigarette when he hit the bed, so I grabbed his hand and put it on my waist.

"Why?"

"I don't like you smoking."

"I can't quit either." Zhang Chen blinked, but hugged my waist tightly, "I won't smoke in your bed from now on."

He was talking about being in my bed. Subconsciously, he was still thinking about someone else's bed, and it was hard to say whether it was on purpose or not.

I kissed his hair, and slid my fingers into his buttocks, and poked into his meat-hole.His body froze for a moment, but he leaned over and licked my Adam's apple—an obvious sexual implication.

He is an indulgent goblin, a haunting slut, and he looks so good when he is asleep.

His acting skills are so good, he can always give people the illusion that they shouldn't have. I inserted my fingers into his hair, trying to grab his hair and slam it against the head of the bed, but I gently combed his hair .

I hope he can keep his promise, but know that he must break his promise.Every day in the future may be the last day, maybe you don’t need to restrain yourself, you can do whatever you want.

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After Christmas, the relationship between me and Zhang Chen became ambiguous. Zhang Chen always held my hand. Over time, I also realized something.

I had a girlfriend before, but I'm not sure that I'm a straight man, but I know that Zhang Chen is so close to me, I don't feel disgusted.

I grew up with him, shared the darkest side, fought in group fights, talked about the mountains, and he started thinking about me at this time, from the initial fierce opposition to now, he even had the idea of ​​acquiescing .

I have watched AV, and also watched GV with Zhang Chen. At that time, I was eating the popcorn that Zhang Chen bought, and when I turned around, I found Zhang Chen was crying. I grabbed the popcorn and handed it to him, and asked him: " why are you crying?"

He ate the popcorn with my hand without mercy, and said while eating: "They heard that I was gay, and they hid far away, like hiding from the plague, just you, Chen Heping, what the hell are you You still treat me like a brother, even willing to watch GV with me."

"Sexual orientation is not very important. After finding the right person, just live a good life."

After that, Zhang Chen did not suffer because of his sexual orientation, but he did not listen to what I said next.

Zhang Chen and I climbed the Fragrant Hills to pick red leaves, went to the lavender fields to take photos together, and walked arm in arm through the Ginkgo Avenue, over and over again.

At the New Year's party, he played the guitar and sang love songs, but a message was written on everyone's wall.

"Brother, I want to be with you forever."

I was in the middle of the crowd, staring at the news, and it happened to be a love song in my ear.

"I like to be with you for a long time, the world is unpredictable, and you are by my side."

In just a few seconds, they were defeated, and their hearts were so soft that they were in a mess.

If you like me, if you want to be with me, if it makes you happy, then I'll do as you please.

At the end of the party, I walked out together with the crowd. The crowd became more and more dispersed, and it became darker and darker in front of my eyes, but my palm suddenly felt warmer.

"Brother Heping," Zhang Chen's voice rang in his ears, "I want to be with you."

I remained silent and didn't speak, but Zhang Chen held my hand tightly, standing in place and pulling me away.

I stopped where I was and faced him face to face: "Do you know what you're talking about?"

"I know," the lights on the stage in the distance flickered, occasionally illuminating Zhang Chen's face, he stretched out his other hand, and also held my hand, he said, "I just want to be with you Together."

Legend has it that ancient tribal people often held weapons such as stones or sticks in their hands.When they meet strangers, if no one has any malicious intentions, they should put down the things in their hands, and stretch out their palms, and let the other person stroke the palms, indicating that there are no hidden weapons in their hands.

I don't know how the ancients thought, but when Zhang Chen held my hand, I felt his sincerity, and I didn't refuse, in his eyes, it was acquiescing.

He laughed, but the light didn't turn over at that moment, so I couldn't see his expression clearly.

I forgot his excessively rich love history, and his uninterrupted lace news. I just think he likes me, so let him go.

Who told him to be my brother, who told him to be so good-looking, who told me that I didn't want to reject him.

Zhang Chen just moved into my house and bought a parking space downstairs.He is very spoiled, the bed is not comfortable to sleep on, and he changed it the next day, the sheets are not comfortable to sleep on, all the sheets in my house are thrown away, and there is a pile of piles in the new wardrobe, the unit price exceeds five figures .

Zhang Chen was lying on the newly replaced sofa, with his feet on my knees, holding up his mobile phone to chat with people on WeChat. I put down the Kindle in my hand and asked him, "What's the matter?"

"Help me cut my toenails." He really had the nerve to say.

"Cut it off yourself, don't order me."

"I can't cut it myself, it's full of holes." Zhang Chen wiggled his toes, and said lazily, "Brother, help me cut it~"

I cut him a big-headed ghost, I was so disgusted in my heart, but I couldn't control my hands, I touched the nail clippers in the frame of the coffee table, and started to cut carefully.

Zhang Chen's personal hygiene is good, there is no dirt or athlete's foot, I pinched his toes, and after a closer look, they were really bumpy, so I started to cut them, and asked him while cutting, "Why don't you find someone to give you Cut?"

"Isn't it necessary to pay attention to the image? Lying so lazily, it is easy to be misunderstood."

"Misunderstanding what?"

"Misunderstanding that I like him."

I finished cutting off one toe neatly and changed to another one: "You have slept with so many people, there must be a few you like."

"Why don't they like me to sleep with them... Grass, Chen Heping, you cut my flesh."

"It's not that the meat was cut, it's that your piece has grown into the meat, you have to pick it out and cut it, it hurts a bit, bear with it."

I said so, and just to be on the safe side, I still pressed my arm on his calf to prevent him from moving around. I inserted the nail clipper firmly into that piece, and picked out the edge of the toe cover. "Da—", cut Lost.

I let go of his arm, continued to cut his toenails, and continued to listen to Zhang Chen.

He said: "I like them because I want to sleep with them, but for you, I like you so I want to sleep with you."

I finished cutting the last toenail, took a small file and began to sharpen the cut edge, and casually dismantled his table: "Wanting to sleep is a kind of hobby in itself, you should study philosophy, go around, and also Give yourself the title of Love Saint."

Zhang Chen stopped talking, I finished grinding his toenails, thinking of sending the Buddha to the West, so I just started to massage - I learned to serve my grandfather with this hand, Zhang Chen is very lucky.

It's just that Zhang Chen didn't seem to appreciate it very much, he groaned in pain after a little pressing, and tried desperately to retract his legs, how could I let him succeed, and ruthlessly tugged at his feet, just all kinds of pressing.

Zhang Chen scolded me while tossing: "Chen Heping, you bastard."

I pressed the soles of his feet hard: "You are such a fucking bastard."

Zhang Chen opened his mouth, I thought he was going to scold me, but unexpectedly, he grinned and said with red eyes, "Yes, I'm a bastard. The bastard likes you, and has always liked you very much."

Zhang Chen has said many times that he likes me, but none of them seem to be as lethal as this one. He said it too sincerely, his eye circles were still red, I avoided his sight, and let go of his feet, I said, "Thank you for liking me."

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The biggest illusion Zhang Chen gave me was that he liked me and wanted to be with me.I have already done a good job of psychological construction, and I believe that he is pursuing me, and I started to hold his hand subconsciously, met with him frequently, practiced notes on the mobile phone, and changed from Zhang Chen to the more ambiguous "Chen'er".

I am a pessimistic person in my bones, I don’t think about the future, how long this relationship will last if it starts, I just think the time is just right, if it is Zhang Chen, I am willing to try it with him, even if I am not I know exactly what my feelings for him are.

During the New Year, I handed Zhang Chen a red envelope that had been wrapped long ago. Zhang Chen accepted it with a smile, and said that he would take me to a place.

There were few cars on the road, so he drove me to Xicheng, and I followed him into this overly luxurious neighborhood, and stepped into a house in Xicheng for the first time.

The room was well decorated and beautiful. Zhang Chen put the room card in my palm and said, "New Year's gift, for you."

"I don't need this." I always felt that something was ignored by me. At this moment, Zhang Chen became very strange, and even disgusted me, "Why did you give me the house?"

"We will live here from now on." Zhang Chen held my hand, the room card was sandwiched between our hands, like a thick door, "The dormitory is not convenient, bro, let's live together, okay?"

"Not good," blurted out the words of refusal, and I couldn't bear to see Zhang Chen's frustrated face, "Let's talk about it after graduation. For the time being, I still want to live in school."

"Yes, I listen to you." Zhang Chen smiled, but the smile didn't reach his eyes.