warm hearts

Time is elastic, and this elasticity often runs counter to human will.Most of the time, when people want time to pass quickly because of some negative emotions, it is always particularly difficult; and when people indulge in joy or busyness, it will quietly escape.Gao Xu's time always passes quickly, because he is always busy and teasing, even if he is alone, he can still have a good time; in contrast, Ji Xiaomin spends his time almost slowly. In the past 30 years, until the turn of summer and autumn, his time suddenly seemed to start flying at explosive speed.

But Ji Xiaomin didn't feel any discomfort - people's adaptability is always far beyond his imagination, especially when he is devoted to a certain matter.It is true that he has lost a lot of weight because of being busy, but he is full of energy, and even smiles a lot more than before.

Since the addition of Ji Xiaomin as a common topic, the chatting time between Bai Sen and Wang Ke on the Internet has also increased significantly compared to before.In the beginning, Bai Sen often knocked on Wang Ke suddenly, expressing shock and admiration for Ji Xiaomin and his "super stalker" who was extremely contrary to the appearance of his veteran cadres; later, it became Wang Ke who frequently asked Bai Sen, what is it? What caused his older brother, who is closer than his own brother, to approach the reverse age of three years old day by day both in appearance and spirit.

The decoration of the modification department of the car dealership was gradually completed during this process. Since the content of the decoration is actually not complicated, it will almost officially start operation in mid-August.Ji Xiaomin recruited a fresh graduate and a second-year work-study student from his previous school, plus a kid Gao Xu knew in the circle before, and finally got enough staff.

The first few deals were the back-to-store maintenance and decoration of the previously ordered vehicles. The more complicated one was the sidecar. It was said that it was lent to a certain crew as props, and almost the whole car had undergone plastic surgery; After taking it back from the filming, it was almost completely disfigured, so within a period of less than a month, Ji Xiaomin and the others gave the car another complete repair.

Maybe it's because of professional experience, maybe it's because of his personality, Ji Xiaomin always looks very calm when facing damaged vehicles.Although sometimes he would raise his eyebrows and lick his lips without speaking, but after seeing him a lot, everyone would understand that he was actually just thinking about where to start repairing, but rarely had any other emotions.

Gao Xu is just the opposite.Although he was laughing and joking all the time, and when he was repairing his Harley with Ji Xiaomin, he didn't reveal too much because he cared about Ji Xiaomin's mood, but in fact, whenever a damaged car was delivered, he would subconsciously frown .His nose bridge is high, and his eyes with single eyelids are narrow and long, with small eyeballs, so when he frowns, he will look fierce. Once, he frightened a little girl who just came to report for work because of this.

Ji Xiaomin also began to notice Gao Xu's emotional changes from that time - it was completely different from his usual cheerful and lively or chattering, sometimes he would even have a cold face, without saying a word for a long time.But there was not much emotional expression—his body movements were as usual, never giving away a sliver of it from his steps or even the subtle movements of his fingertips.

Ji Xiaomin was somewhat curious about this, so he tried to approach Gao Xu more than once under such circumstances, but was always accurately interrupted by his sudden gaze.

"What's the matter?" At that time, Gao Xu's gaze had long since lost the previous cold expression, but bluntly and frankly restored the spirit and agility that everyone is familiar with, sometimes a little mischievous.

This one-second switching of emotions is perfect. At the beginning, even Ji Xiaomin thought that he had made a mistake. He felt that Gao Xu's silence and expressionless face might be just because the surrounding atmosphere was very quiet at that time, and there was nothing to mobilize it. His emotional things happen, after all, it is impossible for anyone to always be full of emotions and always be high.However, after many times, Ji Xiaomin knew that he was not mistaken, but Gao Xu was too sensitive and too good at covering up.

He is noncommittal about this, because he knows that everyone has a way of self-protection, and he understands an adult's reservations about his emotions and attitudes.However, even so, he would still subconsciously pay attention to or just be aware of such emotional changes in Gao Xu, and look up at him when he was working alone without saying a word.

This may be some kind of empathy at work—Ji Xiaomin thought—even though he couldn't accurately interpret Gao Xu's emotions in words, for some reason, he just felt that he could understand, sometimes, even empathy.And since he empathizes with others, he can naturally extend himself to others, so whenever this happens, Ji Xiaomin will feel that there is a soft place in the bottom of his heart that is gently touched by something, which makes him unconsciously want to reach out to comfort him Gently patted Gao Xu's head.

At the end of September, the Mid-Autumn Festival, Gao Xu organized the first large-scale employee welfare of the car dealership before the holiday, and led all the staff to watch the singer M's concert. M is a trainee at the same time as Gao Xu. It has been ten years since his debut, and he has already made some achievements in the industry. This year's concert is the [-]th anniversary of his debut.

Gao Xu received the family and friends tickets at the beginning of September. There were two infield tickets in total. When he got them, Ji Xiaomin heard him complaining to the phone: "You are really enough, what do you mean by two tickets? I don't have a girlfriend. Bring me How do you divide the two tickets for a friend?"

"Hey, how did I hear that you have a date?" Gao Xu was installing an anti-theft radar on a newly ordered car at that time, and his mobile phone was placed on the seat cushion, and the voice message would be released when he clicked on it. "It doesn't matter if you don't have one." Well, if you want to bring more people, just buy a few more tickets~"

"If I go, you don't want to be ashamed. I can't afford your infield tickets, so I'll tell you. At this moment, can I snatch me?" As soon as the work at work stopped, I picked up my phone and opened the ticket grabbing software.

Ji Xiaomin was not far away from him at that time, and he saw it with a random glance, and inadvertently raised the corner of his mouth into a slight smile.

As a result, the extra infield tickets were not snatched, but Gao Xu still bought a few front-row tickets, counting each of the employees in the car dealership, and took them to support M on the eve of the Mid-Autumn Festival.The other family and friends ticket in the infield was naturally handed over to Ji Xiaomin, because Bai Sen was called by Wang Ke to save the scene for a commercial performance that day, so he couldn't go with him.

This is the first time for Ji Xiaomin to watch a concert in this position. When he was stuffed with a handkerchief in his hand and saw a camera sweeping in front of him, he instinctively wanted to hold up the piece of paper to cover his face.Gao Xu saw it at a glance, and immediately laughed "hahaha" three times, causing everyone from the front, back, left and right to turn their heads to look at them curiously.

Ji Xiaomin couldn't laugh or cry, but in the end, he squinted his eyes and gave him a sideways glance based on the mentality of being at ease when it comes. When the music started, everyone's attention turned to the stage, and this little episode was naturally heard. Passed by.

To be honest, there is a world of difference between listening to a concert live and watching a live broadcast on TV.Leaving aside the sound and lighting effects of the stage, etc., the atmosphere alone is enough to give full marks.People's emotions are all affected by the senses, even Ji Xiaomin, who is so quiet, is gradually moved by this warm atmosphere surrounded by all directions.

The stiffness and embarrassment at the beginning had long dissipated. When Ji Xiaomin waved his hands rhythmically with the crowd, he felt that the emotions in his whole body were mobilized by the melody mixed with darkness and light. It seemed that even every pore was filled with a passionate factor filled.Closing his eyes, he felt like a small boat carrying ups and downs on the dark night sea, even though the surroundings were empty and desolate, but his heart was in harmony with the heaven and the earth, and he could do whatever he wanted.

In addition, what impressed him very much was that Gao Xu around him sang along almost word for word from the beginning to the end—he was holding a lamp in his hand, and his voice was annihilated by the noisy shouts or sound effects in the sea of ​​people. , but Ji Xiaomin didn't know why he could hear it so clearly.

The concert lasted for two and a half hours. When the show ended, Ji Xiaomin and Gao Xu left with the crowd, and it was almost ten o'clock when they returned to the real streetlights.

Gao Xu presciently parked his car three blocks away from the traffic congestion around the performance venue. Therefore, when the traffic and the crowd began to compete for the road and taxis, the two of them instead I have already escaped first, and walked leisurely along a riverside scenery belt outside the venue, away from the hustle and bustle.

Gao Xu has not spoken since the end of the performance in the Wechat group of the car dealership, and everyone has been careful on the way home. The whole person presents a kind of silence that is completely opposite to the excitement at the concert.Although he couldn't see his expression, Ji Xiaomin still felt a kind of emptiness—similar to his own, but completely different, containing a long and distant sense of melancholy, and a seemingly vague but clear feeling. lost.

Feeling his empathy popping up again, Ji Xiaomin watched Gao Xu stop by a railing by the water, and timely handed out a cigarette.Gao Xu glanced at him, took it but didn't order it, just held it in his hand and played with it lightly, looking far away at an unknown point on the water surface in the distance.

The color of the water is deep, only the street lamps on the bridges on both sides of the river are reflected in it, and when the night wind blows, the ripples will pull the outline indistinctly.Neither of them spoke, but they seemed to have talked a lot. The collisions and frustrations of those past dreams and longings reflected in reality may be very different when they are said, but they are the same unwillingness and sighs when they settle down in their hearts.

The last night bus roared past and broke the silence, Ji Xiaomin lit his cigarette, as if he was about to sum up, he raised his hand and patted Gao Xu on the back.Pausing for a moment, he was about to retract his hand to grab the lighter and pass Gao Xu a light, but the man suddenly turned around and hugged him, buried his face on his shoulder, said "um" in a low voice, and dragged out sigh.

Ji Xiaomin was stunned for a moment, but then he became calm, pursing his lips lightly and shaking his head and laughing.Raising his hand again, he finally pressed his palm on the top of Gao Xu's hair, as he had imagined in his heart many times before, gently stroking the thorny hair in a comforting manner.

There is only one week between the Mid-Autumn Festival and the National Day this year, which directly led to the polarization of work efficiency during this week.Some people are busy doing the work at hand as much as possible and perfectly during the week, so that they can have no worries during the holiday; while other people have no intention of working at all, and just stay away from the holiday day by day the reciprocal of .

Of course there are people who can maintain a normal mind, such as Gao Xu who is busy running around all day and almost never rests. Except for the Lunar New Year, it is very rare to see him have any holidays throughout the year.Opening a car dealership this year, it is even more impossible for him to choose to rest on holidays, not to mention that the modified car order that he had contacted with Xia Yu before was launched half a month earlier than the original plan. The preliminary preparation of the order is enough for him to be busy.

Unexpectedly, when it came to the National Day, Gao Xu was idle instead, because the construction period of this batch of modified cars has been scheduled until the end of the year. In order to concentrate manpower, Gao Xu has stopped ordering new cars every two weeks since mid-September.The inventory in the warehouse before is almost enough to be pushed during the Lunar New Year renewal, so he hardly has any guests on this National Day.In the preliminary work of modifying the car, most of the work is in drawing. Gao Xu looks at the drawings and works well, but he knows nothing about drawing. At most, he can only run errands to help out to post pictures.So apart from running errands, Gao Xu actually rested for almost seven whole days, and even had more time to go to the gym than usual. On October [-], he went to work normally, and even Bai Sen couldn't help molesting He touched his chin and sighed in admiration: "This little face is so smooth."

In contrast, Ji Xiaomin looked extremely haggard.Drawing is an extremely rigorous mental work, which is very labor-intensive in the first place, but in order to control the labor cost to the greatest extent, Ji Xiaomin sent home Xiao Jiang, a child recruited by graduate Xiao Luo and Gao Xu from the circle, during the holidays. Only Xiao An, a work-study student who is studying mechanical drawing this year and plans to use the vacation to earn more money, was left to work together.

The girl Xiaoan is considered a half novice, although she works hard and is willing to work hard, but what she doesn't understand is what she doesn't understand, so Ji Xiaomin led her to do it in a semi-teaching manner.In this way, the energy spent is actually 1.5 times or even twice. Gao Xu is with them every day. Even though he cooks soup and soaks wolfberries in different ways, he still feels that he is visibly thinner.

I felt a little bit unbearable. One day when I came back from the gym, I found that Xiao An had gone home, while Ji Xiaomin fell asleep lying on the desk in the office. He finally couldn't help but said this to Ji Xiaomin very seriously after he woke up. The cooking method will not work.

"There is nothing that can't be done." Ji Xiaomin said, "This is the fastest way. There are six of us in total. If it is an assembly line operation, Bai Sen and Xiao An are weak, but Bai Sen's operation is better than Xiao An, and Xiao An is involved in the drawing. , so the overall thinking will be very clear, and we can be counted as five people when they join hands, which is exactly in line with the artificial configuration we originally designed."

"But if you break yourself down, not only will we lose one person, but we may not be able to function at all." Gao Xu didn't take it seriously, seeing his blinking eyes covered with bloodshot eyes, and his brows were tightly frowned.

"I won't collapse~" Ji Xiaomin stretched his waist, glanced at the time on the computer screen, saved the picture, and turned off the computer, "Look, I didn't stay up all night, and I didn't eat less, just to waste my brain And eyes, and I feel like I'm getting fat after being fed by you these days~"

"You fat fart!" Gao Xu stood up with a smile and brought Ji Xiaomin's coat to him, "I think if you are thinner, a typhoon will blow you away - there are still a few days to finish Huh? Hurry up and do it. Come with me to lift weights when it’s over. The gym is empty on National Day, so let’s take it back.”

"National Day is impossible~" Ji Xiaomin stood up, took the coat from him and put it on, and stretched his neck from left to right, "Go to work on the eighth, and add Xiao Luo and Xiao Jiang together, and we can go to work on the tenth." Done."

"Okay, go home and sleep first today. When you are really interested in lifting weights, I will be there on call." Gao Xu nodded, walked out of the car dealership with him, unlocked the car and let him get in the car first, then turned around and closed it. Store locked.

After getting in the car, he saw Ji Xiaomin leaning against the window and kneading his temples with his eyes closed. Gao Xu subconsciously licked his lips, then pursed the corners of his mouth. After arriving at the underground garage, looking at Ji Xiaomin's thin back slowly walking towards the elevator, he finally sighed lightly, and no longer admitted the slightest struggle - that is distressing.

[I don’t know if it’s because of my youthful appearance or because I’m laughing and joking like a child all the time. Many people around me have asked me if I’ve never been in a relationship.Of course, I categorically deny this—I'm almost thirty, okay?Even if the ignorant love affair in the youthful years is naive, it is an experience that cannot be erased.And although I sometimes seem neurotic and far-fetched, I have always seen feelings deeply, especially when the ignorance of youth is replaced by sobriety and maturity, and those simple impulses are replaced by inner touch. The deeper the seed, the more worthy of my caution.

Perhaps it is precisely because of this discretion that I always think twice when I need to make a conclusion about a relationship or a relationship.I'm certainly not the kind of fool who would confuse friendship with love, but I always have the habit of denying it three times before I really jump to conclusions.Just like before I finally admitted that I always feel distressed towards Ji Xiaomin from time to time, in fact, I have already denied my liking, missing and longing for him-I liked him the first time I met him, but I think it was just Because he is good-looking; I think of him almost every day during the year and a half when he went abroad, but I told myself it was because I promised to give him a morning call; after he returned to China, I wanted to see him immediately and knew that he was good at machine repair I really hope that he can come to the car dealership, but I convince myself that it is because I have the same goals as him, and he and I are actually the same kind of person. Although our experiences are very different, we have some kind of wonderful fate. In the same time and space, they share the same dream.However, on the night when the National Day holiday was coming to an end, when the obviously distressed emotion came to my mind clearly again, I couldn't make a fourth negative no matter what, and use any other emotion to express my feelings. Defines my long-standing... love for him.

——Gao Xu]

Just as Ji Xiaomin estimated, the preliminary preparations for the modified car finally ended at noon on October [-]th.After proofreading the last drawing, Gao Xu took Xia Yu to Party A to sign the drawing together, and after sending a video from the signing site, Ji Xiaomin snapped his fingers amidst the cheers of the three newcomers. He took a long breath and said: "It's done, go home and sleep! Xiaoan is too, take a good rest for the next two days, and I will leave the material stocking to Gao Xu and the others. Bai Sen, take time to familiarize yourself with the drawings. Everyone waits for the news to start work. "

"Then what do you do?" Gao Xu's voice came from the still-connected video after everyone dispersed, "I'll be back for a while, why don't you let Bai Sen take you back first?"

"No, I've been sitting around for too long, you can do your work." Ji Xiaomin took a sip of water and swallowed it slowly in his mouth. He yawned halfway through the sentence, and raised his hand to wave to Gao Xu. With a wave, hang up the video.

At this time, there was no one in the office, and the surrounding area became much quieter. The completely relaxed spirit and environment made Ji Xiaomin feel more drowsy. After several consecutive yawns, he didn't even have the desire to go back, he just wanted to close his eyes Go to bed quickly.Fortunately, the equipment for overtime work was still there during this time, so he dragged the military overcoat he brought from home from the chair, almost moved himself onto the sofa, and fell asleep with his head covered.

This time he fell into a drowsy sleep, and when he woke up from his sleep with a shiver, his eyes were already pitch black.Ji Xiaomin let out a light "hiss", blinked hard, and then saw a faintly lit red cigarette butt next to the desk next to him.

"Why don't you turn on the light?" Almost without distinguishing, the black shadow nestled behind the cigarette butt was Gao Xu, Ji Xiaomin sat up with his military overcoat folded, his voice was as tired and soft as his limbs just waking up.

"Didn't your eyes die from seeing the light? It's rare to sleep so deeply, so you didn't turn on the light." Gao Xu's voice came from the darkness, inexplicably tainted with a deeper meaning than usual.

Ji Xiaomin nodded, and struggled to pull his arms and neck, feeling that he was still awake, so he simply tilted his head and leaned on the back of the sofa: "What time is it?"

Gao Xu moved a bit, and it seemed that he looked at his watch.The trajectory of the cigarette butt turned around again, and it was higher, as if a cigarette was being sent into the mouth: "It's almost ten o'clock."

Immediately after the sound of footsteps, there was a "da" sound, and the lights on the top turned on.

The smell of cigarettes really became stronger, Ji Xiaomin subconsciously closed his eyes when the light was on, but stretched out his hand towards Gao Xu: "Give me one."

"It's gone, the last one." Gao Xu's voice had come to him at this time, accompanied by a handful of rising heat and the smell of burning tobacco.

Ji Xiaomin opened his eyes, and saw Gao Xu's hand holding the cigarette in front of him, raised his hand to take it, put it into his mouth, and took two deep puffs.

"I rely on you to be addicted enough." Gao Xu blinked, retracted his hands and put them in his pockets, sat down next to Ji Xiaomin, and stared at him with his head tilted.

"Not at all—just get up and refresh yourself." Ji Xiaomin was still leaning on the back of the sofa with a cigarette that was less than two centimeters left in his mouth, and he didn't even bother to help him. His long eyelashes trembled.

Gao Xu sat close, so he squinted his eyes because of the smoke, but he didn't hide, he still looked at him: "What time did you sleep?"

"I don't know, I hung up your video and fell asleep. What time was it? Is it three o'clock?"

Gao Xu thought for a while: "03:30."

"It's been more than six hours since I slept, and it's a big night." Ji Xiaomin finally finished smoking at this time, stretched a lot, got up and pressed the cigarette butt into the ashtray.

"Yeah, are you hungry?" Gao Xu didn't move, his eyes followed him as he stood up and walked to the table, opened the thermos to drink water, put the military coat on the back of the chair, and picked up the half-high collar next to him. Cotton clothes, I suddenly remembered that Bai Sen complained to him this morning, it's not too cold today, why is Teacher Ji wearing so many?

"I'm hungry, what should I eat?" Ji Xiaomin put on the padded clothes and turned around, her hair was a bit messy, but her eyes were bright, her cheeks were flushed from the sleep she had received before, which was set off by the light gray half-height collar, and she couldn't see it at all age.

Gao Xu suddenly felt that Bai Sen's complaints were ridiculous: What's wrong with wearing too much?Just like this, he still wanted to put a hat and mask on him again, wrap it more tightly, and hide it so that no one can see it—he stood up abruptly, and with his broad body, he stretched his arms over Ji Xiaomin's shoulders: "This point What else can I have? It’s cold and there’s nothing to eat at the food stalls—I’ll cook a bowl of noodles for you when I go back.”