Bailangbian

It is not difficult to buy a bus ticket as the peak period for summer students going home has passed.But Song Fengfeng couldn't buy a faster train, so he finally got on a green leather train.

The green leather train was slow and smelly.He sat between two carriages, and the sound of the train was harsh.Song Fengfeng dozed off on the back of the chair, half dreaming and half awake, remembering that there seemed to be such a time before.

Because Yu Dong said he missed him, he chose to go home immediately.At that time, a trip took only a few hours, which was much shorter than it is now.He set off in the afternoon and returned to Xing'an Street at night, but Yu Dong fell asleep and his phone was turned off, so he couldn't wake him up.

Song Fengfeng gnawed on the slice of bread in his hand, staring at the lush green flowing through the window.

Yu Dong also did such a thing before.A person went to another city to watch his game, but because he couldn't enter the stadium, he stood outside the big iron gate all afternoon, and finally went back without even eating.

Song Fengfeng always felt that he was so stupid at that time, he didn't think about anything, and went to meet someone immediately when he wanted to see someone.Even if there is only one side, it is good to see each other.When he went back to continue the game, his heart was still beating non-stop, and he was extremely happy-at that time, he was not sure why he was happy, but that feeling of joy was truly left in his body and memory .

It's the same now.

He misses Yu Dong, wants to see him, wants to talk to him, wants to ask some questions, even wants to hug him.Yu Dong's hair should still be soft, and his skin should still be fair, and it's easy to turn a little red because of a few words of his own.He saw that there was always an unconscious smile in his eyes, and some extremely boring words could make him laugh for a long time.When he raised his fingers quietly where others couldn't see, Yu Dong would still show a nervous and complacent smile, the corners of his mouth would curl up, and the corners of his eyes would bend a little.

But it's been three years.Song Fengfeng counted his fingers.

Has Yu Dong changed?he does not know.

Because I don't know, I feel timid in vain.

After eating a few barrels of instant noodles in the car and sleeping a little, Song Fengfeng cheered up: there are still a few hours to go.But when he was about to enter the province, the car stopped.

The typhoon crossed the border, and all trains were temporarily suspended.

They were forced to get off at a small station and wait for an announcement.

Song Fengfeng turned on the data on his mobile phone to watch the news, and found that the typhoon swept across his hometown just yesterday, and now it is constantly moving northward, and its intensity is gradually weakening.

The wait was too tormenting, he was restless, so he simply called Zhang Jing.

"Have you returned home yet?" Song Fengfeng cut to the chase, "Do you know that Yu Dong is back?"

Zhang Jing couldn't answer Song Fengfeng's question, "uh" for a long time.

Originally, this year's summer vacation, he planned to go to Beijing with Guan Chuyang to visit Song Fengfeng again.The itinerary was all planned, but when the holiday was about to come, he suddenly changed the plan and temporarily canceled this trip to Beijing.

"Zhang Jing?" Song Fengfeng asked again on the other end of the phone, "Is the signal bad? Did you hear me? I'm trapped..."

Guan Chuyang looked at Zhang Jing, then turned his head and stared at the young man sitting opposite them with a look of spectatorship.

The young man had a fair face and delicate eyebrows and eyes. At this time, because of the eyes of Zhang Jing and Guan Chuyang, his lips were tightly pursed, and his brows were frowning to show a nervous expression.There are faint dark circles under his eyes, and he looks more haggard and tired because of the shadow cast by his forehead.

"You're talking about Yu Dong..." Zhang Jing dragged out his voice, "He's sitting opposite Chu Yang and me."

The young man closed his eyes, then angrily kicked him under the table: "Zhang Jing!"

Zhang Jing hid quickly: "I rely on Yu Dong, why don't you change your habit of kicking people? You are the same as Hei Feng, kicking people when you are unhappy."

Song Fengfeng stood by the window of the train station with a blank expression on his cell phone.

The small station area is small, clean and tidy.The long and narrow glass windows were covered with a thin layer of dust, but the strong sunlight still shone in, making half of Song Fengfeng's body warm.

"Who is in front of you?" Song Fengfeng confirmed that he heard correctly, "Did you see him?"

"Yu Dong, I'm talking about Yu Dong." Zhang Jing emphasized, "You miss Yu Dong day and night."

Yu Dong slightly lowered his head and lowered his voice threateningly: "Enough!"

Zhang Jing looked at Yu Dong, and said to the phone: "Do you want to talk to him?"

Yu Dong immediately shook his head, and Song Fengfeng, who was on the other side of the phone, suddenly fell silent.

Yu Dong froze for a moment, staring at Zhang Jing's cell phone.

Zhang Jing thought that the signal was not good, so he simply put the phone on the table and turned on the speakerphone, and said hello to the phone twice.

Song Fengfeng's voice came out with hesitation and nervousness: "Really? You didn't lie to me?"

Zhang Jing blinked.

Yu Dong stared at the phone tightly.Guan Chuyang couldn't bear it anymore, and pushed him a bit: "Say something."

"...No." Yu Dong suddenly stretched out his hand and hung up the call, "It's not the time yet."

Zhang Jing and Guan Chuyang sighed together: "You."

"Heifeng came back suddenly because he knew you were going home." Zhang Jing told Yu Dong, "Don't you know how far it is from Beijing? He didn't plan to go home this summer. all because of you."

Zhang Jing pressed out the address book and handed his mobile phone to Yu Dong.

"This idiot went to Beijing to study for three years. He didn't even change his mobile phone number. He used the old number and the new one. No one calls his old number, but he still pays every month, just because he is afraid that you will want to call him. Can't find it."

Yu Dong looked at the eleven numbers on the screen that he had never forgotten.

"Heifeng is very straightforward and stupid. He never gave up on you." Zhang Jing said, "But no matter how stupid a person is, he will be sad. You can't do that."

Yu Dong shook his head again.

"You don't need to worry about your father. He doesn't have time to worry about you and Heifeng now." Zhang Jing lowered his voice, "He has already stepped half of his foot into the hole we dug, hasn't he?"

After the phone was hung up, Song Fengfeng quickly called Zhang Jing back, but this time no one answered.

He walked back and forth in front of the window, thinking about what Zhang Jing said.When Yu Dong came back, Yu Dong sat in front of him.

In other words, Yu Dong and Zhang Jing had contacted and were meeting each other—but Zhang Jing hadn't said a single word to him!

Song Fengfeng scratched his hair restlessly.

After Zhang Jing went to Shanghai to study, he felt like a fish in water. When he was a sophomore, he and Guan Chuyang worked together to write programs, integrated the subject resources of various key universities in the university city, and established a mutual aid platform for subjects.As soon as the platform appeared, it became very popular immediately. It not only provided a reliable reference for those who took courses across schools, but also many people were keen to share their learning methods and experience in applying for foreign schools on the platform.

Beginning this year, Guan Chuyang added social functions to the platform.The social function based on interdisciplinary mutual assistance is very popular, but occasionally Zhang Jing and Guan Chuyang would complain to him, and many people began to buy and sell answers and even conduct some illegal transactions on it.

Song Fengfeng liked to hear them talking about these things with him.This is very, very new to him.

After the social function that Guan Chuyang was in charge of was launched, Zhang Jing and her were busier, and the time spent chatting with Song Fengfeng was also reduced.There seems to be countless user data behind this social function. Song Fengfeng doesn't quite understand it, but Zhang Jing said that data will become more and more important in the next few years. use.

"We are now studying the platform functions on the smartphone side." Zhang Jing once said that they have obtained certain technical authorizations.

It's okay for Song Fengfeng to have heard about these things, he won't remember them very clearly, he only knows that Zhang Jing and Guan Chuyang are now devoting themselves to interesting careers.

Regarding career issues, Zhang Jing knew that he was not very interested and could not understand, so every time he talked, he only talked about something interesting.Song Fengfeng never thought that Zhang Jing would hide himself about Yu Dong.

Among all the people around him, only Zhang Jing understood his relationship with Yu Dong best.

The more Song Fengfeng thought about it, the more angry he became. Seeing that the train still had no intention of leaving, he grabbed his mobile phone again, planning to call Zhang Jing and scold him, and then asked him for Yu Dong's contact information.

I just opened the communication record, and suddenly there was an incoming call.

It was an unfamiliar number he didn't recognize.

Song Fengfeng stayed for a while, then hurriedly pushed the phone away: "Hello?"

There was no sound from the other end, but I heard thin breathing and the sound of the rolling waves.

Song Fengfeng took a deep breath, without hesitation: "Yu Dong?"

Yu Dong hadn't heard Song Fengfeng's voice for a long time.

But it was strange that when Song Fengfeng spoke, he immediately confirmed that Song Fengfeng's voice had not changed.

He met Zhang Jing and Guan Chuyang before, in the small dining bar opposite the church, where he could see the sea.

No matter how small a city is, in this era, three years is enough to undergo earth-shaking changes in a corner.

The small square in front of the church has shrunk, and many shops have been built around the square, forming a small pedestrian street.The beach has narrowed, the sand seems not so white, and there are shops selling fireworks all year round.The old priest in the church has changed, and the outer wall has also been painted, so new that it looks a little strange.

The only things that remain unchanged are the mountains and the sea, and the Phoenix trees that bloom every year beside the road.

Yu Dong walked up and down on the beach, finally stood still, and carefully called Song Fengfeng.

He didn't even dare to speak, he was too scared.Even though Zhang Jing had repeatedly said that Song Fengfeng hadn't changed in any way, he was still afraid: because of his naivety and lack of thoughtfulness many years ago, he had an unspeakable apology to Song Fengfeng.

Song Fengfeng called him again: "Yu Dong."

This time it's not a question, but a real confirmation.

"I know it is you."

Yu Dong replied bluntly, "Long time no see."

"When did you come back?" Song Fengfeng asked him, "How is Mama Zhou?"

When Yu Dong returned to China, he didn't return here immediately, but went back to Yu Qiaoshan first.But a few days later, Yu Qiaoshan received the notification that Zhou Lan had suffered a stroke and was sent to the hospital, and Yu Dong rushed over immediately.Zhou Lan has several relatives here, she was born and raised here.

Yu Qiaoshan asked Yu Dong to go back, but Yu Dong ignored him.He kept Zhou Lan in the hospital until she woke up.

Because of timely detection and treatment, no particularly serious sequelae were left.When Zhou Lan woke up and saw Yu Dong, she was still able to hold his hand and shed tears silently.

Yu Dong babbled about Zhou Lan's affairs, and Song Fengfeng listened quietly.

In his impression, Yu Dong rarely said so many things in one breath.

Yu Dong was nervous.Song Fengfeng knew.

After talking about Zhou Lan, Yu Dong paused, and soon talked about Zhang Jing with Song Fengfeng.

At the beginning of this year, Zhang Jing had already registered a company. In addition to Zhang Jing, Guan Chuyang and one of their senior brothers, this company also had Yu Dong as a partner.Yu Dong is only responsible for paying money and contacting technical authorities to help solve the problem, and basically doesn't care about the rest.

In the end, he seemed hesitant.

"I... Zhang Jing and I are doing something." He hesitated, "This matter is very important to me."

Song Fengfeng: "Yes."

Yu Dong hesitated for a long time, as if he couldn't speak directly: "Maybe I can get back what belongs to my mother through this matter."

Song Fengfeng said softly: "Is it difficult?"

"It was difficult at the beginning, but now we have been preparing for nearly a year. Once it starts, the next step is very simple." Yu Dong talked about his life there.

After going abroad, it was difficult to adapt at first.Yu Qiaoshan's family had relatives who lived in that city, and Yu Dong directly lived in this uncle's house.Because of Yu Qiaoshan's advice, they initially thought that Yu Dong was an extremely difficult person to control, and they treated him very strictly, but soon, Yu Dong plunged into the school and various subjects, and instead became a child more than theirs. People who have to worry about it.

Studying abroad is not easy.Of course there were also easy ways to study the Fa, but Yu Dong didn't mix with those people.He is lonely and silent. He is studying every day except for studying. Sometimes because he is too sleepy, he often sits on the subway without knowing.

"Of course there are also very happy things." Yu Dong laughed, "You know, their festival customs are different from ours. Even if it's Halloween, they have to be lively and happy. I have learned to cook a lot of dishes now. It’s the same style, but some ingredients are not available there, and the taste will become very strange after using substitutes. By the way, Lao Ganma, you know, it is very popular..."

He spoke quickly and hurriedly, as if he used this hasty conversation to avoid some awkward moments, to avoid hearing things he didn't want to hear.

"Yu Dong." Song Fengfeng interrupted him suddenly.

Yu Dong stopped immediately.

Song Fengfeng hardly hesitated: "I miss you very much."

The sound of the waves seemed to grow louder.It was high tide, low-flying seagulls were chirping, the whistle of fishing boats returning to port and the bell of the naval base rang together.

Among these voices, Song Fengfeng heard Yu Dong's choked sobs with a strong nasal voice.

"Me too...I miss you...I miss you every day..." Yu Dong stammered, covering his eyes and sobbing.

During the three years of separation, Song Fengfeng actually imagined many times, what should he say if he and Yu Dong meet again.

It is impossible to say not to be angry.He was angry, and even rushed to the playground to howl angrily after drinking, and was finally dragged back to the dormitory by his roommates.

Sometimes in his imagination, he lived a better life than Yu Dong, with a happy life, a wealth of wealth, and arrogance; while Yu Dong was stunned in front of him, full of regret.

Most of the time, Song Fengfeng knew that their reunion might not be thrilling or shocking, just like two ordinary friends meeting on the road, saying hello to each other, and then saying goodbye.Yu Dong might get married——Song Fengfeng thought to himself, after all, he didn't know whether Yu Dong only liked boys or only him.So in his imagination, Yu Dong sometimes took his wife and children with him, and sometimes held hands with other men.

All outsiders are unclear, only Yu Dong's face is exactly the same as Song Fengfeng's memory.

But because of this, he had already thought of all the possibilities, and said all the words in his heart countless times.When we really meet again, only the best and most urgent sentence will stop on the tip of the tongue.

我 很想 你.

Yu Dong has been crying softly, his words are vague and confused.

He has too many things in his heart that he cannot tell others, and he can only open them to Song Fengfeng alone.But during these long three years, he didn't even have the courage to say a word to Song Fengfeng.

Before leaving home, in order to let Yu Dong know that he really has the ability to destroy Song Fengfeng's current life, Yu Qiaoshan brought back some things for Yu Dong, including Song Fengfeng's college entrance examination report card, a copy of his father's first officer's certificate, and his The living conditions of a mother who has long been out of touch.

Yu Qiaoshan believed that his son had always been normal and was completely led astray by Song Fengfeng, so it was strictly forbidden for Yu Dong to have any contact with Song Fengfeng.Yu Dong is not afraid that he will deal with him, but he is afraid that he will deal with Song Fengfeng.

He didn't want Song Fengfeng to lose hope, and even follow Brother Long's path.

Brother Long is very kind to them, but there is always a crisis in him.Yu Dong didn't want this possibility to appear in Song Fengfeng's life, even if it was only a little bit, he didn't want it.

And Yu Qiaoshan's thoughts were exactly the same.Yu Dong believed that it was because he was by Song Fengfeng's side that Song Fengfeng went on the "wrong path".

This is his unspoken fear.Once he makes a mistake, he will drag the person he likes into the abyss and never climb up.

But after three years of absence, Song Fengfeng still told him that he misses you.

Yu Dong didn't dare to cry too loudly. In order to suppress his voice, he clenched his hands into fists and pressed them tightly against the seawall.

"Don't cry..." Song Fengfeng whispered, "I just want to cry, and you just ran away without a word."

Yu Dong apologized to him again, saying "I'm sorry" over and over again.

Song Fengfeng pressed his forehead against the warm windowpane, and repeated every sentence of Yu Dong's apology: "It's okay. It's okay..."

His eyes were moist, his voice was gentle, but his hands were tightly clenched into fists.

If Yu Dong was right in front of him, he would hold Yu Dong in his arms, kiss his hair, and protect him tightly and comprehensively, regardless of the occasion and the crowd.

Not without complaints and anger.But these are nothing.

He believed that Yu Dong was going through the same pain and suffering as he was.They are all groping and waiting for the day when they will meet again.

"Good boy." Song Fengfeng said to Yu Dong, "I'll be home soon. You will pick me up, right?"

But Yu Dong was leaving that night.

He has to go back to school for an important meeting.

Song Fengfeng was depressed again: "Then I won't see you when I go back?"

Regarding the reason why he left without saying goodbye three years ago, Yu Dong promised to make it clear to Song Fengfeng when they meet again.This matter is related to a certain trap that he and Zhang Jing plotted. Before everything was in place, Yu Dong was very cautious.

Song Fengfeng agreed and asked him when he could meet.

"Chinese New Year." Yu Dong replied with certainty, "I will come back for Chinese New Year. If it goes well, I will stay in China forever."

"That's fine." Song Fengfeng nodded seriously, "Then I want to ask you something."

Yu Dong became nervous: "Say it."

Song Fengfeng cleared his throat: "Have you ever been in love outside?"

Yu Dong was silent for a moment, and seemed to laugh.

he laughed.Song Fengfeng breathed a sigh of relief, and continued to pretend to ask seriously: "Have you talked about it?"

Yu Dong: "We talked about it."

Song Fengfeng never expected it to be this answer, he lost his joking heart, and his whole body tensed up: "Male or female?"

Yu Dong quickly replied: "There are all of them."

Song Fengfeng: "Really?"

Yu Dong: "...It's fake."

This time it was Song Fengfeng's turn to smile: "You still want to lie to me. You said you would never lie to me."

"Yes." Yu Dong replied in a low voice, "I will definitely come back during the Spring Festival."

"You have to keep your word." Song Fengfeng was still a little nervous, "I'll give you another half a year, and you can figure it out. I'm very popular, and many people in the school chase me."

Yu Dong: "Oh? Male or female?"

Song Fengfeng: "All of them!"

Yu Dong didn't ask whether it was true or not, he kept laughing, and finally said a word casually.

"It's normal. You're so nice."

Song Fengfeng finally returned home, first went to see Zhou Lan, and then went to guard Zhang Jing's house early the next morning, gearing up to beat him up.

Under Song Fengfeng's fist, Zhang Jing had to tell a part of the truth.

One day after Yu Dong went abroad for more than a year, Guan Chuyang's cell phone suddenly received a text message.

A few days later, Guan Chuyang came to Zhang Jing's dormitory with his computer, and the two officially contacted Yu Dong.Yu Dong didn't use any common social tools, and he hadn't logged in to QQ for a long, long time.He first found Guan Chuyang's mobile phone number from the broken Nokia. Fortunately, Guan Chuyang's mobile phone number is still in use.

After confirming the current situation of Zhang Jing, Song Fengfeng and others with Guan Chuyang, Yu Dong was relieved to let her disclose his news to Zhang Jing. He even begged Zhang Jing and Guan Chuyang not to tell Song Fengfeng everything about him.

"Don't let me know? What are you guys doing?" Song Fengfeng grabbed Zhang Jing, "Isn't it something like drug smuggling?"

"Is it possible? That Yu Dong of yours." Zhang Jing shook off him, "It's not important to you or me, but it's a big deal to Yu Dong."

Song Fengfeng was dubious: "What does that have to do with you?"

"It's good for me." Zhang Jing paused, then added, "To be precise, it's good for our company."

Song Fengfeng sat up straight.He just didn't like to think before, but the matter was related to Yu Dong, and his brain that had not been used for a long time quickly turned around.

"Yu Dong found a way to bring down his father?" He couldn't help lowering his voice, "Is it reliable?"

"I don't know if it's broken or not. Once it succeeds, it will definitely hurt my vitality." Zhang Jing covered his mouth, "Okay, I'll stop here, that's all I can say."

Song Fengfeng felt very uncomfortable: "I'm not happy."

"He's protecting you." Zhang Jing twisted his neck, "I don't know the specifics, but... you trust him, right? Then keep trusting."

"Of course I believe him." Song Fengfeng said immediately.

Sometimes Yu Dong replied to the emails Song Fengfeng sent to Yu Dong, sometimes he didn't.

He seemed very indifferent, but every time Song Fengfeng's mail arrived, Yu Dong would definitely open it within a minute at most.

Song Fengfeng often looked at the mail receipt and laughed.

He is a direct person, likes to express, and he will open up when he has something to say.But Yu Dong was not.Yu Dong is very bored and stubborn, all tenderness and affection are hidden deep in his heart, and he will not give them easily.

Song Fengfeng likes Yu Dong like this.He had never felt that time passed so slowly. Autumn came too late, and winter came too late.I want to hear the explanation of everything from Yu Dong, I want to know what he and Zhang Jing are planning, but more importantly, I want to see him and touch him.

When the first snow fell, he took a photo and sent it to Yu Dong.Yu Dong replied to him very quickly: I am here too.

Song Fengfeng was so happy that he ran and yelled in the school with his mobile phone in hand, pretending that he and Yu Dong were on both sides of the earth, sharing the same snowfall.

Senior students have no classes anymore, and everyone is either busy writing papers for exams or busy looking for jobs.

Song Fengfeng officially retired from the school's football team, just in time for the seniors to return to school, so they stayed for a few days, having dinner and drinking.

On the day he boarded the train home, an unknown number sent him a message.

"My new number, save it."

The signature is Yu Dong.

Song Fengfeng called him, and Yu Dong told him that he was already at Zhou Lan's house.

Zhou Lan has already been discharged from the hospital, and now she is recovering from exercising every day. She can walk around Xing'an Street several times with a cane, and it is not a problem at all to chase cats, dogs, and children.

"Wait for me." Song Fengfeng said, "Don't run away."

"I won't pick you up. Grandma is alone at home, and I will accompany her."

Song Fengfeng thought that it doesn't matter, you have to accompany me for the next month.

During the Spring Festival travel season, the stations are extremely crowded and the trains are frequently delayed.When he returned to Xing'an Street, it was already past nine o'clock at night.

He kept calling Yu Dong until his mobile phone ran out of battery, Song Fengfeng got off the taxi, dragged his suitcase and walked quickly to Zhou Lan's house, when he suddenly found a person leaning on the lamppost of Yuhe Bridge.

The tall and thin young man turned his back to him, looking at the lights in the other direction.From here, you can vaguely see the statue of Mazu on Wutou Mountain, and the lights illuminate her compassionate face.

It was the Laba Festival, and I don’t know whose children pestered the adults to set off fireworks, and a bright beam of light flew into the sky and exploded with a bang.

The young man's hair is illuminated by the lights, just like this warm winter night, it makes people nostalgic.

He was waiting for himself again.Song Fengfeng couldn't hold back the smile on his face at all, but there were sour tears in his eyes.

"Yu Dong!" He shouted at the people on the bridge.