together for a moment

When Lian Jueliang walked into the room, the first thing he saw was the untouched meals on the table. There was a tray for morning, noon and evening, and the heat and aroma had long since disappeared.He didn't need to speak, the black suit had already walked in front of him, leaned over and reported respectfully: "Mr. Du hasn't had a drop of water all day." After hearing this, Lian Jueliang's face darkened a little, and he waved his hand to ask him to back down, and walked to the place by himself. Next to Nick's bed, Nick is not sleeping, sitting on the bed with a few pillows on his back, his dark eyes are like a quiet pool in the forest, looking at him quietly, saying: "Brother, I don't like this , let me go."

"Why don't you eat?" Lian Jueliang touched his face, his tone seemed to scold the child.

Nick tried to dodge, but he had no strength and the re-stitched wound hurt when he moved. He gave up struggling and expressed his dissatisfaction in words: "I'm afraid to eat something casually, and I don't know where I am when I wake up from sleep."

"You don't have to go anywhere, Pianpian," Lian Jueliang sat down next to him, and said softly, "This is the Toutian villa I bought recently. There are gardens in the front and back of the three-story building. I remember you like it." There is greenery in life, the air and environment here are very good, you can rest assured to recuperate here.”

"Where's my mom?" Nick asked him.

"Mama Du cannot leave the hospital because of her condition. I have arranged for a nurse to take care of her. You can rest assured." Lian Jieliang explained patiently.

"Brother, thank you for your arrangement, but I want to leave tomorrow." Nick's gaze was as firm as his tone.

"I'll let you go when you recover from your injuries," Lian Jueliang said.

"Forget it, I'm leaving now." Nick lifted the quilt and was about to get up.

"Pianpian! Why are you disobedient?" Lian Jueliang pushed him back to the bed viciously, and roared, "You have injuries all over your body, and you can't even take care of yourself. Where are you going to go when you leave? Are you going to find someone surnamed Zhao? He What can I do for you?"

Nick looked at the pair of eyes he had known for half his life, familiar yet unfamiliar, what was familiar was the unchanging care and attention for him between the brows, what was strange was the paranoia that he had never noticed but was exposed naked now with madness. Nick shrank to the side instinctively and looked away, but Lian Jueliang held his cheek and forced him to look at him, and said word by word loudly: "We have known each other since we were young. Follow me everywhere, pretending to be me in your eyes and heart, what made you change your mind?"

Nick was restrained and didn't want to dodge. There are many things that he thinks it's a kind of consideration not to expose, but the facts that are dug out are often unsatisfactory.However, his self-conceited kindness caused Lian Jueliang to sink deeper and deeper. Now that he has gone mad to this point, the person who tied the bell needs to be untied, and he must give him a slap in the face.

"Yes, when we were young, our parents worked hard in their careers and had no time to take care of the children. Since I was in kindergarten, you took me to school, picked me up after class, and steamed the prepared meals at night. If you want candy, you can buy it for me, do your homework together, and play police and thief games and run around the house." Nick's deep and magnetic voice is like a documentary narration, "You are five years older than me, and your classmates are still there. When you were watching cartoons, you borrowed my comics. When you were obsessed with pop music in class, you started to listen to jazz from me. When I followed other girls’ skirts, you had already rejected a lot of love letters, and you were vaguely aware of your sexuality. .”

"Brother, I adore you. You always walk in front and help me open windows and let me know many interesting and fun things first, so I will follow you wherever I go." Nick smiled lightly. He didn't eat anything on the table, his face was white and bloodless, his round eyes were calm and indifferent, and he had a fairy-like attitude, as if he had seen everything through, "I don't have any brothers, but maybe my own brother is no more than that." In this way, I often wondered afterwards, how much family affection was in our youthful love?"

"Pianpian..." Lian Jueliang's hands holding Nick's face trembled.

"Later your parents objected to us and sent you abroad with strong means. Suddenly, you lost your closest brother and friend. There was no bosom friend, and listening to music and reading comics was no fun. During that time, I was very painful and lonely. Every day I miss you." Nick raised his hand to cover Lian Jueliang's, palm against the back of his hand, and stated the most sincere confession, "When I miss you, I practice the piano for more than ten hours a day. My mother couldn't stand it anymore, so she drove me out of the house to see the outside world. At first I just wandered around in the city, but gradually I became more courageous, so I jumped on the bus and went to the suburbs to see the mountains and rivers. In the future, I will like self-guided travel for the night, get lost and transfer to a hotel by myself, record the joys and sorrows of the trip in a picture book, I will still miss you, I don’t know what kind of scenery you saw in a foreign country.”

"But I like to travel alone more and more. I will meet many people on the way and experience many encounters and partings. It is of course good if there is someone beside me who can share the magnificent scenery on the journey. If there is no one, I will taste it alone. It has a flavor, maybe it’s because I’ve grown up or maybe it’s because I’ve broadened my horizons, and I’ve come to understand that there are times when things come and go, and you can’t force it.” Nick took his hand off, held it in his palm and squeezed it, “I’m in a foreign country The moment I heard that you are going to get married, it is still inevitable to be disappointed, and we will each go on different paths in the future, but I sincerely wish you well."

"Don't say it, Pianpian, don't say it anymore..." Lian Jueliang pressed his hand on his chest, his heart beat so painfully under the skin and bones.

"Later, I also met someone I liked on the trip. He was on a business trip to India for the first time. He was a fool, but when I was in trouble or sick, he stepped forward without hesitation. I couldn't walk. He just carried me on his back, and he stretched out his arms to hug me on painful and cold nights, I like his reliability and gentleness very much.” There was no hesitation in Nick’s clear and bright pupils, his emotion was as pure as his eyes, “Brother, now is your blessing I’m gone, we’re still brothers for life.”

"I don't want to! I've worked hard for so long not to be your brother!" Lian Jue yelled hissingly, he clasped Nick's shoulders and shook them, the fractured left shoulder couldn't help the force, and Nick wrinkled his face in pain In a ball, he still gritted his teeth and didn't make a sound, letting him vent.

"Stay by my brother's side, okay, just like when I was a child." Lian Jueliang coaxed him tremblingly after the outburst of anger, his eyes were red.

"Brother, I have someone I like, and I can't stay by your side." Nick's calm tone was almost heartless.

The obvious facts pierced through Lian Jueliang's heart like a sharp knife. He was like a beast driven to a corner, his eyes were stained red with anger and sadness, and his back molars let out a low growl, throwing away Don't be irrational even if you are demeanor, leaned over and pressed Nick roughly and kissed him. Nick regretted the hunger strike so much that he didn't even have the strength to resist. He bit Lian Jueliang's lips mercilessly, hoping that the pain could be exchanged. The other party is a little sober, but even Jue Liang is not sober and does not flinch. This is really not a kiss, it is more like two pairs of dogs biting each other.

It wasn't until Nick picked up the water glass next to the bed and poured it on top of Lian Jueliang's head that the absurdity ended.

Nick lost his strength and lay on the head of the bed, gasping for breath, and it took a while to recover.

He looked up at Lian Jueliang, with contempt and regret in his eyes at the same time, he said: "It seems that even brothers can't do it. You always say that I have changed, but in fact you are no longer the Lian Jueliang I know. .Your father secretly emptied my father's rights, indirectly kicked him out of the company that he had cultivated for 30 years, and promoted you to be the general manager. Don't you know this at all? Now it seems that your methods are similar to your father's. , are all so selfish and will do whatever it takes to achieve their goals.”

The neatly combed hair was messed up by the splash of ice water, Lian Jueliang was more obsessive and frightening besides his embarrassment, he licked the bloody wound at the corner of his mouth, neither denied nor responded to Nick's accusation, just took out a handkerchief to wipe Liao put his face into a smile, at first he just hummed and chuckled, but then he couldn't hold back his posture, and laughed until his whole body trembled.

"What's so funny?" Nick looked at him coldly.

"If you say that about me, aren't you selfish?" Lian Jueliang asked him back, "Have you ever thought that your innocence, romance, and open-mindedness are all based on the pain of others."

"What do you mean?" Nick asked him sullenly.

"What have you paid between us?" Lian Jueliang stretched out his hand to loosen the tie, unbuttoned two buttons, pulled a chair and sat down beside the bed, "I fought against my parents for our relationship, and I fought with my lover and family. You are lucky that your family supports your sexuality and you don't have to make such a choice, so you never know what kind of torture it is. I opened the window on the sixth floor that night, and you know that jumping from that height takes How much courage is it?"

"I can't wrong my parents and I can't bear to wrong you. I can only work hard abroad by myself, finish my studies early, take over the company to marry and have children, and I will get tired after working as a puppet for a long time. When I am tired, I will take out those photos I took in high school. Think back to your original intention.” Lian Jueliang’s arms were hanging on the armrest, his head was leaning on the back of the chair and staring at the ceiling, recalling the thorns and thorns along the way, losing a lot, but gaining nothing, “Pianpian, you can say that I Silly, say I'm inflexible, but you can't call me selfish. It's not fair."

"When I have gone through thousands of mountains and rivers, and I finally have the qualifications to stand in front of you, you have already held other people's hands and walked forward without looking back. It turned out that I was the only one waiting in the same place. Lian Jueliang looked at Nick again, two tears fell down, "Aren't you selfish?"

Nick couldn't help shivering, his hands and feet were numb, as if all the blood had been drawn from his body.

"Everyone is selfish in love." Lian Jue smiled desolately, "I guess...Mr. Zhao is not crooked, maybe he has dated/associated with the opposite sex? Without you, he might already be married On the red carpet, having a wife and children to enjoy family happiness. You clearly know how much blame a straight man will suffer if he breaks the bend, but you still push him to the top of the wave in the name of love, and fall into the same predicament as me, becoming an outlier in the eyes of everyone , made parents heartbroken. However, Pianpian, what do you give in your relationship? What else can you give him besides a debt and a sick old mother? That's how you love him?"

Nick moved his mouth, opened and closed several times but couldn't utter a word.

"I'm different from him, you will never be my burden." Lian Jueliang stood by the bed, bent down, curled up his palms and wiped the tears off Nick's face with the back of his hand, "Your debt is my family's fault, Mother Du watched me grow up, and I am as willing as you to give everything to make her recover. For these two things, whether you love me or not, I am duty-bound."

"Stop crying, Pianpian." Even the back of Jue Liang's hand rubbed his face, but the tears could not be wiped away, "If you want to leave, no matter how much you want you to stay by my side, I will let you go. But can you stop making fun of your body, it is more important to heal your injuries than anything else.”

Lian Jueliang poured him another glass of warm water and put it on the bedside, "It doesn't matter how long you want to stay here, you can leave whenever you want, let's stop arguing."

Lian Jueliang looked down at the hair on Nick's head, trembling because of crying, and couldn't help but reach out and rub it.

"If you want to fly, I'll watch you fly from the ground, this is how I love you."