together for a moment

This hideous and ugly scar shocked everyone present.

"This... was beaten by your father?" Liu An leaned in and took a look. The scar had faded to the same color as the skin color due to the age, but it was slightly convex and irregular like a centipede crawling on the neck, which was very scary. .

"No, this is a masterpiece of my failure to escape." Lian Jueliang rubbed his fingers on the scar, and said the unbearable past in a calm tone, "At that time they locked me in the room, and my father went to battle in person. , I don’t go to the company, and they are monitored 24 hours a day, constantly asking me who is the person who came out, and I am not allowed to go out or make phone calls if I don’t tell.”

"I didn't say a word all week. I just lay in bed thinking about how to get out and how to contact you. I knew they were going to send me out of the country, maybe within a month, maybe within a week, not when I was young. I know what it means to make progress by retreating, and to do things with passion and hard work. I would rather be broken than broken. One night, while they were away, I dug out all the pocket money I had saved since I was a child. It seemed that two thousand No, I climbed out of the window of the room in the middle of the night."

"Climb out? I remember your house is on the fifth or sixth floor?" Liu An shouted in disbelief.

"On the sixth floor, but there is no other way, it's a fight to the death." Lian Jueliang said, "I don't know if I stepped on a water pipe on the fourth floor or the third floor, and fell all the way to the garden on the first floor. During the day, several bones were broken and contused on my body, a long slash was cut on my neck by the broken awning, and pools of blood flowed out. I lay on the ground and looked at the sky, feeling that the price of freedom was really high.”

"But I'm lucky if I don't die." Lian Jueliang smiled faintly, "I passed out later, because I hit my head, and when I woke up in the hospital, I was sore and dizzy. My parents ignored the hospital's opinion and pushed The wheelchair sent me out of the country overnight."

The waiters put all the dishes on the table one after another, filling the table with hot white smoke, but no one moved their chopsticks.

"Stop talking, let's start," Lian Jueliang took the lead to pick up the chopsticks and ate the meat, "It will be disgusting to talk any further."

"Thinking about it, we were lucky," Liu An said with a mouth full of food, "I was beaten up at that time, and my parents cried and asked me to change it. I said I wanted to change it too, but I changed it." I can only be alone for the rest of my life, I don’t want to harm other girls by marriage, when they heard me say that, they cried as if they were bereaved. But in the end, after a long time, they gradually accepted it.”

"Don't just talk about these bad things, you can eat." Chen Yisheng picked up a chopsticks dish for Liu An, wanting to change the atmosphere, and changed the topic, "By the way, last time my friend opened a new music bar, asked Do we have time this weekend to play and sing a few songs on stage. Du Xiaopian, which day are you free on the [-]th?"

Nick didn't respond. He lowered his eyes in a daze and didn't pick up any food.

"Yisheng is asking you something." Zhao Yimu made him some braised pork and added some green beans. He really wanted to pinch Nick's face, but he could only pat him on the shoulder in public and said, "Just eat it." What do you do with rice?"

"Huh? What?" Nick finally came to his senses with an apologetic look on his face, "Sorry, I didn't hear clearly just now."

"I asked you if you have time to play with the band this weekend, you are in a daze." Chen Yisheng knocked him on the head.

"Hey, I don't have time." Nick rubbed, his expression extremely aggrieved: "We are so busy on weekends, there is a whole-day lineup for house inspections, and we almost have no time for appointments, and we play in bands."

"Sexy and forgetful friends!" Liu An beat his chest and stamped his feet, "Forget it, let's make money and go on a date."

"I don't need you to tell me, I will do it," Nick grinned, and took a big mouthful of braised pork. "Is your band practicing a new song? I'll write one for you when I'm free."

When the topic turned to the orchestra and music, the atmosphere became much more relaxed. Liu An opened up the chatter box, talking about the embarrassing things about forming a group since his student days, and Chen Yisheng silently added a sentence from the sidelines from time to time, which had the effect of sneering.Lian Jueliang mostly didn't speak, but occasionally he mentioned a few words, "I was with Pianpian..." and then looked at Nick with a "you know" look. Nick smiled happily listening to the teenage story, and never once met Lian Jueliang's eyes.

Zhao Yimu is a melon eater, and he can only quietly listen to the past that he has never participated in. Although he is not jealous, he still feels a little lonely and helpless.

"Music is actually a kind of language, but it's beyond language. When I traveled before, I would take a harmonica with me. With music, it is easy to shorten the distance between people. Last Christmas Eve, I was in a restaurant in India. Blowing on Amazing Grace, won the whole house!" Somehow, the topic got to travel, Nick poked Zhao Yimu's arm, and looked at him with a "you know" eyes, shining brightly and colorfully Shenghui, "Do you still remember Christmas Eve last year?"

"Of course I remember, it was a very unforgettable Christmas Eve." Zhao Yimu smiled with memories.

"By the way, you were still having an asthma attack!" Nick blushed with excitement, "Do you know how terrified and critical the situation was at that time?" He vividly described the situation at that time.

Zhao Yimu looked at Nick's lively expression and smile when he spoke, and suddenly felt relieved. Nick had a past with them, and he also had memories between the two of them. The important thing is that if they can keep going, they will create more. More memories that belong to them.

Before leaving the restaurant after eating, Zhao Yimu went to the bathroom. He could honestly say that the dishes in this restaurant were good, but the thick oily red sauce and the fast-fried fire made the whole space full of lingering smell of oily smoke. He didn't like clothes stained I don’t like the smell of sauces or food on my hands, and I go to the bathroom to wash my hands after every meal.

Zhao Yimu walked out of the bathroom, and as soon as he opened the door, he saw Lian Jueliang standing outside against the wall, as if he was about to use the bathroom, so he must have something to talk to.

"Is there something wrong?" Zhao Yimu took out a handkerchief to wipe his hands.

"I just have one question." Lian Jueliang said straightforwardly: "Does your family know that your partner is of the same sex?"

"I don't know yet, but I will find an opportunity to clarify." Zhao Yimu replied very frankly.

"You've grown up so much, and your family doesn't know that you like the same sex?" Lian Jue laughed, confident and cunning as if solving some mystery, "Then I boldly assume that you have never been with the same sex at all."

Zhao Yimu looked at him expressionlessly and didn't speak.

"I don't care if the person you dated in the past is of the same sex or the opposite sex," Lian Jueliang snorted contemptuously, "It's not hard to imagine how your family will react. I only have one request, please don't get Pianpian involved. Just so."

After Lian Jueliang finished speaking, he turned around and left with a quick pace, as if he didn't want to stay for a second, and the sound of leather shoes knocking on his heart.

Tonight, Nick was going to be on duty at the radio station. While driving, Zhao Yimu was thinking about the warning Lian Jueliang had given him. Coming out to his family might be more difficult than he imagined, and he had no countermeasures.

The car was parked at the entrance of the radio station. The two people who were silent all the way didn't seem to want to end up in this state tonight. One didn't get out of the car for a long time, and the other put his hand on the steering wheel and tapped lightly.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't ask you to come to this party today to listen to our old stories." Nick's deep voice shook the quiet air in the car.

"I don't care about this. Everyone has their own past. Because of these experiences, you become who you are now," Zhao Yimu put his hands on the steering wheel and hugged his chest, leaned back, turned his head and smiled at Nick , "What I care more about is the look in Lian Jueliang's eyes." Zhao Yimu said with a troubled expression, "Although I don't want to admit it...but I'm really jealous."

"Jealous?" Nick repeated incredulously, with a surprised and playful smile, his expression extremely lively, "I never thought that someone like you would be jealous."

He obviously didn't mean to be charming or seductive at all, but the desire/fire in Zhao Yimu's eyes burned up instantly, he leaned over and grabbed Nick's shoulders and clasped the back of his head, sucking the smiling and seductive lips valve.

There are many things that cannot be expressed in words, but can only be told with a kiss.

Zhao Yimu sucked Nick's lips greedily, lingering and possessive, but no matter how much he kissed, he couldn't calm his desire and fear, which he couldn't ignore and couldn't handle.It was the first time he fell in love with the same sex, the first time he was no longer rational because of love, the future was bleak and difficult, and he had a brother who was always waiting for an opportunity. He heard Lian Jueliang's struggle with his family back then, and he was not sure. Can he do better? What confidence does he have that he can do better?

"I'm not just jealous, I also want to possess, and I'm afraid too," ended the kiss blushing aggressively, there was still water on the swollen lips, Zhao Yimu didn't want to let go of Nick, and pressed his forehead against his forehead, "I don't like it He looks at you, and he doesn't like the way you are immersed in the memory and absent-minded. I don't know how much of the vigor you once had is left in your heart now. If I can, I also want to be an open-minded and magnanimous person Man, but I can't fucking do it."

Zhao Yimu pursed his lips and pecked the other party's lips, sighed, and expressed all his helplessness, "Well, I am also very worried about how to show my cards with my family, after listening to your bloody example."

This hidden worry is like an old phlegm stalk in his chest, lungs and heart, which cannot go up or down, and he is in a panic.

Nick didn't say a word after hearing this, he pursed his lips and smiled, held his face and kissed him back, it's more like a lick than a kiss, just like a puppy or kitten licking the owner's finger with the tip of their red tongue, gently tickling , pure but very healing, once a while, soothe the anxiety in his heart.

"You think my uneasiness is because I miss my old relationship?" Nick chuckled a few times from the bottom of his throat, "I'm actually scared too."

"Afraid? What are you afraid of?" Zhao Yimu was puzzled.

Nick stretched his arms, lowered his head and pressed his eyes on his shoulders and spoke in a muffled voice, as if telling the priest the deepest secret in his heart, "You have been a straight man for almost 30 years and suddenly turned, needless to say, I also know what's inside. How entangled. People like us who have come out of the closet since we were young are very stupid, but there are advantages to being stupid. No matter how sharp the facts are, they can be smoothed by time, and the family members have accepted the established facts. But you are different, You used to look at the house and marry a wife, and your life has to go on according to the SOP, and now this situation... your mother must be very difficult to accept, right?"

Nick's palm on his back was hot, as if he wanted to inject courage into him, "I don't think this matter should be rushed, don't be impulsive and confess to your family. I told you about my mate selection The condition is very simple, that is, love. There is no need to really go to get a certificate to get a ceremony, and you don’t need to prove anything to others. Just treat us as companions on the journey of life, when we encounter difficulties, let’s worry and cry together, and when we meet beautiful scenery It is enough for the two hearts to beat together, to accompany each other through the spring, summer, autumn and winter in the torrent of time.”

"Hey, promise me one thing, no matter what happens, we have to bear it together," Nick sat up straight, with a whole starry sky in his black eyes, which can help him point out the direction, "I heard my brother talk about that today. It’s silly to think about the fight/struggle with my family. We were too young at the time, thinking that it was love if we carried it alone, but it wasn’t like that. Promise me that we should face together whatever happens.”

Zhao Yimu couldn't tell what mood he was in right now, it seemed like a gushing spring spewed from his heart, hot and urgent, it first passed through his throat and then went straight to his eye sockets, otherwise why his throat was tight and his eye sockets were hot?

He was worrying about things in his own family, and Nick was worrying about what he was worried about, and tolerantly gave him the most space to deal with it, and he didn't want anything, just love.

Zhao Yimu rubbed Nick's head fiercely. Besides being moved, he also felt more distressed, wishing to give him all of himself.

"I can probably understand Lian Jueliang's mood." Zhao Yimu whispered in his ear.

"What?" Nick nudged him.

Zhao Yimu folded his arms and hugged him tightly, and frankly expressed his heart: "The feeling of never wanting to let go."