Envy

Yan Zhaohan saw her leaning against the corner and staring at him like a vigilant rabbit, as if she was thinking about something.She seemed to have thought of something later, she relaxed a little, and her demeanor became much more natural.

She didn't ask Mu Su, Ming Jue, or Xi Qigong.She didn't even ask about Xue Ye.She asked cautiously, "You...do you still like my brother?"

Yan Zhaohan was taken aback for a moment, noncommittal, and asked, "Why are you asking this?"

Meng Xi's watery eyes kept staring at him, propped her forehead and smiled sweetly: "I don't deny it, but I still like it, so I can rest assured."

Yan Zhaohan didn't know what to say.Meng Xi was already wrapped in a soft mattress and moved closer, she turned her face to look at him, there were dimples on both sides of her mouth.She said, "Actually, since I saw you last night, I knew you would save us."

"How do you know?"

She shook her head and said: "I don't know, it should be based on feeling. I was thinking just now, maybe Shao Jun had no choice but to shoot the arrow and hurt Big Brother Xue, deliberately not killing him."

Yan Zhaohan bent the corners of his lips: "If I say that I really missed the shot."

"No. You still love my brother." She said it very seriously, looking into his eyes, "so you won't hurt us."

Yan Zhaohan felt that this little girl was really innocent.

He was a little surprised to hear that Meng Xi was Huo Zhi's fiancée, and regardless of the age difference between them, Meng Xi and Yan Miao had completely different personalities.Meng Xi was well protected, she didn't read the sage books to death, and there was still a spirit in her body.In her eyes, the world is black and white.

As far as Miao is decisive and straightforward, she never procrastinates in her work, stays calm and calm, and sometimes likes to act on her own will.She is smart and arrogant, admires the upright people, looks down on the insidious villains, and has always been daring.

He thought for a while, and they have a little similarity, their eyes are very stubborn, they don't distinguish between black and white, they walk persistently and firmly in the world.

No, he was wrong, Yan Miao had already slept in the ground, and could no longer walk in the world.

Bumping on the road for several days, he somehow remembered an incident when he was young.

When he first went to Yan's house, he didn't like to talk to people, and he didn't like to talk to people.His second elder brother Yan Qingheng wanted to be nice to him, and brought fresh fruits or Chinese studies books every day, but he avoided him every time.He didn't want to get close to the Yan family at all, and he hated half of the Yan family's blood on his body.

He often goes to secluded places alone.Once I caught a rabbit from the mountain and kept it in the yard.He likes the rabbit very much, and he feeds it with water and vegetable leaves every day, and sometimes puts it outside the yard.

Later, Yan Miao passed by his yard and saw the rabbit. She was so excited that she asked his mother for the rabbit.Of course his mother agreed.

He refused, but he didn't dare to speak, and watched Yan Miao take the rabbit away.

A Niang comforted: "I know you are reluctant, but it is just a rabbit, if you like it, A Niang will go to the mountain tomorrow and catch another one."

He stubbornly said he didn't want it, that it was different.

Within a few days, Yan Miao raised the rabbit to death.Yan Miao was sad for a while, went to Shen Gui's private school for morning class, and happily took Yan Er to catch butterflies in the afternoon.Yan Zhaohan sneaked to the courtyard behind Yanmiao's attic to watch the rabbit that day, the cage was empty, the mother-in-law in charge said that the rabbit was found dead this morning, and the servant had already taken it away.

He didn't know where the rabbit was thrown, he only knew that the servant was too lazy to bury the rabbit.With a sore nose and red eyes, he walked back and met Yan Qingheng on the road.

15-year-old Yan Qingheng was taken aback when he saw his crying expression, and asked him what was wrong in a gentle voice.He shed tears when he talked about the rabbit, and wept as he talked.

Yan Qingheng comforted him for a while, wiped away his tears, and led him to every hillside in Shen Gui, looking for the abandoned rabbit.They walked until dusk and west, and finally saw the rabbit under a century-old tree, surrounded by mosquitoes and flies.

He buried it under that tree.

When Yan Qingheng took his hand back home, he told him that he could forget about these things, get some sleep, and he would be able to smile tomorrow.He said, you are still so young.

After Yan Miao found out from her second brother that he was sad, she actually wanted to get close to him, and once brought him a new rabbit.That rabbit was not like his previous white mixed with gray and yellow, it was all white and seemed a bit delicate.He refused to ask for it, and his attitude was always indifferent and alienated.The arrogant Yan Miao never got close to him again.

Later, his mother went.Silently.Once he woke up and didn't wake her up, he couldn't wake her up again.

Out of face, Yan Shuhan didn't arrange a funeral for this woman whom he called a "crazy woman". He just ordered someone to buy a coffin to bury her on the mountain.For the first time, he knelt down in front of Yan Shuhan, begging his father to send his mother to be buried in the town where they used to live, that was his mother's wish during her lifetime.

Yan Shuhan finally agreed.On the twelfth day, the servants of the Yan family went to the town with the coffin in a small boat, and he followed, watching them bury his mother on the bank of the river.At that time, the reed was no taller than a person. Standing on the bank of the river, he could see the whitewashed walls of the houses in the distance, and a few paper kites floating in the sky.

After his mother left, he didn't go out or talk to anyone for a long time, and stayed in the yard most of the time.

During that year, he received several letters from Mu Su.When Yan's servant brought him the letter for the first time, he was still a little surprised.Suspecting that he had sent it by mistake, he opened it to read the words first, and then the signature.Meng Tou.

Those few letters were full of ramblings, talking about how he was in Muji and Lizhou.While thinking about what Mu Yulizhou had to do with him, he finished reading these long letters in the long dark night.Perhaps because Fulian's night was too long, he read those letters several times.

He faintly saw some ambiguity.He didn't dare to think too deeply, but felt a headache, so he sent back a letter with only three words "wrong memory".He felt that someone as smart as Meng Tou could understand it.

Then one day he received that frank letter and saw that painting again.Such fiery love and delicate descriptions made him feel that there was nowhere to escape, but he still chose to throw away the letters and portraits in the corner.

After his mother left, he was very restless for some reason, and there always seemed to be a vacancy in his heart.He picked up his pen and wanted to write something, so he wrote a letter and sent it back to Mu Mi.

He thought, after living for so many years, he still didn't remember the words of his second brother. He couldn't forget, and he lived with sins and shackles.