look at you bend you

Li Yan paused for breath, then patted his back, and asked in a low voice: "What's wrong?"

"Do you think I'm pretty bad?" Nanfang asked in a muffled voice.

Li Yan pulled his arm down, sat on the edge of the bed and looked at him, "Why do you say that?"

Nanfang lay flat and stared at the ceiling, "Impulsive and irritable and easy to get into a dead end, when something happens, he will just hide in his shell and not come out."

Yes, I know how to examine my own shortcomings.Li Yan looked at him thinking about the origin of this topic, "Do you want to talk about recent events?"

Li Yan has never intervened forcefully in the affairs of the south. He thinks that as a man, if he can solve some things by himself, he should not leave it to others. Investigating some fur is just to prevent problems before they happen.

After waiting for a long time, Nanfang did not speak, Li Yan patted his hand, turned and walked out of the room.

Nanfang is no longer a child, and the age of 28 should allow him to distinguish the ghosts and ghosts on the road of life, but in this eccentric world, does he want to go alone or find someone close to him, open his heart without defense or grievances? Fei together overcame obstacles, this is not someone who can make decisions for him.

Life is unsatisfactory out of ten, the glamorous side is always reserved for insignificant people, real relatives can face your unbearable and cowardly, of course, the premise is that you are willing to be honest, and you wrap yourself tightly There is no gap in the truth, but the mouth is talking about love, and then what?Keep the other person out of your heart in the name of love?This is not love, this is selfishness...

Li Yan is very happy that Nanfang is willing to reveal his shortcomings now, after all, the shell is not there, it is airtight...

Whether it is self-denial or loss of direction, at least you have to come out of the shell before others can see you.

After Li Yan left, Nanfang fell into a long memory. He remembered the details between his parents. The relationship between a man and a woman was strange to him. He had never set foot in that world, so he couldn't understand it. , but now it is different. Although he likes a man of the same gender as himself, this does not prevent him from developing his own love world. Like a person, whether it is a man or a woman, it is probably the same. If you don’t see it, you will want to see it When the time comes, I feel that there is not enough time, and there will be an inexplicable sense of tension for all potential enemies who may invade the territory. This is possessiveness, the possessiveness for the lover.

But ever since I can remember, my parents have treated each other like guests, and thanked each other for taking a glass of water. Now that I think about it, this is not love. How did a marriage without love last for nearly 20 years?The south suddenly felt a little confused.

……

Taking Li's mother to the hospital for monthly routine checkups, Nanfang sat in the doctor's office and listened to various doctor's orders. Have some exercise!

On the way back, Mama Li was always in a good mood, "This person is troublesome when he is old, pay attention to this and that~" Then she looked at the south and said, "So don't be too anxious when you are young, life is long or short If you keep staring at a goal and hurry, you will miss the scenery along the way, who knows what kind of life you will meet at which intersection!"

"Heh~ My aunt is amazing." Nanfang smiled and gave a thumbs up.

"Young people nowadays are indeed tired," Li's mother continued, "I always advise your brother not to stretch yourself too tightly, the strings will break if you stretch too tightly, young people, you just need to have the courage to make mistakes, If you don’t hit the south wall, how do you know if the south wall will fall? Parents are not afraid that you will make mistakes, but they are really worried that you will become frightened birds after you make mistakes!”

Until I got back to the south of the company, I was thinking about Li's mother's last words, what a frightened bird?Is he?Where does his emotional cleanliness come from?Tracing back to the source, he returned to the problem he was least willing to face...

Li Yan looked at the few design drawings scattered on the table and rubbed his eyebrows. This time he looked more carefully than last time, but it was still not right, it felt wrong...

The theme of the design is 'first sight, first heart'.In an impetuous society, they meet each other and marry each other, and their lives are nothing more than daily necessities. The ordinary life of ordinary people gradually loses their original heart in trivial matters. What is love?Is it your love?Is it loyal?Is it cliche?vulgar~

Sighing, Li Yan was about to call Nanfang when Nanfang knocked on his office door.

"Enter~" Li Yan put down the phone.

Nanfang tidied up his thoughts and pushed the door open, "Everything is ok!"

"Well, you've worked hard!" Li Yan raised his chin and signaled him to sit down.

"The design is out?" Nanfang glanced at the design draft on the table.

"Well, but it doesn't feel right~" Li Yan threw a few pictures in front of him. "Look..."

Nanfang looked at them one by one, and rubbed his index finger on the tip of his nose, "First sight, original intention? The designer can't find his own original intention, so how can he design the original intention?"

"..." Li Yan looked up at him, "What did you say?"

"Huh? Ah, I'm talking nonsense..." Nanfang put the blueprint on the table.

"Then continue to talk nonsense and let me listen..." Li Yan asked.

"..." Nanfang bit his lower lip and thought, "These designs are beautiful, but they are too flashy. What is the original intention? It's just the most primitive and authentic presentation, which has nothing to do with other things. These people in the design department In my heart, what is the original intention? It is just the love of design, simple and persistent, without complicated desires, and no performance of eagerness for quick success. In love, what is the original intention? My original intention is you, just you, only you and nothing else... ..."

Li Yan's heart was beating thumpingly in his chest, and his eyes were fixed on the south, yes, that's it, the original intention should be simple, clean and free of impurities. The times have gradually forgotten my simple original intention, and the things I designed are superimposed with desire, and desire is superfluous to the original intention...

"I... just kidding, hehe!" Nanfang felt a little uncomfortable being stared at by Li Yan, scratching his head and said.

Li Yan pressed the internal line of the phone, "Secretary Lin, inform the design department that there will be a meeting in 10 minutes, and there must be no one missing..."

The meeting lasted for nearly two hours. Nanfang sat in a daze in the office when the phone rang.

Looking at the incoming call, Nanfei...

"Are you annoying..." Nanfang picked up the phone, said annoying, but his voice was very soft, got up and went to the bathroom, addicted to cigarettes!

The phone call with this younger brother was inexplicable, and the good ones were also inexplicable. Listening to the voice on the phone, Nanfang had a strange feeling, as if his body that had been floating all this time had finally touched the ground.

……

On Friday night, the two packed their simple luggage and went to Rubai Villa together with Lin Dong and Xiao Rui.

The villa is at the foot of a mountain in the suburbs. It is said that it is a villa, but it is not very big. There are two adjacent courtyards. The one on the left is where the owner of the villa lives. They have their own names, but the one that attracts the south most is the hot spring in the backyard.

The owner of the villa, Ji Rubai, at first glance Nanfang felt that he was an extraordinary person, the indifferent aura around him unconsciously made him relax physically and mentally.

"Here we come..." Ji Rubai and Li Yan hugged each other.

"Welcome?" Li Yan patted him on the back.

"You still need me to welcome you back to your home?" Ji Rubai smiled.

After the simple greetings, Ji Rubai brought a group of people to the residence, "How long are you planning to stay this time?"

"Not necessarily, let's see."

"I mean male god, how can you be so handsome all the time? How embarrassing for me..." Xiao Rui walked towards the room side by side with his arms around Ji Rubai's shoulders.

"..." Lin Dong frowned.

"Don't exaggerate, I don't want to lose sight of the sun tomorrow..." Ji Rubai glanced at Lin Dong and said with a smile.

Boom~ There was a loud noise in one of the rooms named 'Song', several people followed the sound and looked at Ji Rubai at the same time.

"I'm sorry, the kid is in a bad mood these days!" Ji Rubai pointed to the two rooms behind them, "Your room, take a rest first, and talk later!"

"No, male god, when did you have a child?" Xiao Rui shouted at Ji Rubai's back.

"..."

Four people in two rooms?That would mean that the two of them would have to live together. Nanfang's heart was pounding, he secretly glanced at Li Yan, and filled his mind with shameless images...

Lin Dong and Xiao Rui entered the room named 'Mei' first, and only 'Bamboo' was left~

"Three Friends of Suihan?" Nanfang asked.

"Well, quite educated..." Li Yan entered the room.

"..." What about cursing?

The 'bamboo' house is really very bamboo, and all the furnishings are related to bamboo. There is a pair of black bamboo hanging on the side wall. The south side looked at the red seal where the signature was signed for a long time, "Ji... Ru... Bai... I ~Go! Was this drawn by the hero just now?"

"..." Well, after the male god, there is a hero again.

"Tsk tsk tsk~" Nanfang gently shook his head facing the painting with his hands behind his back, his mouth kept tsk.

"What's wrong?" Li Yan laughed.

"Look at this brush stroke, look at this line, look at this smudge, tsk tsk tsk~"

"..." Li Yan grabbed Nanfang by the back of his neck and dragged him to his eyes, "Is there a hot spring to soak in?"

"Go, go, go!" Nanfang grinned behind his ears, two canine teeth came out, and then asked after thinking of something, "Are you going?"

Li Yan looked away, "Well, the hot spring here is only for our use."

In the wooden shower room in the backyard, the southern eyes look at the nose, the nose looks at the heart, and the heart... Some regret the act of soaking in the hot spring together. Isn’t this a digging a hole to jump in by yourself, rinse it off in a hurry, grab the bathrobe and run outside, " I'll go first..."

"You get dressed before going out, the hot spring won't run away..." Li Yan shouted from behind.

"Oh..." Nanfang waved his hands without looking back.

"..."

When Li Yan came out, Nanfang had already entered the hot spring, the bathrobe was casually thrown aside, sighed, took off the bathrobe on his body, folded it with Nanfang's and put it on the chair.

"Hey, don't worry about that, come down quickly, isn't it cold?" Nanfang only showed his head and looked at him.

The heat from the hot spring meets the cold air outside, forming rime on the surrounding stones and dead branches, making people unable to take their eyes off the beauty, but at this time, there is no beautiful scenery in the eyes of the south, only beauties... er, beautiful men and beautiful men's big long legs.