leaning on bamboo at sunset

When Qi Mu woke up, half his life was almost gone.

He had a splitting headache, and his body seemed to have been hammered, and he couldn't even move his fingers.

"Again..." He wanted to say that he would never drink again, but his voice was so hoarse that he couldn't even understand a complete sentence.

It hurts to death... He is most afraid of pain...

Qi Mu opened his eyes and saw the beige gold ceiling.Suddenly, everything rushed up slowly, filling his entire brain.

Last night... Qi Mu sat up slowly, he even forgot about the pain in his body, he was completely dumbfounded, completely blown away by the violent storm in his mind.

He was drunk and refused to go home, so Yin Xiuzhu took him back to Yin's house.

Then...he kissed Yin Xiuzhu.

He thought he was dreaming, he thought it wasn't Yin Xiuzhu, he thought it was a small period.

No, that was Yin Xiuzhu, Yin Xiuzhu who was frightened by his behavior.

What happened after that?What did he do next?

Qi Mu couldn't remember anymore, he only remembered that he pushed Yin Xiuzhu down on the sofa and kissed him from forehead to lips, like a disgusting pedant.

and then?

Qi Mu remembered something, when the severe pain of being torn came from the most private place, he saw Yin Xiuzhu with a blank face.

An enraged Yin Xiuzhu that he had never seen before.

It's over.It's all over.

Yin Xiuzhu must hate him to death, that's why...

Qi Mu's heart was stirred together, the pain in his chest even covered up the discomfort in his body.The more he thought about it, the more disturbed he became, the more he regretted it, the more he hated himself.

what to do?Qi Mu got up in a hurry, got dressed and went out.

There was no one outside the door. It turned out that his familiar yet unfamiliar villa was so empty.When there's only one person, it's simply terrifyingly large.

Qi Mu didn't know how he got home.When he got home, he curled up on the bed, hugged the quilt tightly, and his mind was full of fragmented memories that couldn't be distinguished from the real ones.

He kissed Yin Xiuzhu.Yin Xiuzhu was shocked.He still didn't let him go, and pressed him on the sofa.

Yin Xiuzhu seemed to have said something, but he couldn't remember it.He also said something himself, which he also couldn't remember clearly.

Afterwards, Yin Xiuzhu's face turned pale, and cold hatred burst out from his black eyes.

it's over... it's over...

Qi Mu thought about all the worst things.Can't find any good answer.

They did it, Yin Xiuzhu seemed to kill him, and gave him to...

Why?Qi Mu's head hurts, and the only reason he can find is that Yin Xiuzhu is taking revenge on him, and he is letting him, a person who wants to do something wrong, suffer the consequences.

Qi Mu opened his eyes wide, tears rolling down silently...

Yin Xiuzhu must hate him to death.Yin Xiuzhu must hate him to death.

Their friendship of more than ten years was ruined by him.

why?Why is he so confused.

Qi Mu spent the whole day at home in a daze, when Qiao Jin came back at night, she was shocked: "What's wrong?"

Qi Mu's eyes were red, his lips were dry, his whole energy was taken away, and he was extremely haggard.

Qiao Jin took a few steps forward, and when she touched him, her brows frowned even tighter: "Have a fever?"

"Mom..." Qi Mu cried all day, until his mind went numb, but after seeing Qiao Jin, he was still so sad that his heart almost exploded.

He regretted it, really regretted it.

Qiao Jin had never seen him like this before, she hugged him tightly and said, "What's the matter? Talk to Mom about something."

"I..." How could Qi Mu be able to say it?He shook his head and choked up, "I..."

"Is it because of the exam?" Qiao Jin felt sorry for him for the past two years. She knew best about her son, who was heartless when he was a child, and he did whatever he wanted. Who knew that in her second year of high school, she suddenly decided to take the Academy of Fine Arts exam. I am happy, the child has his own ideas, and the parents are of course happy.

But all this happiness disappeared after seeing how hard Qi Mu worked.Qiao Jin didn't think so much about her child's success. She only hoped that her child could live a happy and smooth life, and nothing else mattered.

But it was Qi Mu's wish to be admitted to the Academy of Fine Arts, something he worked hard for, and it was impossible for her to discourage him.It's just that this goal is too high. In terms of majors, Qi Mu has no problem, but the cultural class is the biggest problem.Qi Mu couldn't adapt to exam-oriented education, and it was too difficult for him to get such a score in the exam.

Difficult and want to do, the pressure is bound to be great.

Qiao Jin thought he was crushed.

Qi Mu couldn't explain it, so he could only use this to vent the regret in his heart.

Qiao Jin patted him on the back and said anxiously: "It's okay, it's fine if you don't do well in the exam. Mom has always helped you apply for foreign schools. Even if you can't go to Tsinghua Academy of Fine Arts, there are other choices."

Qi Mu was stunned.

Qiao Jin thought he was relaxed, so she explained to him again: "Besides, your grades haven't come down yet, maybe you did well in the exam."

Are you going abroad?The first reaction in Qi Mu's mind was to resist fiercely, but soon he found that he had no reason to resist.

Stay in China and go to Tsinghua University, so what?

Would Yin Xiuzhu still want to see him again?Will they return to the way they were before?

I can't go back, everything was ruined by him, maybe he went to Tsinghua Academy of Fine Arts, Yin Xiuzhu will choose other schools.

No... Yin Xiuzhu wants to go to Tsinghua University the most.

Qi Mumu said blankly: "Mom, I want to go abroad."

Qiao Jin was taken aback, and suddenly thought of another possibility: "Did you quarrel with Yin Xiuzhu?"

Hearing Yin Xiuzhu's name, Qi Mu felt a prickly pain in his heart, he shook his head and said, "No." He was the one who hurt Yin Xiuzhu.

Qiao Jin saw that something was wrong, and she advised him: "Don't be impulsive, it's normal for friends to quarrel, communicate and don't act rashly." What a good friend, they parted ways because of a moment of anger.

Qi Mu shook his head and said, "I have a cold, go to sleep for a while."

Qiao Jin hurriedly said, "Take the medicine first."

Qi Mu responded, "En."

After taking the medicine, Qi Mu fell asleep, and after waking up, he felt much better, feeling a little relieved.Qiao Jin's words echoed in his mind, communicate and don't get carried away.

Qi Mu clenched his fists, how to communicate?What else can I say?Said he thought it was a dream, said he took him for a girl he had never met?

No... No matter how you explain it, it is humiliating Yin Xiuzhu twice.

What's more, if Yin Xiuzhu was not completely disappointed in him, how could he treat him like that.

It hurts, it really hurts.

On the third day, Qi Mu still called Yin Xiuzhu's cell phone.

At least he deserves an apology.No matter whether Yin Xiuzhu forgives or not, he should apologize to him.

The phone rang for a long time, but no one answered in the end. Qi Mu sat with the phone in his hand for a long time—does Yin Xiuzhu even want to answer his call?

I thought I'd survived, but the heart-wrenching pain rushed over me densely.

Before the announcement of the college entrance examination results, Qi Mu would call Yin Xiuzhu almost every day.Yin Xiuzhu never got a result, until the end, the phone directly reminded the other party that the connection was temporarily unavailable.

Qi Mu put down his phone, realizing very clearly that everything in the past has become the past.

He remembered the oil painting he painted when he went out to study professionally.

In the twilight, outside the huge birdcage, two children holding hands.

At that time, he felt that he had led Yin Xiuzhu out of the cage, but now he pushed him in again.

After the grades came out, Qi Mu and Qingmei brushed past each other.

Qiao Jin was very nervous, and thought of a lot of words to comfort him, but Qi Mu was extremely calm, and he said, "Mom, I want to go abroad."

When he was about to leave, Qi Mu finally called Yin Xiuzhu, but no one answered.

He sent him a lot of messages, all of which fell into the sea.Qi Mu finally sent him a message saying, "I'm sorry." I ruined everything.

What Qi Mu couldn't know was that Yin Xiuzhu's mobile phone was in the country, while he was abroad, and in front of him was his mother who cut her wrist and committed suicide.