The General's Cat Always Wants To Climb Into My Bed

This kiss was not long, on the contrary, it was frighteningly short in his consciousness, perhaps not so short, but any beloved thing that he was nostalgic for could not be kept, just like this kiss.

A sound came out of Shen Zhifan's throat, and then he opened his eyes, his head slowly tilted back, but his eyes were glued to Yan Shuo's body.

"……Um?"

Yan Shuo realized that he was avoiding the kiss once again, and was slightly taken aback, the tenderness in his heart suddenly cooled.

Why is Shen Zhifan always like an intangible flower in the mist, like a philosophical dead end that cannot be solved.

But his eyes were too lonely, and he stretched out a tentacle to grab his neck in a lonely and affectionate way, which made Yan Shuo feel a sense of emptiness and suffocation.

The lamp beside the bed made a buzzing sound for some reason, Shen Zhifan didn't know why he could hear this sound at this time, it might be because the two of them were too quiet.

"I want to kiss you too, my lord."

Shen Zhifan lowered his eyes, he heard himself say.

Yan Shuo was too close to him, his feelings for him seemed to easily burn each other.

"A long time ago, you were the object of my dreams," Shen Zhifan said, "Do you still remember the first time we met, at that time, at that time, I really felt like I was dreaming."

Yan Shuo was stunned, it wasn't the first time he had heard Shen Zhifan say that he yearned for him, it's just... It's just that there seems to be something different now.

This is a complete Shen Zhifan, analyzing his feelings to him.

"In such an unbelievable way," Shen Zhifan recalled that time with the corners of his eyes still smiling, "Although I don't seem to remember clearly, but... that kind of feeling, it won't happen for the second time in my life. "

Yan Shuo's heart twitched, and he always felt that Shen Zhifan's confession was tinged with gloom, as if he was going to give it a go when there was no way out.

"I like you very much, Yan Shuo, do you understand?"

Shen Zhifan suddenly raised his eyes, there were no tears in his eyes, they were clean, without any muddy things.

He is already such a complicated man, but his eyes are as clear as water in front of him.

So, it wasn't his illusion, right? Yan Shuo felt an inexplicable shock in his heart. In front of him, Shen Zhifan was not acting, but the real thing, just like the boy back then.

That's why he...so irrationally, couldn't help but believe him.

Everyone has weaknesses, even the tough and perfect general has dusty past and weaknesses.

Even the general, he would make mistakes again and again on Shen Zhifan's matter.

Why can't he be wrong, so what if he is wrong, Yan Shuo thought, he is neither a sage nor a creator, let alone a sage and a creator sometimes fail.

He was not a very good person, he was very selfish.

"I can understand." Yan Shuo's voice sank, and he saw himself in Shen Zhifan's clear eyes, "So, are we... in love?"

Shen Zhifan rarely called him by his full name, it was always from adults, or from you.

in love?

This word suddenly flashed across Shen Zhifan's mind, and he suddenly realized it.

If they are in love... so they are in love.

Yes, you like me, and I like you too, isn't that love?

The word "love" is actually not that far away, is it?

Shen Zhifan thought, wouldn't his feelings for Yan Shuo be considered love? If such a heavy feeling is not considered love, then what is it?

This is love, which includes longing, liking, persistence, dreams and so many... so many beautiful adjectives, this is love, although it is a little more complicated, even though it is a little bit of a struggle.

His gaze fell heavily on Yan Shuo, wanting to spend as long time looking at him as possible, it turned out that this was his lover.

my sweetheart.

Shen Zhifan felt that his life was as thin as paper for half his life, his family and friendship were thin, and his life was also thin... It was the kind of appearance that the whole person was as thin as a cicada's wing, and he could ascend to immortality if he was so light.

It happened that there was such a great love that he almost didn't want to die casually.

It's a pity that this kind of love only exists in the past and present, and there will be no future.

"Shen Zhifan," Yan Shuo's gaze was heavy, and together with his breathing, Shen Zhifan subconsciously knew what Yan Shuo was going to say, and he tried to listen intently, "I remember that time, I couldn't even Say yes, I want you to believe, I probably didn't tell you either... But from that time, from that time on, I've been in love with you."

Shen Zhifan opened his eyes slightly.

"I love you, can you understand, Shen Zhifan?"

Yan Shuo's old face could no longer blush casually, he was someone who could tell flowers from a blade of grass with peace of mind, even when he was drunk.

But at this time, he suddenly felt like a stunned young man who fell in love with him at first.

Yes, it was first love.

Shen Zhifan's eyes changed again and again, and finally, he stretched out his two hands and hugged Yan Shuo's shoulder very gently.

"...I can understand."

"Then, do you trust me?" Yan Shuo's voice was a little cautious.

Shen Zhifan suddenly realized that he was a fool. Did Yan Shuo work so hard to gain his trust? It was never because Yan Shuo didn't trust him enough, but he never dared to believe that Yan Shuo would trust him so much.

Because Yan Shuo is a male god, unattainable, his affection for him is too deep, so deep that he is inferior in front of him, that's why he is so unbelievable... Yan Shuo will be like that, he I like him as much as I like him.

It's like, a fish spends its whole life chasing the opposite sea, but it can only swim across when the tide is high. However, the high tide time is very short, the waves are rough, and the sea is moody. If it is not careful, it will be swept away by other ocean currents Then there were no bones left, so it has been timidly afraid to swim over.

It waited and waited, and finally when it was about to die of old age, the sea suddenly said sadly to it, this sea of ​​mine has been waiting for you a fish.

Can this kind of thing be believed casually? Can a piece of sea wait for a fish for a lifetime?

Can?

sure!

Shen Zhifan felt a burning pain in his heart.

If he could, why couldn't Yan Shuo.

"It's my fault."

Yan Shuo heard a nasal tinge in Shen Zhifan's voice, and was suddenly at a loss.

"I should trust you," Shen Zhifan didn't cry, but the sourness made his voice tremble a little, and he started talking about you again when he was nervous, "I thought I cared about you more than anyone else, and understood you, Because I watched you for so long, but I was wrong, only I was stupid."

Yan Shuo also wanted to say, yes, you idiot.

But he was reluctant to say it.

When a fish spends his life looking at the sea, maybe a certain sea is also cautiously waiting for a certain fish.