My favorite ten years

On the bag, "Hold it! Let's go!" After that, he pushed me lightly. Before I could react, I heard him urging me: "Go——"

My feet started to move in a strange way, I turned around and started running. After running about 100 meters, I looked back.

Shi Xian was still standing there, with only a thin T-shirt on his upper body, and a schoolbag on one shoulder, standing in the rain. Maybe he didn't expect that I would turn back, we all stopped there and looked at each other.

I couldn't see his face clearly, I could only see him waving at me, then he turned and ran away, so I turned and continued to run wildly, and we ran in opposite directions in the rain.

Thinking about it later, it only took me 10 minutes to run home, but it took him half an hour to run home. Why did he take off his school uniform and give it to me?

I went home and locked myself in the room, regardless of the wetness of my body, I carefully hugged the coat in my arms. There was a very good smell on the coat. I couldn't tell whether it was soap or something. I already had that smell. I don't remember, but every time I think about it, I always remember that it was the cleanest smell I have ever smelled.

After taking a shower, I was about to do my homework, but I couldn't concentrate. My eyes were always unconsciously looking at the coat hanging on the hanger.

When my mother opened the door to deliver milk to me, she asked me in surprise, "Why are you doing your homework with your clothes on?!"

But I can't bear to take it off.

Even though it was just an ordinary autumn school uniform, it belonged to Si Hyun.

I sent him a text message that day.

"Why do you give me your coat, you live so far away."

He didn't reply.

The next day I heard from the teacher that he had a cold.

When he came to school later, he didn't ask me to return the school uniform, and I didn't mention it anymore.

It has become a little secret between us, and it has been quietly cherished by me——

2.

Physical development is later than others, even emotional.

Looking back now, I have liked Shi Hyun for a long time, but I have been lying to myself and treating this relationship as a friendship.

I remember that it was the catkin season, and Shi Xian took two weeks of personal leave, saying that his family was going to Thailand for a trip.

On the second day after he left, I was inexplicably allergic, with red spots on my face and neck, which looked scary.

It was fine during class, but during the break time, a few joking classmates always came to trouble me. They laughed at me for being ugly, asked me if I would be contagious, and even called me a "virus". They said: If you touch Until my skin becomes as ugly as me.

The drinking fountains, desks, and even homework books I touched had to be wiped with paper towels before they could be used. I also became their after-school pastime. This kind of cheap joke spread quickly, and it wasn’t just them. Several people, even other friendly classmates have changed.

I became alone and helpless, but there was only one thing on my mind.

"Let Shi Xian come back later, don't see me like this."

It was lunch break that day, and everyone was lying on the table with their eyes closed, and I was no exception. When I was about to fall asleep in a daze, I heard a voice in my ear saying, "Hi."

I was so familiar with that voice, I opened my eyes reflexively and saw Shi Xian, squatting on the ground with one hand propped on his chin, looking at me very closely.

There was no ridicule, no disgust, no discrimination in his eyes, Shi Hyun just said: "Have you cut your bangs? It looks better than before."

He spoke in a very low voice, I don't know if he was afraid of affecting other students who were taking a nap, obviously he was only away for two weeks, I think he looked a lot haggard——

When I was called a "virus" by others, I didn't cry.

When I was threatened by a group of classmates in an alley, I didn't cry.

In any case, I will not cry.

But Shixian said, "You little face, how much blush did you put on?" He said with a smile, and patted my head comfortingly.My tears fell down for no reason, and I scolded myself for being useless in my heart, trying to bury my face in my arms.

"What's wrong?" Shi Xian asked with concern, "Zhi Yu?"

When I was about to raise my head to look at him, he quickly stood up and overturned the table, shouting: "Who touched him while I was away!"

Everything happened so suddenly, everyone in the classroom was stunned, everything that happened next seemed to be fast-forwarded, the boy who took the lead in bullying me stood up and yelled silly x, Shixian said nothing Just punched it and swung it--

Fortunately, the teacher came to stop the fight soon, and the matter was left alone.

Many years later, at the reunion of old classmates, the person who took the lead in bullying me told me one thing.

He said, "That fellow Shixian is too tormenting, he has been blocking me at my door for a week, asking me not to trouble you in the future, you know that?"

Another male classmate said in surprise, "Shixian was looking for you at that time too? He warned me too!"

Immediately afterwards, another boy stood up and said that he had encountered the same thing.

Everyone fell silent at last.

3.

"There are tens of thousands of ways you like, no matter which one you want to use, remember to tell the other party as soon as possible."

I once wrote Shi Hyun Zeng a letter that wasn't really a letter.

There is such a short paragraph in the letter, which I asked in a tentative tone:

"Will you always be my friend? What about after graduation? Will you leave me just because you have a new friend?"

Shi Xian didn't reply after reading it, but turned to me directly and said, "Sitting so close, why do you always have to write notes?"

I blushed and didn't answer.

"You like writing letters so much?" He looked at me.

I nodded, "Some things I don't know how to say in person, so it's easier to write them down."

"Oh." Shi Xian nodded half-understood, "Then, you want to be friends with me forever?"

I looked at him and nodded foolishly, "Of course."

He looked at me for a while and said, "Can't it be another relationship?"

I was stunned.

He wouldn't know something, would he?

"Can't you?" Seeing that I didn't answer, he asked again.

I couldn't hesitate any longer, "Yes!" I said bravely.

Both of them fell into an inexplicably awkward atmosphere, Shi Xian turned around, I could only see his back, I couldn't look directly into his eyes, I couldn't see his expression, I didn't know what he was thinking.

I watched his back motionless, my mood sank little by little, my hope turned into disappointment, and I even started to despair.

Shi Xian stood up suddenly and walked to the podium, still holding the letter in his hand.

During the break between classes, everyone was laughing and playing. No one cared about the anomalies between us. My eyes were fixed on him, for fear of missing an expression or an action.

He looked at me as if he had made up his mind.

Shi Xian opened his mouth and said softly.

I like you.

I like you so much.

I didn't hear this sentence, but I saw it through the crowd. I saw him holding up my letter and smiling happily.

4.

The stories mentioned above all happened a long time ago, let me tell you about the later.

When I went to Germany, I finally knew the truth that had been covered up in the past, and I also met the person I had never dared to think about all these years.

Also spent a short, short time with him, and he slept peacefully most of the time.

When I look at him, I am occasionally afraid that he will really wake up, I am afraid to see his eyes, and I am afraid to confront him.

I also look forward to him waking up and telling me about his experiences over the years. Even a few reproaches and complaints are better than breathing quietly like this.

Later, we finally sat side by side, and he looked like a high school student, a boy in school uniform.

Reminds me of that rainy day, when he threw the clothes to me, he pushed me and said, "Hurry up, hurry up."

I really really really regret listening to him.

If I didn't go, if I said 'Let's wait for the rain to stop. 'Will everything be different?

The moment we ran in opposite directions, fate was divided like this.

After that, he fell asleep again, not knowing when he would wake up again.

Don't worry, I won't leave this time.