For the love of the white moonlight

Dong Xiao was found at the gate of the orphanage on a sunny morning.At that time, he should have been born only three days ago.

Auntie said that the morning light in the eastern sky was very beautiful that day, so she named him Dongxiao.

Why he was discarded is unknown.

His childhood best friend was a little girl who always wore two braids.In his limited memory, girls are always crying.

Once, after coaxing the girl, the aunt said: "Oh, sin, these juicy and green girls, if the parents say no, then they don't want it."

Another aunt poohed, "If you want a boy, if you don't give birth and raise it well, it's worse than an animal."

There are very few able-bodied children in the orphanage, and there are significantly more girls than boys.

Every time someone came to the orphanage for adoption, Dong Xiao was always the most sought after.

That kind of ordinary family of three is the desire of every child in the orphanage, but he really doesn't like the way those people look at him.

It seems to say: You are a boy, and you are a healthy and lively boy. Pull out all the children and rank them, and you are the best.

They are human beings, male or female, healthy or not.

Therefore, Dong Xiao always has a way to prevent himself from being favored.

So, until he became an adult, he was not successfully adopted by anyone.

There's nothing wrong with life in the orphanage, especially when his companions are made to laugh at him.

When Song Jing heard about it for the first time, Dong Xiao was ten years old.

At that time, Song Jingwen was still young, and he came with some great grandpas.

The children performed a show, and Dong Xiao and a girl led the singing.

Afterwards, the grandfathers consoled them one by one, and the aunt introduced him like this: "This is Dong Xiao, our little sun here."

Little sun?Dong Xiao was very happy.

The sun symbolizes light and warmth, and can illuminate everything in the world.How merciful, how noble.

That was the day, behind everyone's backs.

Song Jingwen took a step back and asked, "Your name is Dong Xiao?"

He nodded and said yes.

Song Jingwen stared at him deeply for a long time, but didn't say a word.

A child who grows up in that environment is still cheerful and optimistic from the bottom of his heart, and his smile is contagious. What will his future life be like?

This was what Song Jingwen thought at the time.

Song Jingwen was in her twenties that year, and she already had a very thorough insight into the warmth and coldness of people in this world.It is natural to understand that life in an orphanage is not a pleasant experience no matter what.

He has seen many orphans.

When such a child looks at them, there is always an expectation in his eyes to please them.After knowing that they can't take away themselves, or can't give themselves more, that kind of expectation will turn into disappointment in an instant.

The utilitarianism that came too early is beyond reproach.

Uneven childhood experiences are an indelible pain for most people.

But Dong Xiao was different.

This is probably the main reason why Song Jingwen decided to support these children in private.

In all fairness, Song Jingwen is not a merciful person. He was born in a wealthy family, and he has heard and seen since he was a child.

He knows too well that benevolence and righteousness are always words on the scene, and power is the operating law of this world.

In front of Dong Xiao at that time, he was strong enough, so he could do whatever he wanted.

Yes, sponsoring Dong Xiao is also powerful enough to do whatever he wants. A child who can shine like a sun in such an environment, he does something casually, and it is just a momentary pleasure.

Before Dong Xiao was ten years old, he always felt that his basic needs could be met.

He didn't have anything before, but now at least he doesn't have to worry about food and clothing.

He can still go to school, although, after going to school, he knows more and more that he is different from those children who have both parents.

But everything is going in a good direction, isn't it?

He is growing up slowly, and one day he will be self-reliant, and after being self-reliant, he will have his own home.

After Song Jingwen appeared, a new change took place in his life.

These children have better clothes, better school supplies, and their own pocket money like children of the same age.

Song Jingwen was very careful, and specially sent someone to supervise to ensure that everything would be delivered to their children.

Even, for some children with special talents, the place of education no longer stays in the primary and secondary schools corresponding to the orphanage, and has more choices.

Dong Xiao was a little puzzled, and asked his aunt: "That Uncle Song came with the grandpas, why did he fund us by himself?"

Yes, at that time, he already understood the difference between the guest of honor and the accompanying person.

The aunt changed the direction and answered his words, "Song Jingwen's family is not simple, and in a few years, those old people will have to bow their heads to him."

Dong Xiao felt boring in an instant, this is not what he asked.

However, good circumstances are always good for well-meaning people.

He was happy for Song Jingwen from the bottom of his heart.

They knew each other very early, but fate did not bring them together so early.

It's true that Song Jingwen is gay, but at that time, Dong Xiao was still a ten-year-old child, and if he wasn't a real beast, he wouldn't have other ideas about children.

Like many gays, Song Jingwen also had a boyfriend when she was young.

This ex-boyfriend is named Tan Lechi.

Song Jingwen has a good background and good looks, so naturally there are many people who post about him.

What did he like about Tan Lechi?If you have to ask for an answer, you must know that this person knows how to advance and retreat.

Born in such a family, Song Jingwen knew very early on what kind of path she was going to take.

Even if he is gay, he can't stay with a man, he knows it well.

He accepted this fact not at all reluctantly.

He is ambitious enough to know what he should choose.

Looking back, Tan Lechi's greatest advantage is that he doesn't have unrealistic expectations of him.

Tan Lechi is the same kind of person as him, so of course he knows that he can get something more useful from him than illusory love by maintaining a sense of proportion.

Therefore, rather than saying that they had a relationship, it is better to say that Song Jingwen had a bed partner with a relatively stable relationship.

Qin Lechi has a different sense of existence from other bed partners, purely because Song Jingwen refused a marriage before their relationship ended.

At that time, the old man strongly advocated getting married with the Xu family. This was a strong alliance based on interests, and the Xu family also had this intention.

Coincidentally, the second daughter of the Xu family fell in love with Song Jingwen at first sight, and fell in love at second sight, and there was a tendency that she would not marry unless she was a king in this life.

But Song Jingwen himself bluntly rejected Miss Xu Er.

Mr. Song was furious, so he naturally wanted to teach Song Jingwen a lesson.

The old man moved his finger, causing Tan Lechi a lot of trouble.

Song Jingwen was furious when she heard about it, but she couldn't laugh or cry because the old man moved his territory.I can't laugh or cry, because the old man actually thought that he would put the whole situation in vain because of the so-called personal relationship between his children.

However, marriage is a top priority and cannot be delayed.

So Song Jingwen went home and asked the old man, "What do you think of the second young lady of the Xu family?"

The old man said with a gloomy expression: "Some daughters are kind-hearted, but she is still young, she will always be sensible in the future, you don't want to make excuses."

Song Jingwen asked: "My little daughter's heart can make big mistakes. Do you want to marry the two surnames, or do you want to have a grudge? Why do you let go of a sensible candidate and choose someone who hasn't dreamed enough."

Those who are already sensible refer to Miss Xu's family.

He doesn't have so many small love affairs in his heart, this is Song Jingwen's preferred marriage partner.

At the age of 26, Song Jingwen married Miss Xu's family.

In the eyes of outsiders, they are a pair of lovers, and both husband and wife are very satisfied. In the face of interests, they share the same spirit, but they are very different in private life.

GAY and Lace's formal marriage, Song Jingwen and Miss Xu respected each other very much, and they slept in separate rooms from the wedding night.

A year later, their son emerged from the surrogate's womb.

What an impeccable political marriage.

As for Song Jingwen's boyfriend Tan Lechi...

Tan Lechi suffered a loss in the hands of Mr. Song, and he felt sorry for him. Afterwards, he took some benefits from Song Jingwen and left the country that year.

When he left, he seemed a little sad.

This kind of melancholy is similar to the fact that the long-term meal ticket that was originally optimistic has become a one-shot deal.

When Dong Xiao heard about Song Jingwen's marriage, his first reaction was to be happy for his sponsor. The next year, when he heard that his sponsor had a baby boy, his reaction was still happy.

Several aunts in the orphanage talked about it in their spare time.

One of them lamented that Mrs. Song is so lucky to have married the right person. Song Jingwen has a great body, good looks, and a great background. It is a rare and good destination.

The other curled his lips disapprovingly, "What's so good? My man is busy outside all the year round, and he can't return home several times a year. Song Jingwen has been in our city for the past few years, and I heard that his wife has never come here a few times. He is young. It's not a good feeling to live separately in two places."

Dong Xiao was only thirteen that year, and his knowledge of the separation of husband and wife was really limited.

With the inherent optimism, Song Jingwen smoothed things over: "It's good that the husband and wife work together for the future."

Auntie was amused by him, "How do you know what a husband and wife are, you little brat, life is a day-to-day thing, isn't marriage just a matter of finding a partner? Forget it, you are still young, so I don't even understand if I tell you."

Love is companionship.

In fact, as far as Dong Xiao was concerned, he had a perception of this sentence when he was very young, but he never thought about it seriously and summarized it rationally.

Humans are animals that need companionship.

Time flies like water, and in a blink of an eye, Dong Xiao has changed from a child to a teenager, and his ignorant feelings have been born because of this. His first crush was a senior in high school.

Dong Xiao could sing and dance since he was a child, and he learned the erhu from the orphanage janitor. By the time he was in middle school, his talent in literature and art became more prominent.

He represented the school in a performance in the city and won an award. Later, he was spotted by a teacher who taught students to take art exams.

The senior is that teacher's favorite student, he can play the piano well, and their relationship is more like that of brothers.

The teacher was perverse and irritable. During the winter vacation that year, Dong Xiao and his seniors staggered the class time with other students. The two of them held the pointer and knife mouth together, and gradually developed a sense of sympathy for each other.

At first they just chatted happily, and then, on a snowy night, they went home together, and at the fork in the road where they usually parted ways, the senior didn't say goodbye, and accompanied Dong Xiao all the way to the gate of the orphanage.

The love of boyhood arose secretly, the senior took out something from the inner pocket of his jacket and stuffed it into Dong Xiao's hand, "Here."

Dong Xiao took a look, it was a piece of chocolate.

Carried in his arms, the chocolate warmed by his body temperature.

The senior scratched his hair in embarrassment, "Well, it's cold, the one I just bought is too hard."

Dong Xiao looks good, and it's not the first time he's been treated like this.

But compared to the paper crane love letters of those female classmates, this piece of chocolate is finally on the right channel for him. Yes, he is gay, he likes men, and he prefers men who can make him feel admirable.

But this ignorant first love lasted only half a month.

After the Spring Festival, when he returned to school, Dong Xiao found that his seniors were avoiding him.

One day, he finally waited for his senior at the school gate.

The senior was walking with a few boys in the same class, and when he saw him, he looked very panicked. After leaving his companions, he faltered and said to him: "Dong Xiao...it's not right for us to do this."

Sentimental first love ended without a problem.

Dong Xiao had been sad for a while, but he never hated his senior.

They are still young, and adults can't bear the burden. The seniors have parents who have high expectations for them, and it is reasonable to have repetitions.

That summer, the senior was admitted to the Conservatory of Music, and before leaving in September, he met Dongxiao privately.

A belated apology.

Dong Xiao just shook his head, "Don't talk about this, what are you going to do in the future?"

Sexuality is an unchangeable fact, and there is still a long way to go after seniors, how to choose between self and the world, this is what Dong Xiao cares about.

The senior was very surprised, and he was ashamed when he was surprised, "You are always like this."

Dong Xiao asked with a smile, "How?"

The senior replied with downcast eyes, "Like a naturally hot body."

Then, looking directly into Dong Xiao's eyes, the senior was honest to the end, "I have regretted it a long time ago, and I may regret it even more in the future, but I will never tell you to get back together."

The senior smiled darkly, "Because you deserve better, even a rock can be melted by you."

People are animals that need companionship and warmth. Song Jingwen didn't agree with it at first.

But after his son was born, in the ward, he looked at the wrinkled and red face of the newborn baby, and somewhere in his heart suddenly softened into cotton.

For some reason, he suddenly remembered Dong Xiao's bright smile in the orphanage three years ago.

It would be great if his children could have that smile.

It was the first time in his life, Song Jingwen felt that maybe he should give the child an ordinary, smoky home.

Maybe he and his wife can change the status quo of respecting each other like ice, that's what Song Jingwen thought at the time.

Coming home from the hospital, he was going to have a long talk with his wife.

But before he could say anything, Ms. Xu said teasingly: "Mr. Chen's nephew wants to find a way to interfere with Nanfeng's new project. I didn't say yes or no. His appearance is just the one you like. , and you can let go of your figure, if someone begs you, you can handle it yourself."

Sending someone off to his bed, Mrs. Song delivered it to him with her own hands.

Mrs. Song was blameless, and Song Jingwen woke up instantly.

This is a marriage under the agreement between the two of them, an open marriage chosen by him alone.

When the child was seven years old, Mrs. Song died in an air crash.

Since then, Song Jingwen has become a widower who is worthy enough.

For the first 30 years of her life, Song Jingwen was always indifferent to the world.

The world has never been warm to him.