For the love of the white moonlight

After Dong Xiao returned, the limited communication with Bai Yan remained at the most superficial level, and he even wanted to avoid Bai Yan.

Dong Xiao's layered skin faded away, and after breaking down, he clamored to see Bai Yan instead, Pei Zhi couldn't help feeling a little uneasy.

He is not afraid of Longtan and Tiger's Den, but he knows that his brother also has knots.

Pei Zhi wasn't sure what Dong Xiao would say, and suddenly grabbed his brother's arm after getting off the car.

Bai Yan was in a hurry, but now he stopped, "What's wrong?"

Pei Zhi raised his arms, clasped his brother's shoulders with both hands, and said seriously: "It doesn't matter how Dong Xiao feels, you have to remember, those bastards are at fault, and you are right. You have tried your best."

Bai Yan said, "Don't worry, I understand."

I understand the reason, but emotionally it is another matter.

Song Jing greeted them at the gate of the courtyard.

The three of them strode towards the porch, and Song Jingwen gave them a general description of Dong Xiao's current situation, "He just calmed down, but the psychiatrist said it would be good to let him vent once."

As he said that, he looked at Bai Yan apologetically, "Later, if he said something to hurt you, please don't take it to heart."

Bai Yan nodded: "I know."

Yes, human emotions are a strange thing. Everyone knows that Dong Xiao's tragic experience was caused by Duan Mochu, but because he looks a bit like Bai Yan, and because Duan Mochu first fell in love with Bai Yan, everyone was worried about him. Because of this, Bai Yan will be angered.

However, there have been such hellish seven years, even if Dong Xiao really vented his anger, Bai Yan could not blame him. He completely lost his freedom and dignity in captivity, and lingered under the claws of the devil every day. Those who have never encountered it can't understand it. What a destructive sense of oppression.

Following Song Jing's smell on the second floor, there was a long corridor in front of him. The further he went, the more anxious Bai Yan became, but he knew that he had to face up to today's situation, and so did Dong Xiao.

The door opened, Song Jingwen glanced into the room, and nodded to him, "Pei Zhi and I are waiting outside the door."

No one disturbed, Bai Yan walked into the room alone.

Dong Xiao was sleeping on the recliner in front of the window, against the light, only a silhouette was printed in Bai Yan's eyes.

The carpet in the room was soft and thick, and Bai Yan's footsteps were very light, almost silent.

But Dong Xiao was very vigilant, without turning his head, he kept looking out of the window, and said the first sentence to him.

A slightly hoarse male voice came faintly, "I want to peel Duan Mochu's skin and bones. For the past seven years, I have been thinking about it day and night."

Bai Yan paused behind Dong Xiao.

This is the first time Dong Xiao has mentioned Duan Mochu on his own initiative since he was rescued.

There was an armchair beside him, and Bai Yan sat down slowly.

Dong Xiao still didn't look at him, tightened his skinny fingers, and grabbed the armrest: "But I can't do it, because I want to live to see the light of day again."

Bai Yan knew how cruel Duan Mochu was.

After a moment of silence, he said something meaningless but necessary, "You have suffered."

Dong Xiao smiled, "You can't even imagine the suffering I have suffered."

This smile was cold and ironic, no longer the usual sunny smile.

Bai Yan didn't know what to say, he couldn't find any consolation with such a broad and profound mother tongue.

Dong Xiao didn't seem to need his comfort, or rather, didn't need him to speak out at all.

When he spoke again, he added a bit of disgust to his sarcasm: "Do you know why I survived without any parts missing? You can't imagine, you can't imagine what it takes to survive in the hands of the devil." I really ruined all my persistence and dignity to do this. I am not willing to die like this."

Dong Xiaoyue spoke more and more anxiously, as if he couldn't wait to vent his long-suppressed hatred, "The first few months when I was with Duan Mochu was when I was uncomfortable, and I couldn't believe that there would be such a vicious person in this world. Man, he can kidnap me with impunity and lock me in the basement. Do you know what it's like to not see the sun for months? No sunrise, no sunset, time is just a dial to me For pointers and grids, no one can talk to me except Duan Mochu."

Although he had imagined the situation at that time, when Dong Xiao said it himself, Bai Yan's heart was still clenched into a ball, and he was almost out of breath.

Just listening, he felt unbearable, Bai Yan couldn't imagine how the person in front of him survived.

Bai Yan's heart seemed to be pressed by a huge stone, and when he wanted to say something, his lips moved, but his throat didn't make a single syllable.

Dong Xiao glanced at him out of the corner of his eye, and asked with complete disdain: "It's broken, isn't it?"

Bai Yan spoke with difficulty, "What happened next?"

Dong Xiao smiled mockingly again: "I know he won't let me go easily, but I never gave up on saving myself. Then, I saw Qiu Anping. Qiu Anping was also controlled by him, but he was able to walk outside. I was moved, so Thinking, if I pretend to be tamed by him, can I be like Qiu Anping, in this way, I at least have a chance to go out."

As he said that, he looked at him with great interest: "Do you know how disgusting it is to act in front of a devil and live on your own terms?"

Bai Yan was afraid to see such eyes appear on Dong Xiao's thin face. This is not the way Dong Xiao should be, but maybe it is the only way Dong Xiao can have after going through so much.

But it was very rare for Dong Xiao to vent this time, so he asked, "What happened later? What happened?"

"One night, Duan Mochu took Qiu Anping to the basement and put him in shackles. It is said that Qiu Anping was disobedient and had a close relationship with a boss, which made him unhappy. He used his own means to 'tame' Qiu Anping for a while, Then, the mute brought down another man. That man was a doctor, yes, they performed castration on Qiu Anping in front of me."

Bai Yan's eyes widened suddenly, this was something he didn't know, Duan Mochu actually castrated Qiu Anping in front of Dong Xiao.

What the hell is this bastard going to do?

Duan Mochu's purpose is simple.

Dong Xiao said: "Duan Mochu is such a devil. This trick kills two birds with one stone. It punishes Qiu Anping and kills chickens and scares monkeys. Duan Mochu saw that I was cheating on others. Afterwards, he asked me if I still want to go out to act. He said, no." You can’t let me out, as long as I can do two things. Kill Qiu Anping in front of him, and be castrated by him like Qiu Anping, so that I can guarantee that I will not betray him.”

"I can't do both, so I can only wait. I can only wait like a year. When Qiu Anping was recuperating, he told me that Duan Mochu had imprisoned other people before, and none of those people could escape alive after being rejected by him. "

Dong Xiao's speech became faster and faster, his breathing became more and more rapid, and his cheeks turned abnormally red, as if he couldn't bear the heavy load brought by the hellish memories.

Bai Yan hurriedly interrupted: "Don't talk about it."

But Dong Xiao pushed his hand away forcefully, "In the third year of being imprisoned by him, I tried to escape, but one leg was broken. After that, I was transported to South Asia by him. You can't know what it was like Desperate. I succumbed and succumbed, and a year passed, and a year passed, and I still don’t know how I got here.”

Bai Yan's hands froze in the air, unable to speak a word.

Dong Xiao turned to look at him, staring straight into his eyes, "So, Bai Yan, it's impossible for you to understand how much I hate you... When I learned that Duan Mochu's original target was you, and my So I became the target of his subordinates at first because I have a similar back to you. No, I didn’t hate you at first, I just couldn’t stop hating after suffering.”

"Why? I'm in hell, but you are so happy to be your actor under the sun."

Bai Yan lowered his eyes, the complicated patterns on the carpet seemed to burn his eyes, he had nothing to say.

There was a long silence, and the room was dead.

However, after this period of dead silence passed, the back of his hand resting on his thigh was suddenly covered with ice.

That was Dong Xiao's skinny and pale hand.

He raised his head.

Dong Xiao's slightly red eyes fainted with tears, "But I also know that you are my best friend, you are, the most sincere friend, I know how you ran for me after I disappeared, how much you paid I know that you have never given up on me these years, and I know how difficult it has been for you these years."

In an instant, tears fell from Dong Xiao's eyes, "Rationally speaking, I understand that you are not to blame for what happened to me, that bastard Duan Mochu should be fully responsible, you are just another victim, you are just luckier than me That's all, that's the life you should have. Being able to walk freely in the sun is the life that anyone who hasn't committed a crime should have."

Bai Yan stretched out his hand, touched Dong Xiao's cheek with his fingertips, and gently wiped away the tears.

Dong Xiao held his hand, "So, give me some time. Since I was a child, you and Mr. Song have been the best people to me. Give me some time, and I can always go out. Wait until I get better. , I still want to be friends with you."

Bai Yan opened his mouth, and called out the address Dong Xiao had been afraid to say since his return, "Senior..."

Dong Xiao patted the back of his hand: "I feel much better. It seems that I should have said these words to you long ago. Thank you today, even if I am selfish again."

They didn't expect the result to be like this.

After Dong Xiao had a big emotional breakdown, he called Bai Yan, vented his anger, and confessed himself without reservation, in order to bid farewell to his past self.

On the way to leave, Bai Yan said to Pei Zhi: "He has never changed. He was like a little sun before. After so much, he is still. He is really a very good person."

Pei Zhi said: "So people are divided into groups, he is not good enough, and you would not be close to him at the beginning."

Yes, who doesn't have dark and twisted places in his heart?However, as long as you dare to face up to and adjust yourself, you will be an upright person.

Pei Zhi asked, "Then do you feel better?"

Bai Yan said: "Although it shouldn't be, but to be honest, there must be."

Pei Zhi hugged Bai Yan tightly, "There's nothing wrong with it, the past is in the past, you see, in the end, Dong Xiao still cracked up with you before letting it out. He'll get better, I bet ,must be able to."

Bai Yan nodded, "Yes, he will get better."

Dong Xiao has a strong sense of survival and a warm heart. As long as he actively cooperates with the treatment, he will be able to dispel the haze and walk on the sunny road again.

He is sure.

Today, Dong Xiao made his attitude clear: he still cherishes his friend Bai Yan, but he just needs some time to adjust himself.

Therefore, for the next two months or so, Bai Yan did not contact Dong Xiao again, but only found out the news about Dong Xiao from Pei Zhi and Song Jingwen's phone calls: Dong Xiao had received psychological intervention, and after a month, he was able to go out by himself in the After taking a walk around, Dong Xiao's mental state improved a lot.

In May, early summer comes.

Bai Yan received a call from Dong Xiao.

This was Dong Xiao's first phone call after he was rescued. Bai Yan was very happy and controlled his emotions a little so as not to act too violently.

Dong Xiao asked: "It is said that your film is about to be finished, how is it, you have been very busy recently?"

Bai Yan said: "It's okay, I won't act, it doesn't take that much effort."

Dong Xiao said again: "In the second half of the year, I will go back to school, but I don't plan to continue learning acting. I want to learn directing."

Bai Yan was taken aback, "Why did you suddenly change your mind?"

Dong Xiao replied with a smile: "It should be said that I have thought about this idea now. When I first came back, I didn't make a draft in my mind, but I just kept trying to be brave."

What happened a few months ago, now mentioning it has a bit of a calm taste.

Bai Yan has always wanted to do something for Dong Xiao, but it was difficult to ask before, but now it's different, he asked: "Would you like to come and see our film crew? After all, talking behind closed doors is not as good as practicing on the spot."

After a few seconds of silence, Dong Xiao said, "Well, let's talk about it later, don't worry, I will definitely speak up if I need your help. Now...Mr. Song thinks that I am not suitable to go out of town by myself."

Mr. Song?

Bai Yan wanted to ask something, but he was too embarrassed to say it.

After all, he still doesn't know what kind of situation these two people are in.