Baidi Chunshen

If there is a trace of violation, I feel that the beauty is not in full bloom.Years of refinement have made those eyes firm despite the vicissitudes of life, like shining fire.When he looked at people, he was sincere and kind, but he seemed to be able to see through people's hearts at a glance, making people invisible.Although his height is not as tall as Xiangfu and Uncle Yun, he is as vigorous as a tiger.His back is very straight, and his broad chest makes people feel reliable at first sight.

That's why father makes people feel respect and love at the first sight.Even Cao Cao was very reluctant to kill him back then, and sat at the same table with him.

Some people say that I look very much like my father, but my eyes are like my beautiful mother, soft and stubborn, like a deer.Although my figure can be called personable and graceful, I am a bit thin and thin, not like my father who is skilled in bow and horse and is used to fighting in the battlefield.Some people even wonder if I can shoot a bow...

Ugh.

***

...Because even Xiangfu can shoot a strong bow and crossbow.The power of the profit and loss continuous crossbow is even greater.Not only am I not as strong as him and my father, I am also far behind in talent and ability...

There is no way to stop feeling inferior, and I can only be placed in that position, and follow their requirements to achieve things that I can't do at all.Then, they often let them down.This is the first half of my life.Although he is an emperor, he is also full of helplessness.

I didn't have the talent to be a generation of heroes and emperors, but I was forced into this seat.My father has expectations for me, my father has expectations for me, officials have expectations for me, and even thousands of people have expectations for me... Wouldn't this be too hard for me?

As much as I respect them and admire them...but they make me so unhappy.

Although my father has been the most gentle and loving to me since I lost my mother.

He is really a beautiful person.It's not just about being pretty.Xiangfu looks upright and handsome, what is even more rare is his demeanor, which can be called the style of a celebrity, the posture of a celestial being, no one in the civil and military courts can match him.His footsteps are always in a hurry, he wears his long clothes and wide sleeves fluttering, and his jade pendants jingle.But even if you are in a hurry, you can't feel the slightest impatience from him.When he walks like the wind, he is steady and reassuring.It seems that as long as you follow behind him, you won't be afraid even if the sky falls.

Xiangfu has always been the best to me.When I was a child, I was lazy in studying, and my father would punish me, and the military adviser always protected me.Later, when my father was away on an expedition, I stopped studying.Uncle Yide scolded me, blowing his beard and staring.But I'm not afraid of him staring, and he won't hit me.It was Uncle Zhao who tried to persuade me.I was so scared that I would walk around whenever I saw him.

Later, Uncle Zhao told the military division.The military division doesn't know how to curse, but he didn't persuade me either.After all, he is so busy.Then one night, the military adviser's wife prepared a delicious supper, and we ate it together.I like to lean on the military division, smell the faint fragrance of ink on his sleeves, and eat snacks at the same time.The military master hugged me on his lap, and told me from the Western Zhou Dynasty, the beacon fire drama of the princes, to the five tyrants, the seven heroes, the warring states, and the intrigues.Such a boring history, but it is so exciting and moving when told by a military adviser, explaining the profound things in a simple way.It seems that we are also in the age of the smoldering smoke.When it comes to Guan Zhong, Yan Ying, Tian Heng, and Le Yi, the military advisers are always in high spirits, with joyful and yearning lights shining in their eyes.

Later, when my father inspected my homework, he was amazed that I had made such great progress, and I always answered as he wanted.He knew it was the military division who told me.He blamed the military adviser, he was so busy with official duties, he just left what he taught me to the bachelors, so he had to do everything by himself.But when my father said this, he was smiling.

Later, it became a habit for the military adviser to take time out of his busy schedule to tell me about historical records and philosophers.My father always listens in whenever he is free.Then he said, "Kong Ming, if only you could write all this down one day. I can read it when you're not around."

Therefore, the military division started to copy the annotations of Shen, Han and Guanzi for me.It's just that there are too many and too busy things, and it has been intermittent.After becoming the prime minister, there is no time to write these things.It was not until I took it to Baidi City that I finally finished writing it.

Do you think that all the letters copied and annotated by Xiangfu were lost on the road?How important are the prime minister's official documents and letters, how could they all be lost in the middle of the delivery.In fact, I ordered my servants to burn it.

Anyway, my father can no longer be held accountable.Even if I become the emperor, I still can't decide everything. The political affairs are handled by the Prime Minister, and I just need to follow the instructions.In the palace, Dong Yun is still in charge of me.Then I will be self-willed, and it is always possible to do this little thing.

What is the use of those scriptures and history?My father didn't like reading at first, but after he got the chancellor, the two of them shared the couch every night, talked about the former Han Dynasty and the later Han Dynasty, and sighed and hated Huan Ling, so my father gradually began to pick up the books of strategies of the masters.It was because of this that he thought that the Eastern Expedition would not be lost.At the beginning, it was indeed a victory, but so what, the subsequent defeat also proved that it is useless to read more books.My talent is not half of my father's. If my father has read the book, it is still so, let alone me.

I ordered people to burn the letters copied by Xiangfu in front of Huiling.I think my father is in the spirit of heaven, and I am happy to see these...

***

It was because of me that I disappointed Xiangfu.Said that I belittled myself and made injustice.

"So what? I've always been just a symbol of the Liu surname of the Han family." I whispered.

"Symbol?" Xiangfu also repeated in a low voice, looking at me: "What does your Majesty think is a symbol? Ji Han is now in a corner of peace, and there are many heroes, good ministers, common men and women who are willing to do this." Symbols and forgetting to die."

I am silent.I really do not understand.The ministers of the guards are relentless inside, and the loyal men forget themselves outside, as if they have nothing to do with me.They all remember their father's kindness, so what does it have to do with me?

Xiangfu seemed to be able to read what I was thinking, and said slowly: "Yes, this is related to the fact that the late emperor treated people well, and his kindness was widely received. However, it is also because your majesty and the late emperor are the descendants of the emperors of the Han Dynasty. Those who keep loyalty, filial piety, and righteousness, even if they see eunuchs in chaos, treacherous officials in power, and their families and countries overthrown, they still love the old dynasty and yearn for the old Han... Lonely ministers and bastards, seeing that people's lives are like worthless in troubled times, how can they not want to be the mainstay? .I would rather follow the Han Ding and smash the jade into pieces than to be a rootless duckweed and drift with the current. Let the turbulent waves of this chaotic world drown the world..."

Father Xiang spoke word by word, until the end his voice was choked with sobs.I also felt moved when I heard it, and said softly: "Although I can't fully understand it, I can imagine that Xiangfu has believed in a big man since he was young... Xiangfu is loyal and filial, gentle and loving, and treats the common people as his flesh and blood. I have the world in my heart. When I meet a father who is also like this, I can’t tell whether this heart is the heart of the father or the heart of the father, so I sacrifice my life and forget to die to follow..."

"Yes," Xiangfu said with a relieved smile, "Your Majesty knows this, which shows his intelligence. Your Majesty has never experienced it, and he never understands the difficulty of starting a business and the difficulty of maintaining it. Ruling the world, rites and music prevail, rivers and seas are clear, and the people are eager to look up to their hearts, like a baby looking up to their parents. Then they collapsed. Fortunately, the first emperor rose from the grass, and his virtues were far and near, and his love and faith spread all over the world. The style of the ancestors, Ming and The sun and the moon will continue the ambition of Guangwu, how can it not be exciting, and think of death?" He said, knowing that he would forget his feelings, and shook his head again: "Your Majesty is benevolent, filial, gentle and kind, and you should grow up. I still look forward to the late emperor. The grace of birth and nourishment, earnest hope, don't use injustice to lose the hearts of the people."

"Father...Can I not mention my father?" I stepped forward and grabbed his sleeve.In fact, I really imagine that when I was a child, I buried my whole body in his arms: "I have a father-in-law, so I can be safe... The father-in-law is always in charge of the government, and what everyone wants is also the father-in-law, so what does it have to do with me..."

Father Xiang was silent for a moment, then slowly broke free and knelt down.I felt that I had misunderstood the metaphor again, so I hurriedly helped him up.But Xiangfu said in a deep voice: "Your Majesty doesn't miss the late emperor, and don't you also miss the teachings of my ministers for more than ten years. It is really sad for Liang to say this now. How can Liang feel at ease when His Majesty is like this."

I was angry and ashamed, if I was reprimanded by the military adviser like this when I was young, I would have cried a long time ago.I stood there in a daze for a moment, staring at him blankly.

I have also seen Xiangfu kneeling in front of his father like this, but why is the atmosphere so different?Xiangfu, who knelt under his father's wings, felt at ease, peaceful and clear, like a pool of green pools.His father helped him up, and the monarch and his ministers smiled, everything was silent.I think this is where fish find water and dragons play in the abyss.So the rain fell, and the people were all nourished.

And me...why no matter what I do, I can only make him disappointed and sad... There is no fish in the Bitan, and I always spend my mind and energy to drain the water inch by inch until it dries up?

Thinking of this, I leaned over to support him, and said softly, "Father Xiang is feeling better recently? How is your sleep and diet?"

Father Xiang raised his head in a daze. I think he probably heard his father's voice from my words.Maybe I saw the first emperor on my face in a trance.

I choked up and said: "Father Xiang, I heard that sorrow can hurt people... Father Xiang is busy with military and government affairs, I really shouldn't make you worry like this anymore... I will definitely repent... I will also pursue the late emperor's edict deeply."

But I only repented temporarily.The country is easy to change, but the nature is hard to change.After all, I couldn't do what he and my father asked of me.

Even the fall of the motherland, I have never regretted it.Although I am sorry, I am also relieved.

***

On a certain New Year's Day after moving to Luoyang, the streets outside were decorated with lanterns and festoons, and the people celebrated with joy, which was very lively.After I went out to play around, I came back a little sleepy.Dozing off on the couch, vaguely listening to someone singing outside:

"Mandarin ducks are flying, Bi Zhi Luo Zhi. A gentleman lives for thousands of years, and his blessings are suitable for him.

The mandarin ducks are in the beams,