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On Monday, Director Xu talked to him and asked about Ye Mo's situation. Yi Shuihan hesitantly reported Ye Mo's physical condition, but for some reason he concealed his crying that afternoon.

"Ah, that's good. That—the higher-ups haven't spoken yet, so there's nothing we can do about it for the time being. We have to let him go on vacation. Talk to him after get off work, enlighten him!"

"But, Director, I don't know what happened, how can I persuade you?"

"Fool, why do you want to know so much? The less you know about the private affairs of the captain's family, the better. You just need to observe his mental state and avoid accidents. Humanitarian care."

"Oh," Yi Shuihan looked at the director's face, and said courageously, "Director, I have a request, look..."

"Hey, tell me."

"I don't think that—the other colleagues—that—gobble their tongues behind their backs. Can you mind?"

"What tongue are you chewing?"

"It's - that - Ye Mo was scolded by the captain as that..."

"Oh, I see. Cough cough, well, hey, it's a private matter and I can't control it. It's okay, it will be fine after a while. You tell him to think about it."

"Director," Yi Shuihan blushed, said, "I don't think it's right to do this. We shouldn't discriminate against anyone, especially our colleagues."

"Oh—hehe, I didn't realize that Xiao Yi's realm is quite high, hehe...Of course, you are right, you shouldn't be discriminated against, you shouldn't be discriminated against," Director Xu bowed his head in thought, thought for a while, and said, "I will emphasize the principle of solidarity and friendship at the meeting. As for private matters, oops, you know it's hard to manage. Tongues grow in other people's mouths. Tell Ye Mo to be thick-skinned. Don't be afraid, the more you are afraid The more things happen, don’t be like you, haha... I’m just kidding. But Xiaoyi, you really need to be tougher. As a leader, you have to train what you should train and take care of what you should manage. Don’t be afraid, I will support you .Okay, you go to work first, let’s talk about other things.”

Exiting the director's office, Yi Shuihan felt frustrated.In persuading others, he once again failed unexpectedly.Why are the people around me always aggressive and opinionated?If it is right to discriminate against homosexuals, then it is right to discriminate against people who are silent or chattering, who are inferior or arrogant, who don't like flattering or flattering, who are sexually exuberant or cold, who are sexually or sexually That's right.In this way, everyone has original sin, no one is perfect, you discriminate against me, I discriminate against you, it is right.

"No wonder there are so many conflicts and resentments!" Yi Shuihan said to himself.

"Team leader, the pirates are out again!" Ling Fan yelled at him.

"Ah—here we come."

Their team has been tracking the "pirate" for two years, but has been unable to locate his lair.Ye Mo proposed a new idea last week, setting up big bait in places that pirates like to care about, called the "wait for the rabbit" plan.He is a policeman, and his thinking angle is different from that of a major, which brought new inspiration to the case.It's a pity that Ye Mo was grounded before the plan was completed.

Yi Shuihan stared nervously at the big screen, praying in his heart that the pirate activities would last longer, longer. At 3 minutes and 42 seconds, the pirates disappeared.

"Damn it, it's still the agent in the Netherlands, and it's deceiving." Ling Fan slapped the table and cursed.

"Hey, he's a master, master, what can you do? The team leader, it's the same old way, I can't locate it." Sui Chengjun turned his head and stared at him.

"Forget it, let's rest." Yi Shuihan waved his hands and said.

"Team leader, didn't Brother Ye say to set up a trap last time? Did the higher-ups approve it?" Sui Chengjun asked.

Hearing "Brother Ye", Yi Shuihan felt more fond of Sui Chengjun in his heart.Here, people at Ye Mo's age are basically officers, so everyone respectfully calls him Brother Ye.

"Uh, not yet." Yi Shuihan replied vaguely.Ye Mo's idea is to ask the bank to use [-] million as bait, which is crazy.He didn't dare to report it and was still hesitating.Ye Mo has been persuading him not to be afraid, saying that he has the confidence to catch the pirates, he is a little tempted, but Ye Mo can't take the lead now, how dare he do such a risky thing?Besides, the director will not approve it.He shook his head and went back to his computer.

It was the weekend again, and Ye Mo took the initiative to ask him to go out and deliver the note.Yi Shuihan rolled up the thin letter paper, put it in his pocket, walked out of the camp gate, and walked towards the main street with Sui Chengjun.His fingers kept touching the half of the A4 paper, and his heart was churning.When he walked to the public toilet, Yi Shuihan couldn't help but want to go in to drain the water.It was obviously to turn on the water, but he went to open the door of the cubicle after entering the toilet.After closing it, his little heart was pounding and his fingers were trembling. He took out the note and opened it to read.

【Brother Qin, thank you for caring about me so much.I'm fine.It is the greatest victory for my brother to escape from prison.I have no regrets.Please don't worry about my situation.I am fine.Although he didn't understand the real reason why Captain Qin was so angry, there was some truth to what he said.Whoever does it is responsible.I shouldn't hide in the base to steal my life, even if I can't go out for the rest of my life, I should.Please don't blame yourself, let alone destroy your brotherhood for me.I can't bear that responsibility.

I'm fine here.The work here is very much to my liking, and it is an honor to be here and serve the country.If Shaoqi comes to you, please tell him the same thing, please rest assured, and please don't wait for me any longer.I hid many things from him, and I was not the good person he imagined.Ask him to leave here and start a new life.Love is diverse, he is fully qualified to love other people, tell him that he is the best, before falling in love with others, he must love himself well. 】

"Team leader, team leader, are you alright?" Sui Chengjun asked suspiciously outside.

"Okay, okay." Yi Shuihan quickly put away the note and opened the door.

"You haven't flushed the toilet yet!" Sui Chengjun pinched his nose with his hand.

"Oh—" Yi Shuihan froze for a moment, turned around and pressed the flush button.

Yi Shuihan walked out of the public toilet with a complicated mood, and walked towards the big bowl of vegetables.Qin Jiangwei was indeed waiting at the door.A melancholy face immediately lit up the moment he saw Yi Shuihan.

Yi Shuihan was a little shy, and the other party seemed to regard him as a benefactor, but he thought it was nothing special.He hurriedly stuffed half a piece of paper to the other party, pulled Sui Chengjun, and ran away quickly.

When they finished their lunch and walked back, they ran into Qin Jiangwei again.

"Leader Yi, you've worked hard." Qin Jiangwei stuffed a pack of cigarettes into each of their hands, and stuffed another piece of paper into his pocket by the way.This time, he didn't peek any more, and handed the note directly to Ye Mo.

After Ye Mo looked at it, he lowered his head and choked up in a low voice.After a while, he stood up emotionally, walked from the window to the single bed, and from the single bed to the window.Then he stopped and stared straight at Yi Shuihan like a ghost.Yi Shuihan straightened his chest nervously, waiting.

【Leader, I know it's not appropriate to tell you this, but I really want to say it.If you don't say it, you will be suffocated.Just listen to it, don't take it seriously. 】

[Team leader, do you believe that one person can love several people at the same time? 】

【It’s not the kind that you have to go to bed with, it’s——】

[It is a kind of strong feeling, even if you are thousands of miles away, you will not forget him, even if you have a lover who has slept with him, you will not forget him, or even if you don't want to sleep with him, you will remember him. 】

Yi Shuihan shook his head, he couldn't understand such complicated words.

[You don't understand what I mean, and I don't understand clearly.I love my brother, and I also love Shaoqi, facing him now, I——]

[There is also a feeling, maybe a sense of guilt, not real love, but no matter what, I only had resistance and disgust for him before, but it is different now.His feelings were so intense and real that I was a little bit overwhelmed. 】

Ye Mo anxiously put down the electronic board, walked back and forth a few more times, stopped and wrote, [I used to think that my brother's love was enough.With my brother's support, I don't need anything.Don't worry, it's not incest, and there is no blood relationship between us.But we have already fit together spiritually.We -- we loved each other uncontrollably and intensely, but strangely didn't want to go beyond brotherhood.I'm afraid—afraid that if I cross the line, everything will be gone.That beautiful love, that beautiful, irreplaceable trust is gone.Team leader, do you understand that sometimes too strong spiritual love cannot withstand the test of the body. 】

Yi Shuihan shook his head again.Ye Mo shook his head irritably, [There is a kind of "symbiotic relationship" in psychology, which often happens between parents and children, like a combined baby.Have you read "Sons and Lovers" by Lawrence?Perhaps the relationship between me and my brother is better explained by the theory of symbiosis, so that we can escape the temptation of the flesh. 】

[Forget it, let's not talk about him.I can't figure it out either.Let's talk about Shaoqi.I used to take advantage of him, but his low self-esteem moved me.He is like a replica of me when I was a child, longing for love, longing for attention, and very sensitive to any face.I sympathized with him, took pity on him, wanted to help him, and in the end couldn't do without him somehow.It should be said that we are the most normal relationship between lovers. He pleases me, obeys me, needs me, but doesn't fully understand me.I am his spiritual mentor, watching him mature day by day, I am very happy, but a little lonely.I don't know if my brother felt the same way watching me grow up.I can't share my brother's troubles in running a business, and I can't understand his mood in the face of family conflicts. 】

[Of course, I also need Shaoqi, he makes my life more settled and fulfilled.My brother and I must be separated, I need to rely on Shaoqi to survive.But now it's all in vain.Shaoqi sacrificed his native family for nothing, but I was trapped here, powerless. ] After writing this, Ye Mo wiped the corners of his eyes sadly. [I don't know what will happen to him in the future.I hope he can become strong, continue to walk his own way, and don't pin his hopes on me.I really hope that he will read more books on psychology, forgive the pain in the past, and let himself live. 】

[And he, the person you met today, had an annoying face at the beginning.He is too strong.You're not going to develop any good feelings for someone who's trying to fiddle with you.I don't like being controlled.My brother can't control me either. 】

[I like to control everything and control all people, so that there is a feeling of "you are really alive". 】

[But now he suddenly softened.Suddenly put himself in a humble position, he said he was willing to wait for me outside for the rest of his life, what do you think I should do?Even if he is no longer the chairman, I think he still has a lot of things to do, and he doesn't need to stay in this ghost place.What do you think I should do? 】

Ye Mo put down the electronic board, lit a cigarette, and exhaled a mouthful of smoke rings irritably.

Yi Shuihan has three big heads.He has never met a person he really loves in his life, but this guy opposite has met as many as three.There is more than just a little difference between people.

[From the time he tricked me into his house, I had a strange feeling.In any case, he didn't need to come to this muddy water.I would rather explain that he was helping Xu's family, but he prepared a little black dog for me. This redundant behavior cannot be explained rationally anyway.But I don't want to face it, I have my purpose, and I don't want to be distracted by him, so I pretend not to see it.Until the day I saw his white hair, it was a fact that I couldn't hide no matter what.I had an instant epiphany about everything, but he avoided it.I don't want to face it either. 】

【At that time, he said that he could not enter the base. He knew it was a lie, but I really hoped that he would not come.I didn't expect that I couldn't come in now.The original plan was that after a year or so, he would help me out, so that I could be reunited with Shaoqi and my daughter.What a plan! 】

Ye Mo stopped his fingers and sighed in frustration.Immediately, he threw his head and wrote, [That's fine, if you don't go out, then you don't owe him anything. 】

[Team leader, you don't know how much favor I owe him.His daughter was rescued with his help, and my life was also saved by him.If you go out, what do you call me?Even if he said it's okay, just be friends, can I say it's okay?Do you think I can be that shameless? 】

Listening to it, Yi Shuihan felt a little fond of the old man with white hair.

[Team leader, I'm really annoying.How to do it and mess things up?I thought I could control everything.It would be nice if I had a hostile relationship with him.I don't like the sticky feeling. 】

[It's better not to go out.I——I have no face to see him, nor Shao Qi. 】

"You're afraid of him." Yi Shuihan interrupted suddenly, but he immediately realized that he was busy, blushed, and waved his hands, "I'm talking nonsense, talking nonsense."

Ye Mo stared at him, expecting him to say more.

"No, it's really nonsense." Yi Shuihan explained with difficulty, "I'm just thinking."

Ye Mo continued to look at him expectantly.

Under the expectant gaze, Yi Shuihan stammered, "I just suddenly remembered...a senior of mine...a man. He is cheerful and treats everyone well. He is the president of the student union and is very popular. He...is a girl's dream girl. He...he...is very good to me too. I...have no friends at school, but he treats me as a friend. He persuades me to drink, asks me to play ball, every day I have to go to the next party, and it's no use refusing. He... makes me feel... as if I have some value, no longer... no more invisible. You know, I'm more withdrawn, I don't want to draw attention, other My classmates didn't pay much attention to my existence either. I...after interacting with him, I felt very happy. That was the happiest period of time for me." As he spoke, a rare smile appeared on Yi Shuihan's face.

After a while, he woke up from his dream, and he frowned, "But...it's such a beautiful thing...it always makes people feel uneasy. When I'm with him, I feel happy; once we don't see each other , I worry about this and that. It seems like a lover, but I swear, I'm really not gay. I just rely on him too much, and I always worry inexplicably what should I do if he ignores me someday? No Me, he has other friends, but I only have him as a friend, and if I lose him, I lose everything. He is too powerful, I adore him, and I fear him."

【Do you think this is the same relationship between me and Qin Jiangwei?He is too powerful, so I dare not love him, dare not trust him, dare not entrust myself to him. 】

"I don't know about the relationship between you..." Yi Shuihan flinched, "I just suddenly remembered my senior. He was a strong man. Later, he started a company and is now very famous."

[Then what happened to you then? 】

"We're later? We're later..." Yi Shuihan paused for a moment, showing a painful expression.He muttered, "There was nothing later. Once he had a falling out with someone. I happened to be at the scene, and then... I stopped going to the party after that."

Ye Mo didn't ask any more questions, he lowered his head and fell into deep thought.Yi Shuihan was also caught in the memory of his senior.

The room was quiet.

At the end, Ye Mo sighed and wrote, 【Shaoqi is braver than me. 】

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