hurt spring

It was getting hotter and hotter, and the dawn was getting earlier and earlier. One day, a mahjong game was played until dawn. Before six o'clock, the poker players dispersed. Di Qiu was still full of energy. Go to bed, get acquainted with the popular tourist attractions in Chengdu, look through the ward manual, "point-to-point service", "service", "health", these words can no longer hypnotize him.He couldn't sleep no matter what, and was disturbed by the noise of his own tossing and turning, so he had to get up, pace up and down, go in and out, go to the bathroom for a while, lift the water tank cover of the toilet, and carry Ah Qing's kite-making tool bag. Come out and see, the plastic bag contains blades and inkstones, which are all sharp weapons that can kill people. He hurriedly resisted (hidden) the bag back, and went back to the living room, and took out the old professor's pencil case from behind the sofa. Shaking the pencil case, there was a gurgling sound inside. He walked to the window, held the pencil case up to the sun and observed it. The metal box was opaque, so there was no reason for it.Di Qiu sniffed his nose, there was a smell of dry sawdust.Might be the sofa smell.

There was a woman talking outside the window, her words were straight and round, and she paused every word.

"Chen Style Taijiquan, the first form..."

Looking down, Di Qiu saw a group of patients doing morning exercises in the garden, some of them were doing Tai Chi with an old man in a hospital gown, and two elderly nurses could be seen inside, some of them were jogging in the morning, walking fast, just Around the garden, round and round.

Di Qiu saw Tu Chengwen among the people jogging in the morning.He put the pencil case back, leaned over the window and looked around.Tu Chengwen ran in a big circle, and the ward building outside the garden counted as a circle.He couldn't run fast, he was short and fat, and he seemed to be struggling.He ran around and around.

Di Qiu opened some windows, a gust of hot wind blew him dizzy, he quickly closed the windows, looked around, and went downstairs.

When we got downstairs, Tu Chengwen happened to be running by. Di Qiu raised his arms and greeted him warmly: "Doctor Tu, what a coincidence! Are you here for your morning jog too?"

He took a step and ran to Tu Chengwen's side.Tu Chengwen looked at him, nodded with a smile, and said vaguely, "Coincidental, coincident."

"Exercising is good." Di Qiu stretched his arms while talking, moving his muscles and bones.

Tu Chengwen glanced at his whole body, smiled, kept silent, and quickened his pace.Di Qiu followed and asked, "Are you working early today?"

Tu Chengwen nodded.

"Are you leaving so early?"

Tu Chengwen Yuan Gui smiled, Yuan Gui nodded.Di Qiu himself responded and moved his chin slowly.After walking around half of the garden, Di Qiu talked to Tu Chengwen again: "Is your son getting married?"

Tu Chengwen laughed out loud: "You and Xiaoyan have a pretty good relationship, don't you?"

Di Qiulang said: "I have a better relationship with you! There is nothing about me that you don't know! I heard everyone talking," he glanced at Tu Chengwen, "Your son is very good, right?"

Tu Chengwen said: "Whether to get married or not, the child is grown up, it's up to us, he can do whatever he wants."

Di Qiu said: "The separation and reunion are very fast now."

Tu Chengwen didn't speak, the sound of panting became heavier, and his steps became bigger.Di Qiu is tall and has long legs, so he can still keep up. He said, "I used to run long distances."

"Well, you did."

Di Qiu said again: "I won the long-distance running championship in the sports meeting, and I told you about that?"

Tu Chengwen smiled shortly, they ran back to the entrance of the inpatient department, Tu Chengwen turned into the building, and waved to Di Qiu: "You exercise slowly, I'll go up first."

"Hey! Good!" Di Qiu responded loudly, and ran back for half a circle by himself.He went upstairs to take a shower, and Mama Liu came in.

After that day, morning jogging was on Di Qiu's schedule.He couldn't figure out Tu Chengwen's working hours, but he would run into him every now and then while running in the morning. The two saw each other and said hello to each other. Coincidentally, Di Qiu sometimes speeds up and sometimes slows down. He always tries to get behind Tu Chengwen, watching his back and continuing to run.I bumped into Yan Ning several times. Yan Ning came to work to bring water to Tu Chengwen, and the two sometimes talked for a while.When Di Qiu passed by them, Yan Ning took advantage of Tu Chengwen's inattention and made a face at Di Qiu.Di Qiu was happy, and ran away from them.

Tu Chengwen has a set of running equipment, running shoes, knee pads, sports shorts, and a sports top. He sweats easily and wears a headscarf.He also carries a mobile phone and listens to music on his wristband.

Only once, Di Qiu heard Tu Chengwen calling on his mobile phone.At first, he ran one meter behind Tu Chengwen, and when he heard his reply, Tu Chengwen slowed down and walked aside to talk with his hands on his hips.His expression was serious, his brows were tightly furrowed, as if he was distressed and angry.Di Qiu had never seen him like this.

He had only seen Dr. Tu who was gentle, persuasive, sitting face to face with him, eating biscuits together, with a smile on his face.

Di Qiu also stepped aside, pulling up his clothes to wipe his sweat.Tu Chengwen glanced at him, Di Qiu turned around, squatted down, loosened the shoelaces, and tied them again.

Tu Chengwen spoke on the phone in Suzhou dialect, and his tone was serious, even a little rigid and unreasonable.He said: "If you want to buy money, you can buy it. Help me, don't worry about the money! Oh, it's the mother-in-law who bought a house." (What do you want to do? How about it, tell him, you don’t have that much money! Could it be that your parents’ money was saved to buy him a house?)

After a break, he sighed, and said again: "Forget it, let me figure it out, call me again... I'll figure it out." (Forget it, let me figure it out , he will call again... Let me think of a way."

His attitude softened, and there was only helplessness in his voice: "Don't worry about it, I'll think of a way." (Don't bother you, I'll think of a way.)

Di Qiu looked back, coincidentally, Tu Chengwen was looking at him sideways, his eyes guarded.Di Qiu smiled, got up and patted his clothes, and said, "Doctor Tu, take your time, I'll go first!"

He went back to the building and took the elevator, the elevator door closed, and he pressed the seventh floor.Di Qiu's heart suddenly beat loudly and quickly.

Di Qiu went out on the third floor, he touched the front of Tu Chengwen's office, the door was unlocked, Di Qiu opened the door and went in.He walked around the back chair, around the sofa, and went behind the desk.There is a laptop on the desk, along with a family photo and some sticky notes taped to the table.

Mrs. Qian, at 02 o'clock, put Fangfang's mother to meet, and at 30:[-], remind Fangfang's father.

There are six drawers under the table, all locked.A pair of leather shoes were placed on the ground.There was a shriveled milk carton in the trash can.

Di Qiu can always catch a glimpse of that family portrait out of the corner of his eye.

He picked up the frame.There are three people in the photo: Tu Chengwen, a rich middle-aged woman, and between them is a young boy with thick eyebrows.His mouth looks like a scribble, and the outline of his face is like that of a middle-aged woman.All three of them smiled, and when they laughed, the arcs of their eyebrows and eyes showed exactly the same.

"Di Qiu?"

With a sudden sound, Di Qiu shivered, put down the group photo, raised his head, smiled at the door, and said, "I'm here to find biscuits, hey, do you know where Dr. Tu usually hides biscuits?"

Yan Ning stood at the door and looked at him without making a sound.

Di Qiu laughed even bigger: "Forget it, forget it, don't look for it, and go to the cafeteria to eat noodles."

He walked towards Yan Ning, and when he passed by him, he patted his shoulder: "Are you working early today?"

Yan Ning looked at him with raised eyebrows, and made a gesture of smoking a cigarette.Di Qiu understood, nodded and walked out.

In the evening, he and Yan Ning met on the rooftop.Yan Ning brought him takeaways, a serving of Maoxuewang, a serving of garlic pork ribs, and a box of white rice.Di Qiu opened the lunch box, fanned it with his hands, and smelled the aroma of the vegetables, feeling intoxicated.Yan Ning broke open a pair of disposable chopsticks and stuffed them for him, then lit a cigarette by herself.The two sit on the ground to eat and eat cigarettes.

Di Qiu looked at him: "You don't want to eat?"

Yan Ning said, "I ate it with my mother tonight."

Di Qiu picked up a few grains of rice and rice grits to eat, and Yan Ning nodded repeatedly: "It's good, it's good to be gentle, it's good, it's really scary to eat before."

Di Qiu said: "After spending so much money, you still haven't changed your body. I'm sorry for myself and I'm sorry for the money, right?"

Yan Ning kicked him, Di Qiu stuck out his tongue, picked up a few grains of rice grits, put them in his mouth, and chewed them slowly.

Yan Ning raised his chin and asked him, "What are you doing in the director's office this morning? Stealing medicine? Stealing medicine and going to the first floor." He pressed one eyebrow, "Are you involved in any gambling activities?"

Di Qiu coughed.Yan Ning laughed at him: "You can't be a spy, you will be exposed before I torture you."

Di Qiu lowered his head and raised his chopsticks: "I confess, I'm going to find biscuits. The butter biscuits from your director are quite delicious."

"You like to eat? Tell me, it's all from me." Yan Ning said, touching Di Qiu's shoes with the tip of his toe, "Are you lying?"

Di Qiu raised his head: "It's been a long time since I saw a ghost!"

Yan Ning squinted her eyes, looked at his shoes, and said, "You just wear these for morning jogs all day?"

Di Qiu laughed, and couldn't stop laughing.Yan Ning flicked the cigarette ash: "Okay."

Di Qiu smiled and waved his hands, tearing up.Yan Ning lit a cigarette and handed it to him. Di Qiu put down his chopsticks, took the cigarette, and took two bites. He coughed and sprayed smoke from his mouth and nostrils, and he calmed down.

He and Yan Ning sat face to face and smoked.

After a break, Di Qiu said flatly: "I've figured it out. My mother is my hallucination, and Xiao Ding is also an hallucination. They are all hallucinations. I understand them all. Then why doesn't Dr. Tu let me go out of the hospital?"

"What about Tuchun?"

Di Qiu was puzzled, and looked at Yan Ning: "Did I mention Tuchun to you?"

Yan Ning stretched out his hand to one ear, and Di Qiu suddenly realized: "Oh! You eavesdropped on my voice recorder!"

Yan Ning shrugged and spread his hands: "We need to conduct case analysis, and analyze everything you bring to the hospital."

"What kind of case am I?"

Yan Ning said, "Didn't you figure it out yourself? You're hallucinating."

Di Qiu said: "Tuchun is not a hallucination..." He paused, staring at Yan Ning, his voice trembling, "Should...not..." He quickly said, "I rode a bicycle with him in high school, he Sitting on the cushion, I was sitting on the faucet, and I was facing him, two people on one bicycle." Di Qiu shook the cigarette ash, and gestured happily, "That's it...can you imagine? Anyway, we didn't ride for long. I just fell down, like an idiot, yes, just like an idiot, this is a scene from a movie, I don’t remember the name of that movie, there seems to be a word for spring, Japanese movie, I don’t remember .”

Yan Ning took out her mobile phone, bowed her head to type, and asked leisurely, "Have you mentioned to the director that you should be discharged from the hospital?"

Di Qiu was puzzled: "If you don't mention it, you won't give it? No wonder you have a library and a computer room!"

Yan Ning laughed, and turned the phone around to show Di Qiu: "The movie is called "The Sky of Bad Boys", and there is no word for spring."

Di Qiu gasped for breath, lay down on the ground with a mournful face, and shouted to the sky: "It's over! Tu Chun was also my hallucination!"

"You may just be remembering wrongly."

"How can I remember wrongly about Tuchun, it's over, he really doesn't exist."

"Is he important?" Yan Ning moved over and looked down at Di Qiu.Di Qiu looked at the night sky with a cigarette in his mouth, and said: "I lack maternal love, so I imagined a mother image, I killed Xiaoding, so I had hallucinations about Xiaoding, I haven't been in love yet, Longing for love again, I fantasized about a man named Tuchun, tall, handsome, and very interesting. Doctor, do you think my analysis is correct?"

Yan Ning stroked Di Qiu's hair and gently kissed his forehead.Di Qiu got up and stood up, Yan Ning was still sitting on the ground, pointing to the lunch box: "You don't eat spicy food?"

Di Qiu didn't make a sound, and patted his clothes and pants.Yan Ning said: "We haven't started chatting about the stars and the moon, are you leaving?"

Di Qiu looked at him and asked, "Is it important?"

"what?"

"The stars, the moon... do they matter?" He also asked, "Whether there are gods or ghosts in the world...does it really matter?"

It was too hot. At night, there was not even a breath of wind blowing from high places. He had a headache and felt stuffy in his chest. He rubbed his temple with his wrist and asked Yan Ning, "Can I be cured? Will I be discharged from the hospital?"

Yan Ning asked him back: "Do you want to be cured?"

Di Qiu half-covered his eyes: "Don't you need treatment if you are sick?"

"Then if you don't have a boyfriend, don't you need to talk about one?"

Di Qiu put down his hand and glared at Yan Ning: "What's the matter?" He leaned back, leaning against the railing, with the back of his hand behind his back, stroking the warm railing, and said slowly: "Sometimes I feel like I really need treatment. Well, it seems like a great need to be a normal person."

"What is a normal person?"

"Understand that people cannot be resurrected after death."

"Don't you understand now?" Yan Ning smiled.Di Qiu nodded, then shook his head again: "It's very contradictory. I understand many things, I am very clear. However, knowing that people cannot be resurrected after death does not mean that they can overcome this hurdle, right? And I am not normal, I have hallucinations , but I didn't affect other people's lives. I went to see a doctor, I took medicine, and I didn't feel happier or lighter. It's all a lie."

Di Qiu looked at Yan Ning: "Did I come here just to deny my own existence?"

Yan Ning said: "This is a multiple-choice question, Di Qiu, you have to choose yourself."

"Will I choose wrong?"

"People who can choose wrong will not come here. People who come here know what is right and what is wrong, but they can't choose between right and wrong."

Di Qiu said nothing, turned around and smoked.He felt the hot wind, cold sweat broke out from his palms, and he fell down.

Suddenly, he heard a loud, artificial sneeze.

"Ahhhhh!!"

Di Qiu turned around, and let out another cry.

"Ah!"

It was Yan Ning who was sneezing, with his head drooping heavily, his hand covering his nose, and the third sound: "Ah sneeze!"

Di Qiu stared at him blankly, not knowing why.

Yan Ning straightened up, rubbed her nose and said, "My mother always sneezes like this, especially, very loudly, outside, when she sneezes, people will look at her."

He continued: "My dad and I know how to laugh and learn from her, that's it..."

"Ah!"

"My mother scolded us, saying that there is something wrong with you, and then she would laugh out loud."

Di Qiu wanted to laugh, but Yan Ning smoked a cigarette and rubbed his nose with a playful smile.Di Qiu laughed, walked up to Yan Ning, picked up a piece of garlic pork ribs, and ran away with it in his mouth.

It was time for him to see Dr. Tu.

Di Qiu entered Tu Chengwen's office, and Tu Chengwen was making tea. Seeing Di Qiu, he made an extra cup and put it on the low table next to the sofa.He talked to Di Qiu with a smile: "Have you had dinner yet?"

Di Qiu smiled, closed the door, and glanced at the desk, only the laptop was on the desk.Di Qiu walked to the armchair and sat down.Still smiling, Tu Chengwen pulled the low table near the armchair, put down his thermos cup, took out a can of biscuits from the drawer, put it on the low table, and sat down.He drank tea, took out biscuits, and motioned to Di Qiu, "Eat."

Di Qiu said, "Dinner is over."

Tu Chengwen said: "The ancient meat in the cafeteria was cooked quite well tonight."

Di Qiu held both hands together, lowered his head, looked at his feet, and said: "A few nights ago, I met the mother of the patient who lives next door to me, not Ah Qing, but the mother of that child. "

"She's crying."

Tu Chengwen asked, "You mean Fang Fang's mother?"

Di Qiu raised his gaze slightly and looked to the side. He saw that Tu Chengwen's hand holding half a biscuit rested on his right thigh, and some crumbs of the biscuit fell off.Tu Chengwen brushed them away

Di Qiu said: "Is her child autistic? It seems that he cut an apple for her, but hurt her hand. She was a little angry, and blamed the child for being ignorant and playing with knives, but she was very sad, and maybe there was something wrong with her." Happy... I don't know what to say, that apple was cut very ugly, and there was blood on it, so it might not be edible. She cried for a while..." Di Qiu looked up at Tu Chengwen, and asked, "Why is the Garden of Eden Are there apples growing on that tree?"

"What do you think?" Tu Chengwen smiled slightly, "Yes, why not peaches, apricots or pears?"

Di Qiu said, "Is it because apples are common, and it represents the commonness of human sin?"

"You agree with the view that man is born sinful?"

Di Qiu said: "Isn't Christianity based on this? Since the Apple of Eden is the story of Christianity, it should also be based on this point of view."

Tu Chengwen asked him: "Then what do you think?"

"There is a popular saying in China that human nature is inherently good, but good nature does not mean that there is no sin."

Tu Chengwen remained silent, watching Di Qiu quietly.Di Qiu looked at him and remained silent for a long time, then he said, "That mother, she ate that apple." He paused, and asked Tu Chengwen: "Do you want to hear my views on God and religion? "

Tu Chengwen said gently: "Here you can speak freely."

Di Qiu smiled: "Then you can look at my problem from my perspective, interpret and analyze my case, right?"

Tu Chengwen took a sip of tea and asked casually, "Do you think you are a case?"

"You are a doctor, and I am your patient," Di Qiu pointed at himself for a while, and Tu Chengwen for a while, his eyes swept across the desk, and he spoke quickly, "I have never had contact with my father. It may be someone who listens silently, but anyone..." He pondered for a while, then continued, "Everyone treats their relatives differently, and there are thousands of ways to express love."

Tu Chengwen didn't speak, he was turning the lid of the thermos cup.Di Qiu moved closer to him and said, "I think that people are born with gods, and children have the most healthy godheads. As they get older, the godheads gradually disappear."

"Many people feel that a child's innocence is something that is easily lost in the process of growing up."

Di Qiu listened and shook his head: "I'm not naive. Think about it, don't children have no idea about death? When a person dies, you have to explain the meaning of 'death' to the child, because he doesn't understand. He is not aware of 'death', isn't that how gods are? What about adults, when people grow up, they are either afraid of death or want to die."

Tu Chengwen leaned close to the side of the chair, leaning towards Di Qiu, and said, "So for you, God is associated with death, can you say that?"

The two looked at each other, and Di Qiu suddenly asked him, "Doctor, do you want to hug your grandson?"

"grandson?"

"Do you expect your child to marry and have children? Will you urge him?"

"Is there anyone who doesn't want their children to start a family and start a business?"

Di Qiu said: "It's because everyone else hopes so, so you have to hope so too, just like... like..." He pondered for a moment, "Others have a house, I want to have a house, and others have a driver's license, then I will go too Take one test, but maybe you can’t afford a car at all, I’m not saying you can’t afford a car, I mean some people…” He swallowed, staring at Tu Chengwen intently, “If your child is Gay, asexual, or he can’t love anyone at all, do you want him to marry and have children? Because the people around you are such a process, like a process. We were born, We breed the next generation, and we wait for the next generation to breed the next generation."

Tu Chengwen thought for a while and said, "Of course I can easily tell you here that as long as the child is happy, it's all right, because my child is not in the situation you said."

Di Qiu grinned.Tu Chengwen said: "Do you want to hear your parents say such things to you?"

"what?"

"You just have to be happy."

Di Qiu touched the skin of his lips, he lowered his eyes, looked at the cup of tea, the dark green tea did not move at all, like a piece of stone embedded in the cup, tightly seamed.Di Qiu said softly: "They can say anything to me, they can scold me, beat me... Just like what you said, this position is not valid, I am not in the situation you assumed."

Di Qiu exhaled, leaned on the back of the chair, stretched his legs, looked at the sofa not far away, sat a little more relaxed, and said: "That mother ate that apple. When she ate the apple, the blood dripped When I got to my hand and mouth, I was thinking, this apple, religion says it is original sin, Adam and Eve swallowed it and became human, mortal... Her child... Love is life and the product of the crevice of death."

"Do you think so? Or have you heard it from others?" Tu Chengwen asked him.

Di Qiu looked at him: "Is there any difference?"

Tu Chengwen got up, took the laptop over, and fiddled with it for a while, Di Qiu's voice came from the laptop.Di Qiu listened carefully, and he heard himself talking, what he said was: "Then, Bai Yujiao told me, isn't love the product of the gap between life and death?"

The audio stops abruptly.Half of Tu Chengwen's face was hidden behind the computer, his eyes were pitch black.

Di Qiu smiled: "So the fox fairy is just my self-projection, do you mean that?" He smiled and continued: "Is there not many patients who are sober like me?"

Tu Chengwen smiled, and Di Qiu asked suspiciously, "Is this important?"

"what?"

Di Qiu frowned, thinking about it, and said: "Now I can't get hallucinations with drugs, and I may not even need drugs in the future, I won't see any fox fairy, water ghost, Xiao Ding Ah mama, I might get a job, work [-] to [-], I might fall in love, I might start a family, but it's all uncertain, the only certainty is that I live here, on this earth Life, people will die, the earth will die... Does life really matter? I confuse illusion with reality, does it really matter?"

"This is a bit far away, we are currently..."

Di Qiu interrupted Tu Chengwen: "Doctor, do you know "Dwelling in the Fuchun Mountains"?"

Tu Chengwen remained silent, as if waiting for him to continue.Di Qiu said: "A collector once owned it. This collector loved this painting so much. How much did he love it? He loved it so much that when he was dying, he ordered his son to burn the painting. He died. I also want to die with this painting. The painting was burnt in half, but the Fuchun River, the river painted in the painting, is still there, and the mountains in the painting are still there, those The tree may have changed, but there are still trees, boats, and people on the trails.”

Tu Chengwen asked: "Have you traveled to the Fuchun River? Are you in Zhejiang? Did you go there alone?"

Di Qiu glanced at him and said with a smile: "According to a scientific explanation, you can say that I imagined that I have been there, it is my hallucination, it is very powerful, many people rely on medicine, and spend a lot of money to buy medicine It doesn't cost me money to seek this illusion."

Tu Chengwen listened, and Di Qiu continued: "But, what is the hallucination?"

Tu Chengwen quickly replied: "It does not exist in this objective world, but it is a very vivid feeling, perception."

"Then what is the objective world?"

"It's the society we live in, the world."

Di Qiu further said: "Since hallucinations are perceptions that do not exist in this objective world, let's take myself as an example. After I die and am gone, I become a hallucination, right?"

Tu Chengwen smiled: "Everyone is talking about ghosts."

Di Qiu followed with a smile: "Yes, yes, I became a ghost."

He said: "I will become a ghost, he will become a ghost, all men, women and children in the world will become ghosts, they will all become an illusion, they will not exist forever. But because of me," he pointed to himself , "At present, it still exists objectively relative to you, so it means that I am not an illusion, right?"

"It means that you are not my hallucination now."

"Is that an illusion of the entire universe? Because for the universe, eternity is the same as the moment, our life and death, disappearance and existence are the same. Are we a dream of it?"

Tu Chengwen cleared his throat, drank tea, and said, "No one can live so long and so wide. We all live in this narrow world and live in the present."

"Does living in the present mean distinguishing between illusion and reality?"

Tu Chengwen said: "Many people lose their loved ones and friends every day, but not all of them are indulged in an illusion."

"However, there are people who can't get out, or people who can't get over it. People are born to be happy, can they only be happy?" Di Qiu asked himself, "Can people be sad? People have emotions such as sadness, depression, and sadness. , Does it mean that people can be sad? Why do you laugh when you don’t want to laugh? Thinking about someone... just because you can’t see him, because he’s dead and gone, so you can’t think about it?”

Tu Chengwen's voice became softer: "No one has ever said that, but..."

Di Qiu looked at Tu Chengwen and raised his voice: "But!"

His voice was low again, a little trembling: "I want to believe that there are fox fairies in this world, I want to believe that I am not an orphan abandoned by some man and woman, I want to believe that my mother loves me, but I can't. , I want to believe that Bai Yujiao has really lived, not my self-projection, not my self-evasion, self-comfort.

"When we fell from the stage, when she threw me into the sky, I was really scared, and when she was flying on the water with me on her back, I was really excited, she took me to run, run, run Oh run, such a big fox with such long and warm tails, it throws off all the pursuers, I feel like we are in a wilderness, I also feel that we are running on the long river of time, it It seems that it will never be tired, and it is full of vitality. The moon was very round and big that day, and we were on the Tiger Hill Pagoda that day, and Suzhou was very beautiful. When she died, I was very sad.

"If everything is an illusion, an illusion, and nothing real, what are my joys and sorrows?

Di Qiu lowered his head: "I want to believe in Tuchun," he clenched his fists, "he is not my hallucination, not a perfect person imagined by my adolescent sexual impulse. He is so perfect, his appearance , temper, voice, the sound of his heart beating... the temperature of his palm, I want to believe that I know what love feels like."

Tu Chengwen was still speechless, Di Qiu's voice was the only one in the room: "I want to believe that there are dragons in the world."

"It's not dead, it's just sleeping."

He looked at Tu Chengwen, after a long break, he stood up and walked out.

In the evening, Susu and the others came to find Di Qiu to play mahjong.New poker friends became old poker friends, and while playing mahjong, everyone also played something to pass the time.Ah Qing brought a stack of colored paper and spread it on the sofa in the living room, and took out the plastic bag of tools from the bathroom. He drew a few strokes on the colored paper, and when Susu called him, he went to draw and play cards.He will not participate in the shuffling of the cards. The professor brought a book, so he will not participate in the shuffling of the cards. Susu and Di Qiu are playing mahjong. When exchanging in the air, he will read the book and occasionally take notes.What the professor is watching is "Thirty Tips for Cooking Soup in the Kitchen".

Susu chatted with Di Qiu, and she said, "Do you know what the two little hands in front of the Tyrannosaurus rex are used for?" Susu clamped her armpits tightly, and drew her hands to her sides to make gestures.

Di Qiu thought about it, but couldn't answer.Susu turned her head and greeted: "Ah Qing! Here you go!" (It's your turn.)

Ah Qing ignored it, and the professor helped him draw a card. He looked at Ah Qing's card and played Zhang Beifeng.It was Di Qiu's turn to draw the cards, and Su Su arched him: "Guess."

Ah Qing lightly said, "Isn't it for fighting each other?" (Isn't it for fighting?)

Susu opened her eyes wide: "It's so short, why are you fighting?" (It's so short, what kind of fight is it?)

Di Qiu asked, "What is that for?"

Susu covered her mouth and snickered, but didn't speak.Di Qiu smiled, looked at the professor, the professor looked at his own cards, then at Ah Qing's cards, took a card, and helped Ah Qing spread out the cards, saying: "Ah Qing, the fifteen family. "

Susu also looked at Di Qiu, smiled and pushed down the cards, put a ten and a five playing cards on Ah Qing's seat, then hugged herself, said with a smile on her face, "It's for hugging, Help the family to scratch and scratch Ge!" (It is used to scratch the wife when hugging together!)

She gestured to scratch her back twice.

"Hey, I'm talking nonsense."

"Zhen Ge!! Zhonglang Animal World? Look at it?" (Really! Didn't you watch Animal World at noon?)

"Ah, the dinosaurs are strong?" (Dinosaurs are so interesting?)

"It's talking about it, it's about committing crimes, and you have the strength to deal with things. If you say 呒, you can't do it." (That is to say, it's also a crime. Such an interesting thing, if it doesn't exist, it will disappear.)

"People are quick and fast." (People are also very fast.)

"Human beings have a little bit of energy, no, their hands are so long that they can be stretched out so well that they can do whatever they want to do. What does that mean?" It’s so long, you can do whatever you want, what’s the point?)

"The Mona Lisa is beautifully painted." (Isn't the Mona Lisa beautifully painted?)

"Oh, let's figure it out, the aliens came over to have a look, the Great Wall, the Pyramid, the Sphinx, the Mona Lisa, what is it, what is it, take out the laser gun , beep beep, beep beep.” (Oh, forget it, some aliens came over to see what the Great Wall, Pyramid, Sphinx, Mona Lisa, what, what is it, Erase erase, laser gun out, beep beep, beep beep.)

"After tens of thousands of years, there will be a new Mona Lisa." (And after tens of thousands of years, a new Mona Lisa will come out.)

"The aliens probably liked Picasso."

"In a few tens of thousands of years? A group of aliens will also come over, what kind of men, women, dogs, cats, what kind of things, take out the laser gun, beep beep beep, beep beep beep."

"Aren't aliens so unreasonable?" (Are aliens so unreasonable?)

"Be reasonable, come here, please help me come here, I asked you, what's the matter with you, please tell me." (Be reasonable, come here, this person, you give me Come here, let me ask you, what is good about you, tell me.)

"Personally, I don't know, I don't know, so gossip about Suzhou is also starting to pidgin." (I don't know what's wrong with that person, your Suzhou dialect is starting to pidgin again.)

"I asked, do you like a man or a woman? Man? Hey! Woman? Ayah! What's the rush, go around, turn slowly, think about it for a long time, tell me, I'm happy!!" (I asked You, do you like men or women, men? Erase it! Women? Erase it too! I was so anxious, I thought about it for a long time and said, I like you!)

"I'm sorry for my cleverness."

"Beep beep! Hahaha!"

"Aliens are not easy to serve." (Aliens are not easy to serve.)

"It must be a Ge female alien." (It must be a female alien.)

"What's your opinion on women? Have you finished drawing your dragon?" (What's your opinion on women? Has your dragon been drawn yet?)

No one rang.Suddenly, Di Qiu burst out laughing: "Tickle."

He glanced at Susu, and Susu also smiled, her voice was not loud, her movements were loud, and the flowers and branches were trembling.Di Qiu smiled and touched a card, a Beifeng, he spread out the card: "Nonsense, Menqing draws for himself!"

He thought of something again, and murmured: "Beep beep..."

Susu laughed out loud.

When it was dawn, the game was over early, Di Qiu was sitting on the sofa reading a South African travel guide, and Mama Liu came in.She put the dinner plate down on the table and gave Di Qiu two pills. Di Qiu put all the medicine in the palm of his right hand, patted it in his mouth, opened his mouth, stuck out his tongue, spread his palm, and took out his pocket.Mother Liu nodded with a smile and went to the bedroom.

Di Qiu took a cup of soy milk and drank it all in one go