sweet heroine

And to be honest, after sending Shenyue a speech about drinking more hot water and resting, I happily went shopping with Osamu Dazai.

Of course female friends are important, but so is Dazai.

However, considering Shenyue's situation, I still thoughtfully asked if I would send you back, but Shenyue refused very decisively, and even gave me a feeling of panic.

it's wired.

When I went shopping this time, Dazai accompanied me all the way. If I wanted water, he would buy water for me. If I wanted dessert, he would line up to buy it. He gave me whatever I wanted.

Immediately, I felt that this was better than compound treatment, well, he seemed to be like this before.

Anyway, very satisfied.

I nibbled on the ice cream and walked happily through the shops, spending money like water in every noble shop, the eyes of people around me couldn't help but focus on us, and I threw some of the things I bought to Dazai.

The young man in a beige windbreaker with a white shirt inside looks much more mature than four years ago. Without the black suit, he also looks much fresher, less depressed and deep.When he looked at me, his eyes seemed to soften a lot. I was in a good mood and bought him an ice cream.

As a result, the other party had to show me his pathetic appearance, expressing that he had no spare hands, and asked me to feed him.

How could I give in?

When he looked at me, of course I gave in. Standing in the crowd, I ate and fed him, hey, what can I do.

After eating, I began to think about what to have for lunch at noon today. Osamu Dazai and I chose a place, and I passed. After choosing a few, Osamu Dazai asked me, "Does Xiaoyou like crabs?"

"Crabs." I pondered for a moment, "It's okay, but it's a bit laborious to peel the crabs."

"I can give it to Xiao Yu." Osamu Dazai looked at me, "Would you like to try it?"

Now that you have invited me like this, of course it is okay, but as soon as I went, I found that I was deceived. I thought the crab was a sea crab, although it was indeed a sea crab, but the crab is... a snow crab!

The extra-large one, the whole crab is really as big as my head, where does it need to be peeled.

And they peeled it for you, you just need to eat it. Osamu Dazai happily took the crab legs peeled by others, exposing the snow-white crab meat with a little pink crab meat inside, and handed it to my mouth. "Ah, Yuu."

Looking at him with cramped eyes, "Didn't it be agreed, you peeled it for me?"

He looked at me innocently, "Then shall I strip Xiaoyou again?"

"No need, the store has already peeled it off."

Osamu Dazai looked at me with a smile on his chin, and shook the crab leg in his left hand and said to me, "Actually, I really want to peel it for Yuu, but Yuu...why do you think of other crabs?" ?”

...Because I'm a flower grower, no, um, lost in thought.

There is always a subtle feeling of being clichéd.

"Hey, do you want to finish this first?"

"want……"

Then I ate the sashimi crab legs that Dazai fed me. Don’t tell me, it’s expensive for a reason. After the crab legs of this Japanese snow crab are frozen, they are slightly cold and sweet when they enter the mouth. The taste spreads between the teeth, very delicious.It is also the first time for me to eat Japanese snow crab, and I ordered a snow crab pot in front of me, which is smoking.

"By the way, doesn't Yuu want to get to know me?" Dazai Osamu looked at me with a smile, his brown pupils seemed to be smudged by the smoke, "I like eating crabs very much."

"Is that so?"

"Yes." Dazai, who casually picked up a crab leg and put it in his mouth, said pitifully while eating, "But because I don't usually have enough money, I can't eat such things."

"That's so miserable..." It's over, and I want to raise him again.

Then this man propped his chin with one hand, then suddenly looked at me seriously, and smiled slightly, "Speaking of which, where has Xiaoyou been these four years?"

Hey?

Yes, I was really busy a while ago, and I didn’t have time to sit down and have a good chat. I couldn’t help recalling my life for the next four years and said to him, “Actually, I went abroad for further study, and then joined a good In the study organization, there are three people who served as my partners one after another and planned to help me study hard. But I found that they were all scumbags (undercover agents) with poor academic performance. In the end, I was the only one who studied hard, worked hard, and succeeded in the end. After graduating, I traveled to Italy to celebrate and then came back!"

"Hey..." Osamu Dazai looked at me with a long voice, his eyes were so deep and shallow that people couldn't see his emotions, "Then Xiaoyou didn't send me any text messages, these four years."

"I blocked you." Feeling a little weak, I immediately accused the other party angrily, "Then...wasn't you the one who told me to break up? And you didn't send me a text message."

Osamu Dazai was silent for a while, and immediately showed a somewhat aggrieved expression, "But didn't Xiao You pull blackmail on me?"

yes...

I suddenly became a little weak again. It seems a bit too much not to contact him for four years, but I can't help it. I am in the copy of our organization with three undercover agents, and I can't get out of it. Well.At that time, in order to come back to see you, people tried their best to cheat the medicine. Thinking of this, I immediately regained my confidence.

"It doesn't matter, who told Dazai to break up with me at that time." Women don't need to pay attention to logic!

I never talk logic with men, are you a woman?If you're a girl, I'll tell you...

Osamu Dazai couldn't help laughing out loud, "Okay, okay, I understand, but Yuu hasn't seen me for four years, do you miss me?"

Of course I thought about it, but when I think of you wanting to commit suicide, I don't particularly think about it.

I really couldn't help it, I looked at Dazai with some hesitation, and couldn't help asking, "Then Dazai, why do you like to commit suicide?"

Dazai was stunned by my question, he looked at me and thought for a while before he said, "Xiao Yu, do you think that human beings are the scariest thing in this world."

"No……"

Osamu Dazai's face was looming under the mist, I could see too much of his expression clearly, only heard him say unhurriedly, "Ah, how should I put it, I used to be so close to human nature, killing, bloody, why should I Live? Why is there death again? Can people live only by plundering? What is the difference between living and nothingness?"

Of course it's different, isn't this nonsense?Can you play games when you die?

Oh, I'm different, I work for the boss of the underworld.

"Death is a part of life. Perhaps only by close contact with death can we better observe death and human beings." Osamu Dazai seemed to pick up something, and continued, "Don't you think? It's the scariest thing in the world."

"I did not think……"

I felt that Dazai seemed to be talking to me about a philosophical question, and I was tired of hearing it. In fact, I couldn't help but want to ask him a question, "Did Dazai feel the same way after we met?"

Osamu Dazai seemed to be stunned for an instant, his hands holding things were frozen on the table, I asked this man seriously through the blurred water mist, "Really? Don't you feel happy when you look at me? Won’t you be happy?” If not, that would be too much.

I looked at him very seriously, "Because, I will be happy seeing Dazai, I will be happy!"

"How should I put it, that is, when I saw Dazai before, I thought it was sweet. I really like the days with Dazai, and I hope that there will be one more day like this every day."

I pressed on the table and said to him seriously, "I don't think death and life are the same, I never felt that way! Because, if someone I know dies when I don't know, I will be very sad, because I’ll never see you again.” We couldn’t play games together, chat together, and be happy together.

How can this be the same?

"Won't Dazai be sad too? I think Dazai is going to cry about Oda Sakunosuke." I couldn't help whispering, "Did Dazai really feel that life was empty at that time? You won't be happy even when you see me." Don't you want to live with me in the future? Haven't you thought about where we will buy our house in the future? Then you are too much."

I said a lot in one breath. Anyway, I don't know how Osamu Dazai came up with such a strange idea, but I can't accept it.

Although Oda Sakunosuke said that he hoped that I would know more about Dazai, but the more I got to know him, the more I felt that our three views were seriously inconsistent.

"Because, if I knew that Dazai would die in an unknown place, I would cry." I think it's better to say clearly, "Because I liked Dazai, so I don't want anything to happen to Dazai, do you only think about yourself? "Then you are too much of a human being, count me as blind!"

After a long silence, Osamu Dazai, who was on the other side of the mist, spoke slowly, in a very soft voice, "Will Xiaoyou worry about me?"

"Of course."

"Actually, as long as I think about every day in the future with you, I feel full of joy and happiness, and I even look forward to tomorrow!" Isn't it like this to be with someone you like?No matter how much suffering, no matter how big the problem is, we can bear it together and solve it together!

Unexpectedly, Dazai turned out to be a pessimist, and the optimist expressed his incomprehension.

How could anyone live such a miserable life.

He didn't speak for a long time, finally sighed, and then said with a smile, "I really lost to you, Xiaoyou."

"You really."

The words behind him dissipated in the air, I looked at him suspiciously, and then I saw Dazai suddenly approaching me, and said with a smile, "Let's eat hot pot first, or it will be overcooked if we don't."

"Oh." I couldn't swallow my food, how should I put it, the more I get to know Dazai, the more I feel that he is not the same as me. I used to think he was a cookie, but now he is a bitter and hated illusory pie. How embarrassing. ah.

People like me, who are stupid and play games happily every day, are really not in the mood to take care of a man with a sick heart. The main reason is why, I owe you?

We are all adults, why don't we get together?

Just when I was secretly thinking about which words to say about the severance pay would be more touching, Osamu Dazai suddenly said, "Xiao Yu, you are really different."

"Hey?"

Osamu Dazai smiled at me, "I am so happy to meet you."

I was a little embarrassed to say this again, and then I thought that we had feelings after all, and I said to Osamu Dazai, "If you really feel that you can't live anymore."

I thought for a while and put down my chopsticks seriously, "You can come and commit suicide in front of me and try."

He looked at me in a daze, which made me say with embarrassment, "After all, it can be pulled up. Then if you try it, if you think it's not good, then don't try it." After all, I still don't want to see him die.

"As expected, I still hope that Dazai can live well."

I feel a little wronged. When I think that Osamu Dazai may not like me that much, he has never thought about the future with me, and he is still thinking about suicide every day. I feel very wronged. How can this person be like this.

Are you all unhappy seeing each other?I will be happy when I see Dazai, and I will consider whether to get to know him better, I regret it now.

"If we can really be together, I really hope that we can go on forever."

At least, let's be happy together for a lifetime.

"If you really want to die." I gritted my teeth, "Just die before my eyes."

Easy to pull...