This benefactor is not too cold

Lin Yuan was born in a small fishing village in the south. In addition to him, he had an older sister, two younger sisters, and a younger brother. When Lin Yuan was born, the family was so poor that they couldn't help but their parents, who could not read a few words, decided that If the population is prosperous, there will be endless future blessings.The poorer you live, the result can only be poorer and poorer.

In addition to his grandparents, the envied three-generation living under the same roof, in his memory, there is only noise and heat. There are nearly a dozen people in the family, crowded in a room of less than 50 square meters. It is fine in winter, but what about summer?Lin Yuan no longer remembers how he survived the sweaty summer nights. He only knows the cries of his younger siblings, the quarrels of his parents, and the sighs of his grandparents, which filled his entire teenage years.

Although there is a lot of land in the countryside, how can their family have extra money to build a new house?Who would have thought that such a family still existed in modern times, but it really existed in Lin Yuan's life.

Afterwards, Lin Yuan worked hard on his own, and was admitted to the middle school in the town. He received a full subsidy with the No.

Lin Yuan is a boy in the family, but he has been weak since he was a child, his body is weak, he is often sick, and he can't do heavy work even if he stays at home. He has to find a way out in the future, and his parents agreed to let him go to school.

The conditions of the middle school dormitory in the town were not much better. The dormitory was occupied by [-] people. Amidst the complaints from classmates mourning, Lin Yuan embraced the quilt made by the village chief’s house, and was full of joy. Put the things in his own place, this is his own bed.

It was also in the first year of high school that Lin Yuan, as a student representative, met Chang Si who had donated to Hope Middle School.

Chang Si on the stage is dressed in a suit and leather shoes, gentle and elegant.

Lin Yuan hadn't seen much of the world since he was a child, and the farthest place he went was his aunt's house in the town, and he hadn't seen many people, but he had met many people later, and he didn't think anyone was better than Chang Si.

At that time, I just felt that Chang Si was different from the people he had met, and it was difficult to look away. I couldn't help but look at Chang Si in a daze, and didn't even notice that he was approaching.

Until Chang Si passed by him and put his hand on his shoulder: "This classmate, can I trouble you to make way?"

It turned out that he was standing there stupidly, blocking the passage to get off the stage. Chang Si did not push him away or treat him casually like others, but asked him seriously.

The headmaster moved him aside, apologized, and at the same time kept winking at him.

Lin Yuan realized his gaffe, and hurriedly lowered his head: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

Chang Si: "It's okay."

The principal scolded him again in a low voice, and hurriedly followed behind to see Chang Si off.

Lin Yuan stood where he was, with only what the Chinese teacher said in his mind: "People are like rainbows, you will know when you meet them."

At the same time, she secretly made up her mind to become someone like Chang Si.

After that, Lin Yuan studied even harder. He didn't want to go home, so he stayed at school every weekend.

And he also lived up to expectations and was admitted to a prestigious school during the college entrance examination. There was a college student in the village, and the only college student, the secretary of the town came to condolences.Parents who don't like to talk very much all the year round, their heads are always raised during that time, they run around to inform, and talk to everyone they meet.

"One person attains the Tao, chickens and dogs ascend to heaven." Suddenly he became the hope of the whole family to get rid of poverty.

And Lin Yuan himself thinks that way, he is not afraid of being dragged down by his family, and he doesn't feel dragged down. There are many, but all that can be given has been given.

As long as there is a glimmer of life and opportunity, he wants his family to live well.

With the tuition fees collected by his parents, Lin Yuan came to the gate of the university with ignorant enthusiasm and the illusion that the road was right under his feet.

He was also a little flustered in his heart. Before the university started, he planned for three or four years later.He wants to pay back the borrowed money after work, and build a new house for the family after saving money. The younger siblings are gradually becoming sensible, and it is really inconvenient to sleep with their parents.

After waiting for many years, if he earns more money, he will also donate to his alma mater.

In his own cognition, Lin Yuan weaves beautiful dreams for the unknown future, but these are things that he dare not think about before.

It's a pity that the reason why a dream is a dream is that it is fragile and cannot be realized.

In his sophomore year, the debts owed by his family were almost paid off. Lin Yuan received the "National Encouragement Scholarship" every year. With a small sum of money, I encourage my parents to contract a fish pond and buy some fish fry, so that they don't have to work so hard.

The fish fry sold in the first season earned a considerable income and gained experience. My parents decided to expand the scale of farming and borrowed money to start an aquaculture farm.

Although a lot of money has been poured into it, there is hope after all.

Seeing the fish grow up day by day, some people in the village turned red-eyed.

Lin Yuan listened to the phone calls from his mother and younger sisters during that time, and he could imagine that they should be very happy just from the voice.

It seems that everything is going well, it seems that there is hope for everything, and it is possible to start again.

My younger sister, Lin Yue, just started elementary school, and she called her brother softly, reluctant to put down the phone: "Brother, will you come back for the Mid-Autumn Festival this year? The teacher said that the mooncakes for the reunion festival must be eaten together."

After Lin Yuan came to the university, in order to save travel expenses and earn more money, he went back home once in more than two years.

After thinking about it, the family's money should not be so short this year, and said with a smile: "Yueyue is good, brother go back."

"Great, brother is coming back, brother is coming back."

Hearing them dancing and laughing over there, Lin Yuan on the other end of the phone also laughed heartily.

When Lin Yuan received the call about the accident, Lin Yuan had just finished work. On the way back, he passed a children's clothing store and saw two dresses displayed in the cabinet. Although the price was expensive, the sisters should look very good in them.

When Lin Yuan was about to pay, the phone call came, and there was a cry from his mother: "Yuan baby, our fish has been poisoned, and all the fish worth 10,000+ yuan are dead. Such a big fish floated up one after another. The person who poisoned them refused to recognize them. I watched them turn white. The police said that there was no evidence and they could not file a case. I really wish I could die with them. Why? The eyes of someone can be so bad, it is our family's life-saving money."

Lin Yuan was startled when he heard that, the package in his hand fell on the ground, it was very light but strangely loud, and hit his head and face: "Mom, don't worry, just wait for me, I will Now go back."

Lin Yuan understood his parents' distress and panic, and his heart ached. At this time, he was the only one who could rely on his parents, and he couldn't lose his footing.

Not caring about anything else, Lin Yuan immediately bought a plane ticket and went home, comforting him was nothing at this time, he could only come up with a solution as soon as possible.

Before boarding the plane, my mother called again, her voice was very calm, too quiet.

No more anger, no more grief, more of resigning to fate and no longer struggling.

"Yuanwa, why did you think it was getting dark when it was about to dawn?"

Before Lin Yuan could say anything, the phone was hung up, and his heart was full of anxiety.

During the four-hour flight, Lin Yuan was on pins and needles, and when he returned to the village, it was already dark.From a distance, I saw the flames soaring into the sky, illuminating the whole night brightly, just like the day.

The fire that seemed to swallow all the darkness was ignited from his house, and he had a vague premonition that he didn't need to think of any other way.

By the time Lin Yuan stumbled to the front of the house, the fire had become smaller, like the ashes after it had burned everything, and there was nothing left to burn.

Under the watchful eyes of the villagers, either sympathetic or gloating, Lin Yuan wanted to rush in, but was stopped again. He could only shout and roar at the top of his lungs, and finally fainted in a hurry.

When he woke up, there was nothing left. A fire took away all the sources of warmth and thoughts he had in this world, leaving him with only debts.

The fire was set by the parents, and the person who poisoned him was a local ruffian in the village, just because he felt uncomfortable seeing that the Lin family had been poor all their lives like him, but they were about to get rich.What a ridiculous reason, but it became the reason for him to do evil. The honest parents were so angry that they had bullied them all their lives, but they killed people.

Fearing that there would be no one to take care of the young children in the future, and afraid that their affairs would drag Lin Yuan down, he made up his mind to set a fire while the whole family was asleep, and burned everything clean.

On the day of the funeral, Lin Yuan followed behind the hearse, as if the people inside had nothing to do with him, they just walked, kneeled, and worshiped numbly, like a marionette, and he did what the old people in the village said.

Losing a few lives for 10,000+ yuan may be viewed with contempt by others, but the poorer they are, the more they value money more than their lives because of the hardships of life.

Lin Yuan understood that it was not just the 10,000+ yuan that forced his parents into desperation, but the heartache of being beaten back to their original form despite heavy burdens over the years, but who is to blame?

After the funeral, Lin Yuan went back to school and dropped out. The reason was nothing else, but because all the debt collectors chased him to the school, adding fuel to the story and talking nonsense about his family affairs.

Seeing the troubled face of the school leader and hesitating to talk to him, Lin Yuan offered to drop out of school.

He didn't have time to complain about the collapse of the wall, or to stop and lament the warmth and coldness of human relations. He couldn't say anything about the real despair.After dropping out of school, he didn't graduate from university and couldn't get a diploma. What can he do with a high school diploma?He could only do odd jobs here and there. In order to pay off his debts early, Lin Yuan worked four jobs a day at most.

The time when he was rescued by Chang Si, Lin Yuan originally just went to order food for the guests in the private room, but for some reason, as soon as Lin Yuan entered, the two men sitting there began to size up and look at each other.

One of the guests squeezed Lin Yuan's waist when he was approaching, and smiled obscenely.

Lin Yuan got in touch with and knew a lot in college. He knew that some men were also interested in men.

The well-dressed man spoke vulgar and vulgar words, touched Lin Yuan's face, and said bluntly: "You look like a student, right? Is it because of lack of money that you came here to work? Tell me clearly, how much is it for a night to play with you?" ?”

It wasn't the first day he came out to work, nor was it the first day he was endangered by customers, but it was the first time he had reached this point. Lin Yuan was so angry that he said with a stiff neck, "Sir, I'm just a waiter in the restaurant." , and please respect yourself."

The man gave a disdainful "bah": "That's right, waiter, waiter, I want you to serve us."

While talking, he sprinkled the water on the table, squinted and asked, "Why are you so careless? Is there anyone like you who serves guests like this? What will happen if you make a fuss to your lobby manager?"

Seeing that Lin Yuan was at a loss, another person acted as a peacemaker: "I know you have strict management here, and you are not allowed to drink alcohol during work hours. Otherwise, if you accompany us for a few drinks after get off work, it will be considered as never happened?"

It was clear that he was deliberately making things difficult and threatening him with strict management, but Lin Yuan couldn't say anything, because he needed money, and the salary of this restaurant was the sum of several other salaries.

After get off work, Lin Yuan came to the private room as promised, picked up the wine on the table and drank it all in one gulp, but the two men had no intention of letting him go. Instead, they poured him a few more glasses of wine, and Lin Yuan drank them one by one. Let them grope about themselves without saying a word.

There were cramps in the stomach one after another, as if this could overwhelm the loathing of myself.

But when they were about to take a step closer, Lin Yuan pushed them away with all his strength and staggered out. The security personnel along the way saw it but didn't intend to lend a helping hand.

Seeing that he was about to be overtaken, Lin Yuan was almost desperate, thinking ruthlessly, if there is a god, can he be saved just this time, even just once, why no one has ever tried to give him a hand.

Probably his life was cursed, nothing but muddy mess.

"are you OK?"

Lin Yuan panicked and bumped into a person. He leaned back instead, but was stood upright with his wrist strap on, and a question came into his ear without warning.Looking along the source of the sound, a face overlapping with the depths of memory broke into sight.

Lin Yuan moved his lips, but he couldn't say the word for help.

Instead, Chang Si looked at the two people chasing after him, understood the general idea in an instant, and stood in front of him.

Lin Yuan couldn't remember how to deal with things after that, he never went to that restaurant again, and no staff came forward to help, because those two people were the owners of the restaurant.

At that time, only Chang Si could be seen in his eyes, but for the next two years, his eyes followed Chang Si all the time.

People often have a good impression of those who save themselves in deep water and fire, not to mention the existence of Changsi itself is an attraction.

He wants to be by Chang Si's side forever, but he knows that he is not qualified, so he can only watch him from afar, watching his every move like worshiping an idol. He plays Chang Si's news interviews back and forth, and often He absolutely stayed at the event that he wanted to attend, like a fan boy.

Lin Yuan thought maybe his life wasn't so bad.

Later, in an audition program, Lin Yuan was selected by virtue of his clean appearance and signed with Shengyue Media. He felt that he was getting closer to the usual step by step.Afterwards, he couldn't help himself, he wanted to be famous, he wanted to be famous, he wanted to be able to stand side by side with Chang Si as soon as possible, for this reason he climbed into the bed of many people, and he still did the things he hated.Needless to say, he himself felt dirty.

But amidst the unbearable mud, he built a temple, in which Chang Si was carefully placed.For him, Changsi is a pure land that others cannot touch or set foot on.

Even if one day, Chang Si falls off the altar, it doesn't matter, even if the temple collapses, the god in his heart is still a god, and he will be his most loyal believer.

In the past two years, Chang Si has not had any gossip, and no one in the circle has ever heard of Chang Si having anything to do with anyone.Lin Yuan rejoiced secretly, but at the same time mocked himself, he was so dirty, would he dare to touch him, even so, he couldn't help but want to get closer to him.

But why did Chen Mo appear out of thin air, and it was easy for Chang Si to take it to heart.

Lin Yuan saw the intimacy between the two on the snowy day, and it stuck in his heart. It turned out that the person behaved like a child under the alienated appearance, but it was for another person. people.

Many bosses keep artists just for the sake of looking fresh and having fun, but Lin Yuan clearly realizes that Chang Si is not.

This kind of cognition made Lin Yuan feel unprecedented uneasiness, fear, anger and unspeakable grievance.

So when the man wearing the mask expressed his thoughts, Lin Yuan agreed, not without suspicion, but because he had no other choice.He couldn't let go of Chang Si, nor could he hand Chang Si into the hands of others.

Fearing that something might happen to Chang Si, Lin Yuan tried it out in advance, and the package had no effect on him.

And the person wearing the mask said to him: "Chang Si regards Chen Mo as more important than life, you just need to send this thing to Chen Mo, and Chang Si will open and inspect the package with unknown origin before giving it to Chen Mo. "

So when Lin Yuan hugged the weak Chang Si in the toilet, he couldn't tell what it was like, maybe he knew at that time, how could he find a way to make Chang Si belong to him, but he still chose to deceive himself and others.

Until a phone call completely shattered his illusion.

Lin Yuan didn't think there was anything to miss in this world, only the last obsession. When he woke up from the hospital, he seemed to have returned to the day after the fire, and remembered the words his mother said: "Why did you just die?" When it feels like the sky is about to dawn, it will be dark again right after?"

Lin Yuan murmured again, with a blank face on his face: "Yes, why?"

The author has something to say: I went to repair the chapter about Chen Mo in the elevator.

Lin Yuan is actually not that annoying

It's still hard to say

I want to simply write his story

I couldn't resist writing more