critical value

I probably have nothing to do recently. I sit by the window facing the street every day, sitting on one of the pair of chairs, rubbing my phone with the WIFI that comes with the room. I don’t know what I’m doing. I always repeat it. Browse the pages you have seen before, or some aspect of content that you are already familiar with.

I saw it in a post once, it seems that this kind of behavior of not knowing what to do or not wanting to turn off the phone is acceptable.

I admit it.

Sometimes I would watch QQ over and over again, and then turn around in Shi Xiaofeng's space, but unfortunately he usually doesn't post, even if he posts a long-lost post, it's just forwarded, and there's nothing wrong with it. It can't reflect any aspect of him personally. It is usually about some stars, but it is very strange. Every time, a bunch of people rush to praise it.

I don't know why, every time I look at Shi Xiaofeng's space, I always feel very anxious for no reason, but I don't dare to urge him like urging a certain bookstore author to update: "Update quickly!", because it is really strange , Just talking, we are not considered readers, he has no responsibility for updating at all, and it is not entirely a matter of his mood.

What's more, no matter how much he updates, he can't finish it. Even if he uninstalls QQ, it's just an abandonment. If the update is really finished someday, it will probably be the day he dies. With the end of life, let's record the mood That's it.

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I actually think about these things, and I really don’t understand myself more and more.

I ran to look at Shi Xiaofeng's signature, it seems that he hasn't changed it for a year or so, seeing that he is so unenthusiastic about QQ, maybe he is currently using WeChat wholeheartedly, but he doesn't want to add me on WeChat... ..

But one day, not long after, Shi Xiaofeng suddenly changed his signature—"Try to forget."

It always feels unclear, but I vaguely feel something unknown from it—"They finally divided."

Hmm, my intuition was really accurate, because the eldest lady came to me that afternoon and said, "Have you heard that Shi Xiaofeng broke up with that girl after two weeks of dating, and he was the one who got dumped. (Laughing wildly)"

At that time I replied: "Oh." In fact, I was really happy in my heart. Why?Because Shi Xiaofeng, as the chief of the party, was dumped by an unknown young man, so I am really happy.But thinking about it carefully, if it was Mary Suwen, Shi Xiaofeng would be attracted by her courage, and then he would start a lifelong chase...

I don't think it should be, because Shi Xiaofeng is not the third young master of the M-shaking gang in Mary Su Wenli, he is the head of the hunting and anti-hunting department who loves face most, and he will never do anything to drop his father's stock.

In fact, when I first saw his signature, I was jumping with joy for some reason, holding my phone and jumping around, scurrying around the room like a dog before an earthquake, and there were some who wanted to howl a few times. sound impulse.But not long after, when I restrained my urge to howl, I looked at my phone that had entered sleep mode, unlocked the screen, and wanted to give Shi Xiaofeng a thumbs up for his new signature, but after thinking about it, I always felt that this would expose me What kind of abnormal psychology of mine, as expected, forget it...

But I always have to do something to vent my happy mood, so I rolled around on the bed that day, from the afternoon to the middle of the night, and fell asleep feeling full after entertaining myself...

In fact, after a long time, when I recalled the joy at that time again, for some reason, I could feel an inexplicable emptiness from the fullness brought about by the tiredness at that time, as if my kidney had been dug out. (Actually, the author also knows that if he writes "heart has been poached away" here, he will be bloody, but it is better to be stupid.)

I got excited in the small room for a few more days. I was alone all the time, wandering around the room magically, and then stood in front of the changing mirror, jumping up and down, repeating this every day Running around meaninglessly, I feel very fulfilled when I make myself very tired every day.

But within a few days, I realized that this was not enough at all, and then I ran out of the building I hadn't left for a long time, and I couldn't stop excitedly, looking at the number in the elevator. The floor is getting smaller and smaller, and the excitement is so great that you have to shake your whole body and shake your legs to calm down.

And I really want to say to the elevator: "I'll hit your chest with a small fist~"

I have completely collapsed, and I don't know when I will be able to return to normal.

A person is walking on the street like a snake, with a strange arc on the corner of his mouth, jumping up and down, always feeling that he is being watched by suspicious eyes, probably some middle school two-dimensional teenagers who are addicted to Two-dimensional, must feel that My appearance has a sense of sight of Orihara Rinya.It would be more like if it was still talking on the phone.

In fact, I don't know where I'm going, let alone the purpose of doing this, but I just jump around without explaining or thinking at all.I was just jumping for the sake of jumping, hoping that this would calm myself down.

In fact, the eyes are not looking anywhere. To me, the whole world seems to be less than 1% clear, and I don’t even look at the road. Maybe just like this person walked into the wilderness and was caught by the ghost hero in the Korean drama. Putting a black bag on his head, abducted him, abused him, killed him...

99% of the corners of my eyes glanced at a person I passed by, and I always felt that one or two of them seemed similar. Walking by, I wouldn't notice any difference between her and others, she just looks like a silhouette with blurred colors.

But I don't know when, a shadow that seems to be exactly the same as ordinary people suddenly flashed in front of my eyes.But he must be different from ordinary people, the reason is very simple, because he just passed across the road, I just saw the shadow on the other side of the road, even if I looked hard, I couldn’t identify it, and I felt like a premonition before the imminent disaster The same trembled.

I really want to look up at that shadow a few more times, maybe I can recognize who it is, it must be someone who is very important to me and I am very familiar with, otherwise I won't have the feeling that a catastrophe is imminent.But I don't know why, but there is always a entanglement of unknown entity. I don't even know who that person is, but there is a voice that keeps reminding myself: "Don't turn back at this time, if you turn back, you will lose!" gone."

Sure enough, I chose to listen to this sentence, because in ordinary ghost films, there is a ghost standing behind the pig's feet. He seems to have sensed something, a feeling of impending disaster, and because of his strong curiosity, he especially wants to look back. At a glance, if you turn around at this time, you will die, and the death is so miserable that you don't even know how you died.

"So I really don't want to look back." I turned my head while thinking this way, but this time my curiosity didn't kill the cat - what, it turned out to be Shi Xiaofeng...