Unexpected joy

Shi Heting's expression at the moment was not good-looking, his face was sinking like water, and his eyes seemed to burn.He didn't even wait for Ye Yinghui to say goodbye to Bao Xinxin, and he categorically dragged Ye Yinghui away.Leaving Bao Xinxin sitting in her original position in a daze.

He didn't talk to Ye Yinghui all the way, Ye Yinghui called him and he ignored him, but he never let go of his wrist.

It wasn't until he sat in the car that Shi Heting let go of his hand, but his brows were still furrowed.

"What's wrong with you, is there something wrong?" Ye Yinghui also frowned slightly and asked.

"Mind if I smoke a cigarette?" After a while, Shi Heting replied irrelevantly.

Ye Ying didn't know why, so she nodded.

He took out a cigarette and a lighter from his pocket, and Ye Yinghui found his hand shaking slightly when he lit the cigarette.

Shi Heting finished lighting his cigarette, took a puff, and asked, "Why didn't you answer my call just now?"

Ye Yinghui frowned, and wanted to say that it would be impolite to answer the phone when meeting, so Shi Heting continued, "You are on a blind date." This is not a question, but a statement.Ye Yinghui understood, why Shi Heting suddenly called him several times one after another, and why he appeared here, he understood.

He didn't speak, but slowly opened his brows, leaned back, and looked at Shi Heting.

"I... know I'm ridiculous." He only took a puff of the cigarette in his hand when it was lit, and then let it burn quietly between his fingers, he didn't care about the ash falling on his pants, and there was pain between his brows Zhise, "I said I won't come to you until that matter is resolved, and I didn't do it. I also said that if you have someone you like, I won't pester you anymore, and I... didn't do it."

He raised his eyes to look at Ye Yinghui, the depression and pain in his eyes almost overflowed: "Or, I can't do it at all. I went crazy when I heard you were on a blind date."

"I have never been as brave as you. When I found out that I liked you, I didn't dare to face my heart. When I found out that you loved me, I only wanted to retreat. When I found out that you were gone, I didn't even dare to chase after you. When I finally had the courage to find you But I found that it was so late, you don't need me anymore."

"Why can't you accept me? Am I really coming too late, really... there is no hope anymore?" At the end, his voice began to tremble a little.

Ye Yinghui was silent for a long time before slowly asking: "Do you really want to know?"

He didn't wait for Shi Heting to answer, and continued: "I like you for a long time. Before that, I always thought you were a straight man. It wasn't until after that time that I realized that you might not be so straight, so I started chasing you. Together. Later, I realized that you may not like me as much as I like you, but I also felt that it didn’t matter, and then I found out that I couldn’t. I actually want a lot of love, and when you find that you can’t give that much, you shrink back.”

He slowly lowered his eyelashes, and stopped looking at Shi Heting in front of him: "I understand intellectually that this is right and understandable, but emotionally... I can't accept it."

"I love you so much, why can't you love me the same? I'm not reconciled." His voice trembled slightly, but it pierced into Shi Heting's heart unabated like a sharp knife.

"I..." He wanted to say, but Ye Yinghui gently pressed his lips.

"I don't believe in love anymore." He looked up at Shi Heting, "You ask me why I can't accept you, and this is the answer. I don't believe that you can give me so much love, and I don't believe that you can give me that much love." A love that is pure and unchanging.”

All words choked in his throat.

This is the sin he made himself, and he should swallow the evil results alone, even if he kills all hope and love in his stomach, it is the result he should bear.The sharp knife was still stuck in his heart, and it stirred back and forth following Ye Yinghui's words, dripping blood, and then dug the heart away, but his face was blank and white, as if all the pain had been gone with him. The heart that went away went away together.

"He Ting, I'm not as brave as you said." His voice was very soft, "I don't want to experience the pain once, and I don't want to experience it again. Once you lose trust in something, it's hard to build it up again. Trust. That's it, will you continue to love me?"

Shi Heting felt that he could hardly see Ye Yinghui's expression clearly, the intense pain tugged at his heart back and forth, and he couldn't bear the pain.He nodded with difficulty and slowly, his voice was completely hoarse: "I will still love you, and only you."

When Ye Yinghui raised his face, Shi Heting finally saw clearly that his face was covered with tears, and the tears were still overflowing violently, but the corners of his mouth slowly curled up: "Then read it to me slowly." Well, those words sent to me in the past three years."

Shi Heting's head is like a rusty machine now, and it takes a while to realize what Ye Ying said in reply.

those words?What words?

Before he could even figure out what it was, he was distracted by a pair of soft lips pressed against the salty taste of tears - he could stop thinking about it.

More than 1000 days and nights of separation, more than 1000 days and nights of tossing and turning, asking for nothing, all disappeared at this moment.

Before Ye Yinghui was pulled out to participate in this blind date, he found something - it was a mobile phone that Annie gave him when he returned to China, and he asked Annie to help him when he was abroad, and he didn't care about it after getting it , into the cabinet.

His original personal mobile phone was stolen at the airport and he couldn't get it back, so he canceled the number. Later, due to some incident, the account was bound to the number, so he applied for it back.But at that time, he was already abroad, so Anne had to ask Annie for help in the whole process, including applying for a number and buying a mobile phone.After the matter was resolved, he asked Annie to pay some phone bills every month, so as not to let the number be canceled due to arrears and downtime for too long, and then forget about it.

But today, because I needed to use this number, I dug out this phone, and the moment I turned on the phone, it almost got stuck——

He has received countless text messages, and he knows the sender's number very well.The time span is from three years ago to the present. The most recent one was posted last night. The content is also very simple, only four words: I miss you very much.

Ye Yinghui couldn't describe how she felt when she found these messages, but after flipping through most of them one by one, she found that the central idea of ​​these text messages was only one sentence: I love you, I regret it, come back.

All the love that was never poured out three years ago is poured here.

The surging sourness flooded his heart.

He told Ren Nan when he changed his number back then, but he also told him not to tell Shi Heting. Ren Nan once told him with emotion that Shi Heting only found out about his departure half a month after he left. After leaving the country, the number was also cancelled.He said that it was rare to see him deflated, and he was quite relieved, but also quite pitiful.

Ye Yinghui didn't feel much at the time, and he didn't feel sad until now.He couldn't imagine being as proud as Shi Heting, sending text messages to a number he knew had been canceled every night he couldn't sleep.

And if it wasn't for the need to apply for the number back at the beginning, he might never know it in this life.