you are my lungs

Speaking of that secret love, He Qi's memory is actually very vague.

He spent his adolescence under the high-pressure education of his father, and any concern for the opposite sex is a sin.

His eyes were also attracted by several girls, and then they were all snuffed out by himself.

Only that time, in the last three months of junior high school, He Qi suddenly began to pay special attention to a boy.When he smiles, He Qi is happy; when he is quiet, He Qi looks at him quietly; He Qi cannot move his eyes away, unwilling to miss his every move.

At that time he was not called Qin Baichuan, but Qin Ru.

All the classmates in the class knew that his parents were divorced, probably because of this, Qin Ru was a bit young and mature, had a good relationship with everyone, and was a little alienated from everyone.

But this does not prevent everyone from liking him. Whenever there is a class activity, Qin Ru must be the first one to be booed and pushed onto the stage.

It was amid such applause that He Qi's eyes began to follow him.

At that time, He Qi only knew that boys would like girls, so he deduced that his thoughts on Qin Ru were just admiration.

This indescribable admiration became more and more fanatical day by day, He Qi tried to approach him, but because of Qin Ru's alienation from others, the two of them still couldn't talk much.He Qi gave up on chatting up and began to collect all kinds of things related to Qin Ru: the draft paper used by Qin Ru, the eraser that Qin Ru accidentally lost, a small piece of 2B pencil that Qin Ru threw away...

Gradually, He Qi began to panic. His feelings for Qin Ru swelled in his heart like a piece of dough, and it was extremely uncomfortable to be stuck in his chest every day.He didn't understand what was wrong with him, why it made him so sad to think that this person would never look back at him.

Not long after, after graduating from junior high school, Qin Ru did not go directly to this school, but went to another high school.

On the first day of high school, He Qi carefully read the class list posted on the wall twice, making sure that none of them had Qin Ru's name, and finally turned and left.

He felt like he had lost something, but at the time he didn't understand that what he lost was a secret love.

It wasn't until he was an undergraduate student that he saw two roommates who were in a relationship, and it dawned on him: the sadness and enthusiasm at that time were actually love.

No matter how entangled the mind of adolescence is, after all five or six years have passed, how could it have been relieved long ago.It's just that when he thinks about it occasionally, he will feel nostalgic.

I miss myself at that time, and I also miss that alienated boy.I don't know where he is now, what major he is studying.

Doing the math now, three years of high school, four years of undergraduate, six years of master's degree, that crush was actually 13 years ago.

He Qi sat in the infusion room, recalled carefully for a long time, and he was sure that Qin Baichuan was Qin Ru.

Even if he changed his name and temperament, the man's clean and slightly sharp eyebrows remained unchanged.

...As for Qin Baichuan not recognizing him, he felt so helpless and funny.

He Qi was a little fat boy in junior high school, and his height grew slowly, which is indeed quite different from now.

Why don't you really want to meet Qin Baichuan, it's too embarrassing, what will you do if people don't remember you?He is now Qin Baichuan's patient, and he insists on trying to remind him who his junior high school math teacher was and who his Chinese teacher was... making it seem like he's playing tricks.

... Well, How Qi knew that these were all excuses.Mentioning who I am in front of the person I had a crush on, we used to be in the same class... This is too difficult, he doesn't want to mention it, he would rather the two continue to maintain a business-like doctor-patient relationship.

After making this decision, He Qi went to Qin Baichuan to prescribe medicine three days later.

Unexpectedly, Qin Baichuan asked him suddenly: "Where did you go to junior high school?"

He Qi was stunned: "... Lake No. [-] Middle School."

Qin Baichuan was in the middle of his arms: "Are you from Class 05 of the [-] class?"

... He Qi nodded.

"Oh, let me just say, your name is very special, I always feel it is impressive. Yesterday I went back and checked the junior high school graduation photos, no matter how I looked at it, I thought it was you hahaha...you were a little fat back then , why are you so thin now?" Qin Baichuan was excited when he met his old classmate.

He Qi knew that he couldn't hide, so he could only pretend to recognize him just now: "You are... Qin Ru?"

Qin Baichuan said: "That's right! I changed my name when I was in high school. It turned out that the name was too unpleasant. Changing it to this one is much more atmospheric."

He Qi thought to himself that he had indeed become more aggressive. The boy who didn't talk much in his memory had become the talkative boy in front of him.

Qin Baichuan was still babbling: "I've been in the outpatient clinic for two years, and this is really the first time I've met a classmate. Your family also lives on Xueyuan South Road, right? Come back with me in my car after the transfusion?"

He Qi hurriedly waved his hand: "No trouble..."

Qin Baichuan went straight to the point: "Hey, why are you being polite, it's just a ride. It just so happens that I don't have to be on duty today, so we can catch up on the old days."

He Qi had no choice but to respond politely: "Then I will trouble you."

This is really, fate, wonderful.