You who walk against the light

It was only after nine o'clock after Lin Yuan finished washing. It may be because he went to bed late last night. As soon as he touched the pillow, he became tired.Kai Fan is in good spirits, sitting on the bedside and reading a book, which is "Wolf Totem" which is placed in the room and has been refurbished by customers.

Lin Yuan half-closed his eyes and tore off the book in his hand: "So pretty?"

Kaifan does have the habit of reading, but he has been busy with work for the past two years, and he has less and less time to read books other than his major.He couldn't help but pick up the book in his hand and read it.

With a slight smile on the corner of Zhong Kaifan's mouth, he was not annoyed, and tucked his quilt: "Go to sleep first."

Lin Yuan showed his head, his eyes were extremely clear, and his short hair was black and messy. Zhong Kaifan was stunned and couldn't help blocking his sight with his palm: "Why do you open your eyes so wide?"

Lin Yuan waved his hand away angrily: "Aren't I going to die? Why did you tell me to close my eyes?"

Zhong Kaifan's brows were serious, and he found that Lin Yuan was really outspoken, and his tone unconsciously became heavier: "Stop saying such things."

The air suddenly became silent, and Lin Yuan knew that his unintentional joke had stabbed the scar in Kai Fan's heart.Kaifan can't hear any words about death or misfortune now, otherwise he wouldn't pray and make wishes during the day.

An atheist can be regarded as dealing with scientific knowledge, and begins to believe in the metaphysics of fate, which does not follow the routine. Time really changes a lot of things.

The light from the desk lamp was just right, the accommodation was close to the street, and the hustle and bustle downstairs could be vaguely heard.In the past, the two of them had very low tolerance for noise, and even said that they would live in the deep mountains and old forests in the future.Now think about it, what a practical and simple life it is to be close to the fireworks in the world and listen to other people's emotions.

After a long time, A Yuan couldn't help asking: "Kaifan, do you regret giving up your medical career?"

Medicine is something Kaifan has devoted to for ten years, and it has been rooted in his life. This profession engraves the word "rigorous" in his bones, which is the most proud light in Kaifan's life.Think about it differently, what kind of mood would you feel if you asked yourself not to dance in the future?But A Yuan thought silently, if it was for Kaifan, he would be willing to try, after all, there is always a way to make a living.

Hearing his question, Kai Fan finally put down the book, "What's wrong?"

A Yuan shrank his neck, "I feel pity for you." He thought of Kai Fan's technique and intensity of physical therapy for himself just now, and couldn't help thinking that if Kai Fan continued to engage in medical career, he could put this professional skill to the test. On more people, further develop their own value.

Kaifan rubbed his hair, "What are you thinking about?" Finally, he said calmly, "One has to make a choice, one cannot want everything."

A Yuan raised his head, his eyes were bright, "Then what do you want?"

Kai Fan suddenly fell silent, retracted his gaze, and breathed heavily, "Think for yourself."

Lin Yuan pursed his lips, and said sullenly, "I have to think about everything myself."

"How do I treat you, you don't know what to do?"

Lin Yuan argued hard: "I just don't know, you never said you love me."

Kai Fan's face twitched twice, with a look of resistance on his face, he said very annoyed: "I found that you are just looking for trouble for nothing."

Lin Yuan was fidgeting in the quilt, and Kai Fan couldn't bear his fuss, "If you move again, get out."

Now he is completely honest, Lin Yuan knows that Kaifan has always said the same thing, unlike himself, what he says is like farting, and his taste will change at any time, because sometimes he farts rainbows.

There was a smell of medicine in the quilt, and now Lin Yuan couldn't even blow rainbow farts. He said bitterly, "I feel like I'm suddenly seventy and eighty, and my whole body smells like plaster."

Zhong Kaifan's eyes stayed on the yellowed pages of the book, and he chuckled, "How old are you? Seventy or eighty? You really should go to the hospital to feel the struggle of life and cherish everything you have now."

Lin Yuan ignored his lecture, but asked excitedly: "Kaifan, what do you think we are doing at the age of 80? Will we lose all our teeth?" He leaned closer and said, "I should have eaten at that time. I can’t move a lot of things, will you still peel the shrimp balls for me?” He blinked and looked at Kaifan seriously.

Kaifan said patiently: "Peel, peel for a lifetime."

Fireworks exploded in my heart in an instant, bright and gorgeous, so hot that one just wanted to cry, Lin Yuan's tears rolled in his eyes uncontrollably, he said cautiously: "You don't need to peel me for a lifetime, just occasionally."

Kai Fan couldn't hear such words, reached out and took A Yuan in his arms, and patted him on the back, "A Yuan, live your current life well, and leave the rest to time. Sometimes making too many presets may not be a good thing. Good thing, you will be very tired."

"I'm already very tired from life." He said aggrievedly, and only in front of Kaifan could he express his true emotions.

Kai Fan kissed his forehead, "There are more pains in life than happiness, you have to think about it."

Lin Yuan sniffed, his mood eased a little, and he sighed and said, "As long as there is still the station you yearn for, so what if there is no end. People live, sometimes for the thoughts in their hearts."

As long as Kaifan is still waiting silently in a corner of the world, he will always have the courage to go on.

If mother is my responsibility, then Kaifan is my thought.

The room became quiet, A Yuan was really sleepy, and fell asleep beside Kai Fan.Kai Fan read the first two chapters of "Wolf Totem" and became a little interested in the story, but unfortunately it was getting late.Before going to bed, he checked the emails on his phone, and Xiao Zheng had indeed blocked a lot of work for him, but there were only two red urgent emails.He checked the content carefully, put forward his opinions in sections, and only needed to make a decision on the other one.

After finishing his work, Kai Fan couldn't help but think about what he told him before departure. Could the car accident many years ago have anything to do with Xiang Qing?If the truth he found was not what he wanted, how would he face it?

Looking down at the sleeping person next to him, his eyebrows and eyes are stretched, what a pretty face, why is he always talking stupid things about life and death?His A Yuan will live for a long time, long enough for the two of them to wear loose T-shirts to bask in the sun, drink beer, and dance jazz.

Even if life is full of bitterness and sorrow, as long as there is a little bit of sweetness, we can support each other to go on.What's more, halfway through life, time will kill a lot of obsessions, and then rely on inertia to survive.

Let alone, is it not an attitude.Standing too straight takes too much energy.

Rather than living a beautiful and colorful life, Kaifan hopes that Ayuan can live a rich and satisfying life, which is the most important thing.