You who walk against the light

Tian Xin sobbed slightly at the side, even if he spoke, it still couldn't resolve the years of grievances between them.

Zhong Kaifan closed his eyes in pain, recalling everything that happened in the past, and suddenly felt that fate had played a great joke on them.

Gradually regaining consciousness, Zhong Kaifan was breathing tremblingly, and after thinking for a while, he asked, "Six years ago, no, eight years ago, on Christmas Day, what did you tell Xiang Qing?"

Zhong Ziming became angry when he heard this: "What did I say? What can I say?! I asked Xiang Qing to come back and not stay with Lin Yuan! Xiang Qing was fooling around in the bar at that time and owed a lot of money. Bad debt, if Rao Shunyu didn't wipe her ass, she would still be able to make her debut? I don't need to say more about what happened later, shouldn't she be a bad person?" He gasped, "If I don't stop, Lin Yuan has to jump into the fire pit, do you think his life is too long?!"

After saying all this, he was especially puzzled, picked up the remote control of the air conditioner at hand and threw it at Zhong Kaifan, Tian Xin tried to stop it, but the remote control flew out, Zhong Kaifan didn't dodge, the remote control hit him accurately on the forehead.Zhong Ziming gritted his teeth, and said word by word: "I've always been a jerk in your eyes, right?"

Zhong Kaifan's eyes tightened, tears flickered, and he couldn't help raising his voice: "There is a wrong and a debt, and if you want to rely on it, you must rely on your own mother!"

"I don't recognize her as my real mother!" Zhong Ziming spat, his eyes were bloodshot, "I, Zhong Ziming, have only one mother in this life, and that's Amei!" At this point, he thought of another one, and looked up. He smiled and said in a lazy tone: "Hey, Zhong Kaifan, don't be angry about the gift of equity, your good father! Use me as a whetstone, then what, hey, a person like me should be called Prince's Companion Read, hahaha..."

Zhong Ziming's eyes were flushed, but he still smiled, a little out of tune, and at that moment, he became unwilling and wronged again, "Tell me, why do I live in this world? I hate it," he stood up staggeringly, tightened Zhong Kaifan's collar, and confronted him sharply with a ferocious face: "Do you know what I was thinking when Zhong Can died?" He let go of one hand and pointed to To myself, "I was thinking, I should die, Zhong Can should live in this world well - well - so that I don't have to be so superfluous. Zhong Kaifan, after so many years, have you never felt that you Wrong?! You are gay, why should you risk Zhong Can's life!"

"Don't you hate me?! Hate me for occupying your family, hate me for being between you and Zhong Can," Zhong Ziming pointed to his heart, his eyes were scarlet, "I'm standing in front of you now, vent all your anger on me I'm not afraid of you, I've been prepared for a long time. Even if you don't come today, one day, you will break into my house and stab me with a sharp knife like today."

As he said that, he clasped Zhong Kaifan's wrist and slammed it hard into his heart. Unexpectedly, Zhong Kaifan tightened his strength and stood in a stalemate with each other. Zhong Ziming said: "You shouldn't hold back just now. You should smash here. It doesn't take much effort to come here." Ah, come on, hit it here!"

Tian Xin couldn't bear to see, so he broke them apart with great effort, "Zhong Ziming, have you had enough trouble?"

Zhong Kaifan clenched his teeth, his throat seemed to be tightly strangled, and he couldn't make a sound.Since he was a teenager, he has never regarded Zhong Ziming as a younger brother, only as a distant relative, he will not fight against each other, but he is never willing to show favor.In his heart, the fact that Zhong Ziming was his own brother was like a fairy tale, without any buffer, and the truth hit him like a mudslide.

Zhong Kaifan withdrew his hand stiffly, tried his best to hold back his tears, and couldn't say a word.

Seeing the situation, Tian Xin persuaded: "You go first, he is not in a good mood right now."

Zhong Kaifan only felt that his vision was dim, his whole body was top-heavy, and he even found it difficult to breathe.The pain was so painful that he didn't know how to face Zhong Ziming.

Watching Zhong Kaifan turn around, Zhong Ziming felt a sense of sadness in his heart, look!He wants to leave again without looking back!

The grievances accumulated for many years made Zhong Ziming full of resentment, and he smiled bitterly: "Hey, why are you leaving? Today you are not here to ask the teacher for your crime..." Before he finished speaking, there was a sharp blockage in his heart, which was overwhelming Suddenly, the eardrums vibrated, the surroundings became unreal, and the world seemed to be silent.

With tears in his eyes blurred, Zhong Ziming saw Zhong Kaifan finally turned his head, his eyes revealed

With worries that he had never had before, his eyes were moist and turbulent.Soon, Zhong Kaifan ran towards him, with an anxious expression on his face, and his mouth was still opening and closing to say something.

What is Zhong Kaifan talking about?

Why can't he hear a word?

Will you treat him the same way you treat Zhong Can?Zhong Ziming remembered the class outdoor activities in the first year of high school, when he and Zhong Can were 16 years old.Zhong Kaifan originally went to see Zhong Can, but when camping at night, Zhong Kaifan entered the wrong tent and fell asleep in Zhong Ziming's tent.Zhong Can tilted his head and smiled, and pushed Zhong Ziming in in order to ease the relationship between them.

There was only one quilt in the tent, and Zhong Ziming lay down carefully, sleeping next to Zhong Kaifan.Sensing a change, Zhong Kaifan moved his position, but did not look back, thinking that it was Zhong Can who came.In late autumn, there was a hole in the quilt, Zhong Ziming was a little cold, and felt that Zhong Kaifan seemed to be asleep, so he moved closer to Zhong Kaifan slowly, and the hot breath rushed towards his face.

It's so warm like a stove.

Like a small animal warming himself, he slowly snuggled up, stretched out his arms to gently hug Zhong Kaifan, and put his cheek against his back.

In the darkness, Zhong Kaifan held his hand, patted the back of his hand tenderly, and said softly, "Sleep, I'm here."

At that moment, Zhong Kaifan was like a beast with its claws and claws put away, with a broad and warm back, and every touch was like licking a young animal, which made Zhong Ziming feel full of security.

It turns out that having an older brother loves me is such a feeling, so happy, and I want it too.

That night, Zhong Ziming's tears welled up in his eyes, he didn't even dare to cry, and held back his emotions.

When he first came to Beijing, Zhong Ziming was introverted, inferior and sensitive, and was out of tune with children from big cities.Despite having his mother Amei, he still felt deeply lonely and lacked love when he was living in another family.

The warmth that Zhong Kaifan gave by mistake has been remembered by Zhong Zi for many years.

A person with his personality is not afraid of people treating him badly, but he is afraid of being treated kindly to him. He can engrave a little warmth in his heart.

But now, seeing Zhong Kaifan running towards him, Zhong Ziming understood——

It's not that Zhong Kaifan won't look back, he must have walked too far and couldn't hear himself speaking.

Zhong Ziming heard a voice in his heart saying: Look, my brother is here, that is my brother, he came very gently and firmly like when he was 16 years old.

Tian Xin shouted to Xie Bin outside the door: "Call an ambulance!"

After an unknown amount of time, Zhong Ziming heard a lot of voices, like Tian Xin, his mother, Amei, and Feng Cong and the others calling him, and said briskly, "Ziming, cheer up."

"That's right, buddy, I'm always thinking about you if there's anything good!"

"Hey, is the tea from last time still available? I will get fresh tea in the future, and I will send it to you."

"Ziming, didn't you say you want to take mom to see the Eiffel Tower? Mom is here!"

"Zhong Ziming, listen to me, if you can't get off the operating table, I will never forgive you."

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Oh, the last one was Tian Xin's voice, Zhong Ziming felt very tired and weak.He couldn't open his eyes, and only heard her intermittently say: "You not only want to see me at 30 years old, but also, see me at 40 years old, 50 years old, 60 years old, 70 years old..." Her voice moved closer, "We want to live a hundred years!"

"Ziming, did you hear that? I beg you, I beg you." Tian Xin cried out of breath.

Then again, he had no strength and couldn't hear anything.

Until the lights above the emergency room came on, and the corridor was silent and empty, Tian Xin hurriedly wiped away her tears, squatting in front of Amei, "Auntie, don't worry, there is me, I will accompany you."

Amei murmured, teardrops rolled in her eyes, and she dared not to let them fall. She shook her hand with difficulty, her voice hoarse: "Kaifan, Kaifan... you know?"

Tian Xin looked in the direction of the corridor, Zhong Kaifan was sitting far away, with one hand resting on his knee, covering his eyebrows and eyes.

"He knows, he's right there." Tian Xin stretched out his hand to stroke Amei's broken hair, held back tears, and tried to comfort him: "The incident happened suddenly today. After Zhong Kaifan knew the truth, it was Ziming who was going to leave. Too serious, too concerned about Zhong Kaifan's opinion of him, so

To lose control of emotions. "

"It's good to know..." Amei patted the back of Tian Xin's hand, "It's all my fault, I should have told Kaifan earlier, so that the two of them wouldn't have a big fight today, but," Amei Sobbing: "Zi Ming is too stubborn, don't let me tell Kai Fan."

Tian Xin took out a tissue from her pocket and gently wiped away Amei's tears, "Auntie, no matter what happens, I will be with you." She said, holding Amei's hand earnestly.

Amei felt the strength coming from her palm, she nodded quickly: "Hey, thank you, I thank you for Ziming!"

Due to pulmonary valve stenosis and large septal defect between the ventricles, Zhong Ziming was born, the doctor said he would not live long.The degree of surgical repair is complicated. He often coughed when he was a child, but he managed to survive by relying on medicine and recuperation.The operation was scheduled for him when he became an adult, but because of his busy work, he delayed it again and again. Zhong Ziming originally planned to cooperate with the treatment with peace of mind after the trip.

Unexpectedly, Zhong Kaifan came to visit suddenly before departure, and the two quarreled to tear apart the past. Zhong Ziming's emotions fluctuated greatly, and he suffered a short-term shock.When he was very young, Zhong Ziming had a real understanding of death. At every point in his life, he was fighting against death. If it wasn't for his mother Amei, Zhong Ziming really wanted to die.

Amei had a husband in the early years, but because she was unable to have children, the man ran away, so Amei always said that men are dogs.

Chen Li is Amei's cousin, and Amei would not have agreed to this matter if she hadn't seen that Ziming was young and sick.At that time, Zhong Dingheng was not yet divorced, and he was busy with work, so he didn't care much about his son outside. Chen Li was afraid that the child would not live long, so in order to prevent Zhong Dingheng from finding out that his own son was sick, he found a way to replace his son with a newborn.The child is young, and his facial features are not very recognizable, so he gave his biological child to his cousin to raise, and adopted one by himself.

It wasn't until Zhong Dingheng and Zhang Yaping officially divorced that Chen Li showed up at Zhong's house with 6-year-old Zhong Can.

After her life became stable, when Zhong Ziming was 15 years old, Chen Li persuaded Amei to bring Ziming to Beijing.

Amei has raised Zhong Ziming for 15 years, devoted all her mother's love to this child, and loves Zhong Ziming more than Chen Li.If it wasn't for Zhong Ziming's better education and meticulous care, she would not take Zhong Ziming to Beijing.

The adopted child, Zhong Can, grew up smoothly in the Zhong family. He gathered all the love and attention, and was the connection point in this fragmented family. As time passed, Zhong Can has integrated with the Zhong family.Ah Mui didn't want to reveal the truth, so she turned a blind eye, as long as Zhong Ziming could return to Beijing. Once Zhong Ziming grew up and could face life alone, he could spread his wings and fly high.

In the years of "staying under the fence", Amei tried every means to make Zhong Ziming feel more comfortable and take care of his heart.Anyway, Zhong Ziming's biological father has financial strength in Beijing, not for anything else, she only hopes that Zhong Ziming can grow up, be healthy and safe, what is wronged in life?No matter how much Zhong Ziming cried, Amei had to drag him and push him forward.

Zhong Ziming is in poor health and needs expensive medicines to support him, and he needs to receive a good education. Amei does not have this condition to help him take off.

Now that the matter has come to this point, Amei doesn't care about face. If she can't get rid of it, Zhong Ziming's life will be over.

Anyway, in name, Zhong Ziming is Amei's son, it is better to be wronged than to be tortured to death by life.

Amei is not afraid that Zhong Ziming will hate her, she is afraid that he will not live long, that he will lose the faith to live, and that he will be ineffective.

But Amei didn't expect that Zhong Ziming had never been able to stay away from the Zhong family as he wished.

Zhong Can grew up surrounded by love, he was kind to others, his mind was clear and tolerant, he was Zhong Ziming's closest friend when he was young, not a brother, but better than a brother.When Zhong Can passed away, Zhong Dingheng became seriously ill with anger. Not to mention the chaos at home, Huiding was chaotic. Zhong Kaifan applied for extrapolation, and the Zhong family needed someone to take responsibility.

Amei talked with Zhong Ziming and did not force him to stay here. Zhong Ziming knew that if he chose to stay, he would be in prison.But whenever he thinks of Zhong Can, Zhong Ziming's heart feels as if a knife is being twisted. He has struggled and hesitated, and then he finally figured it out. For nothing but Zhong Can, he has to stay here.This stay has lasted for many years. He has been dormant in Huiding for many years. Zhong Dingheng needs to know what interests are involved in the dark. Zhong Ziming has done a lot of things, but he can't let go.

Say it on the table.

Zhong Ziming's feelings for Zhong Kaifan are very complicated. Before he knew his real life experience, he always longed to be protected, and he really hoped to have such an elder brother growing up.But Zhong Kaifan never looked at him directly, he was cold and distant, seeing Zhong Kaifan being kind to Zhong Can, he was envious and humble.Knowing that Zhong Kaifan is his own brother, his concern for Zhong Kaifan is even more out of close relatives, blood is thicker than water.

How many times, he hoped that Zhong Kaifan could turn his head and not stop, as long as he could look at him.

After the truth was torn apart, Zhong Ziming suddenly felt relieved. He could understand that Zhong Kaifan put all his care and love on Zhong Can.Changing places and not knowing the truth, he can't guarantee that he can generously accept his stepmother's relatives and endure the fragmentation of the family.

But because Zhong Can went to pick up Lin Yuan in the snow, Zhong Can passed away unexpectedly on the way back, Zhong Ziming will never be able to forgive Zhong Kaifan.It was a human life, and it was Zhong Ziming's best friend.If Zhong Kaifan hadn't insisted on staying with Lin Yuan, Zhong Can would never have died.Apart from his mother Amei, Zhong Can is Zhong Ziming's only warmth in that home.

When he was a teenager, Zhong Can accepted him, treated him kindly, and accompanied him without knowing his life experience.Losing Zhong Can is a heart-rending to Zhong Ziming, why doesn't he hate Zhong Kaifan? !

It can be said that Zhong Ziming cares and resents Zhong Kaifan.

So he bought the photo in Feng Cong's hand to prevent Lin Yuan from spreading.But he was also saddened by Zhong Can's death, so he forwarded the photo to Zhong Kaifan and asked for 20 more to vent his hatred.

Touching his conscience, Zhong Ziming felt that he was showing mercy. He could have ignored it and let those photos fly all over the sky. Lin Yuan would have to commit suicide by jumping off the building.

Zhong Ziming knew that if something happened to Lin Yuan, his brother might be heartbroken.

Thinking about it, I was really unwilling, Zhong Kaifan poured out his heart and soul to Lin Yuan, for a while, why did Zhong Ziming hear that Lin Yuan always avoided Zhong Kaifan, he was angry when he looked at Lin Yuan!

The broken movie "Assassin" made by Lin Yuan is really like Zhong Ziming himself, who came from a wealthy family but was abandoned, and it was his relatives who killed him in the end.

After Zhong Ziming finished watching it, his tears couldn't stop flowing.

After knowing that Zhong Kaifan and Lin Yuan had reconciled, Zhong Ziming thought for a long time, even if he knew that Lin Yuan was innocent, he would be damned miserable for eight lifetimes.He can't be cruel to Zhong Kaifan, but he can use Lin Yuan to poke Zhong Kaifan's heart. The more Zhong Kaifan hurts, the more he feels relieved.

Not to mention his biological parents, Zhong Dingheng and Chen Li, unless necessary, Zhong Ziming would never see them in his life, let alone even think about getting to know each other.

Zhong Dingheng gave him the shares because he has done so many things for Huiding and made countless scapegoats. He deserves it!If there is a Yangguan Road, who would like to walk on the single-plank bridge?

Zhong Ziming knew very well in his heart that Chen Li, who was so cold and selfish to the extreme, would not even take a look even if he died.