You who walk against the light

Ms. Cheng Peiying is nearly [-] years old and is a national senior psychological counselor. She is mainly engaged in clinical teaching and scientific research of psychiatry and neuropsychology.Specializes in the treatment of depression, sleep disorders and anxiety disorders, neurasthenia and other mental disorders.

She was still in the office at this time, and Cheng Peiying's voice was gentle: "Xiao Lin, I still have patients here, I will call you later, is that okay?"

"Okay." After hanging up the phone, Lin Yuan suddenly breathed a sigh of relief.

He set Dr. Cheng's phone number as a white list, so that he could not see the text messages abusing him to die.

Apart from the official Weibo account, Lin Yuan doesn't have any other aliases. This way, he feels a lot cleaner.

At around six o'clock in the evening, Dr. Cheng called, "Xiao Lin, it's me."

Her voice still sounded so kind, and Lin Yuan felt a little better, "Are you off work?"

Dr. Cheng said: "After get off work, how is your condition recently? I remember that you have stopped taking medicine for a long time."

Lin Yuan leaned on the sofa, feeling a little cold all over, "Recently, I often can't sleep, and the previous symptoms seem to have reappeared."

Dr. Cheng said: "When are you free? It is recommended to talk face to face. Some medicines are over-the-counter and cannot be prescribed casually."

Lin Yuan was silent for a moment, and then said slowly, "I...haven't been very convenient to go out recently."

Dr. Cheng has been in contact with Lin Yuan for three years, and has some understanding of his condition. He also knows that as a public figure, he is under a lot of pressure, "Well, if it's not convenient for you, I will come over on Sunday. Come on, do you still live in the original place?"

Lin Yuan replied: "I moved, I will send you the new address."

"Okay." Dr. Cheng's voice was calm and soothing, "Don't be too anxious, I'll take a look at the situation, it's really serious, you still have to come to the hospital and cooperate with the treatment."

"Okay." Lin Yuan responded.

"By the way, do your relatives or friends around you know?" Dr. Cheng asked.

Lin Yuan thought for a while, "I don't want them to worry." He thought he could handle it.

Dr. Cheng said: "Xiao Lin, depression is a kind of mental illness, which needs to be taken seriously by family members. If you have the opportunity, you should tell the people close to you, don't keep everything in your heart."

Lin Yuan listened silently.

Dr. Cheng went on to say: "Keep a normal diet and schedule for the past two days. If you have time, you can listen to the music I recommended to you. If you really can't fall asleep, don't force yourself. Draw what you want at that time on paper. Lest you forget how you felt at the time later.”

"Okay." Lin Yuan let out a long sigh of relief. Every time he heard Dr. Cheng's voice, he felt very at ease, very kind, kind, and gentle. It seemed that he would never dislike him, allowing him to open up a little and feel very safe. .

At eight o'clock, Lin Yuan found the music tracks recommended by Dr. Cheng. He recorded all the titles in a notebook. He picked a few and searched on Netease Cloud Music. The light and watery piano sound poured over. It seemed to calm his anxiety a little.

Because of the chills all over his body, Lin Yuan wanted to wash up earlier so that he could lie under the blanket and sleep.

Even though it was late spring, the doors and windows of the house were closed, and the quilt was covered on his body, Lin Yuan still felt cold.As soon as I close my eyes, I can always see countless black shadows stretching out their hands towards me, as if trying to pinch his neck.

He couldn't help but bury his head in the quilt until the wechat bell under the pillow rang.

Lin Yuan poked his head out in a hurry and found that it was Kaifan's video call. He took a deep breath and tried to force a smile, "Kaifan?"

Sitting in the study, Zhong Kaifan saw Lin Yuan rolled up the quilt like a puppy, with only one head exposed and his hair looking messy, he couldn't help laughing: "What time is it? Are you ready to go to bed?"

Lin Yuan said: "I am usually busy with announcements and lack of sleep."

Zhong Kaifan's smile faded a bit, "I heard from An Ran that you are not in a good state recently, what's wrong with you?"

Lin Yuan's heart tightened, "No, I'm just too tired, just rest for a few days." As he spoke, he blinked and his smile looked clear.

Zhong Kaifan looked at him quietly, and said after a long while: "Why don't you go back to Beijing and move here, anyway, you've been resting recently.

"

Lin Yuan didn't even think about it, "No."

A trace of disappointment flashed in Zhong Kaifan's eyes.

Lin Yuan quickly said: "After the contract officially expires and the matter subsides, I will move in again. There are many people secretly filming me now, and I don't want to involve you in it."

After talking here, Zhong Kaifan spoke with difficulty: "Ayuan, if the intimate photos cause you a lot of trouble, I will find a way to deal with it."

"What do you want to do?" Lin Yuan suddenly had a bad feeling, and his heartbeat accelerated unconsciously.

Zhong Kaifan said, "It's the Lu Chen I mentioned to you before."

Lin Yuan frowned, with a cold and serious face, "I said, don't involve innocent people." As he spoke, his breathing trembled a little, and the feeling of being on his back came again, and his brain buzzed Buzzing, even his emotions were a little out of control, so that his tone didn't sound good: "You don't even know how horrible this thing is."

Zhong Kaifan was silent. Why didn't he know how terrifying cyber violence is? Lin Yuan was almost picked up by netizens, and the maliciousness was overwhelming, otherwise he would not have been attacked by strangers.Besides, recently, Zhong Kaifan and Lu Chen have reached a consensus that if necessary, Lu Chen is willing to help. Lu Chen didn't like to post on Weibo before, and netizens couldn't find anything even if they wanted to.

Sensing the stalemate in the atmosphere, Lin Yuan felt guilty and said softly, "Kaifan, it will be fine after a while, really."

Zhong Kaifan raised his eyebrows, his face relaxed a bit, and changed the subject: "I'm resting at home recently, do you have any plans? You can't sleep every day, you are not a sleepy person."

Lin Yuan smiled, "I used to love watching movies, so when I'm free, I finish watching all the movies I haven't watched before."

Zhong Kaifan said: "I will spare time on the weekend to come and accompany you."

"Don't—" Lin Yuanchao brought the phone closer, and his tone was much better than before, "Don't worry, I will take care of myself."

Zhong Kaifan hesitated: "Really?" His expression darkened. He remembered that when An Ran called, he said that Lin Yuan was not in good condition.He used to let Lin Yuan do everything, but now, Zhong Kaifan won't let him do everything.

Lin Yuan was worried that if he said a few more words, Zhong Kaifan would ask something interesting, so he had to talk about other topics to make himself look normal, so that Kaifan could feel a little relieved.Although he didn't want to admit it, the bad state from many years ago came back again, and he couldn't maintain his emotional stability as usual, even in the face of Zhong Kaifan, he felt a little tired.

After the call, Zhong Kaifan contacted Chen Nan and asked her to pay attention to Lin Yuan's status every day, and inform him in time of any abnormal situation.

The next day, Zhong Kaifan found time to meet Lu Chen, and he was still in the living room where the contract was negotiated for the first time.

In early spring, Lu Chen wore a black casual jacket, and he looked very relaxed, "I sent you a WeChat message last time, why didn't you reply?"

Zhong Kaifan poured him a glass of warm water, but couldn't remember for a moment: "Last time? Which time?"

"When you were sick," Lu Chen took it, took a sip and continued, "I wanted to ask if you had time and planned to visit Mr. Hou again, but Mr. Xiao said you were sick."

Zhong Kaifan remembered now, sat on the sofa opposite Lu Chen, fell into deep thought, and said after a while: "He knows you."

Lu Chen almost choked, and said in a hurried tone: "I declare in advance that I will not be involved in anything between you. I am only responsible for clarifying the intimate photo. After all, it is not difficult to provide a profile photo." He paused, Repeatedly: "I am a straight man!"

Zhong Kaifan said calmly, "I know, but I still suggest you not to appear in front of him."

"Why?" Lu Chen asked in a daze. Wouldn't it be good if he came out to block Lin Yuan's gun?You can't be hated by him, right?

Zhong Kaifan raised his head slightly and breathed heavily, "Lin Yuan has a very stubborn temper. If you provoke him, he turns his face and refuses to recognize anyone. Don't blame me for not reminding you."

Lu Chen felt it was extremely absurd, and smiled casually, "Don't tell me you're afraid of him."

Zhong Kaifan nodded solemnly.

"Damn," Lu Chen folded his arms around his chest and approached the coffee table, a little curious: "Is there anyone else you are afraid of?"

Zhong Kaifan laughed out loud, left

With his hand on his nose, he looked handsome and helpless, "Yes."

"Did you tell him the truth?" Lu Chen glanced at Zhong Kaifan lazily.

Zhong Kaifan suppressed his smile, and his voice was calm, "I said it, but he didn't want you to be involved, saying that cyber violence is terrible."

Lu Chen obviously didn't expect Lin Yuan to say that. After a while, he curled his lips, "That is, otherwise Lin Yuan will be splashed with paint, followed by illegitimate fans, and greeted by the eighteenth generation of his ancestors?"

"You have to tell Shu Ye about this in advance, don't let her misunderstand."

Hearing Zhong Kaifan mention Shu Ye, Lu Chen fell into silence, his face was a bit cold, and a gleam of tenderness flashed in his eyes, "I told her, she won't misunderstand."

"You didn't post anything on Weibo, did you?"

Lu Chen nodded, "I deleted all the Weibo related to positioning. The only few photos of my face were taken when it was snowing heavily, and I was wearing a mask at that time."

Zhong Kaifan reminded him: "The key information must be deleted to prevent human flesh searches, and rumors may spread in the school by then."

Lu Chen breathed a sigh of relief, "Don't worry, there are more people chasing Shu Ye, and I'm not that conspicuous, and the students around me don't know we're together, so this matter won't affect her."

"I mean you—" Zhong Kaifan glanced at him with a solemn tone, "I don't want your life to be affected by this."

Lu Chen frowned, "What are you whining about? It stopped after a while, who is staring at me every day? Besides, I don't care as much as Lin Yuan does. I have a thick skin and I can do anything." Said Then, he paused, his tone sounded serious: "Didn't you help me too?"

Zhong Kaifan thought for a moment, "If necessary, I will explain clearly to Shu Ye's parents, so as not to embarrass you."

Lu Chen's heart sank when he heard that, he knew that Zhong Kaifan was talking about the follow-up, and after the limelight passed, he would definitely continue to clean up the mess.As long as Shu Ye trusts him, and Zhong Kaifan is not a selfish person, he doesn't mind helping Lin Yuan as long as he can bear it.