Personal protection

[Don't count the medals of police officers]

They went to the police station after breakfast.

On the way, Li Xiaoran kept asking Zhou Cheng if there was any place he hadn't been to.

Zhou Cheng calculated carefully, and took advantage of the traffic light to pat him on the head, "Anywhere is fine. I used to go to work, so there really isn't anything fun to do."

"Driving well, why are you patting my head?"

"It feels good."

Li Xiaoran put on the police cap on his lap and straightened it, "The head of the black cat police chief cannot be touched."

He added another sentence, "If there is a fee, please exchange it with a kiss."

It was time to wait for the traffic lights again, but there were no cars around.Zhou Cheng leaned over to kiss him, and when he wanted to slap him on the head, Li Xiaoran stopped him, "You haven't paid yet."

"You are deceiving consumers."

"Just now, you owe me one."

Zhou Cheng smiled lowly, hooked his neck, and bit his lower lip.

It was too short for the two of them to dislike the red light for the first time.

After the vehicle resumed driving, Li Xiaoran touched his lips with red ears, "Zhou Cheng, Valentine's Day is coming, and I've never celebrated it before. Do you have any gifts you want?"

Zhou Cheng has never passed it, but every Valentine's Day, Ji Ming would ask him to post a Weibo or a short video. After thinking about it, there is nothing missing, so he said, "Anything is fine."

Li Xiaoran looked at the merchants on the street outside the window, and said casually, "Chocolate?"

"None of us eat sweets."

"Then you ate all the apples I cooked before."

Zhou Cheng cleared his throat, cough, isn't that because you did it?But let's not talk about such a shameful thing during the crush.

In order to avoid Li Xiaoran's questioning, he asked back: "Then why do you still remember?"

Li Xiaoran said confidently: "I remember everything I did together with you." In fact, it was not only Zhou Cheng who was suffering during that time, what happened between them was crushed by Li Xiaoran and he thought about it over and over again.

The scene of Zhou Cheng kissing him was like a montage, and Li Xiaoran found that he remembered every single expression of him clearly, playing it over and over again in his mind.

It's not easy for them to be together.

No matter which opportunity they lose, they may become like their father and Uncle Shen.

Reading the notebook in the morning again, Li Xiaoran's eyes became hot again, it was so difficult for them to get together, how could he be so cruel?

"Then roses?" Li Xiaoran asked softly, Valentine's Day is still a few weeks away, and roses have already been placed in front of boutiques.

Zhou Cheng didn't make a sound, Li Xiaoran gritted his teeth while watching the sudden acceleration of the car.

When the car stopped at the gate of the police station, Li Xiaoran suddenly took his hand with the handbrake on, and squeezed into his fingers bit by bit, "Why don't you want roses?"

"I... don't like flowers."

Li Xiaoran felt the hands in his palms slowly getting colder, and he quickly blinked away the moisture in his eyes.

"Then I will give myself to you."

Zhou Cheng was stunned, only to realize that his fingers were painfully gripped by him. Was it because he was afraid that he would not agree?But why would he not agree?

"it is good."

-

Walking in the corridor of the police station, the corners of Zhou Cheng's mouth slightly raised.

I can't help but think of the time when I just passed the security check.

Li Xiaoran pointed to Zhou Cheng and introduced to the security: "This is my family member, and he will come in for convenience in the future."

Although Zhou Cheng guessed that the security guard should regard him as Li Xiaoran's elder brother, the family name still touched his heart.

"Sun Xian told me that Su Yong was recruited, and she said that Gu Rong asked her to encourage Zhang Chunyi to go to see a doctor that day and let her open a room alone. She said she thought Gu Rong just wanted to earn medical fees, until She died and she was shocked to feel that something was wrong..."

"Group Li?"

Su Yang turned a corner and met them head-on.

"Doctor Su, Sun Xian said he wants to find us..."

Su Yang interrupted him, "Sun Xian is looking for you, but I am looking for Zhou Cheng."

"Me?" Zhou Cheng was suddenly named, a little strange.

"Well, I have a psychological test and some questions about the case." Su Yang waved his hands impatiently, "Don't be so reluctant, I promise to return you as a complete person in half an hour."

"I am still……"

"Li Zu, you know my rules. No one else can be present when I see patients." Su Yang raised his eyebrows.

"I'll call you when I'm ready." Zhou Cheng gently hooked his palm.

Li Xiaoran sighed, still...not willing.

-

Su Yang's office.

"Drink some water." Su Yang handed him a glass of warm water.

"Don't lie down?" Zhou Cheng pointed to the treatment table.

Su Yang propped his chin and glanced at him, then threw away the pen, "Let's open the skylight and speak honestly. You have a strong ability to control yourself, and what happened to you in the past made you not trust the psychiatrist."

Zhou Cheng shook his head, "I don't distrust you."

"You forced yourself to trust me just to reassure Li Xiaoran." Su Yang smiled, "Am I right?"

Zhou Cheng stared at him for a long time, then sighed for a while, "Are all psychiatrists so annoying?"

"Actually, Li Xiaoran also has some superficial knowledge of psychology. He usually guesses people's minds very accurately. Why don't you hate him?"

"That's different." Zhou Cheng shook his head.

"Why is it different?"

"It's just different." Zhou Cheng was very stubborn.

"You obviously love him to death." Su Yang said quickly, "Why does Li Xiaoran still say you won't fuck him?"

At this time, there was a sound from the balcony.

Hearing the sound, Zhou Cheng turned his head and glanced in the direction of the balcony.

Su Yang got up and went to open the window, and the orange cat jumped in.

"Aren't you afraid of cats? Do you want to hug them? They have been vaccinated." Su Yang pointed to it, "Cats have a very good healing effect."

Zhou Cheng waved his hand.

"You don't like cats?" Su Yang became interested. According to Zhou Cheng's character, he should like cats. What went wrong?

"I like it." Zhou Cheng couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth, "However, there is a jealous cat at home, and he will be angry if I hug other cats."

Su Yang: "..." He came to see a doctor for Zhou Cheng!Not for cat food!angry!

"You don't seem to be surprised that Li Xiaoran told me such a private thing?" Su Yang touched his chin.

Zhou Cheng explained the mystery, "Because you are a doctor."

"You are the strangest patient I have ever received." Su Yang knocked on the table, "When I heard what Li Xiaoran said, I thought you were too sensitive, and I was worried that Li Xiaoran would regret it in the future, so I left him a way out." He pushed Pushing away the gold-rimmed glasses, "But, I realized that I may have guessed wrong."

"Xiao Ran's character..." Zhou Cheng shook his head, and said seriously, "If I suspect him, I'm not worthy of his liking."

"Then what is your reason?" Su Yang suddenly realized that the problem might be more serious than he imagined.

"Doctor Su." It took Zhou Cheng a long time to spit out a sentence, "Do you think the matter is over?"

Su Yang became serious, "You mean the case?"

"Ah."

"Why do you think it's not over? Do you think it's not Gu Rong who is behind the scenes?" Su Yang never ignored the victim's premonition.

Zhou Cheng shook his head, but when he wanted to say something, he remembered something.

"Doctor Su, are you sure you won't tell Li Xiaoran what you hear next?"

Su Yang nodded, "I promise, I won't tell him."

"I used to think that Rong Zheng died, and all the haze has passed." Zhou Cheng looked a little confused, "After all, he has only tormented me for three months. Isn't it too much fuss to care too much?"

"At that time, I thought that I would go straight to the doctoral program smoothly, and then stay in school as a teacher, in the campus I like."

"Rong Zheng's appearance broke all my plans when I was most energetic. I also want to ask him—why? Why me?"

"After Rong Zheng died, I also thought that I got rid of the shadow he brought me."

Zhou Cheng had a bitter face, "I was with Xiao Ran when I was on the set. It's not that I didn't have a good impression of people before, but I never felt that I couldn't help him." When he said this, the corners of his mouth couldn't help it. Zhu raised a smile, "When he told me he loved me, at that moment I really felt that all the setbacks in my previous life were not important. Only with these can I meet Xiaoran."

Su Yang had already anticipated what he would say next.

"So, when I was most satisfied, I met Rong Zheng again."

"But he's not Rong Zheng, Rong Zheng is dead."

"Is there a difference?" Zhou Cheng shook his head slowly, "There is no difference, he came with Rong Zheng's will."

"Doctor Su, the first time he turned my life upside down. The second time he almost sent me to jail. The maximum sentence for intentional homicide is death, and I haven't completely cleared my suspicions yet. Then... the third time What? What will the third time be?"

Su Yang was silent, just turned off the light, and turned on the display screen opposite Zhou Cheng, on which was a gorgeous red rose.

The pattern in the next picture is the rose tattoo on Du Ruo's wrist.

Followed by the fiery letters ROSE.

……

Su Yang observed his expression carefully, and then checked Zhou Cheng's pupil changes.

"The hypnosis has been lifted." Su Yang turned on the light and affirmed: "At least you are very awake now."

"I don't think that Gu Rong's technique is so exquisite. He is actually just half-baked, holding Rong Zheng's only scraps of information." Su Yang shook his head, "He was only once Victims of control."

"I know...but..."

Su Yang interrupted him, "But I still suggest you see a psychiatrist, do you know why?"

Zhou Cheng shook his head lightly.

"Know PTSD?"

Zhou Cheng nodded, "Post-war syndrome."

"More precisely, post-traumatic stress disorder, the damage may be small but enough to affect a person's life. Zhou Cheng, I am not saying that you suffer from PTSD, but I want to tell you that psychological damage does not The damage is measured by the length of time."

"There's no shame in being afraid, and I'm afraid of a lot of things."

Seeing Zhou Cheng's complex expression, Su Yang asked, "Tell me, are you afraid?"

"Afraid of what? Afraid of Rong Zheng? Afraid of Gu Rong? Or afraid of Rose?"

Zhou Cheng was silent for a long time.

Until the little orange cat meowed unwillingly.

Zhou Cheng finally spoke, "Afraid of death."

"Didn't you ask why I want him to be on top?" Zhou Cheng showed pain in front of Su Yang for the first time, "You said, what should he do if I die?"

"Zhou Cheng." Li Xiaoran didn't know what appeared behind him.

Zhou Cheng turned his head abruptly, and the balcony door behind Li Xiaoran was already opened.

Su Yang cleared his throat, "I didn't tell him." Li Xiaoran heard it himself, and it's none of his business.

"Lend me the room for half an hour." Li Xiaoran said expressionlessly.

Su Yang pushed his glasses, "I just sterilized the treatment table today, please go ahead."

As he said that, he walked out with his white coat in his pocket. The little orange cat looked at the white coat and then at the man who pushed it out to top the bag before, wagging its tail wittily and followed the white coat.

The door was opened and closed, and the room returned to silence.

"Xiaoran, I..."

"Zhou Cheng, I don't mind all your worries, even if you doubt me, I'm not afraid. But I'm afraid that you have made all the arrangements by yourself, and then you won't tell me anything."

In that notebook, all of Zhou Cheng's bank cards, stocks, insurance policy numbers, and real estate were recorded in the front...

He said, "I'm afraid that I will lose control someday. I'm afraid of hurting you, but I'm also afraid of death. I'm afraid that death will take me away from you."

He said, "so Xiaoran, don't be stubborn with me, we are different. You can have other possibilities without me. If there is a day, don't be as stupid as our uncle, if I know, I will Distressed."

He said, "Actually, in my situation, I should tell you to break up, but I'm too selfish. I want to tie you by my side while I'm alive."

He said, "Xiaoran, I want to be with you all the time, but I'm afraid I don't have such good luck..."

The tears that Li Xiaoran had been holding back since morning finally rolled out, he had never cried so embarrassingly, not even when his father died.

He sat down on the treatment table and tore off his clothes.

Zhou Cheng hurriedly held him down, "Let's go home..."

"Zhou Cheng." Li Xiaoran gritted his teeth and pointed at his exposed skin, "Look at me."

"This was the first time I appeared on the scene when I just graduated, and I was scratched by shrapnel."

"This is the shot I got when I chased down the drug criminal."

"This is when I was found in plain clothes and was hacked by the gangster."

"This was the closest I got to my heart. In this case, almost all my teammates at the time died. I was the only one who saved my life. Then I was forced to leave the Criminal Investigation Brigade and go to prison."

"This is the first time when a prisoner bombed a prison, I was smashed by a glass bottle, and the fragments went straight into my skin."

"This is the time when Tan Wen rescued me, but I was almost punctured through the main artery."

"This is the trace you left behind to save the hostages when you took care of me."

At this time, Li Xiaoran in front of Zhou Cheng was already naked.

Zhou Cheng only felt that the hands touching his skin were trembling.

At some point, tears rolled down on the body covered with deep and shallow scars.

"Zhou Cheng, you are afraid of death, and I am also afraid of death."

Li Xiaoran choked up and said: "But listen carefully, if I die, you are not allowed to find someone else."

"The same." Li Xiaoran gritted his teeth and said in a hoarse voice: "Zhou Cheng, you just said that you want me. If you want to take it, you can take it with your life. You are not allowed to throw away any of them."