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The streets of Christmas are extraordinarily bright and lively. Couples in twos and threes are embracing each other and rushing forward, sometimes fighting, sometimes laughing, so affectionate, thinking that if Xin Yu is here, he will definitely run, jump and shout with excitement like them, At that time, he was lively and immature like a child, and he could bring you back to your immature childhood in an instant, and he could also bring you into dire straits, but now...

There are many guests in front of the pre-booked restaurant, and the festive atmosphere is very strong. No wonder, such a romantic day is the time when couples are scrambling to express themselves. Even if the restaurant is expensive, they want to show their generosity and sincerity in front of the other half. , Send a surprise to the other party and tell him, I love you.

Dim lights, elegant music, couples next to him cast surprised eyes one after another, if nothing happens, if everything continues as planned, then at this moment, the person opposite him, he My darling will definitely reach out and kiss him deeply when he takes out his birthday present.

But now there is only the shadow for company alone, all the beauty is like a dream, so unreal, disappearing so fast, it was once within reach, but once again destroyed in my own hands.

Zixin thought about whether in this relationship, he really didn't have deep enough affection, compared to Xin Yu, whether he was not as deep to himself as he was.

But he does remember this guy all the time in his heart. Regardless of every day and every second in the past, Xin Yu is always in his heart. There is no doubt about this. The inability to tolerate is still Xin Yu's distrust of him.

In terms of time between the two, six years is long enough, but the real time together is only a handful, that is to say, there is still a lack of communication between the two, and they are still in the early stages of their love. All approaching dangers are particularly conflicting. One of them only thinks about what I want to do, not what we want to do together. The result of fighting the enemy together may be the other way, so that there will be no misunderstanding, and there will be no misunderstanding about each other's feelings. Doubts will arise.

However, it was clear that neither of them was doing well enough.

If love is too heavy, it is easy to walk on thin ice. Even if you meet your first love at the age of 80, you will still be restless and worry about gains and losses.

It has nothing to do with age.

The necklace in his hand was already sweating, and the tip part was embedded in the flesh unknowingly. It didn't hurt, it hurt, and Zixin regretted it. He shouldn't be discussing such a disappointing thing on his birthday on such a day. He should happily put the necklace on his neck in person, and then tell him that he loves him and wishes him a happy birthday.

I love you, I have never told that person, just waiting for this day to come, give him a surprise, give him all my love, when the day comes, I didn't say anything, and left him with a back view of opening the door and going out.

Zixin felt like a knife was being twisted, and he knocked his head hard a few times. It was full of shit. He hated himself for being stupid, why his EQ was so low.

He didn't dare to go home, afraid of opening the door and missing the little black beans, missing clothes, missing voices and figures, and the smell left behind, he couldn't accept this fact anyway.

Zixin really regretted it, really realized his mistake, but he had already left, and he didn't have the guts to go to him, and he didn't have the guts to ask for his forgiveness.

Never bought drunk, but this time he got drunk, a whole bottle of red wine, plus a birthday cake, even the waiter lamented his appetite, he didn't know that he was trying to numb himself in this way, thinking that Xin Yu was still there Beside him, he was celebrating his birthday, he didn't want to see the untouched celebration, it was too sad, and he didn't want to remind himself that he was alone now.

The waiter asked his address, and found a substitute driver. As expected, the emptiness of the door was as if no one had ever lived in the house. The original space seemed to be several times larger. No matter how well the heater was turned on, it was freezing biting.

There is no front and back of Little Black Dou, no greetings and hugs from that person, only coldness.

Wrapped in a quilt and dressed, imagining that this is Xin Yu's body, smelling his scent, and fell into a deep sleep.

……

Ever since Fu Yingying was eliminated from the competition, she hadn't eaten with Zixin in the cafeteria. To be precise, she avoided him when she saw him, and didn't want to be a light bulb or be stimulated by it.

But in the last few days, she found that the seat opposite Zixin was empty, and she often looked at him so lonely that he seemed to have lost his soul, and she searched all over the hall but couldn't find the other person.

Didn't he warn anyone not to eat with Du Zixin? Only he can, so what about him?Not to mention that Fu Yingying saw something wrong, even the head nurse and the nurses in their department also saw the difference.

too obvious.

Xin Yu hasn't been to the department since Christmas, and Zixin doesn't say anything extra except for the necessary words, let alone a smiley face, his face is as tense as an iceberg, wishing you can understand the meaning with just one look, otherwise the knife will fly over .

The trembling days began again, and everyone was cautious, afraid of touching his tiger's claws.

This day at the canteen, Fu Yingying came early and sat there waiting for people instead of ordering food.

"Yingying, why don't you cook, what are you looking for?" A sister from another department came over.

"I'll wait for someone, you eat first." Fu Yingying responded.

"Doctor Fu, is there anyone here?" Another person came looking for a seat.

"Hehe, I'm sorry, there's someone here, over there, finish one over there." Fu Yingying waited anxiously, why didn't she come up, it's annoying to keep answering the same question, okay?

"pay……"

"Doctor Zhao, I'm sorry, there's someone sitting here." The sweat broke down, and he didn't do anything else for half an hour, and his mouth was dry.

"Yo Zixin, I just came."

When someone came, Fu Yingying stood up suddenly and ran over, "You go and sit there, I'll cook."

Zixin was taken aback for a moment, but the plate in his hand was snatched away and pushed aside, and there were quite a few people around waiting for a meal, so it's hard to ask why he didn't say anything and went over and waited.

After a while, Fu Yingying came over with two plates of rice.

"Here, it's all bland, and it's all about defeating the fire." Fu Yingying went straight to the point, hitting the nail on the head.

Zi Xin glanced at her, did she spy on him again? How did she know that she was on fire.

After taking the plate, it was indeed all vegetarian dishes, not even a meat star.

Fu Yingying was as usual, full of meat and not vegetarian.

"What's the matter with you and your dean, are you in crisis?"

Zixin's chopsticks stopped at the side of the plate, crisis?Still divided?He didn't know, anyway, there was no contact these days, and he didn't even see the cars in the parking lot, so he wasn't sure what happened between them.

"Are you free again?" Zixin said angrily.

Fu Yingying has a good appetite, and the rice with fish-flavored shredded pork is facing her mouth, and it tastes delicious, "I think someone warned me that you can only sit opposite him, and no one is allowed to come forward. Now this seat is vacant." Has it been several days?"

"You observe very carefully, keep watching me?"

Fu Yingying couldn't help laughing, "I said, don't have such a big face, why do I have to pay attention to you, I know you don't need to look at it every day when I come to eat, does this still need to be observed? By the way, by the way, I have someone I'm not interested in you anymore, you can rest assured that you don't have to hide from me."

"Is there someone?" Zixin was surprised not because she had someone, but because it was a matter of time, and it happened so soon. Thinking about the time she was pestering her, she felt that this person was going to be unable to get married.

"Why, regret it? It's too late for me to tell you."

"Hehe." Zixin showed a wry smile. In fact, Fu Yingying was pretty good, kind, and warm-hearted. She was a good woman, but she had a big heart, but she already had her own heart, so I couldn't force it.

"It's good, it's not easy to meet the right one, and the family can feel at ease when they get married early," Zixin said.

"You don't need to worry about it. I didn't think about it to tell you, let's get together, but seeing your current situation..." Fu Yingying deliberately didn't finish her sentence, and stared at him.

Marriage, why don't you want to get married, but will you get married?with him.

I won't charge you a consolation fee.