Detective Conan's Qiu Xi Rufeng

When Qiuyan woke up, all he saw was a vast expanse of whiteness, but soon he realized that this is a hospital.

Qiuyan moved his hands and feet, and a bone-eating pain came from his body. . .

his limbs. . .like. . .Can't move. . .

Qiu Yan looked out of the window in a little confusion, what seemed to be missing in himself?oh. . .correct. . .It's hearing. . .

Qiuyan's senses have always been very sensitive, he can even hear the sound of a hundred meters away, and can faintly detect the sound of air flow, but. . .

Now, why, no sound?It was deathly silence, just like before I lost my five senses and lived in a colorless, odorless, soundless world.

Qiuyan endured the pain, and sat up after several failures. Qiuyan got off the bed silently, but just when his feet touched the ground, he fell heavily on the ground

He supported the floor with his hands, his ice-blue long hair was scattered behind him in a mess, and some fell to the ground. His body was limp at this time, and with the bone-eroding pain that every movement would bring, He stared blankly at the floor, confused, filled his heart for the first time. . .

Qiuyan tried to stand up again, but every time he was about to succeed, he fell to the ground again

Just like that, he stumbled to the corner and curled up, he couldn't hear. . .

Qiu Yan didn't know what kind of mood he was holding. He closed his eyes, hugged himself, and curled up in the corner

What is left of him now?

At first, revenge was the only pillar of his survival, and later, his faith became a master. . .

But now, Master doesn't want him anymore. . .What is he going to do?What is the meaning of life for him now?

Questions flooded my mind one after another, but I couldn't find the answer in the end. . .

That's all. . .My existence is meaningless, isn't it. . .Mo Qiuyan did not exist in this world at the beginning, and Mo Qiuyan should have died in that fire long ago. . .

He was abandoned by the world, his existence was meaningless, the world never needed him, and from beginning to end, the most redundant person was still himself. . .

Calamity star, there is no need to live. . .

He laughed at himself. . .

In the silent ward, it looked particularly bleak. . .

He finally understood that the woman wanted him to be a work of art, but she wanted to turn him into a puppet without feelings. . .

when did the door open

It's Kudo Shinichi, at this time he has swallowed the antidote and turned back

Kudo looked around and found Qiuyan curled up in a corner, quickly picked him up and put him on the bed, "Xiaochen? Are you awake? I'll call the doctor"

Qiu Yan didn't speak, just opened his eyes blankly, not looking at anyone, just like that, let the doctor diagnose for himself

Kudo silently exited the room. It was the first time he saw such a statement. He has always been cool and arrogant, calm but never giving up on himself. Now he is still the same, plain and indifferent, but his eyes are not With a glimmer of hope. . .

He knew that he used a disguise to show his strength. If he said that he couldn't bear the girl's tears, the person in front of him was so strong that it made people feel distressed. . .

Recalling what the doctor said just now, a sense of powerlessness flooded my heart

"The drug injected before the patient would cause him to lose his five senses and destroy his ability to move. He is only losing his hearing now. He is very lucky. His hands and feet have become very dull now, and it is very difficult to walk or something, because Every movement he makes now will be accompanied by pain, but recovery is not hopeless, we must believe in miracles, and we will do our best."

"But the patient is unwilling to communicate with others now. His language ability is not a problem, but he is unwilling to speak. He needs more company"

Kudo walked into Qiuyan's room, he curled up on the bed, looking outside with blank eyes

Kudo approached slowly, sat beside him, and hugged him in his arms, and the person in his arms began to struggle constantly, pushing himself away

"It's okay, Xiaochen, it will be fine...it will be fine..." Kudo could only hug him tightly, repeating this sentence over and over again

The person in his arms gradually gave up struggling, and stayed quietly in his arms for an unknown amount of time. . .

"Go home..." The small voice of the person in his arms reached Kudo's ears

"What?" Kudo looked down at Qiuyan, gently beckoning him to say it again

"I want to go home..." Qiuyan didn't look at Kudo, but just repeated this sentence again

"Okay," Kudo hesitated for a while, but agreed

"I'm going to find a doctor, you stay here obediently," he gently rubbed Qiuyan's hair and said

. . .

Qiuyan returned to Mu Chuanchen's house, but he stayed in his room, curled up in a corner. During this period, Kudo took care of Qiuyan, Kaidou, Xiaolan and others also came to visit him, Chunhan, Kong , Yan Luoheng has also been here, but he didn't dare to see him, and went to see him secretly

However, no matter who came, Qiu Yan never paid attention to it.

At this time, in the room

The dim light made the whole room dark. The curtains were drawn and the door was closed. The young man huddled in the corner alone, in a daze. . .

Xiaobai stayed by his side all the time. At this time, he was trying to climb up Qiuyan's legs, humming something, anyway, it was right that Qiuyan couldn't hear him. . .

Qiuyan slowly shifted his gaze to Xiaobai. He knew that Xiaobai had been comforting him clumsily, even referring to his friends in nature, eagles and butterflies. . .have found

These days, he has thought a lot, from being abandoned in his previous life to the present. . .

He also had to exclaim, this is really a dramatic life!

Qiuyan stretched out his hand and touched Xiaobai's head. Just such a small movement caused him to break out in a cold sweat. Now he is very weak, very fragile, and very cowardly. . .Vulnerable. . .

"Xiaobai..." Qiuyan looked at the floor in a daze, probably because he hadn't spoken for a long time, his voice was cold and somewhat hoarse, "You really don't have to be so nice to me...I'm not worth it... .”

Xiaobai stared blankly at Qiuyan, he didn't quite understand what his little master meant

Before Xiaobai could understand, Qiuyan began to speak on his own

"You know, I used to think that as long as I was obedient, as long as I didn't cry, make trouble, or make trouble, I could stay with Master and the others longer," Qiuyan smiled, but there was a deep and deep look in his eyes. Deep emotion is bitter, "But ah, I found out that all of this is just what I thought..."

"To be honest, I don't understand. What did I do wrong that my parents have to give up on me? Why do I have to go through so many things? Why can't I be an ordinary person? Why do so many inexplicable things have to be borne by me? Why!?"

"I try my best to make myself what others want me to be, but all this is just to please them... But... I am also human, and I also have feelings... I don't expect anyone to understand me , to rescue myself from this bottomless cage... I just want to spend myself quietly, in an ordinary way... the rest of my time..."

If you look carefully, it is not difficult to find that Qiuyan's eyes are red, tears are rolling in them, and the words are also intermittently speaking

"Do you know, whether it's Mu Chuanchen, Mo Ziqing, or Mu Liqi, they're not me... I'm just Mo Qiuyan, and I just want to be Mo Qiuyan... Every time I'm in front of them, It is natural to disguise yourself and face them with the face they want, but... I am really... very tired..."

Xiaobai climbed onto Qiuyan's shoulder somewhat at a loss, rubbed his fluffy face against Qiuyan's face, and comforted him. His clumsy comfort just hit the softest part of Qiuyan's heart

I don't know why, but I feel my nose is sore...Tears slowly fell down his face from the eye sockets, Qiuyan bit his lower lip to silence himself, and smiled

When he was abandoned by his parents, he didn't cry;

He didn't cry when he endured being punched and kicked by others;

When he was spurned by everyone, he didn't cry;

When he lost his five senses and was seriously ill, he didn't cry;

But now, he is crying...

Suddenly, he was hugged by a warm hand, and Qiu Yan could smell the faint smell of lemon on that person's body, and the unexpected hug made him dazed, but he didn't want to get out of this hug, so he let himself... Let's be willful again...

"Xiao...Xiaoyan," that person is Kudo. He heard all that Qiuyan said just now outside the door. When he saw Qiuyan who took off his disguise and would be as sad as a normal person, he suddenly felt Feeling heartbroken, he called his name subconsciously.He knew that he didn't like the name Mu Chuanchen, and he didn't want to call him Xiaochen himself, so he called him by his original name.

Kudo gently wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes with his hands, and hugged him tightly, "Cry if you want to cry."

Qiuyan read what he said from his mouth shape, and his words made a string in his mind suddenly snap, and the tears kept falling like pearls with a broken thread, and buried his head On Kudo's shoulders, I don't want him to see my appearance

"To be alive...really...so tired..." Qiuyan choked up and said intermittently

Shinichi patted his back and kissed the corners of his eyes

The two embraced like this, and the room was filled with a warm atmosphere...

This night, Qiuyan confides his heart to Xinyi for the first time, opens up his heart for the first time...

Qiuyan talked a lot, and Xinyi listened quietly, and just like that, the two embraced each other and fell asleep...

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......

When the sun was about to rise, Qiuyan woke up and looked at Xinyi who was sleeping soundly beside her.

The pain brought by his body made his face a little paler. Qiuyan stroked his brows and eyes lightly with his hand, and whispered, as if afraid of waking him up, "Xinyi...thank you for listening I said this, but ah, I just want to leave the best things to you, and I can bear the other negative emotions alone..."

"So... let these be my secrets." Qiuyan kissed Xinyi's forehead like a superficial touch, and there was a tenderness in Qiuyan's eyes that he didn't even notice. At this moment, He understands that he loves him, regardless of gender, just pure, because of love, so love...

...

......

When Xinyi woke up, Qiu Yan was no longer around him. He touched the bed beside him. It seemed that he had been up for a long time. At this moment, he also found the letter beside the pillow. The letter was very short. just a few simple words

Don't look for me.

Thanks,

Also, sorry.

—— Mo Qiuyan

Looking at the delicate handwriting on the letter, recalling the conversation between the two last night, he understood...

Under the dim light, the boy couldn't help but smile, his eyes were doting, gentle, and confident...

In a daze, I could see him opening his teeth lightly, "Idiot"

I'm waiting for you...

The author has something to say: la la la ~ it will end tomorrow ~

To be honest, what I thought at the beginning was actually similar to this, but it seems that the feeling of writing is a bit different from what I thought...

But I don't understand how it's different...

It's just so helpless...

I tried my best to finish coding the last chapter today, and it will be posted at 12 o'clock