Self-investment

Guan Xu went upstairs, turned right, and opened the door of Luo Yimu's room.

The light was not turned on, and it was dark inside the door. Luo Yimu sat alone in front of the window sill, with half of his face submerged in the shadow of the night.

Huge floor-to-ceiling windows, and her thin silhouette, the cold moon casts a faint light from behind the treetops in the distance, indifferent.

Luo Yimu lowered his head and looked out the window.

Jian Ling was sitting directly below her.

She has night blindness, and even if she looks down hard, she can't see anything.

"Is she afraid of me?" Luo Yimu asked in the dark, his voice was low and soft, as if he was afraid of being heard, and looked a little pitiful.

Or sadly would be more appropriate.

"No." Guan Xu leaned against the door, his voice was equally soft and a little erratic, "She is not as fragile as you imagined, you should give her a little more trust."

She paused, and then said: "You should also give yourself a little more trust."

Luo Yimu snorted lightly at himself.

After being silent for a while, Guan Xu said again: "I have already found someone to suppress the beating. You don't have to worry about it."

Luo Yimu nodded, "Thank you." The expression on his face was very calm, and he didn't care much.

"I haven't seen you impulsive like that for many years." Guan Xu approached the window sill, leaned on the window frame opposite Luo Yimu, folded his chest and lowered his eyes, pretending to be relaxed, "Just for a brief order, Is it worth your trouble?"

"She's the only one who isn't afraid of me."

"What about me?" Guan Xu asked jokingly.

"You don't count." Luo Yimu said.Guan Xu is more like a mirror image of Luo Yimu himself, so for Luo Yimu, sometimes seeing Guan Xu is like looking in a mirror, and because of this, Guan Xu understands her as he understands himself.

"Since she is not afraid of you, why are you hiding? You are so cowardly, Luo Yimu, this is not like you at all."

Luo Yimu lowered his head and rubbed his face with tired hands.

Jian Ling is not afraid now, but one day she will discover her true nature, she will always be afraid, and she has such a detached personality, if one day she can't stand Luo Yimu's dullness, she wants to leave her, Luo Yimu I didn't dare to imagine what kind of actions I would do to hurt her, so I might as well refuse her from the beginning and not give her a chance to enter her life.

But Jian Ling still entered Luo Yimu's life, and with his unscrupulous persistence and bravery, he broke into Luo Yimu's heart fiercely. Luo Yimu was afraid of hurting her in the future, and lusted after her. With the current dependence and closeness, Luo Yimu dared not accept her, and couldn't bear to reject her, so he had to hang around like this, maintaining such an inexplicable ambiguous distance, hurting Jian Ling and himself.

Guan Xu said: "Things have passed for so many years. If you don't try, how will you know whether you have come out?"

Luo Yimu leaned against the cold edge of the bed, covered his eyes with his palms, and said dejectedly, "But I can't try her." He was afraid that she would get hurt in the future.

"Amu..." Guan Xu wanted to persuade her again, when Luo Yimu's cell phone, which was casually placed aside on the window sill, rang.

Guan Xu glanced at it, the caller ID was a string of numbers, without notes, all of Luo Yimu's cell phone ringtones were the system default, only this one was different, it was a few whimpers of a puppy, accompanied by very cute background music, listening It sounds cute, and it doesn't match Luo Yimu's usual serious professor image. I don't know where she found such a cute ringtone.

Luo Yimu is really boring to the bone.

Guan Xu sympathized with her very much, but hearing such a soft and cute cell phone ringing in his ears, he really couldn't sympathize with her, but couldn't hold back his smile.

"Jian Ling's phone number?" Guan Xu asked.

"Ah."

"No?"

Luo Yimu didn't move in the dark.

The cell phone ring played several times in a loop, and finally stopped abruptly in the darkness. Luo Yimu breathed a sigh of relief, but less than ten seconds later, the ring rang again.Luo Yimu clenched his hands into fists, his veins popped out, it seemed that he was trying to suppress something.

Guan Xu couldn't stand her torturing herself, so she simply picked up her mobile phone and put it next to her ear, "I'm Guan Xu, what's the matter?"

Jian Ling didn't expect that Guan Xu would pick up Luo Yimu's cell phone, and all the words he thought of were stuck in his throat, not knowing what to say.Guan Xu's words just now were still ringing in her ears, the tone was so scary that Jian Ling was still a little afraid of her.

"I...I'm looking for Mumu." Jian Ling stammered.

Guan Xu directly moved the phone to Luo Yimu's ear, "The call is for you."

Luo Yimu didn't take the initiative to take the phone over, but he didn't refuse Guan Xu to put the phone to her ear either.

"Mumu?" Jian Ling sensitively heard Luo Yimu's usual breathing rate in the receiver, and immediately raised his voice cheerfully, even with a coquettish nasal voice, "Mumu, I'm so sleepy and want to sleep gone."

Luo Yimu didn't speak.

Jian Ling didn't care, and said softly, "I'm still blowing cold wind in the yard, and there is a barrier at the door, and my wheelchair can't get in."

"My feet are hurt and I can't go up the stairs, but I really want to go back to my room and sleep."

Luo Mu breathed heavily in his chest, and said in a deep voice: "Come right away." Immediately fumbled for the switch next to him, turned on the light in the room, picked up a coat and walked out, because Jane Ling said on the phone that she was cold .

"Aren't you worried that she's afraid of you now?" Guan Xu teased while standing behind her.

"Get out of here before she comes in." Luo Yimu said without looking back.

Guan Xu pursed his lips, cut, crossed the river and demolished the bridge, but still put his hands in his pockets, and walked out of the guest room slowly. After all, he couldn't disturb the good things of his friends.

Luo Yimu went downstairs to receive the briefing.

Jian Ling was still drinking the cup of cold tea in the yard, when she heard Luo Yimu's footsteps, she immediately put down the teacup and turned to her with a bright smile, "Mumu, you're here."

Smiling without hesitation, with a naive look, Luo Yimu's heart skipped a beat, walked over with a cold face, put the coat he brought on Jian Ling's body, and shook her hand again, it was indeed a bit cold.

"Why do you still drink herbal tea when you feel cold?" Luo Yimu frowned and bent over to hug her.

Jian Ling wrapped her arms around her neck, "I'm bored waiting down there, I don't even have anyone to chat with, and you don't answer your phone calls." There was a little bit of complaint in the words, Luo Yimu heard, It's like being coquettish.

The breath that didn't come out of her chest was directly stuck in her throat, making the end of her eyes red.

Jian Jianling reached into her collar and caressed her without fear of death, and deliberately blew in her ear, "Mumu, do you have a fever? Why are you so hot?"

Luo Yimu gritted his teeth, "Jian Ling, let me warn you one last time, don't mess with me."

These words made Jian Ling's movements even bolder. She had reached from the neck to her back, and her fingers were moving back and forth on her straight spine. The soft fingers sparked fire wherever they went, "I want to What do you want to do to me, Mumu? I can't ask for it."

Jian Ling didn't realize the seriousness of his action at all, and looked at Luo Yimu's eyes provocatively after speaking, and the second he looked at her, Jian Ling was completely shocked.

Luo Yimu's eyes were crimson red, and even the blue veins on her forehead were faintly visible. Her expression at this time was like a wild beast that pressed its prey under its sharp claws, as if it could take Jian Ling with its belt anytime and anywhere. There was not even a single bone left, so Jian Ling never had a chance to cry out.

Jian Ling was so frightened that his fingers froze, his heart trembled, and he didn't dare to make any more moves.

Luo Yimu was so close to her, seeing the fear in her eyes completely, like a sharp sword piercing her heart, the pain was so painful that she couldn't even speak.

"Are you afraid of me?" Luo Yimu said hoarsely with red eyes.

"No, no..." Jian Ling shook her head, denying it categorically.

Luo Yimu knew, however, that this was Jian Ling's usual trick, this woman was so good at deceiving, it was easy to tell lies casually.

Luo Yimu bowed his head, suppressed the loneliness and sadness in his eyes, silently carried Jian Ling back to their shared room, put Jian Ling on the bed, and packed up and changed his clothes to prepare to leave.

"Wait a minute! Where are you going?" Jian Ling found out that she was leaving, and couldn't help but panic.

"You have a good rest, I'll go to the next room." Luo Yimu said.

"No!" Jian Ling's expression immediately changed when he heard that, and he shook his head vigorously, as if resisting with all his strength, "Don't go, Grandpa Guan said that it doesn't matter if we share a room, why are you leaving? Did I do something to annoy you again?"

Jian Ling was inexplicably afraid that Luo Yimu would show any rejection towards her. The main reason was that Luo Yimu's mind was too hard to guess. The last time Luo Yimu rejected her, she called her by mistake. I met Luo Yimu again by accident, and got such a chance to get along with her again. I don't know why Luo Yimu showed such resistance to her again this time. If Jian Ling messes up again this time, She really didn't know how to reconcile with Luo Yimu, so Jian Ling was very afraid that Luo Yimu would really leave.

"Jian Ling..." Luo Yimu called her name helplessly.

"I don't listen!" Jian Ling shook her head to prevent Luo Yimu from continuing to speak, and crawled to the bedside, grabbing Luo Yimu's clothes desperately to prevent her from leaving, "I don't want to listen to what you said, you must be If you want to dump me, I don't care, I kiss and hug you, you are already mine, I will never let you run away again, you...you...if you want to deny it ..." The more Jian Ling talked, the more aggrieved she felt. As she spoke, her eyes turned red and she choked up, "If you don't want to admit it, I'll go to your school and say that Professor Luo, who is an upright man in front of you, is a beast in clothes and deceitful. He turned his face and refused to admit it when he played with me, he is a sanctimonious hypocrite!"

After she finished speaking, her nose was red. Luo Yimu was originally in a mess and depressed. When he saw her pulling his clothes and playing rogue, he couldn't hold back his smile, touched her head, and said in a three-pointed tone. Helpless and gentle, "Okay, I'm here and I'm not going anywhere." Luo Yimu's mood improved a lot after being made such a fuss by Jian Ling. After taking a breath, he suddenly felt relieved, and said again: "I'm going to take a bath, okay?"

Jian Ling blushed immediately after hearing the slightly doting question, "Okay." She loosened Luo Yimu's clothes, and did not forget to tell her: "Come to bed after taking a shower, don't go to other rooms Go, or don't look at me now that I'm crippled, I'll grab you back even if I'm crawling."

"Understood." Luo Yimu replied helplessly.

……

At night, the two of them lay side by side on the bed after taking a shower.

This is the second time for them to sleep on the same bed. Grandpa Guan’s house is luxurious, and even the guest room has a large double bed with a width of 1.8 meters. Sleeping together at night, this big bed was obviously much softer and more comfortable, but Jian Ling was very dissatisfied, feeling that this big bed was really not as good as the one-meter-wide small bed in his room.Bohol

The bigger the space, the wider the distance. Luo Yimu wanted to be 800 meters away from Jianling. He slept against the edge of the bed, lying flat, motionless. Secretly cursing Luo Yimu's incomprehensible style, it is rare to have such a bed that is not afraid of falling off no matter how hard she tosses, she actually just sleeps honestly!I have no intention of doing anything!

Only Luo Yimu knew in his heart how hard she had endured, her forehead was sweating, her hands were sweaty, the curtains were drawn tightly, no light could come in the room, and she couldn't see her fingers, but Jian Ling was in the dark night. The eyes in Li are so hot, like two big 100-watt light bulbs, emitting a resentful light in the dark night, Luo Yimu can't ignore it even if he wants to ignore it.

In the past few weeks, Luo Yimu knew the body of the person next to him very well, and also knew how soft her body was, and could easily be folded in his arms.

Thinking about it this way, my body became hotter and hotter, and even my lips began to dry out.

Suddenly, there was a rustling on the bed, and Luo Yimu felt Jian Ling move a few times on the bed, and when he realized it, Jian Ling's breath had been sprayed very close to her neck, Luo Yimu stiffened his body , clenched the bed sheet under him tightly.

"Aren't you sleepy? Why don't you go to sleep?" She spoke with difficulty in the dark night, her throat was rough as if it had been rubbed by sandpaper, it was dry and hoarse, implying extreme patience and restraint.

"Can't sleep." Jian Ling rubbed her soft face against Luo Yimu's arm, "I'm worried about you."

"What are you worried about?" Luo Yimu tensed his body, trying to ignore the softness between his arms that belonged to Jian Ling.

"During the day, about the police station." Jian Ling said.

Luo Yimu was startled, "Are you still afraid?" She asked softly, there was tension and panic in her words that she didn't notice, "Jian Ling, are you afraid of me?"

"I'm not afraid." Jian Ling held her hand to reassure her, "That kind of person should teach him a lesson. If you don't teach him, he will be taught by others in the future. Don't think too much."

"But I'm cruel, don't you think it's scary?"

When Jian Ling heard the word "cruel", she thought of something and laughed, "When my father was still there, he always told me something called 'the wicked will be punished by the wicked', which means that even if you are bullied, don't be cruel. Thinking about getting revenge, the bad guy will always meet someone worse than him, and then it will be his unlucky time."

Luo Yimu's eyes sank: "You think I'm a bad person?"

Jian Ling thought for a while, and said in a joking tone: "It's pretty bad when you hit someone. If I hadn't stopped you, you probably beat the father and son to death."

Luo Yimu's eyes darkened, and his heart sank. See, Jian Ling is still afraid of her, she is already a bad person in Jian Ling's heart.

Luo Yimu was sad, but Jian Ling held her face in his hands and kissed her, "But I like you badly." She smiled happily, hugged Luo Yimu, and put her Putting her face on her chest, "Mumu, I like you no matter whether you are a bad person or a good person. I am not afraid of you, and I will never be afraid of you. Besides, I am not a good person myself."

She leaned against Luo Yimu's chest, and gently stroked her face with her fingers. Luo Yimu grabbed her troublesome hand and pressed it against his face, only to hear her say again: "When I was young, I was often bullied .”

Luo Yimu held her hand tightly.

Jian Ling continued: "My dad is very timid and afraid of getting into trouble. Every time I was beaten by other children, I always hoped that he would beat me back for me. It would be better if he went to the door to argue with the parents of the children who beat me, but once I was beaten No, he told me to endure every time, and told me to be forgiving and forgiving. Once I was knocked out by a little fat man with two front teeth, blood flowed out of my mouth, I couldn't spit it out, and a lot of it was swallowed into my throat I went, it was the first time I tasted fresh human blood, I was very scared, I was afraid that I would die if I ate my own blood, so I squatted on the ground, scratched my throat and retched while crying, tears flowed into my mouth, confused Bloody, fishy and salty."

"At that time, I was thinking, if there is someone in the world who can help me bully me back when I am bullied, so that others will never dare to bully me again, that would be great."

Jian Ling spoke very calmly, but only she knew how painful it would be to knock out a perfectly intact front tooth without any looseness. Now that she licks her teeth, she can even feel the pain she felt back then.

Luo Yimu only listened to her description, as if he could feel her pain back then, gritted his teeth and trembled faintly, even the bottom of his heart was trembling. She couldn't hear that such a thing happened to Jian Ling, even if she heard it now. I wish I could go back to the past and help Jian Ling fix all those bastards who bullied her. Her hands were clenched into fists. Jian Ling found out and scratched her tiger's mouth gently, and said softly: "Release, Don't keep pinching your palms, it hurts so much."

It was not as painful as Jian Ling's back then.

Luo Yimu let go of his fist, wrapped Jian Ling's delicate fingers in his palm, and kept kissing the top of her hair. His heart ached, "No one will bully you again."

"I protect you."

Jian Ling felt warm in her heart, as if someone had lit a fire for her in the ice and snow, and even her toes curled up comfortably.

"Later, do you know how I took revenge on the man who knocked out my front teeth? I kicked him into the toilet pit while he wasn't paying attention, and I covered his head and hit his head with a few sticks. , and then brought all the children in our area, and watched him go home to find his mother with a stinky body. From then on, he got a nickname in our area, called "Shi Wang", and no child would like to Play with him again." Jian Ling Ren Luo Yimu held his hand, still laying on her chest, comforting her lightly, "Look, Mumu, you are bad, and I am not good either, let's 'work together', match made in heaven."

This remark gave Luo Yimu a reassurance. She asked Jian Ling if she thought she was a bad person. Most likely, she still has to worry about it, because Jian Ling still sees herself as a bad person subconsciously, and is still afraid of her, but Jian Ling said that she likes her bad, but also said that she is not good. Regardless, at least Jian Ling didn't deny the dark side of Luo Yimu's heart, and didn't pretend that that side didn't exist.

Jian Ling accepted the darkness in Luo Yimu's heart.

Nothing makes Luo Yimu happier than this. She hugged Jian Ling excitedly, kissed the top of her hair, and kissed the tips of her ears. Jian Ling was tickled by her kiss, her heart was warmly full, giggling Laughing straight, while laughing, she burrowed into her arms. When she had enough laughs, Jian Ling buried her head in her neck and panted softly. When she remembered something, she leaned into her ear and said, "Today Guan Xu asked me a question."

Luo Yimu took her hand and put it on his lips, kissed her knuckles, "What?"

"She asked me if I wanted to be with you for the rest of my life, if not, I would stop messing with you."

"Don't pay attention to her." Luo Yimu hugged Jian Ling tightly, his voice full of indulgence and connivance, "I won't force you."

Jian Ling used to be a very strong person. No matter if he was injured or suffered a loss, he could always carry it on his own without anyone else. The girlfriends she had made before were also greedy for Jian Ling's money, including The Yang Yi who was before meeting Luo Yimu, pestered Jian Ling to buy bags, watches and jewelry, and asked Jian Ling to buy lipstick when things were not going well, and asked Jian Ling to buy a necklace when she got angry after a fight. It was obvious that she cheated on her first and got married to a richer diamond kingpin, but Jian Ling was doused with alcohol and slandered by her in the circle as a scumbag.

Jian Ling didn't bother to explain, she was genuine in being playful, and she was genuine in being nice to people. She would stop contacting her after they separated, and there was no need to slander her. She felt that her mentality was chic, and she deliberately ignored the faint grievances in her heart.

It wasn't until she met Luo Yimu that she realized that it was such a wonderful thing to be loved and loved by others, which made Jian Ling's previous strength collapse, and she just wanted to be tired of acting like a baby in her arms.

Only Luo Yimu treats her sincerely, not because of her greed, but simply because of Jian Ling, what Jian Ling got from Luo Yimu was much more than what she gave Luo Yimu.

Because of this, Jian Ling was a little timid about being with Luo Yimu.

Such a good Mumu, if after being together, Jian Ling's previous playful and bastard temper comes out again, I'm sorry for her, how sad is Mumu?

Such a good Mumu, Jian Ling didn't want to make her sad at all.

Jian Ling kissed Luo Yimu's lips in the dark, "Mumu, give me some time."

Luo Yimu carefully avoided her injury, turned over and pressed her down, leaned down and kissed her back, Jian Lingxuan wrapped her arms around Luo Yimu's neck, her red lips parted slightly, to bear Luo Yimu's aggressive sex play and entanglement.