Reboot 1999 [Rebirth]

Yan Guangde's face was slightly swollen from not getting enough sleep for a long time.He raised his white glove, swished it through Jin Yan's golden hair, and finally landed on his right ear.There used to be sparkling diamond stud earrings.

Yan Guangde closed his eyes and said sincerely, "J, I am not a god either, so please...don't punish me in this way again!"

Jin Yan lowered his head slightly, staring at Yan Guangde's silver-gray pupils.After a while, he raised his eyebrows and smiled. "You control life and death, and reverse the flow of time. In this era, you are the living God of Creation!"

"You know I'm not..."

"I have no idea!"

Jin Yan's voice suddenly became agitated.He knocked off Yan Guangde's hand, stood up angrily, and the thin blanket that had been covering his knees fell to the ground.

"They wanted me to live, so they created me. The only way I can fight is to choose death! But then, you, Yan Guangde, brought me back to life! Even if I die, I can't die! Hahahahaha!"

Jin Yan raised his head, and his stern laughter fell all over the ground.

Yan Guangde put his hands on his knees, stood up slowly, and stared at the lunatic Jin Yan.Patiently waiting until he had laughed enough, he said quietly, "I never thought about controlling your life."

"But you are the only one in my fucking life from beginning to end!"

Jin Yan laughed hysterically and pointed at the tip of Yan Guangde's nose. "You fucking bastard was alone the whole time! Do you understand? Do you understand what it feels like?!"

"I know!"

"You do not understand!"

Jin Yan leaned over, almost under Yan Guangde's eyebrows, breathing quickly and authentically, "Did any of you consider me from the beginning to the end? Who am I, and why should I be created by you?"

The panting sound became more and more rapid.Jin Yan's eyes were no longer pure blue, because of anger and violent mood swings, they turned a dangerous gray-blue.Like the arrogant desire surging in the darkness, with a sound, it undulates like a wave.

Anytime, anywhere, they are waiting for the final fatal blow.

"Do you know what it feels like to wait for death every day!"

Jin Yan spoke faster and faster.

"Every day, every night, I am waiting for the final doomsday judgment! But what about you? As my creator god, Yan, where are you every time?"

Yan Guangde opened his lips, but before he could speak, Jin Yan interrupted him mercilessly, laughing wildly.

"When I was born, I was born in a pool of blood! They used countless drugs just to make me survive. But every inch of my cells was dismembered! Do you know that feeling? My hands and feet were broken , and then re-splicing, artificially promoting cell body fission, every beating blood in the chest cavity is exploding! They are exploding!"

"When I was six, they threw me into a dark basement with nothing but rats, no food, no water, nothing to survive! Not even light! They wanted to see how different I was from normal people! I what is the difference?"

Jin Yan pointed to his chest with his finger.

"I also have a heart, I also have flesh and blood, and I know it hurts! It wasn't until they found out that I didn't have any special talents, and my IQ was just an ordinary person, that I would grow old and die. Then they found me a surrogate in a panic. Mother above! That woman is full of lies! They tampered with my memory! Tell me that I, like all children, was blessed by God and crawled out of my mother's womb!"

"Yan Guangde, I lied to you! My mother in name has never hugged me, never kissed me, never blessed me, only endless darkness!"

"That woman was drunk and beat me when she was drunk. Ironically, such a woman is a devout believer! Every Sunday, she would send me to the church choir! The community priest praised me as an angel, Give me cheese and wine, and that's the only time I'm happy."

"In 1999, I used all the props you saw when you broke into the villa on Biyuan Road! Not the user, but the person who was used! Because I still can't grow up like a man, they force it again and again Stuffed with ointment, do you understand what it feels like?!"

The corners of Yan Guangde's mouth twitched violently, and he tried to hug Jin Yan with trembling hands, but his young man struggled violently in his arms, like a fallen angel showing sharp white teeth in the dark.Layers of blood light shadowed the young man's body, dyeing the young man from pure white to jet black.In the end, the light in those blue eyes also completely dimmed.The overly intense emotions obviously made the boy's newly revived functional body unable to bear it.

His young man was slumped on the ground, panting heavily, and his hollow blue eyes looked like the dead sky after losing the sun's brilliance.

When Yan Guangde knelt down and approached him, Jin Yan suddenly fell silent for a moment.

"Yan, I lied to you! From the beginning to the end, I have always known that I am different from you."

Yan Guangde remained silent for a long time.He didn't know what to say, and couldn't speak.He just wanted to hug this person and use all of his life to make up for the catastrophe he caused when he acted recklessly back then.

"...Don't save me again, okay?"

Finally, when he walked slowly towards the bedroom with Jin Yan in his arms, Jin Yan's voice was almost a whisper.But he knew that Yan Guangde could hear him, so he was silent for a moment, prayed softly and then turned into an indifferent declaration.

"You save me once, and I commit suicide once. Until I die completely!"

The steps towards the bed paused.

Yan Guangde tried his best to control his body so that he could not lose his composure on the spot.He lowered his head and stared deeply at Jin Yan.

Jin Yan's eyes were slightly closed, his long and curled golden eyelashes trembled violently like butterfly wings, his lips were pale, and the blood color that had been hard to recover had gradually disappeared in the past few days.

"J, what should I do before you believe that I love you?"

Jin Yan was silent.

Yan Guangde closed his eyes, and said in a deep voice, "What can I do to make you willing to survive?"

"I can't survive."

Jin Yan opened his eyes, staring blankly at the ceiling.At that moment, Jin Yan, who was hugged by Yan Guangde, miraculously coincided with No. 3050 in the nutrition cabin in 13.

"Yan, you know, I can't live. It's not a functional body problem, but here..."

With difficulty, Jin Yan pointed to his chest with trembling fingers, and his pale lips spat out. "This place is empty! You gave me feelings, and I can feel all the joys, sorrows, sorrows, and joys, but I only have a physiological heart here! Letting a defective product like me die is the greatest mercy of the Creator God to me !"

"You are not a defective product! You are a perfect masterpiece!"

"...Heh, it's your masterpiece, the Creator God, right?"

"You, you remembered everything!"

Yan Guangde's voice was hoarse, as if a knife had been cut through, and the flesh and blood in his throat were eroded, but he had no choice but to speak.

If you don't speak, it is the default.

"J, you've been lying to me, you clearly... remember everything!"

"Yes! I've been lying to you all along!"

Yan Guangde carefully put Jin Yan on the bed, and then he heard the man whisper into his ear, "But haven't you been lying to me all this time?"

"I did not lie to you!"

Yan Guangde kissed Jin Yan's bright forehead, and said after a while, "There are some things that I didn't know until today."

Jin Yan didn't know if he believed it, but just smiled coldly.

When Yan Guangde pulled up the quilt for him, Jin Yan still kept his eyes open.

That night, no matter how much he comforted him, Jin Yan never said a word.In the end, Yan Guangde had nothing to do, so he leaned in front of Jin Yan and stared at him for a long time.Probably because they got too close, their arms accidentally slipped into Jin Yan's nightgown.

Jin Yan's whole body convulsed suddenly, and he laughed harshly, "Why, do you still want to rape me?"

Yan Guangde curled his fingers.The skin touched by his fingertips was warm, but his whole body trembled like a dead leaf in the wind.In the cold winter and the snow, the strong wind swept him into the ice cave.

"...Is that why you miss me?"

"Didn't you already do it that day?" Jin Yan smiled sarcastically. "How is it? It's nice to hold back for so long, isn't it?"

Yan Guangde's nostrils were wide open, and in the end he could only open his mouth to gasp, his silver-gray pupils were filled with grayness.

Nothing at all.

He seems to have returned to the day in 2050 when the tadpole laboratory was bombed.At the edge of the desert, there are debris everywhere.He stood in the desert, with a black moon above his head, and black smoke that had not yet cleared was everywhere.

Black sky, black moon, life without light.At that time, he thought that he still had Jin Yan and Jin Yan's love.

But now, even this last bit of light is completely annihilated.With no light ahead and no way to go, he and he finally reached the edge of hell in 2001 in the previous life.

The familiar whistling breath came to him again.The demon stared at his blood-red eyes in the darkness, and laughed strangely.Yan Guangde tried his best to push the demon away, but in the end he suddenly realized that he was the monster, squatting in the darkness, staring at the prey with greedy and bloodthirsty eyes.As for his youth, he was as fragile as a doll that could be broken at any time.

His love will only make Jin Yan feel pain.

His selfish desires forced him to frantically develop the gene body regardless of everything.With No. 13, there will be NO.[-].The genetic code he entered into all the genes made them always have Yan Guangde alone in their lives.

It was his selfish desire that nailed Jin Yan to the pillar of shame from birth, with nowhere to escape.

Yan Guangde had never felt powerless despair like this at this moment.The 49 years of dark night in his previous life failed to break him down.Jin Yan's revival plan, which failed 12 times in the [-] years since his rebirth, failed to defeat him.But at this moment, his boy was lying beside him, but he suddenly collapsed inch by inch from the inside to the outside into dust.

The blood has already drained dry.In the remaining ashes, there are still remaining sins of the last love.

**

However, this was just the beginning of the nightmare.

For Yan Guangde, the following month was the deepest darkness in his life.Destiny tore off the curtain of shame, revealing ferocious fangs.

From that day on, Jin Yan stopped talking to him.No matter what Yan Guangde said, he didn't speak anymore.Don't eat, don't bathe, or even drink water.Lying on the bed all day long, I don't even hum the little Nordic tune anymore.

He looked like he was dead.

But as soon as Yan Guangde left, Jin Yan would jump out of bed madly, exhausting all means and tools, trying to end his life.

The number of robots in the home has increased from one to ten.All knives, steel forks, and one screw are hidden.

But even so, it couldn't stop Jin Yan from committing suicide.

More than once, Yan Guangde found Jin Yan lying in a pool of blood in the bathroom.Or cut his wrists, or hit his head against a wall, and once he even tried to hang himself...

Yan Guangde was finally exhausted. He sat on the edge of the bed and looked at Jin Yan who seemed to be dying at any moment on the bed.

"J, what exactly do you have to do before you can forgive me?"

Jin Yan's eyes turned slightly towards him.

"Never forgive."

"is not it……"

Yan Guangde wanted to say, is that so, I can only accept the punishment from you so weakly?But it doesn't make sense to say this, he can know the answer without asking.

Twelve years ago, Jin Yan ran out of the hotel suite barefoot, wearing a silk nightgown, stepped on Xuelang's gas pedal beyond the threshold, and rushed down the 12-meter-high suspension bridge on the seashore of Jibei City without hesitation.At that moment, Yan Guangde understood that Jin Yan deeply hated him.

He hated Yan Guangde, and also hated the fact of living as a genetic human.

Jin Yan's love for him is the genetic code set.But Jin Yan hated him, but it was the emotion that this genetic human replica produced independently after its birth.

So maybe, hate is more real than love.

Yan Guangde's Adam's apple rolled a few times, and finally lowered his eyelids, and said quietly, "Then, I will go to hell with you."

Jin Yan didn't answer.It seems disdainful, and it seems that it just doesn't believe it.

**

On that night, Yan Guangde turned on the lights to fight at night, typing the plan for the future development of tadpoles in front of the computer all night, and then packaged it together with the source code of the experiment and sent it to Lao Jiang.The mother and father who were far away under the snow-capped mountains still could not escape the fate of the previous life, and passed away suddenly in the spring of 2003, but this time when they left, they did not leave much regret.In this world, he has nothing else to worry about.

Yan Guangde lit a cigarette, meditated for a moment, and sent a text message to Yemao, the owner of Xilian Bar, whom he hadn't contacted for a long time.In this life, Johnny failed to enter the core layer of the tadpole group, and kept wandering in the feasting and feasting nights until he was picked up by the wild cat by accident and became the long-term bed partner of the wild cat.Yan Guangde sincerely wished the couple well in this world, and asked them not to come to his and Jin Yan's funeral.

Yes, he will die with Jin Yan.But let this dark funeral be handled by the one who should put an end to all these evils with his own hands!

The last person I contacted was Jin Ninghai.

Yan Guangde took out his mobile phone from 12 years ago and sent a text message to Jin Ninghai, telling him to come back to this room at dawn.Everything that followed was left to him.

He didn't say what it was, but with Jin Ninghai's intelligence, after coming here, he would definitely only think about how to bury the secret.

Yan Guangde intends to deal with Jin Yan in a state where he can't die again and can never be reproduced.Then, arm in arm with him, they fell into the boundless hell together.

When Yan Guangde returned to 1999, he once confessed his love to Jin Yan with a smile:

"To be with an old master like me is to live in the same bed and die in the same hole."

Tonight, let his oath come true!

**

After Yan Guangde packed up all his affairs, he walked back to the bedroom, turned off the lights, then lifted the quilt and lay down.Head to head with Jin Yan, leaning against each other's cheeks, and kissed him lightly. "J, I'll be with you this time. We live in the same quilt, and we die in the same hole."

On the day of his wedding at the Church of Santa Maria in Rome, Jin Yan didn't say a single word of his oath to him, but he actually did.From the very beginning, he was like a beggar who was so poor that he only had the last copper coin left, repeating the oath of love to his boy over and over again.

The oath of the Chinese people is far more wrathful than the wine of wrath on the seven holy mountains of ancient Rome.

He is his sin.

He is his hopeless salvation.

Yan Guangde raised his hand, and the data body in the silver-gray pupil was transmitted from the nerve at the end of the fingertip to the signal connector in Jin Yan's right ear hole through blood vessels in the body.The quantum entanglement device from 2050 in the Gregorian calendar was triggered for the last time in this world, and thousands of spiral gene spirals collapsed and destroyed in an instant.

The stars in the sky were annihilated, and the Son of God fell from the snow-colored sky to the bloody abyss in the dark night, with clusters of white feathers falling from his wings.The Pandora's Box, which has gone through countless desert planets, is opened.There was blood running from the winepress.Landslides, ground fissures, and torrential floods are approaching.He and his boy embraced and turned into dust.

"J, if there is an afterlife, I would like to exchange my life for you. May the Son of God return to heaven, and I will crawl at your feet and be your last loyal servant."

"So, this time, I will go to hell instead."

"you're free!"

The author has something to say: the clues of the whole book are basically collected in this chapter.There are no extras in this book. Although the road is full of thorns, it is good in the end.On the asteroid that is overgrown with thorns, roses will bloom.

Believe me, I am really a real mother! (づ￣3￣)づ