start sleeping

The book in his hand didn't turn a page for a long time, he rubbed his eyebrows coldly, closed the book and put it on the bedside table, closed his eyes and leaned against the bedside.

There was a large area of ​​darkness in the room, only the orange desk lamp on the pillow beside the pillow, faintly exuding a peaceful light.

Disturbed.

Knock knock.There was a polite knock on the door, hardly like the child who blew his hair at dinner.

"Please come in."

The door opened, Wei Hongxuan poked his head in, his dark round eyes were like the most moist black pearls, shining brightly.

"Brother Rui, are you still awake? Can I have a chat with you?"

"Come on." Leng Rui patted the place beside him.He found that his bottom line was always back and forth when facing Wei Hongxuan, and it was about to fall below the negative value.

The boy let out an oh, and came in with his favorite pillow in his arms.

On the bulging pillow is the mean little yellow man he likes, with his teeth bared, mean and happy.It was the first time I went to the supermarket after staying here in Leng Rui, and Leng Rui bought it for him.

Wei Hongxuan was wearing gray and white pajamas with fine checks, and his soft hair was still a little steamy, and the steam spread, as if even his eyes were moist, shiny and full of light.

Leng Rui watched him come over, first threw the pillow on the quilt, and then climbed onto the bed with hands and feet.The wrists and ankles exposed by his movements were white and smooth, and the tight skin revealed a pearly luster unique to this age.

"I'm sorry." Wei Hongxuan sat down, leaned against the head of the bed imitatively, and hugged the little yellow man into his arms again.Shun Maolu's child is obedient and cute, and has a particularly painful appearance: "It's my fault at dinner time, you just pretend to be me...the big aunt who comes here for a few days every month."

Leng Rui couldn't understand: "Daddy?"

Wei Hongxuan snorted, smiling, with red lips and white teeth: "It's just a joke. When a boy is emotionally disturbed, it's similar to when a girl has her period every month."

"I really don't understand what you kids are saying." Leng Rui shook his head, and was disappointed to find that the generation gap between him and Wei Hongxuan was not as deep as usual.

"What you said just now," Wei Hongxuan didn't gag this time, staring at the door in a daze, and the focus fell on nowhere in the void: "I still like him and I can't let him go. It's just uncomfortable... I don't know if you understand it, that feeling of loneliness, as if I am the only one left in the world. No matter how many people walk around, they have nothing to do with me..."

Leng Rui listened quietly, allowing the boy to confide the suppressed things in his heart to the maximum, and give himself a chance to let go.

"My father is dead, my mother is gone, I am gay, I will never have children in this life, and I will never experience the feeling of family affection...so I have a relationship with Duan Xiaohui...that kind of relationship, I know it shouldn't be, I was too greedy and crossed the limit. But I panicked, really, it seems that this huge world has nothing to do with me, and I don’t even have a thought... I was only thirteen when I met him, it was me The simplest and most stupid obsession when I was young. My dad lived a few more days because of the life-saving money he gave. My mom finally walked away decently, and it was also the card he gave me... I know it’s not feelings, it’s just my idealization It's just the most naked money-sex transaction between me and him. But I can't let go, as if there is only one Duan Xiaohui left in this world. He knows my father and my mother indirectly, and I am the closest to me. The last inexhaustible entanglement in the relationship... I can't bear to let go..."

The boy sniffed, it was the first time in a long time that he was in such a low mood.

The heartless cheerful child in the past and the sad and bleak boy now overlapped little by little, and finally 100% merged into a three-dimensional and vivid Wei Hongxuan.Imperfect, flawed, but increasingly real.

"It will be fine in the future." Leng Rui comforted him clumsily, but he couldn't say anything nice and useful: "The bad things are over, so you will be happy."

Wei Hongxuan waited for a while, but he couldn't help being amused by Leng Rui's dry reassurance before he got anything more technical.Unable to overcome his sadness, he couldn't help laughing, tears were still in his sparkling round eyes, the corners of his mouth curved and the tip of his reddish nose were vivid and thrilling.

"Brother Rui, you are so stupid..."

Leng Rui rubbed his nose, a little embarrassingly: "I'm stupid, and I can't comfort people."

Wei Hongxuan's mood improved a bit. Those dark clouds called Duan Xiaohui that weighed heavily on his heart were unknowingly dissipating. Until the future, he will return to a clear sky.

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After Duan Xiaohui's incident, the relationship between Wei Hongxuan and Leng Rui seemed to have undergone some subtle changes, but it was hard to say in detail.

In front of Leng Rui, Wei Hongxuan has always shown a heartless, sloppy and cheap sample, who can walk without losing his mind.But that day he was so righteous and didn't make a fuss about his outrageous crying, and didn't bother Leng Rui, it seemed that a man treated him better...

The weather was getting warmer, and Leng Rui suggested to him one day that it would be convenient to get a driver's license test. After all, it is not easy to travel without a car in the United States.

Wei Hongxuan didn't think too much, and quickly agreed with a little headache.

After signing up, the theory test is very fast.And what made Wei Hongxuan most apprehensive when he went in and ecstatic when he came out was that there was a Chinese version of the exam questions.

The temporary driver's license was sent to Leng Rui's home about a week later.Wei Hongxuan was amazed——

Is this ready to hit the road?How sloppy.You must know that in China, it is much stricter than this.

Leng Rui also explained to him that there are still restrictions on the temporary permit, for example, there must be an adult with a U.S. driver's license in the car.

What Wei Hongxuan didn't expect was that Leng Rui bought him a scooter, an Infiniti that cost nearly [-] dollars.

Student Wei circled the little white car twice as if in a dream, still with a dazed look on his face: "Don't we have a car at home? Well, I can't drive on the road alone."

Mr. Leng, a law-abiding and good citizen, is a little embarrassed: "Sometimes I go to work or do errands, and it will be more convenient for you to have a car."

Wei Hongxuan let out a huff, slapped his thigh, and his mind turned quickly: "Brother Rui, are you encouraging me to drive on the road by myself? Tsk tsk, isn't that bad..."

Mr. Leng would never say such a thing that violates the bottom line of principle: "I didn't say it."

Wei Hongxuan's smiling eyes were crescent-like: "I heard from my classmates that it's super easy to get a driver's license and get on the road here. Even if you don't have a driver's license, you don't know how to check it. The possibility of being caught is very small."

"Safety first." Leng Rui told him: "In any case, you must be careful when driving. If you drink alcohol, you must not drive. Also, you can drive on the way from your house to school, and you can't take the high speed. Understand? ?”

"Understood, Father Leng." Wei Hongxuan made a grimace, and belatedly began to be elated: "Awesome! I actually have a car to drive... Hehe, how can I repay such an exciting gift?" How about a consecration and a car shock ceremony? How about I help you with a full set at night?"

There was no change in expression on the man's tough face, but the tips of his ears were red: "Ryan, I don't intend to exchange anything with you, it's just a gift... Besides, this model is easier to resell if you don't need it in the future."

Wei Hongxuan rolled his flexible eyes: "That's right, the right to use hehe... But you are so good, we can't help but realize that you are not..."

Leng Rui put his hands in his trouser pockets, the spring breeze blew, and the man's iron gray casual suit was lifted from the corners.

"Ryan, I never asked you, do you plan to go back to China after finishing your studies?"

"Who knows." Wei Hongxuan casually stretched his hand across the car window, and then flipped the rearview mirror: "That will be two or three years later, and I can't think so far. Besides, it's considered a decision now, It will change again in two years if it is not guaranteed.”

Leng Rui slightly hooked the corners of his mouth, but said nothing.

Wei Hongxuan seemed to have just remembered, and stretched out his hand to smooth the hair that was blown by the wind: "Brother Rui, you have spent your whole life here to rely on the US Emperor? Don't you plan to return to China to develop? Let me tell you, these years, domestic The development is really fast, not worse than here. Hey, there is actually a frog in the bottom of the well who can't look down on the rocket speed of my great country, but he is still Chinese..."

This time Leng Rui shook his head quickly, almost without any hesitation: "I won't go back."

Wei Hongxuan let out a sigh, without any change in expression: "That's right. After all, your career is here. It's also very good."

Leng Rui couldn't speak, he just felt like his heart was put into a frying pan on a small fire, the torment was unbearable, and he was paralyzed for a moment so that he would not die: "I swore that I would never step on it again in this life. to that land."

Wei Hongxuan let out a groan, and gradually a look of surprise appeared on his face: "Wow, Brother Rui, you are a person with a story."

"So you..." Leng Rui hesitated for a while, and finally swallowed the last half of the sentence: "You are still young."

"What's small?" The young man acted fiercely, pushing his hips: "How small? It can't compare with you, that's because we are normal size, and you violated the regulations and exceeded the standard. You are almost turning into a biochemical weapon, okay?"

Leng Rui smiled with a good temper: "Yes. You are not young at all... I am too big. Heh, Wei Hongxuan, you are really a child who hasn't grown up yet."

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Master Leng is very embarrassed...