Sheriff, give me a smile~

So I became such a disguised businessman, I do things for others, and then the people I help give me their lifespan and strength.

I am not Yan Luo, nor am I impermanent in black and white, but I did something that killed people, from 26 to 36, for a full ten years.

Killing lives continued, I watched those people die little by little in front of me, and I didn't feel happy, but only felt empty and nothingness.

The cold hit me, and there was nowhere to escape.

The blood seems to be cold.

In countless dark nights, I have been awakened by nightmares, and the nightmares are the same scene again and again, overwhelming darkness and blood, I am inside, and there is no escape.

Then I woke up, dazed.

There just happened to be a moon outside the window, it was so beautiful, I kind of wanted to cry.

I often think about life and death, their shapes and distances, their emotions and meanings.

Autumn leaves fell on my hands, and I stroked its texture carefully. The long-lost sun shone on my body, which was very warm.

Then I thought this is life, if I die, I won't feel this anymore.Darkness is scary, and life is supposed to escape fear, but what if life becomes a kind of fear?

I let go of my hand and let the leaf fall from my hand.

I suddenly looked forward to death a little bit, looking forward to that feeling, the fear of slowly falling from light to darkness, and also a sense of relief.

I thought, when am I going to die?

I counted my lifespan, but I didn't expect that I couldn't die.

From 26 to 36, in ten years, my appearance has not changed at all, and my body functions have not deteriorated at all. I have already become an independent individual when absorbing the power of this time and space.I don't belong to the original world, and I don't fit into the present world. I can hurt, get hurt, and bleed, but I won't grow old or die.

What is this called, retribution?

I laughed so hard that I couldn't straighten my back, and then I lay on other people's roofs at night and cried.

The homeowner was alarmed by me and thought I was a thief, and threw bricks and things to drive me away.

The back of my neck was injured by him, and I was bleeding, so I didn't care.I need this kind of pain to remind myself that it exists; I need this kind of blood to remind myself that it is real.

I am afraid of emptiness, of nothingness, of not being able to grasp anything.

Every time I go to a place, I stay for seven or eight years before leaving. I am afraid that people around me will find that I am not old and change, and think that I am a monster.

I dare not make friends with others, it is difficult for me to meet people who understand me, but I am also afraid of meeting people who understand me, I am not in the same world with them, they will leave, I will not, I am afraid of missing them, I am afraid of being sad .

I don't want to do this kind of business often, so I have gradually become more selective in selecting people, and my methods of doing things have gradually become more ruthless.

The lifespan and strength of a top expert are enough for me to stop doing such a disgusting business for a long time, so I single out the strong ones to start, whether they are willing or not, I will make them willing in my way.

I don't want good, good people to suffer.I have already suffered a lot, and I don't want to suffer again. What's more, I have seen so many people and things for so many years, and I knew that people's hearts are sinister and not worthy of sympathy.

who am iI am a summoner, I am Xie Jiuchen, and I am an existence that can borrow the power of heaven and earth! I should be unrestrained, presumptuous, arrogant, and lawless, can you stop me?

Good wine should be drunk a thousand cups; beauty should be read a thousand times.

Where is there wine and beauty?Brothel.

So I often stayed in brothels, drunk with money, indulged in sensuality, and drank a thousand cups a night.I gave all kinds of gold and silver treasures to those girls and young men, and pampered them to heaven, but sometimes I deliberately went whoring for nothing, behaved wildly, and provoked the madam in exchange for a beating.

The fist was obviously painful, but I felt that it was not strong enough, so I asked for a knife in front of people, and cut my wrist open, letting the blood splash and scare the crowd.

I laughed, I was really hopeless, and this scared me.

Then I staggered away with a jar of wine in my hand, drank it dizzily, and mumbled a poem from the ancients while drinking:

The birth year is less than one hundred, and he often cherishes thousands of years of worry.

The days are short and the nights are long, why not travel by candle!

How can you stay here for fun in time?

Fools cherish money, but scoff for future generations.

The fairy prince Joe, it's hard to wait.

I'm... so fucking cool.

Then I passed out, unconscious.

I thought it would be nice if I died at that moment, but I didn't die, I was saved by a little girl.In fact, even if that little girl didn't save me, I wouldn't be able to die.

The little girl said her name was Baozi. I saw that her round face really looked like a bun, so I pinched her face with a smile.

She asked me why I wanted to die, and I said it was because I was unhappy living.

She also said that she should try her best to find happiness, but I said I couldn't find it.

She looked puzzled.

She is not me, so I don't understand, but I am still very grateful to her, after all, I saw the sporadic shadows of the autumn leaves and the ray of sunshine in her.

In fact, if we talk about happiness, we do have it. Many years later, in a person, he is an onmyoji named Di Huaiying.

When I saw him for the first time, he seemed to be only 20 years old. I can’t remember how old I am. After all, age is meaningless to me.

Onmyoji of the younger generation of Kanzong went down the mountain to eliminate demons, and just happened to get rid of my site—that is, the place where I live, Zhaxinglou, although it was not called Zhaixinglou at that time.

Good guy, I took a lot of effort to repair this place, you want to come in and search because you have the name of a monster?Even relying on the name of Kanzong, you can't act like this, right?

"Sir, we promise to only catch monsters. If you damage anything, you will be compensated according to the price."

"Hey, no, no, no."

"Sir, we really sensed the aura of a monster from your place. Please let us in if it's convenient for you. It's not good if this monster hurts you?"

I leaned against the door and yawned: "Xie is not afraid of monsters, so I won't bother you here."

I didn't agree with all the young people who said whatever they said, and I was so anxious for a while, but they couldn't do anything to me.

"Dare to ask, sir, how can I agree to be admitted to the hospital?" A clear voice came.

Yo, this voice seems to have never persuaded me just now.

I glanced up lazily, and then I saw Huaiying when I was young.

His eyebrows are extremely beautiful, with a coldness that is neither sad nor happy, like ice that has just frozen in winter, or like a spring that has thawed at the beginning of spring, but there is also a touch of seductive beauty.

The hunting clothes are like snow, the black hair is like ink, and the jade pendant around her waist is moist and shiny.It was obviously a severe winter, but he only wore a thin layer of clothes as if he was not afraid of the cold.

His face and temperament are good, but it is his eyes that make me startled.

It is very beautiful and quiet, with a sense of nothingness that sees through everything, like my eyes.

Why does a young man in his twenties have eyes like mine?I do not understand.

"Sir?" He called me again.

I came back to my senses, and then a ruffian-like smile appeared on the corner of my mouth: "Okay, you can come in if you want to investigate, and promise me one condition."

"What conditions?"

I pointed at Huaiying: "You, stay with me for one night."

The rest of the teenagers turned pale with shock, and said one after another: "You mustn't do it!"

"You shameless person, what's your idea!"

I didn't panic, just looked at him calmly.

Then he said: "I promise you."

It gets dark early in winter, but Shen Shitian is completely dark.Huaiying followed me into the inner courtyard, walked through the long corridor, and came to the inner room.I brought in hot springs from other places under the ground in the inner room, so the room is warm and not cold.

Huaiying was slightly surprised, but the look of surprise only flashed across his face.

I pointed out a low table for him to sit on: "I have drawn a hot spring under the floor of this house, so it's not cold."

He knelt and sat on the warm mattress in good order and nodded: "Sir, it took a lot of time."

"I don't have anything, I just have a lot of time, and I'm not afraid of spending it."

He was puzzled, and I just smiled and didn't explain much.

I sat across from him and asked him, "Why are you willing to come in?"

He asked back, "Don't you want me to come in, sir?"

I am funny: "Your words mean, you can do whatever I want you to do?"

He opened his mouth, speechless to refute.

I waved to him: "Come here, come to me."

He got up and came in front of me, and knelt down as politely as before.

I move closer to him and hold his shoulders.

He was startled and wanted to back away, but I might not be sure, so I used strength in my hand to pull him forward.

This time he was very close to me.

I carefully looked into his eyes, such beautiful eyes, which contained coldness, tranquility, surprise, confusion, and a little bewilderment.

I was fascinated by it, and gently touched his eyes with one hand, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and my fingertips felt tingly and itchy.

After all, he was a young man, and he was still a little flustered in the face of this sudden situation. He struggled a little and wanted to back away.

I held him down and said to him: "Don't move, I'll just take a look."

He breathed steadily and didn't move any more. His eyelashes trembled and I let him do it.

His fingertips gently brushed the corners of his eyes and brows, his unintentional charm made me slightly confused.

I see the difference between me and this young man.

Both my eyes and his were cold, and we both had a sense of emptiness that seemed to see everything clearly, but after I saw clearly, there was dead silence and despair, while he was calm and indifferent.

Why so much difference?

I touched his eyelashes in a daze, suddenly envious of him.

"What's your name?"

"Di Renjie."

"Where are the words?"

"Huaiying."

"Huai... Ying..." I read his words in a low voice, and then approached him.

He was a little panicked again, stretched out his hand and gently pushed me, moved his knees and backed up: "First, sir?"

There is a wall behind him, and there is no way to retreat. This appearance aroused an inexplicable evil fire in me. With a thought, I leaned forward and pressed him against the wall, and pressed my hands against the wall with his fingers interlocked.

I raised my eyebrows: "Huh?"

"You!" He was angry, struggling hard, but he was completely outmatched by me, and wanted to use Yin Yang, but found that his spiritual power was completely locked, and he was shocked: "What kind of magic did you use?"

"you guess."

He frowned, with suppressed anger in his eyes.

I laughed: "Who told you to come?"

He frowned and looked at me for a while, then took a deep breath, stretched his eyebrows, closed his eyes, and turned his head away.

I leaned close to his ear and whispered: "What are you thinking?"

"Everything in the world."

"Everything in the world?" I was taken aback for a moment, then smiled: "In my place, you can't think about these things."

"What do you think?"

"Miss me." I forced his face away, and kissed his lips hard without any explanation.

I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I'm thinking, and I don't know why I do it all of a sudden, I just feel a desire that I haven't had for a long time is stimulating me—he wants me in his eyes , only me.