Red Dust Tune: Cherry Falling King's Heart

Zhong Wanjun is missing!

This is Zhang Qiu's conclusion after not seeing his younger brother for a week.

After sending Qing Ying away, Zhong Wanjun disappeared silently, and no one was found in the apartment. Only Lestrade at the police station received a text message from Zhong Wanjun requesting him to ask for leave.Zhang Qiu searched all the bars and nightclubs in London, but couldn't find anyone; the mobile phone was always turned off, and Zhang Qiu was almost dying of anxiety.

In the end, Zhang Qiu found Zhong Wanjun in the garden castle in the suburbs.

After passing through the garden and entering the gate of the castle, Zhang Qiu covered his nose: My God, the smell of paint is still so strong, how did Xiao Jun live here for a week?

"Sister? Why are you here?"

Ignoring Zhong Wanjun's astonishment, Zhang Qiu went straight to his younger brother, pulled him up and down to look him up and down, and was relieved after seeing that he was dressed neatly and didn't look like he was disheveled or disheveled.

Relieved, Zhang Qiu began to scold: "Why are you hiding here alone without saying a word? Do you know that I'm going crazy looking for you this week!"

Zhong Wanjun avoided Zhang Qiu's gaze: "Sister, I'm fine here."

"Very good? How can you live here with such a strong smell of paint? Do you want your health?!" Zhang Qiu scolded, reaching out to pull Zhong Wanjun, "Go, leave with my sister."

"I'm not leaving!" Zhong Wanjun suddenly shouted violently as if he had been stimulated by something, and shook off Zhang Qiu's hand viciously.Zhang Qiu was taken aback, but luckily, she was not thrown to the ground by Zhong Wanjun, but fortunately she stabilized herself quickly.

"Xiao, Xiaojun?" Zhang Qiu sensed something was wrong with Zhong Wanjun, instead of getting angry, he asked him cautiously, "Are you okay?"

Zhong Wanjun's eyes were originally filled with anger, and he stared at Zhang Qiu fiercely; after hearing Zhang Qiu's question, he seemed to be distracted, and the anger in his eyes gradually faded away, replaced by bewilderment.

Zhang Qiu listened carefully to Zhong Wanjun, not daring to miss any expression on his face.Her intuition told her that there was something wrong with Zhong Wanjun, but for a while, she didn't know where the problem was.

Zhong Wanjun seemed to remember what he did just now, he looked guilty, and immediately apologized: "I'm sorry, sister, I didn't mean it just now."

Zhang Qiu shook her head: "It's okay." She approached Zhong Wanjun tentatively, held his hand, and asked her own question again: "Xiao Jun, are you okay?"

Zhong Wanjun almost subconsciously threw off Zhang Qiu again, but this time his rationality overcame his conditioned reflex.Zhong Wanjun withdrew his hand, turned his back to Zhang Qiu: "Sister, don't worry, I'll be fine staying here."

"Very good? You..."

Before Zhang Qiu finished speaking, he was pushed by Zhong Wanjun and walked out the door: "Sister, you go first, I want to stay here alone. After you go back, tell everyone that I am fine here, let them Don't worry, and don't come looking for me."

"Hey, Xiao Jun! Xiao..." Zhang Qiu was pushed out of the door by Zhong Wanjun.The door was closed with a bang, and Zhang Qiu's eyes became darker. There must be something wrong with Xiaojun driving him out in such a hurry!

After Zhong Wanjun closed the door, he seemed to breathe a sigh of relief.After locking the door, he turned and walked deep into the castle.After passing through the luxuriously and elegantly decorated hall, Zhong Wanjun came to the restaurant after going around the long corridor a few times.

After entering the restaurant, Zhong Wanjun's expression became a little dazed.On the table in the restaurant, there are all kinds of delicacies, including western steak and Chinese chicken soup. Two sets of bowls and chopsticks, plates, knives and forks are placed at both ends of the table.

Zhong Wanjun walked towards the dining table step by step. The closer he got to the dining table, the clearer his almost transparent figure became.Zhong Wanjun stood still by the dining table, and when he saw that pretty figure showing dissatisfaction towards him, as if blaming him for leaving for so long, Zhong Wanjun smiled.He said: "My sister came to see me just now, don't be angry. My sister has already gone back, don't worry, no one can bother us anymore." As he spoke, he reached out and touched the plate on the table.Zhong Wanjun said again: "The dishes seem to be a bit cold, wait for me, I'll go and reheat them, Qingying?"

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After Zhang Qiu came out of the garden castle, the more he thought about it, the more he felt something was wrong. What secret was hidden in the castle that made Xiaojun rush him away so eagerly?And Xiaojun's inexplicable emotions.Originally, Zhang Qiu thought that after the divorce, Zhong Wanjun would be depressed and sad for a long time, but according to the current situation, Zhong Wanjun basically can't see such emotions.This seems to be normal, but it is the biggest abnormality!

Zhang Qiu thought about it.

Night fell quickly, Zhang Qiu took the invisibility cloak borrowed from Harry, and successfully avoided the security system and entered the castle.The castle was brightly lit, and Zhang Qiu smelled the aroma of food. She followed the smell and found the kitchen, where Zhong Wanjun was cooking some soup.

Zhang Qiu sniffed, this seems to be black-bone chicken soup, right?She remembered that Zhong Wanjun didn't like to drink black-bone chicken soup, because he thought black-bone chicken was black and ugly, and he didn't even like the dishes made with black-bone chicken; now why did he change his mind and want to drink black-bone chicken soup?

Zhang Qiu was puzzled.At this time, Zhong Wanjun took a sip of the soup boiling in the casserole. Seeing that the heat was almost ready, he put on gloves, picked up the casserole and walked cautiously towards the dining room. Zhang Qiu held his breath and quietly followed behind him.

Entering the restaurant, Zhong Wanjun carefully placed the casserole on the dining table, but Zhang Qiu was stunned: Why are there two sets of bowls and chopsticks on the dining table?

Zhang Qiu watched Zhong Wanjun fill a bowl of black-bone chicken soup and put it next to one of the bowls and chopsticks, and then sat down on the place where the other bowl and chopsticks were placed.

Zhang Qiu was startled, and then a very bad thought came to him.Her face turned pale.Zhang Qiu immediately took off his invisibility cloak and appeared at the restaurant door: "Xiao Jun!"

"Sister?!" Zhong Wanjun stood up in shock and bumped into the table. He immediately looked nervously at the empty seat at the other end of the table.

Seeing Zhong Wanjun's actions, Zhang Qiu confirmed his guess even more.

"Xiao Jun, do you have guests?" Zhang Qiu walked up to Zhong Wanjun and asked pretendingly.

"Sister, why are you here again?" Zhong Wanjun looked at Zhang Qiu impatiently, sneaking a peek at the empty seat from time to time.

On the surface Zhong Wanjun seemed impatient, but Zhang Qiu did not miss the flash of uneasiness in Zhong Wanjun's eyes.

Zhang Qiu's eyes had completely cooled down, she stared at Zhong Wanjun, and asked each word with a pause: "Xiao Jun, tell me honestly, are you hallucinating?!"

Zhong Wanjun turned his head aside, stared at the empty seat, but refused to answer Zhang Qiu's words.

"Tell me!" Zhang Qiu erupted. She slammed the table and yelled at Zhong Wanjun with red eyes.

"So what?!!!" Zhong Wanjun yelled back at Zhang Qiu.

Although there was a guess, Zhang Qiu was shocked to take a step back when Zhong Wanjun confirmed it himself, holding on to the table, almost unable to stand still.She quickly regained her senses, stepped forward and grabbed Zhong Wanjun's arm, and said, "Xiaojun, I know you are sad, but I beg you, please don't trample on your body like this? The one you appeared was Qingying's." Hallucinations, right? This is mental illness, Xiaojun! You know this is a hallucination, and you can still be saved. You are obedient, follow my sister out of here, and go to the hospital, okay?"

Zhong Wanjun looked at Zhang Qiu with sadness in his eyes.He shook his head and broke away from Zhang Qiu: "Sister, I'm sorry, I know this is an illusion, but without these illusions, I can't live at all."

"Xiao Jun!" Zhang Qiu looked at him sadly.

Zhong Wanjun said sadly: "Sister, do you know? When Qingying was hospitalized, my mind was full of her. Every day I was afraid of whether Qingying's body would recover, and whether the wound in Qingying's heart would be able to recover. Well, I am afraid that we can go on, I even completely forgot the photo with Lei Ting that was torn up by Qingying. From then on, I knew that I had fallen in love with Qingying a long time ago, it was just me I have always refused to admit it, but I thought I loved Lei Ting. It’s ridiculous that I hurt Qingying again and again because of Lei Ting. After sending Qingying away that day, I went back to the apartment, where I used to be with me. Qing Ying’s warmth, but Qing Ying’s gone, everything there is pain. Qing Ying’s shadow is everywhere, I still clearly remember every detail of the night of Qing Ying’s miscarriage, all the memories there, It's like a knife is killing me. I have no choice but to hide here."

"I built this garden castle for me and Qingying's home. Everything in it is my own design. When I was drawing the design, I kept imagining that in the future, when Qingying lived in, we could live a happy life." What a happy life to live."

As Zhong Wanjun spoke, he walked slowly to the French windows of the dining room, through which he could see the scenery of the back garden.

"In this castle, there is no Lei Ting, no Qi Tian, ​​no harm, only me and Qingying. I stay here and I am very happy. Qingying and I can eat here. Qingying is afraid of the cold. Sometimes I can’t enjoy the scenery while eating in the garden. The sunset here is beautiful, Qingying will definitely like it, so I built a floor-to-ceiling window here. In this way, whether it’s winter or summer, Qingying and I can eat at the same time, While admiring the scenery. This week, Qing Ying and I ate meals here, and Qing Ying said that she liked it very much, I was so happy to hear that. As long as Qing Ying likes it, I can do whatever I want.”

"And here. Sister, did you see? You can also see the two swings in the back garden from here. I specially designed the swing chair for Qingying. When the weather is fine, we can sit together on the swing chair Looking up at the stars. The night sky was beautiful last night. I sat there with Qingying in my arms, gently shaking the swing chair, and looked at the stars all over the sky. Qingying fell asleep after watching, and she muttered to hold on She stayed up all night, waiting for the sunrise the next morning. I'm afraid she forgot that she is pregnant, so how could she stay up all night? It's not appropriate to accompany her to watch the stars in the cold wind. So yesterday after Qingying fell asleep, I carried her back to the room."

"Qingying is pregnant with a baby, our baby. I have been thinking about what name to give the baby these days. Qingying just laughed at me. I don't know if it is a boy or a girl, how to choose a name. I just Said, both men and women are prepared, and they will definitely be able to use it in the future. Qingying deliberately said that she only plans to have one child, otherwise her figure will be out of shape and she will not be able to dance. I know that Qingying is teasing me, she likes children so much , how could it be possible to have only one child.”

"As for being able to dance, I don't mind at all. As long as it's Qingying's dance, I like to watch it. Qingying, tell me, after you give birth to the child, you can dance under the cherry blossom tree for me to see, okay?" Okay? I'll play the flute to accompany you again, I really miss the time you danced in Changde last time, it was so beautiful..." As he said, Zhong Wanjun looked to his side, in his eyes, there was really Qingying stood beside him, and his Qingying was smiling softly at him.

Hearing Zhong Wanjun's words, Zhang Qiu burst into tears.Zhong Wanjun's words describe every detail of his fantasies with Qing Ying in the past week, very happy, but very unreal; and at the end of hearing, Zhong Wanjun actually fell into his own hallucination again.Zhang Qiu did not expect that Zhong Wanjun's hallucinations had become so serious.

"Xiao Jun." Zhang Qiu cried and went forward to grab Zhong Wanjun's arm. She stood beside Zhong Wanjun, as if this could break the illusion here.

Zhong Wanjun looked at his tightly grasped arm, and his consciousness became somewhat clear: "Sister..."

Zhang Qiu choked up and said: "Xiaojun, you can't be like this, this is an illusion, it's illusory, you can't live your whole life on this... Either, or you can cure your illness, and then go to Beijing to find Qing Ying , Chase Qingying back."

Zhong Wanjun's tears rolled down: "Sister, Qing Ying won't forgive me, we really can't go back." He gently pushed Zhang Qiu's hand away: "Sister, I never begged you for anything, but This time, I beg you, please don't come again, just let me fend for myself here."

"Snapped!"

Zhang Qiu slapped Zhong Wanjun hard.She shouted at Zhong Wanjun with red eyes: "What do you mean by letting you fend for yourself here?! You are my younger brother, my brother with the same father and mother, what do you want me to do? Leave you here to fend for yourself!" Extinguish..." At the end of crying, Zhang Qiu felt that he was about to collapse first: "Zhong Wanjun, you are so selfish. It is so painful for you to lose Qingying, and you want us to let you fend for yourself, but have you ever thought about it? Live my feelings! I have already lost your brother-in-law, do you still want me to lose your younger brother? You are free to fend for yourself, but how do you want me to live again!!"

Zhong Wanjun's body shook, and he looked at Zhang Qiu who was crying.He opened his mouth, but in the end he didn't say anything, but staggered towards the bedroom.

Zhang Qiu knelt down on the ground, weeping uncontrollably.

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Zhong Wanjun sat in front of the small table in the bedroom, staring blankly at the photos on his phone.The background of the photo is the beautiful Victoria Harbour. Zhong Wanjun and Qing Ying hugged each other, smiling sweetly and happily.

"Memories sometimes become a one-way street. Only the happiness and beauty of the past are left; there are still photos of you and me happy together in the phone, and the natural smile of the past can no longer be found."

Qingying, how did we get to where we are today.

"When you are in love, it is not easy to let go. I still want to have your warm company from morning to night; your beauty is always playing in my mind. I want to resist your love, but I still let it entangle and spread."

Qingying, I'm stupid, right?When you loved me, I didn't cherish it, and even resisted it at first; it wasn't until you left that I realized that I had fallen in love with you deeply before I knew it, and couldn't let you go.You are gone, I can only use hallucinations to accompany me, pretending that you are still by my side.

Youaremyeverything, you are my everything, but I can only work hard to collage the memories and reproduce the traces of love.

"Qingying, I can't live without you, I really can't live without you..." Zhong Wanjun looked at the beautiful figure squatting beside him, and reached out to caress her cheek.

Qingying's mouth opened and closed, as if to say something, but no sound came out.

But Zhong Wanjun heard Qingying's voice attentively.His tears fell: "Are you trying to persuade me to let go?"

Qing Ying smiled gently and nodded.

Zhong Wanjun desperately resisted: "I don't want it! Qingying, I don't want it! Let's just leave it like this, okay? I won't bother you, we'll just live our lives here, okay? I beg you, I know I was wrong, please Don't be so stingy that you don't even want to give me an illusion..."

Qingying smiled and shed tears, what else was she talking about.

"You said I can't leave my family behind... But Qing Ying, I really can't live without you..." Zhong Wanjun was in pain like he was being lingering.

Zhong Wanjun listened attentively to what Qing Ying said.She was saying, "Wanjun, I hope you, let go."

Zhong Wanjun was stunned, he watched Qingying's figure fade little by little, and finally disappeared.In the empty room, Zhong Wanjun was the only one after all.

After a while, Zhong Wanjun muttered to himself: "If... this is what you want... then Qing Ying, I will let go... and live a normal life..."

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Half a year later, Zhong Wanjun was shot in the chest and abdomen by gangsters during a pursuit operation, and was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment.

The author has something to say:

☆, wedge

wedge:

Gain, lose, a pair of completely opposite words.

Some people say that losing is the most painful.

In fact, the pain of getting it and then losing it is truly unforgettable.

He never got her, even if he lost and hurt, that's all;

To her, the happiness he once thought he had obtained was actually just a mirror image. After losing her, he knew what it meant to be overwhelmed with pain.

Lost, is lost, no more.

He has been obsessed with her childhood sweetheart, who he thought he was;

It wasn't until he lost it that when he suddenly looked back, he realized that the person in his life had always been by his side.

It's just that she who is lost now, is it possible to be recovered again?

Things are people and nothing is done, and tears shed first.

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