A Timely Wife

Li Ruosong stretched out his hand, ready to lift the cloth curtain, but found that his hands were shaking badly, and even his legs were a little weak. He took a deep breath, let it out slowly, and then slammed After rubbing his face, he adjusted his expression so that his complexion didn't look so ugly, and then he made up his mind to pull open the curtain.

None of the scenes imagined in my mind appeared, such as Chengdong lying on the bed with a pale face, staring at the roof with blank eyes; Drowsing and not waking up without any reaction, etc. Cheng Dong in front of him, although his complexion was not good-looking because of the pain, he was still calm. He even smiled and asked himself how he came here after seeing him. Dong has lived together for more than a year. If Li Ruosong hadn't paid close attention to Cheng Dong's words and deeds on weekdays, if Li Ruosong hadn't caught the flash of pain and self-blame in Cheng Dong's eyes, Li Ruosong might really think that Cheng Dong Don't care about this kid.

Li Ruosong walked towards Chengdong, every step was like stepping on the tip of a knife. He walked up to Chengdong, sat on the edge of the bed, stretched out his hand, and held Chengdong tightly under Chengdong's puzzled eyes. Holding her in her arms, she said, "I'm sorry, I'm useless, I can't protect you and our children, I'm sorry."

Chengdong originally wanted to say something, but he couldn't get out, so he closed his mouth. The calmness he had pretended since seeing Li Ruosong disappeared without a trace at this moment, and Li Ruosong buried his head in Chengdong's bed. In the neck, tears flowed down Chengdong's neck, as if flowing all the way to Chengdong's heart.

"I'm sorry, Ruosong, I'm sorry I couldn't keep the child." Cheng Dong hugged Li Ruosong back and cried loudly, as if he wanted to vent all his troubles and regrets in this way.

Undoubtedly, Chengdong is extremely self-blaming. No one knows better than him how much Li Ruosong wants to have another little brother. When he was pregnant with Dabao and Xiaobao, Chengdong couldn't believe it at first. He didn't want to accept it, but when he could feel the fetal movement of the children, Chengdong felt a little bit like a father. As the days went by, Chengdong's feelings for the two children in his belly became deeper and deeper, and even some At that time, Chengdong felt that even if one day Li Ruosong changed his mind and started to take concubines, or even planned to divorce him, he didn't care. As long as his two children could follow him, he felt that he could live a life without eating chaff. go down.

Then came the birth of two children, small and red, crying with eyes closed and mouth open, that small appearance gave Chengdong a sudden sense of satisfaction, he felt that holding these two children was like hugging Living all over the world, and then watching the two children grow up day by day, getting fatter, taller, able to laugh, know how to turn over, and able to sit up, Cheng Dong felt that if the two of them could have more A little brother, he and Li Ruosong will definitely be the happiest two people in the world.

However, this dream could never be realized, because of his mistakes, because of his carelessness and indifference, and because of his slow reaction, he actually managed to save people without knowing that there was another little life in his belly. As a result, before the child had time to let his two fathers know of his existence, he left them in the most decisive way. Cheng Dong felt that this was retribution, his retribution for being uncertain about his identity.

When he woke up and heard the doctor tell him that his child was gone and that he would not be able to get pregnant again in the future, what Chengdong felt at the first moment was not luck, he felt that this old man finally didn't have to worry about having a baby anymore. It's the child's problem, but I hate myself. If it wasn't for him always thinking that he is a real man, things like giving birth to children would never happen to him again and again. If it wasn't for him rejecting his current status from the bottom of his heart Shuang'er's body, if he hadn't paid more attention when he was obviously lethargic and nauseated, he wouldn't have caused the current result.

The child's departure was a lesson from God and a punishment from God.

When Li Ruosong didn't come, Chengdong's mind was full of bad scenes. For a while, he seemed to see Li Ruosong accusing him of not being worthy of being a father, and for a while, Li Ruosong told him that he didn't want him anymore. After a while, I seem to hear Li Ruosong say that from now on, we two will be separated from each other, and we will be happy each other, and even see the unformed child crying in front of him, calling him daddy, Chengdong is afraid Yes, he was afraid of seeing Li Ruosong, but he desperately wanted to see Li Ruosong.

In fact, he had heard Li Ruosong's footsteps a long time ago. No matter where he was or what state he was in, he could always distinguish the unique voice at the first time. Chengdong may have noticed it before, or he may not have cared about it. At this moment, Chengdong But there is a kind of realization. It turns out that not only Li Ruosong regards him as a rare treasure, but also he treats Li Ruosong like a half body. The two of them may be the soul mates that people have often heard about before.

Chengdong was lying on the bed, listening to Li Ruosong's footsteps wandering outside the door, his heart strangely calmed down, stretching his head and retracting his head was also a knife, this matter was always his fault, he had to do it It's not pain, not repentance, but waiting, waiting for the other party's judgment, waiting for the knife that made him heartbroken to be cut off neatly, Cheng Dong even felt a sense of relief, fortunately Li Ruosong came, so early , let myself suffer a lot less, whether he scolds me, beats me, or divorces me, I can finally get an answer, which is better than lying here and thinking wildly, after a long time, even if Li If Song didn't say anything about himself, he could also be tortured by this kind of guilt and go crazy.

Chengdong had envisioned many kinds of scenarios, but not this one. Li Ruosong, his husband, didn't criticize him, didn't scold him, didn't ignore him, didn't divorce him, but embraced himself, just like many times in the past. In that way, he hugged himself into his arms tightly, and then, his husband, who would not change his face even if he was cut by a sword, and who didn't care even if he was ridiculed and insulted in person, in this kind of situation Moments, crying, and saying sorry to himself, saying that it was his fault that he failed to protect himself and their children.

Chengdong suddenly felt that maybe, the reason why he was never married in his previous life, and he didn't have any good friends, his family members passed away early, and his work was not so smooth, all of these were for the purpose of accumulating all his luck. Together, let him come to this world, marry this man, grow up with him a little bit, give birth to him, help him with housework, and advise him. He is not unfortunately involved in a strange dynasty A person, but a person who is lucky to meet someone who can be with him for a lifetime.

At this moment, his heart finally settled on one person, Cheng Dong understood that in this life, only death can separate the two of them.

Hearing Chengdong's cry, Li Ruosong calmed down instead. He is a man, Chengdong's husband, and the father of Dabao and Xiaobao. He can show weakness, but he can't be weak. He felt more uncomfortable than him, blamed himself more than him, and was more afraid than him, so Li Ruosong felt that he had to be strong, and at least calm down. Crying could only be an emotional outlet, but it was never a solution to the problem.

Li Ruosong wiped away his tears, patted Chengdong's back lightly, and said, "Fulang, don't be sad, this matter is not your fault, it's my fault, I didn't notice your situation, I acted as your My husband, the father of our children, didn’t even pay attention to this matter, so, Fulang, don’t cry, our baby is gone, but the murderer who killed our child is still at large, Fulang, give me In a few days, I will kill the murderer to avenge our child."

Chengdong didn't want to continue crying, but the tears kept flowing down as if he couldn't control himself, so he could only choke and said to Li Ruosong: "Yes, it's me, no, I didn't, I didn't find out, that person, I saw what happened. It looks good, that is, it is the coachman, you bring the pen and ink, I will draw it for you, Ruosong, catch him, let him pay for our child's life."

Li Ruosong gently wiped away the tears from Chengdong's face with his thumb, and kissed Chengdong's forehead lightly, then down to his eyelids, cheeks, nose, and even his lips.

This is the tenderest, most touching and saddest kiss since Chengdong and Li Ruosong got married. The two are like little beasts licking each other's wounds, trying to comfort each other's pain in this most intimate way.

Li Ruosong hugged Cheng Dong into his arms, and said slowly but firmly: "Don't worry, if I don't take this revenge, I will be a husband and a father in vain."

Chengdong nodded, feeling relaxed and sleepy. Chengdong yawned and said to Li Ruosong, "I believe in you."

Aware of Chengdong's distress, Li Ruosong kissed Chengdong's forehead and said, "Leave it all to me, you can rest assured to sleep, this time you hurt your body, you need to take good care of it, as you said, we two You must pay attention to your body, you must live well, be healthy, and be two happy old men in the future, as you promised, the two of us will grow old together, so, for me, take a good rest, don't think about it Too much, let me handle everything, okay?"

Chengdong suddenly wanted to cry again. No one ever told him to give everything to me. In his previous life, he lived alone. Even when his mother was alive, she always said that you are a boy, your father is a soldier, and you are a descendant of a martyr. , you have to be strong, the leaders in the unit always tell him that you are a man when you ask him to sacrifice his own interests, you have to be responsible, you have to be humble, you have to be able to shoulder the burden, you have to be able to bear grievances, and you have to be open-minded, he will also Always tell yourself not to rely on anyone, because you have no one to rely on, and now, he finally has one to rely on.

Chengdong put his cheek against Li Ruosong's chest and said, "Okay."