martyrdom

The two walked out of the apartment building side by side, left the school, walked around two streets, and then Gu Yuzhi was surprised to find that there was actually a church next to the school.

Although it is not a famous church, but because it is near a famous school, the repair is exquisite.Outside the church, there is the deep spring interest of birds chirping, but as soon as you step inside, you fall into silence as if you are isolated from the world.

No one is empty.

The sound of footsteps was set off by the silence, so Gu Yuzhi stopped casually and looked at the pillar in front of him.

The pillars are made of stone with fine carvings, extending from the bottom to the dome of the church, which is very spectacular.The position at eye level happened to be a touch of angel wings. Gu Yuzhi stretched out his hand and touched the realistic feather, feeling the warmth and coolness of his palm.

There was a line of sight behind her, watching her all the time.Occasionally look down at the time, as if waiting for the arrival of some moment.

Finally, the hour bell rang, echoing in the empty church.Eight in the morning.It was also at zero o'clock the next day Beijing time.

"Happy birthday."

What was handed over with the blessing was a well-prepared gift.A small bottle of ink prepared by myself, packed in a colorful crystal bottle and tied with a ribbon, looks very beautiful and lovely.

Gu Yuzhi turned his head and took the gift, but his expression was inexplicable: "My birthday...isn't it already passed?"

"I guess you Chinese celebrate the lunar birthday, so I went to check it, and calculated the time difference, and specially picked this time to send it to you." Proudly replied, matching the upturned face and the color of expecting praise in the blue pupil , almost made Gu Yuzhi laugh out loud.

Reluctantly holding back a smile, he asked her, "Then tell me, when is my lunar birthday?"

"April...fourth."

It's not wrong.

"Then tell me again, how many hours is the time difference between here and China?"

Flora counted with her fingers for a while, then suddenly slapped her forehead with an annoyed expression.

She was a day late.

At this moment, it happened to be the day after the girl's lunar birthday.

The girl finally laughed, extremely happy, from the bottom of her heart, without any sadness at last, and her eyes were no longer watery.

Sure enough, there is still a way to make her really happy. Flora looked at the bright sunshine finally showing on that face, and felt that she was so stupid and wise.

She made a mistake, but no one would.At this time a day ago, it was already dark on the other side of the ocean.Someone stood on the balcony, holding a piece of paper, and silently said a happy birthday to the night sky.

On that piece of paper are the seven words left by the person who left a long time ago: I wish to return to the double burial with Qing.

The beautiful fonts and bright colors make people easily recall the quiet afternoon of those years, the aroma of coffee, the small bamboo forest outside the window, and the warm sunshine on the girl's face.

Yuan Fei's hand holding the paper gradually tightened, but she couldn't bear to break the girl's handwriting, so she just tightened her joints and trembled.

Whether the two places are separated or resent each other, these are all pains she can bear, and they are also pains she is willing to bear.She is willing to use this pain to exchange the girl for a future that should be plain and stable.

If the ending is already doomed, why bother?Even if nothing can be changed, it is still possible to avoid it.

In the church, the early morning choir began to chant softly.Gu Yuzhi held the bottle of colored ink that could be said to have been prepared with all his heart, his smile gradually faded, and finally he returned to his expressionless and icy face.

She saw the engraving on the crystal bottle, "F&G".She has never had an English name, and her signature is usually the pinyin of her surname. Now that the initials of the two names are put together, it is inevitable to make people imagine.

She remembered hearing people say at the party that Flora was pursued by many people, but she had never been in a relationship.Probably even she herself didn't know what this kind of pursuit meant to Gu Yuzhi.

Gu Yuzhi felt that he had to let her figure it out.

She didn't want to beat around the bush, and didn't want to care about Flora's feelings, so she said bluntly: "I'm gay, you treat me well, I would have misunderstood that you like me. This time I am very grateful for the gift you gave me, but in the future, don't want it. "

The blue pupils were instantly filled with shock, and with a faint sense of grievance, he opened his mouth, but he didn't say anything.

Gu Yuzhi observed her reaction, and added: "I know you will move out during the summer vacation, if I make you feel sick, I can go out and live before then."

Flora hurriedly waved her hands.The girl's words were indeed like thunder to her, but how could she feel sick to this girl who put herself in such trouble to please her just to make her smile.She didn't want her to leave.

Gu Yuzhi nodded, and was speechless for a moment. Seeing that she was frowning as if she was thinking, he felt that she should not be given time to think, so he changed the subject and said, "By the way, you made this ink yourself?"

Flora rolled her eyes, feigned anger and said, "Being a Zhou roommate, you wouldn't have noticed that I'm from the Department of Chemistry, right?"

Hmm...she really didn't notice.

Flora looked as if she was about to be stunned by her anger: "Then I go to the laboratory every night, and you didn't notice?"

I noticed this, but never noticed it.

The blue pupils concealed their loneliness, even faintly glowing with water.A pair of delicate hands were handed to her, and the palms were turned over, and they were actually covered with mottled hands.Needless to say, it is the trace left by making color ink.

"I thought you'd at least find out about this."

Gu Yuzhi recalled the information he had received at the party. The girl in front of her was spoiled and raised, and she was not someone who would give easily.The indifferent words spoken a moment ago are irreversible. She should be careful and considerate, but for some reason, she can easily slander others now.

However, such harm not only did not make her feel guilty, but...

I must be crazy.

She reached out to touch those colorful palms, rubbed them for a moment as if to make up for it, and then coaxed her with a bright smile and sweet jokes: "There is a Chinese poem describing the jade hands of a beautiful woman: the wrist is white and the skin is red. .Now you have red, white and green palms, just like the beautiful hands in the poem, very beautiful."

For the first time, he looked directly at the blue pupil and smiled, and then the voice faded from the bottom of his heart and was deep and cold.Time seems to go back to the not-too-distant past in an instant, and someone holding hands with her also made her reveal tenderness from the bottom of her heart.

People in front of you are much easier to coax than people from afar.Although he didn't understand the poem, he also understood what she meant to comfort him, so he burst into laughter instantly, and the blue-eyed water light forcibly took it back after a few blinks.

Slapping a piece of candy can also make you feel happy from the bottom of your heart. What kind of pure heart is this?

"I want you to write this poem with the ink I sent you."

Gu Yuzhi patted her head: "Okay."

Another week passed, and it became a habit to look at each other and smile, and the deep and cold never appeared again.

This morning, Flora got up from the bed with two dark circles under her eyes, and found that the girl was standing in front of her bed with a cup, sipping the steaming liquid in the cup and looking at herself thoughtfully.

Compared with being stared at in her sleep, she cared more about the milky liquid in the cup that exuded the fragrance of grains.Closing his blue pupils, he sniffed and asked curiously, "What is this? Cereal milk?"

...I don't even know soy milk.Gu Yuzhi originally wanted to complain about her, but was replaced by more important words.

"You're talking in your sleep, you know?"

The girl kneeling on the bed smiled embarrassedly: "I talk in my sleep when I don't sleep well. I'm sorry for disturbing you."

"You said 'Gu', many times."

The girl's expression froze for a moment, panic appeared in her blue pupils, she quickly lowered her gaze, and her eyelashes trembled slightly.

"So, why didn't you sleep well?"

"Thinking about something." He replied dully.

"What are you thinking about?"

There was a long silence.Gu Yuzhi was not in a hurry, he continued to sip the soy milk until the bottom of the cup was reached, and then he heard the answer he had been struggling for a long time.

"I want to chase you."

A mouthful of soy milk choked into the trachea, coughing upside down.Seeing the pure color called hope in the blue pupil, during this period of time, the suppressed thoughts often appeared again and again, and launched a fierce attack when her brain was short of oxygen, devouring the last goodness and reason.

This is a demon, and once again she is inevitably controlled by the demon.

After taking a breath, a playful smile appeared on the corner of his lips: "Okay, let's try."

A girl who has never liked anyone, after a week of ignorant dedication and a week of hard meditation, plus the reminder and stimulation of Gu Yuzhi's admission that she is gay, she finally came to her senses that night.

There was a person who was attracted to her the first time she saw her, even the usual hug etiquette would make her heart twitch.She is courteous, and she is not annoyed at being treated coldly. When she is stared at, she will be inexplicably nervous. When I see her writing "every year is like this", I have the same expectation in my heart.

I feel sorry for every bit of her sadness, and I am willing to pretend to be crazy and foolish to make her smile. I even spent my never-ending thoughts on celebrating her birthday, and tried my best to smile when I was stabbed by cold words.

This oriental girl who broke into her life suddenly held her love tightly, and an unintentional touch was enough to make her break the boat and welcome the first love she had been waiting for for many years.

In the most suitable season for love, everything in the world is the beauty that she wants to dedicate to girls.A white shadow on the grass sat quietly, but she ran childishly with the children all over the ground, and lingered in the flowers, secretly starting a cute little plan in her heart.

The feeling of being pursued, accustomed to it and missing for a long time, let Gu Yuzhi, who has experienced two relationships at this time, experience the wonderful pleasure of dancing on the edge of a cliff.

In particular, the other party was two years younger than her, and the first time he fell in love, he was sincere and hot, but also young and cute, and he had no hesitation.

Gu Yuzhi looked at the little flower in his hand and couldn't help laughing.

The stamens are drooping, they have been away from the branches for a long time, and the petioles have slight finger marks, telling the complicated mental journey of the flower giver.Every little detail fell into the eyes of those who passed by, so the superb acting skills were used to outline the surprise smile on the corners of the lips and the shy blush on the cheeks, but they disappeared instantly after the person left.

Folding fingers together, rubbing them slightly, the petals immediately shattered, turned into spring mud and fell to the feet, and were ruthlessly run over by the soles of the shoes.

The thin lips were pursed into a cold arc, and the eyes were as calm as ever, but there was a hint of madness.

What does it feel like to destroy a person with your own hands?She also wants to try.

"Flowers..." I don't know when, the girl who sent the flowers turned back again, and the blue eyes stared at the mess on the ground, and the water suddenly appeared.

The hand was held by a touch of coldness.She raised her head and saw Gu Yuzhi's apologetic expression: "When I got up, my feet were numb, and I almost fell down, and accidentally stepped on them."

Lan Tong blinked, trying to hold back her tears.

Gu Yuzhi looked as if he wanted to apologize with death: "I'm sorry...I...do you blame me?"

A smile with tears in it is an unconditional tolerance for the sweetheart: "No, it's okay."

Gu Yuzhi looked at her steadfastly, trying hard to suppress the untimely resentment in his eyes.

She used to be like this too, bearing the hurt with tears in her eyes, and then said with a light smile that it was okay.

Humble for belief, humble to the extreme, finally turned into paranoid hatred.

Why should I taste the bitterness in the world alone?

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