martyrdom

Yu'er can play the piano, and Yuan Fei knew this when she visited her home.Later, she pestered her many times to play a piece, but she always shied away from her unfamiliar skills and refused to make a fool of herself.

Yuan Fei made a lot of troubles because of this, but she still didn't give up.When she thought of the girl sitting in front of the piano in a slim figure and playing the beautiful melody with her beautiful and dexterous hands, she couldn't help but feel distracted.

The final exams were over these few days, she was busy grading papers at school, and Yu'er was not idle either.When she interrogated her, the girl covered it up mysteriously. Now it seems that she went to practice piano.

In the brightly lit concert hall, there were only the two of them.Looking at the girl's back, Yuan Fei felt that the reality was far more beautiful than imagined.

Amidst the melodious music, she took steps and walked around to the piano, the girl turned her head sideways and looked at her with a smile.The slender fingers lingered on the keys like clouds and flowing water, but every ups and downs seemed to hit her heart, making her tremble with the strings.

She always knew that Yu'er was beautiful, but tonight she was extraordinarily beautiful. Was it the cold air that dyed her cheeks red, was it the light from the snow reflecting off her eyebrows, or did she provoke her to be all kinds of coquettish and unreserved?

After the song was over, Yu'er stood up, shaking Yuan Fei's hand away from the keys, and asked knowingly, "Why are you looking so preoccupied?"

Yuan Fei held her hand, and unexpectedly said bluntly: "Look at you."

Yu'er met the watery affection in her eyes, her face was hot, and her lips and tongue, which had always been sweet and sweet, became stiff, and she could only listen to the words that made her blush even more: "All the piano pieces I have heard are not as good as It's even more beautiful tonight."

Yuan Fei still held her hand tightly with one hand, raised the other hand, stroked her hair, and traced her cheek: "It's like I have seen many beautiful faces, none of which are more moving than yours."

For the first time, Yu'er felt that Yuan Fei's eyes were so hot.It is no longer the calm and calm appearance on the podium, nor the cold and quiet appearance in front of strangers, nor the shy and obedient appearance when being teased by her.Yuan Fei tonight is bold and proactive, straightforward and sincere, with a kind of warmth that she can't resist.

In the afternoon, the fish and water are happy, so the kiss at this moment can easily reach the bottom of my heart.The concert hall is like a fairy tale scene that will not go out with the match, there is no cold, no pain, only infinite fantasy and expectation.

Yu'er heard Yuan Fei's murmur: "You said let me live a good life... With you here, of course I will live a good life."

She asked meaningless assumptions, just to get more and more beautiful love words: "What if I'm not here?"

"Then I'll live my dream with you and never wake up again." This was her answer, silly but firm.

The person in the arms is a writer, Yu'er has read so many beautiful and romantic sentences written by her, and has imagined the appearance of these sentences spoken by Yuan Fei countless times.However, in their relationship, Yuan Fei's love words are far more stingy than her actions.

The generosity tonight made Yu'er's eyes wet several times.

The night was very long, how they went home hand in hand, how they changed their clothes and went to bed, how they chatted lazily, and how they fell asleep peacefully, all of them were cherished in Yuan Fei's mind.

Ever since she hurt Yu'er that night, she will cherish the days and nights after that, and she is even reluctant to sleep, just to see the picturesque sleeping face of the person next to her pillow.

No longer afraid of nightmares, but also calmly deal with illusions.In this way, even the nightmares dare not get close to her, and she can finally live in the present moment, just as Yu'er expected.

everything is fine.

In the early morning, Yu'er woke up from a good dream, and heard the slight sound of tapping the keyboard next to her ear.Before opening his eyes, he had already stretched out his hand, and followed the sound to touch Yuan Fei's body, so he moved over, wrapping his hands around her slender waist.

With her face buried in Yuan Fei's light and pleasant embrace, a beautiful day slowly begins.

The sound of the keyboard stopped, and her ears itched slightly. It was Yuan Fei who straightened out her sleepy long hair.She opened her eyes, propped herself up, leaned over to look at the screen of the notebook on Yuan Fei's lap, and praised in a soft voice: "Wake up early in the morning to code, so hardworking."

Yuan Fei closed the notebook and put it aside, and brought her close to her arms: "I woke you up."

"No," Yu'er cleared her throat and said solemnly, "I woke up because I missed you." But the empty stomach let out a cry at an untimely time.

Yuan Fei joked with a smile: "It seems that I don't miss me anymore, but want to eat."

Yu'er rubbed her belly in embarrassment, got up and got out of bed, and asked her while pulling the curtains: "What do you want to eat, I will do it." She glanced out of the window, but was stunned, "...It seems that last night's Snow sneaked down all night after we got home."

The world outside the window is covered with snow, which is even more heavy than last night when the snow stopped and the wind subsided.Yuan Fei also got out of bed and walked to the window, sighing: "It's really a rare auspicious snow. I haven't seen such a heavy snow for a long time."

Yu'er's hometown is in the north, and every winter there is auspicious snow, which heralds a good harvest.She held Yuan Fei's hand hanging by her side, and said softly, "Come home with me to watch the snow."

Yuan Fei looked at her sideways with a smile, and responded, "Your parents will doubt it."

"They are busy with other things during the year, so they can't take care of it." Yu'er's eyes were a little eager.

"But I have to go back to my parents' house for Chinese New Year."

Yu'er looked very distressed, and thought about it: "Our family has a lot of rules during the Chinese New Year. It may be difficult for me to come back before the Lantern Festival..."

Seeing her frowned eyebrows, Yuan Fei couldn't help leaning over and kissing her: "It's okay, our family has a lot of rules during Chinese New Year, and I don't have time to miss you." Hearing Yu'er's stomach growl again, she suppressed a smile and said , "Let's not talk about this, seeing the snow, I want to eat small balls."

Yu'er blushed, walked out of the bedroom silently, washed up and made breakfast.

After breakfast, they drove to the orphanage and picked up Daisy.The orphanage is in the center of the city, and there is a severe traffic jam due to the weather. Yuan Fei drove slowly across the icy road, a little bored, so she asked someone to entertain someone: "Where do you want to go?"

Yu'er sat in the passenger seat, and Daisy was in the back row.Yuan Fei tilted her head when she asked this question, so both of them thought they were asking each other, but no one answered for a moment.

Yuan Fei hummed suspiciously: "Why don't you speak?"

In order to avoid being sentimental, Yu Er deliberately smiled and said nothing, but Daisy didn't have any scheming, and asked instead: "Sister Feifei is asking me?"

Yuan Fei glanced at her partner who was too familiar with her heart, but said gently to the girl: "Yes, we will take you out to play, of course you decide where to go."

Daisy murmured thoughtfully, and muttered: "You have such a good relationship with Sister Yu'er, I thought I was asking her. But... I don't know where to go."

Yuan Fei coughed in embarrassment, then glanced at Yu'er, and found that the other party was still smiling, so she deliberately asked, "Do you have any suggestions?"

"Pass this intersection and let me drive." Yu'er answered irrelevantly.

"No, I can do it."

"You can't," Yu'er smiled, "Go to the ski resort, you don't know the way."

Daisy in the backseat obviously agreed with the proposal and let out a burst of joyful cheers.

Yu'er really knew the way, and drove smoothly to the ski resort on the outskirts of the city without using navigation.After parking the car, he walked in familiarly with one big and one small. Seeing Yuan Fei looked at her suspiciously, he explained with a smile: "Last year, the student union went on a group outing."

"So...you can ski?"

Yu'er nodded: "That's right."

Yuan Fei pursed her lips, and asked Daisy again, "Will you know it?" Seeing the girl shaking her head, she was relieved, and confessed to Yu'er, "I don't know how either."

Yu'er couldn't help holding back the big and the small with each hand: "I'll teach you."

The winter vacation has already begun, and there are quite a few people in the ski resort, but most of them are children with little knowledge.Yu'er put on the equipment for the two of them, stepped onto the snow first, stood firmly, and stretched out her hand to Daisy.

With Yu'er's support, the girl's small body wobbled for a while, and managed to stand still.Yuan Fei silently observed Yu'er's posture of stepping and standing on the snow wearing skis, and stepped out after imitating it.

Yu'er looked at her appreciatively, and praised without hesitation: "It's really smart."

Just after boasting, Yuan Fei's feet slipped, but fortunately, Yu'er had been focusing on her all the time, and when she saw this, she quickly reached out and wrapped her arms around her slender waist, warm and fragrant soft jade into her arms.

Daisy covered her mouth and smiled, Yuan Fei blushed, stood up by herself, and pulled away the hands around her waist.

Yu'er didn't care about it, and began to teach the essentials of action: "Lower the center of gravity, and the skis will move forward in parallel. Try to cross this small slope first, and when you get to the bottom of the slope, retract the front of the board and slow down."

There is a ramp about ten meters long between the entrance and the official venue. At a glance, the novices almost fell over one by one.Yu'er first demonstrated to one big and one small, and then greeted them with open arms at the bottom of the slope: "Come on."

Daisy was a little scared and hesitated for a while.But the temptation of Yuan Fei's embrace was too great, so she pursed her lips, and her heart slipped down.

Then she was hugged firmly by Yu'er.

"how do you feel?"

The snow light pierced her so hard that she could barely open her eyes, but Yu'er's smile still touched the softest corner of her heart, and it also gave skiing a good first impression.

"feels good."

Yu'er smiled again, slowly let go of her, and opened her arms again towards the girl who was still on the slope.Yuan Fei stood behind her, watching the girl bravely slid into Yu'er's arms, thinking, to anyone, her Yu'er is so trustworthy.

One big one and one small one successfully passed the warm-up slope, and Yu'er led them to the official ski run.There are three grades of ski trails: middle school, high school, and high school, with different slope lengths. The advanced trail is empty at this time, and the vast white snow is extremely neat, waiting for skilled people to add the first traces to it.

Yuan Fei began to imagine again, pointing to the steep ski run, and asked Yu'er in a low voice: "Can you...can you ski that one?"

Yu'er glanced at her with a half-smile: "I've slipped before."

Daisy showed admiration, and said the request that Yuan Fei had kept in her mouth for a long time: "Sister Yu'er, please slide one for us to see!"

Yu'er put one hand on the girl's shoulder and stood idly, staring at Yuan Fei with a smile and said: "There's nothing to see, your sister Fei Fei doesn't seem to be interested, does she?"

"...I want to see it." Yuan Fei's answer was straightforward, which she didn't expect, "However, don't be brave. If you hurt yourself, I will ignore you for a month."

Yu'er blinked, a little surprised, but also a little funny, and assured: "Don't worry, I can do it."

When Yu'er swooped down from the commanding height of the ski run like a god, the eyes of almost the entire ski resort were focused on her.Yuan Fei could even hear the admiration and cheers from the people around her, praising this girl with a light posture and ease of use.

Hearing their compliments to Yu'er, pride welled up in her heart, and she was happier than she was being praised.Daisy next to her screamed even more, grabbing Yuan Fei's cuff and screaming like a fan girl: "Sister Yu'er is so cool!!"

Yu'er's figure stopped firmly in front of them.There was a bright smile on the sweaty face, and he deliberately asked Daisy: "Am I good?"

Of course Daisy cheered: "Super~~ amazing."

So she looked at Yuan Fei again, smiled without saying a word.The latter also smiled along with her, but just raised his hand and stroked her forehead with his thumb, taking away a few drops of sweat.

Yu'er grabbed her wrist: "Want to try it, come with me."

Yuan Fei glanced at the towering and steep advanced ski run, a little hesitant.Yu'er lowered her eyes and smiled, and said eloquently: "When I was skiing for the first time, I was taken to the advanced course by Gu Xin. I fell in love with this sport only once. I was afraid at the beginning, but She skis very well, and I believe that no matter what happens, she will always protect me, so I will let her take me for the first time."

"I believe in you." Yuan Feihui held Yu'er's hand, "Go and try, let's go together."

Daisy was arranged on a seat outside the stadium, clapping her little hands to cheer them on.Yuan Fei was led by Yu'er and stepped onto the conveyor belt leading to the top of the slope.

There is no sun and no wind, which is the most suitable weather for skiing.Yu'er turned around restlessly on the conveyor belt, turned around and overlooked the entire ski resort, and also turned towards the ski resort outside.

Daisy waved her arms, then took Yuan Fei's hand and waved together.

Yuan Fei's body was rigidly manipulated by Yu'er, she looked very uneasy, she didn't even dare to look down at her feet, she just fixed her gaze on the top of the slope stubbornly.

Yu'er realized something was wrong, and asked, "You don't... have a fear of heights, do you?"

For those with severe fear of heights, forcibly climbing heights may lead to health-threatening consequences. This is no joke.Fortunately, Yuan Fei shook her head and denied Yu'er's guess: "No, I just..."

Needless to say, Yu'er also understood how she felt.She belongs to the free and easy type, so she is not particularly sensitive to pain and fear.And Yuan Fei has always been delicate and gentle. It was the first time she tried this exciting and dangerous sport. Although she was with her, the tension and fear she endured was not simple.

Yu'er thought for a while, took two ski poles in one hand, took off the glove on her and Yuan Fei's, and interlocked her fingers.The direct skin-to-skin contact really brought different comfort. Yuan Fei slightly lowered his head to stare at their holding hands, smiled sweetly, and seemed to relax a lot.

When they reached the top of the slope, Yu'er held her hand and never let go, and walked down the conveyor belt with her, and stood at the highest point of the entire area.

"Do you regret it?" Yu'er felt the cold sweat on her palm, and her heartbeat also accelerated with her unconsciously.Yuan Fei's nervousness seemed to have reached the extreme, her breathing was heavy, and even the hand she held with Yu'er was shaking, which was very distressing.

Yu'er's voice is still soft, but with a force that cannot be flinched: "The conveyor belt is one-way, there is no way out."

Yuan Fei could only lower the volume to conceal the trembling of her voice: "I know."

"Raise your head and look down." Yu'er's instructions always made her obey subconsciously.So Yuan Fei raised his head slightly, glanced down very quickly, and then looked away.

Seeing her cute appearance as if she was dealing with a task, Yu'er smiled helplessly, but said seriously: "What you are feeling now is also a kind of inner demon. The best way to overcome inner demon is to put it to death and live later." Yu'er Er'er's finger stroked the scar on the tiger's mouth, "This kind of method, if it only treats the symptoms but not the root cause, it is going astray."

The profound meaning in the words made Yuan Fei raise her head in surprise, and stared at her blankly.But Yu'er put on a relaxed expression, and comforted: "Relax, hold my hand in a moment, and I will help you control the speed and direction."

After explaining, she took Yuan Fei and slowly slid up the ramp.The speed is very slow, which is different from the dive of the last skill, just to make people around you feel at ease and relaxed.

Yuan Fei really relaxed quickly, with a happy look on her face, and even dared to lift her ski pole and wave it to Daisy below.Yu'er looked at her dotingly from the side, then suddenly leaned over and planted a kiss on her cheek: "I don't want to part with it."

Yuan Fei was blinded by the kiss for a while, and let out a dumbfounded cry.

"I'm not willing to put you to death and live later."

Yuan Fei raised her eyebrows: "Is this called reluctance? I was scared to death just now."

Yu'er laughed lightly, then shook her head and sighed: "If you are willing, I should kick you down like my sister did to me."

Yuan Fei was terrified when she heard this: "Then...were you injured?"

"No," Yu'er seemed to be thinking of something funny, with smiles on her brows and eyes, "She was reluctant, and quickly followed, but was dragged down by me on the Banpo, and it took a lot of effort to climb up stand up."

Yuan Fei remembered a very important detail: "When was the first time you skied?"

Yu'er had expected to ask this question with her delicate thoughts, and said without any concealment: "After breaking up with An Ge."

Yuan Fei thought of the sad writing about the breakup written in the documentary prose, felt sorry for Yu'er's hard-to-let go of her emotional pain, and also understood the inner demons that Yu'er had to overcome when she was skiing for the first time.

"Then after you skied, have you overcome it?"

Yu'er smiled and shook her head: "Excessive compassion always harms others and oneself." It refers to Gu Xin at that time, and also refers to herself at this moment.

Hearing those words, Yuan Fei felt sore in her heart, she suddenly broke free from Yu'er's hand, and rushed down the slope by herself.

After Yu'er was surprised, she didn't catch up, but stopped on the slope, pursed her lips and watched Yuan Fei's strange movements and swaying figure.The hand that was originally shaking with her squeezed the palm of her hand, restraining the urge to support her.

She understands her determination.

I hope you can really get out of your demons. Although I can't accompany you, I will definitely be behind you, and I am extremely proud of your courage.

The author has something to say:

When I wrote the last sentence, I cried like a fool...

A very long chapter... I'm too lazy to split two chapters... In short, this month should be considered hardworking.

Next month may be a bit busy... please understand~

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