i am your dog

The person who fell into the center of chaos walked alone in the long night, looking at the scarlet sky with blurred eyes, and lost his direction.

He heard someone calling him, the voice was soft and gentle, like the ocean caressing the beach in a summer afternoon, bringing treasures that belonged exclusively to the ocean.

Someone was asking him, what are you looking for?

Find someone.

Who?

Chen Siqi almost blurted out his master, he knew that that person would be angry if he said that, and he would not come to him again if he was angry.So he swallowed back the words that came to his lips, and said impatiently, what's none of your business?

There were sporadic snowfalls in the sky.

The voice said, is it cold?

What do you say?

No amount of clothes can beat the severe cold. He had experienced it before, and his black hair was covered by white snow. When the snow melted and froze countless times, he had to stay where he was, and then he had a reason to stay.

It was quiet over there, he stumbled on the snow, someone hugged him gently invisibly, the wind... died down.

Hug a hug, maybe it won't be so cold.

That person hugged him, and the snow fell all over the ground but never landed on him.

He raised his hand to wipe the warm liquid from his cheeks.

The man said, Si Qi, I have never been a strong person.

The only plum blossom in the yard bloomed, and Shen Jiuyan hugged the person stuck in his memory.

The petals were falling between the man's white hair, and the man was still sitting unknowingly, persistently looking for the person he was looking for.

When he got up again and decided to search, Shen Jiuyan held him back with sobs, "Chen Siqi, look back, look back at me..."

I have never been a strong person, so I have to pretend to be cold and conform to the world.

But you have a stubborn nature that cannot tolerate pity.

That person went around the hospital building over and over again, and went back and forth over and over again, but he couldn't find the person he was looking for.

When snow fell in the two worlds at the same time, that person sat under the plum tree, "I can't find it..."

The outline of the plum tree gradually emerged from the chaos, becoming more and more real.

He didn't know why someone was crying, and he could touch the warm liquid by raising his hand.

That person used to cry so badly because he was leaving.

So that person punished him for not coming to find him... It's not right, that person should not be able to find him, isn't he hiding everywhere because that person can't find him?

Isn't it just for that person to marry a wife and have children to live a normal life?

But he regretted it himself in the end.

He regretted it long ago.

But does he still have a chance?

The liquid on the fingers dried up, and the two fingers were sticky together, unable to separate.

Chen Siqi was slightly stunned, he raised his head suddenly, the petals covered his sight, but the bitter cold wind cut the scarlet sky.

Shen Jiuyan was holding a small blade in his hand, blood dripped down his feet.

At the moment when his world was completely taken away by the cold wind, the midnight bell rang, and the twelve strokes rang unhurriedly.

"you……"

Shen Jiuyan threw away the knife in his hand, and there were tears in the corners of his eyes when he laughed, but he couldn't see clearly when it was snowing.

"Si Qi, today is New Year's Eve..."

It's been four years...

They just met that year. Shen Jiuyan bought a bunch of succulents before the Chinese New Year. At first, he took extra care of them as an ancestor, but then he just ignored them, so that in the end they became a bunch of wraiths squatting in flowerpots...

In the second year, he fell ill and lost his mind, and guarded the door of Shen Jiuyan's house like a ghost. The blind man yelled angrily, and threatened him with his eyes so that he would never come back.

Later he regained consciousness and learned to behave himself.

In the third year, Chen Siqi sat on the steps of Shen Jiuyan's house. Even though the sky in the imperial capital was clear, there were no fireworks. Fell asleep……

In the fourth year, he was lying alone in the ward listening to the sound of firecrackers. The fireworks were hidden by the building and he could not see them clearly. He squinted and looked at the only family he could see outside the window. It becomes blurred...

fifth year……

Chen Siqi closed his eyes to hide the tears that were almost shed, and walked back with that foolish man on his shoulders.

That person came to him in the fifth year, and his illness...should be cured.

The author has something to say:

Is it really cruel?Abuse?Abuse?

Happy New Year (〃ω〃)