i am your dog

"Why did Heren h tear up his clothes?"

"Probably because men are more hungry, thirsty, and difficult." Facing the room full of male compatriots, Chen Siqi answered Shen Jiuyan's question, and by the way, tugged at the horribly torn costume.At least the important parts should be covered.

"Oh, by the way, Master Jiu, I'm going out to play at night, you can settle the dinner yourself."

"Where?"

"Drag racing."

Shen Jiuyan thought for a while, but didn't answer.

Early today, Chen Siqi went back to take a shower, changed into thicker clothes, and prepared to go out.Shen Jiuyan got stuck when closing the door, he put on a padded coat and a scarf and said, "I'll go and have a look."

Chen Siqibiao's bike is a standard two-person motorcycle.Chen Siqi held the handlebar with leather gloves on, "Come on?"

Shen Jiuyan stepped into the car, "Drive slowly."

Moto rushed out suddenly, obviously contradicting Shen Jiuyan's intention.Shen Jiuyan grabbed the iron frame behind him without saying a word.Stimulation accompanied by fear is indeed exciting, but that's all if you are reined in by the cliff of reason.

The car roared down the alley, and every turn was a dangerous slide.They rode along the river, and the thin ice floated quietly on the ice. From a distance, it seemed that they were still and escaped.The lights under the bridge disturb the blackness of the water surface, like a rainbow that shatters the sky.

Shen Jiuyan said suddenly, "It's frozen." He finally witnessed the coming of winter, the past time left only the unforgettable joy of a lifetime, and the future is uncertain, and this moment is not far away.He made a strange mistake, "Do you want to try it with me?"

The car shook violently, shaking its head and tail like a fierce horse, trying to throw the people on it off.Shen Jiuyan grabbed Chen Siqi's clothes and her heart was beating fast, her eyes were blown by the cold wind until tears came out, and she couldn't open them.

Finally, the car finally stopped in the middle of the road. Chen Siqi put one foot on the ground and looked into the distance, "Try what?"

Shen Jiuyan was stabbed by his cold voice, jumped down and walked to the front of the car, grabbed Chen Siqi's hand holding the handlebar, "Try how I feel," the darkness gave him the best protection.No one has witnessed this absurd scene in the cold winter night.Shen Jiuyan's hands were red with cold, he turned his eyes to look at the river, but the slowly sinking Kongming lanterns instantly illuminated the ice.

He lowered his eyes, the two similar faces were even more difficult to distinguish because Shen Jiuyan deliberately suppressed his arrogance. "I'm not kidding, or playing tricks on you. Have fun."

There is nothing to ask why, the reality of love is far from the witness of suffering, the so-called liking is just a flash of lightning.It's just that everyone was so serious when they fell, as if reason would always win over sensibility.

Chen Siqi picked up a scarf that wasn't warm enough.The speeding car rushed into the distance with endless curses on him.He said, "You beat me twice, quarreled twice because of filming, took me to the hospital twice, and now you adopt me in a bad way, and maybe you are still in a place I don't know because I offended whom. I don't know what to do. How do you respond, you are far more afraid of becoming my kind than you imagined, I can't drag you into the water." He motioned for Shen Jiuyan to get in the car, and the car drove slowly on the side of the road, completely gone from the madness just now.

Every tree passing along the road seems to silently record the passage of time. The next moment may be permission or rejection, but there will be results.

This kind of quietness is very familiar to Shen Jiuyan, just like Chen Siqi, even if he is crazy, it is only for a while.The silence after expending all energy to release, and what is more terrifying is the dead silence.

Everyone is afraid of this dead silence.

Chen Siqi said sarcastically, "But if you say that, I would like to know what attracted you and made you lose your mind."

"Is it irrational to look at yourself? It turns out that in your eyes, everyone in society is pretending to be a grandson." Shen Jiuyan rubbed his paralyzed hands.People who have long been accustomed to drifting with the crowd will not cry about their living environment all day long, and this is what Chen Siqi cannot understand.

Many times people forget the age of the people around them.Because no one is strong enough to be infinitely tolerant, even husband and wife must learn to be independent.But at this moment, Shen Jiuyan realized that this persistent and extreme person was still a child three or four years younger than him.As a fledgling, he walked alone for too long.

"Jiuye, if I selfishly agree, maybe someday you will kill me if you hate me." Maybe it was a joke, but this time he didn't laugh, Motoli shot out like an arrow, "How can I Being so pretentious like a woman? If it really comes to that time, I will have to blame myself... Do you know? People like us are just flying moths to the flame. Those who are lucky stay together for a lifetime, and those who are unlucky do not necessarily end up alone, but There is no place to die. He is ridiculed and abused like a traitor, even in the 21st century."

The wrist was suddenly encircled by the arm, Chen Siqi had no choice but to lean into the arms of the person behind him, and his body also became stiff at this moment.He smiled bitterly and lowered his eyes to stop the car, resigned like a lamb waiting to be slaughtered.

No one knew how much he hoped that the other party would not let go.

"I feel that promises are worthless without the support of the law. The length of life and the depth of friendship are beyond human expectations. But if one day you want to leave, I will give you my arms, and if you come back, I will welcome you from thousands of miles away."

Shen Jiuyan also became romantic in the long night, perhaps because this platonic feeling was not real enough.He tried to look directly at himself, and negotiated clumsily with others, hoping to get a compromise from the other party.

"Then when will you let me go?" Chen Siqi changed the subject, with a relaxed tone and a smile, as if he just made a joke to scare the other party after knowing the other party's intentions, so he continued without waiting for Shen Jiuyan's answer, "Remember to buy good things and be mentally prepared. I'm not gentle."

He squinted and looked at the moon half-covered by tall buildings, "There is a confession on the Internet, I don't know if you have heard it..." He paused, his voice was much softer, as if he was afraid of being woken up and could hardly sleep soundly. The cheeks that were blown red by the wind stretched out from the scarf, "Do you know the fastest speed of the motorcycle? Look at the station sign in front, I can get there in a second. If someone is waiting for me there, I will go faster because I want to tell that person that I like you."

The speed of the car was raised to the fastest in an instant, and even the sound became fragmented.Only the deliberately concealed confession made Shen Jiuyan hear clearly, because he had been waiting, and like the other party, he rushed to the short-lived light like moths to the flame.

Shen Jiuyan remembered when his teacher took him to a gay bar for a drink and said, "Look, love is like a glass of wine. It doesn't have a high alcohol content but even a good drinker will get dizzy after drinking it. It's not very hungry but it can also make people sleep in a short time. There is no longer hunger. It can make people stay in the hospital and make people sleep well. But some people are scared and shrink back, some people are really hurt, and some people just spend their lives happily like this Now, don't you think it's amazing?"

The car flew off the ground in the bumps and fell heavily.Crush the frost on the ground, and let the crushed ice sprinkle a long river on the ground.

The skidding car twisted into a long snake on the road, completing a stunt that the imperial capital could not complete.The blowing wind swept away the last few dead leaves from the branches.They completed the ride around the river.

There are more and more people wrapped in winter clothes by the river, squatting scatteredly in the corner to light the flames.The smell of burning paper money drifts away along the river.It was obviously a cold and melancholy night, but it was no longer so cold because of this spark.It turns out that the longing for the dead can also warm only a corner.

Chen Siqi stopped the car and watched quietly, his vision blurred unconsciously.It wasn't until Xinghuo was sent away by the last handful of wind that he wiped his frozen face and exhaled, "Let's go, it's too cold."

The author has something to say:

The leader is not indecisive like a woman, but cannot drag others into the water for his own selfish desires.In reality, if some people choose 419 after all their mistakes, there must be some people who seriously consider it, hoping to live an ordinary and stable life like heterosexuals. (●––●)