The river is exhausted

Today's weather is fine, not too hot.There are more clouds in the sky, which weakens a lot of sunlight and direct ultraviolet rays. It's just that there are so many clouds, and maybe after a day or two, it will start to rain.When Shen Rujiang walked to Wantang Village, it was exactly eight o'clock.

Maybe because of the summer vacation, people in the village are more active.Unlike the last time he came, in the depths of winter, there were no people to be seen on the streets of the village.It's just that when there are more people, more eyes are cast on Shen Rujiang.

Because most of the people on the streets of the village at this time are children in their teens.A group of people were playing games together, and they naturally had no impression of Shen Rujiang.Just looking at a strange big brother with a backpack, a white T-shirt and jeans.

It was so beautiful that I couldn't help but look at it a few more times.I wanted to go up to say hello, but I hesitated to go up.Children who grew up in the village are always shy.

I can only see someone and can't wait to tell the other party that I just saw a very good-looking big brother in the village.In fact, it is not surprising that such strangers with backpacks appear in the village, because there is a scenic spot outside the village.

Occasionally, tourists will not return to the town after coming down from the scenic spot.Go to their village and take a look. They only regard Shen Jinjiang as such a tourist.Shen Rujiang went around in circles for a few times, but almost couldn't find his way again.Finally, among the many small flat-roofed bungalows, I found that exceptionally outstanding small tile-roofed house with a courtyard.

He didn't go in, just stood at the door and watched for a long time.He looked at the changes in the yard, and nothing seemed to change.It's just that the snow at that time has all melted, and the grass is overgrown on the ground.Time has long since stopped in this place.

Shen Jinjiang went around again and found a shop in the village, where he bought some necessities for grave sweeping.The seller was an elderly man, and she had been staring at him since Shen Rujiang walked in.While watching, he fiddled with his brows, as if recalling something.

It wasn't until the checkout that the old man couldn't help asking: "Son, who are you?"

"I..." Shen Rujiang carried the things in his hands: "People from the Shen family."

After sinking into the river, the old man suddenly realized.It seems that he finally remembered who the handsome young man in front of him was, raising his hand and exclaiming, "It's you..."

She wanted to say something more, but Shen Rujiang had already walked out with her things.Could it be that the things he just bought came back to see that old guy...?The old man sighed.Didn't realize it's been so many years.

This kid has grown up so much that he used to be seen fighting with children in the village wherever he went.Now that he has grown up, he looks a lot more stable, but he feels cold, and he doesn't know how these years have been.

Thinking of this, the old man couldn't help sighing again, and murmured: "It's a poor child."

In fact, Shen Rujiang couldn't remember who the old man was just now, even if it was the faces of many people in the village, he had already blurred them.Grandma's tomb is built on the scenic spot outside the village. The scenic spot is a natural mountain. When it was not developed before, there was a cemetery at the foot of the mountain.Later, the scenic spot on the mountain was developed, and the cemetery under the mountain was also renovated into a high-standard cemetery.

After going around for so long, it was already past eleven o'clock when I finally reached the gate of the cemetery.He walked in from the entrance of the scenic spot, where there was a lot of voices and crowds.After gradually walking to this side, there are fewer people.

In addition, it is not Qingming Festival, there are only two or three people in the cemetery.Maybe it's also the anniversary of the death of the deceased, so let's take a look.It's like sinking into a river.After the renovation of the cemetery, all the tall grave mounds in the past disappeared, and the ground was covered with exquisite marble.Rows of tombstones are neatly arranged in the cemetery.

Shen Jinjiang found his grandmother's place with ease, and then slowly squatted down.The photo of grandma on the tombstone smiled kindly, and he put down the things he was carrying.In fact, he didn't buy anything. Incense is not allowed in this place. He bought a bunch of flowers and some tributes.

At this moment, one by one was being neatly arranged under the tombstone, and he knelt down slowly after finishing the arrangement.After bowing down to grandma, he simply sat down in front of the tombstone. The weather was not hot and the sun was not too strong.But the sky was bright.

"I had a good time this year and met a very good person. He is very nice and I like him very much, maybe he doesn't know." Shen Jinjiang leaned on the tombstone, looked up at the blue sky and white clouds above his head: "Uncle, he , had a hard time. But I... don't know how to help him."

Shen Rujiang just sat like this, he didn't know what to talk to his grandma, he could only think of what to talk about.

"I've read the letter my mother gave me. My mother fell in love with a person of the same gender as her. I've seen that aunt. I'm afraid you will be angry if I tell you. The person I like is her son."

The cemetery was very quiet, and after Shen Rujiang finished speaking, he also fell silent.He raised his head and stared at the mountains in the distance.A person's life is like this continuous mountain range.The ups and downs are continuous, continuous to a length, and then stop abruptly.

Grandma will be angry if she finds out, Shen Shenjiang thought.He remembered that in the letter his mother wrote to him, his grandmother just didn't agree with her being with that aunt.Words like homosexuality, no matter in the society at that time or in the current society.After all, they are all unacceptable existences.

But what can we do?Who knows that the person he likes happens to be the same gender as him.Shen Rujiang raised his hands and covered his face with some struggle.The one he felt sorry for was Jiang Yousi.All along, Jiang Yousi took care of him like a big brother and treated him well.

But what about myself?In the end, he actually had that kind of thought about him.It's really... too hateful.But such feelings, the more you resist it, the more ups and downs it will be in your heart.Such feelings must never be noticed by anyone.

A bright and warm existence like Jiang Yousi shouldn't be turned into a shadow in the dark because of such feelings.And...if he knew, he would feel very disgusted too.He couldn't even imagine how disgusting Jiang Yousi's face that always wore a smirk would be to him.

The palms of both hands are tightly clenched into fists.When you have someone with you to go through all the suffering, you will no longer want to go through it all by yourself.In other words, a person is spoiled.After experiencing countless loneliness by himself, he was spoiled by others.

In this way, it will not be easy to want to leave the person who has spoiled him.

The only scary thing is that he has feelings for him that he shouldn't have.The weight of this feeling is too heavy, no matter what, he should bury it deep in his heart and not let anyone know about it.

"I'm leaving." Shen Rujiang looked down at the time, it was already 12:30.It was agreed before that I would go back in the afternoon at the latest and walk back to the village from here.It's almost time to go back to the town.

Standing in front of the tombstone and taking a deep look at grandma, Shen Shenjiang bowed to grandma, then turned and left.Just as he was lonely when he came, he was also silent when he went.

He picked up his phone, and the page was clean.There was no text message or phone call. He seemed to be expecting that Jiang Yousi would send him a text message or make a phone call.Maybe Dahu or Yu Nian have already told him, or is he still having trouble with what happened last night?

How to do this?Shen Rujiang has never had any experience in dealing with people.He was thinking all the way back, should he go back and apologize?It's not that I didn't listen to you and wait for you at the same place, and I don't know where the bar is.

It seems that no matter how you say it, it's like a sophistry... Shen Shenjiang was slightly distressed.When leaving from the exit of the scenic spot, he didn't even find the familiar figures who entered from the entrance of the scenic spot, and the other party didn't even notice him.

Jiang Yousi stood at the entrance and waited for Yu Nian and Dahu to pick up the tickets. He looked not very interested, and he didn't have the usual relaxed and smiling expression on his face.Jiang Yousi seldom hides his emotions, he is indeed not very happy.

He turned his head suddenly, his eyes swept towards the exit area, the crowd was stirring, he didn't understand why he turned his head suddenly.

"Here, your ticket." Fu Jingyuan handed the ticket to Jiang Youbo: "What are you looking at?"

"It's nothing." Jiang Yousi turned his head, and casually took the ticket Fu Jingyuan gave him.Looking at the few people who had already started to check tickets and entered the gate, he said in a deep voice, "Let's go."

"Okay." Fu Jingyuan smiled at Jiang Yousi as usual.Then they followed behind them and went to check the tickets together.

When Shen Rujiang returned to the village, it was already a little past one.There was no restaurant in the village where he could have lunch, so he could only carry his backpack and continue walking non-stop from the direction of the village entrance to the town.

Maybe they are already having lunch, Shen Jinjiang thought.No matter what, it's better to go back early, so as not to make them worry again.It was exactly two o'clock when we returned to the town.

Different from the tranquility in the morning, the town at this point is full of voices and shadows.Maybe it's because the weather is good today, so there are more tourists walking around.Going back the same way as the big pot belt in the morning, Shen Jinjiang soon returned to the inn, put away his bags in his room and found that Yu Nian was not there.

He went downstairs to Dahu's house again, but Dahu's house was different from the noise outside.Unexpectedly quiet, Shen Jinjiang saw Dahu's grandfather sitting on a bamboo chair in the yard.

By the way, I said hello to the old man, who smiled kindly at him when he heard the sound, his face was full of traces left by the years.

"Didn't you go outside to play with them?" The old man's vicissitudes of life sounded from his throat.

Shen Rujiang was stunned for a moment, then shook his head.After saying goodbye to the old man, he withdrew and merged into the noisy street again.