I say all wine is worse than you

This may be the longest night in Ji Chunfeng's life.

It seemed that the sky was not bright at all, and the chilling north wind was howling in the ears, and the frozen man almost lost all consciousness.After what seemed like a whole century, she heard Shili say, "I don't agree."

As soon as the tip of the nose became sour, tears fell.

Seeing this, Zhang Hua immediately said with a cold face, "Chunfeng has already said that he wants to break up with you, and it's useless if you don't agree."

Shili didn't answer this question, but said to her, "Auntie, it's almost dawn, and people in the community should go out to work later. It's not good for people to see us arguing here. Besides, it's too cold Well, this matter won’t come to a conclusion for a while, so you and Shili should go back first.”

In fact, there are already people walking around in the community at this moment, and when they pass by here, they will pay more attention to them.Although there were not many people, Zhang Hua really didn't want to be seen by others, so he frowned. Although he was dissatisfied with Du Shili's attitude of avoiding the important and taking the light, she had no other choice.

If Chunfeng wanted to make a statement, she had already done so. Du Shili refused to break up, and Zhang Hua couldn't control her. The only way was to control Chunfeng and let the two of them break up completely.

So she took a look at Shili, turned around and reprimanded a few words, and left with Chunfeng.

Chunfeng didn't dare to look back ten miles, but felt ashamed.

Breaking up is just an expedient measure, she believes that Shili will not understand.But they agreed that they would work hard to go on together no matter what, and they couldn't give up easily. She didn't do it, but Shili still remembered.

Even if it is just an expedient measure, every conflict will eventually tear a rift in the relationship between them, which is difficult to describe.

But the more this happened, the more she couldn't let Shili fall into this quagmire.

Let Shili see Zhang Hua's hysterical appearance, which is already very unbearable for Chunfeng.And based on her understanding of Zhang Hua, if she couldn't make a breakthrough from herself, then she would definitely go all out and entangle her for ten miles, making her life difficult.She couldn't imagine, and she didn't want to see Shili face these things that she should have undertaken by herself.

The Ji family originally had many relatives.When her gambler father had just died, an uncle fell in love with their old house for some reason, and thought that although the house was a bit dilapidated, it was spacious, so he wanted to keep it for himself.Probably because they bullied their orphans and widowed mothers who have no influence, and they dared to buy the house for 5000 yuan without shame.

After being rejected by Zhang Hua, he gathered a group of hooligans who came here all day to find trouble, and even hinted that if they did not compromise, two powerless women might be at home. When something happened, the malice was obvious.

During that time, Ji Chunfeng always carried a knife in his schoolbag when he went to school, and he even simulated how to kill these shameless people in his mind.

But before she could do anything, Zhang Hua ran to the door of the cousin's house with a rope on a lively weekend, staged a scene of crying, making trouble and hanging himself, and recruited the neighborhood committee and the police.This incident made a big fuss, and in the end even the county government came to reassure them that the house belonged to them and no one could take it away.

In the following years, they have been living in peace and stability. Even after the news of the demolition of the area last year, no one dared to come to find fault.

Before that day, Ji Chunfeng's memory of her mother was the cowardly figure hiding in a corner and crying after being beaten. She complained more than once that this woman was too weak, but after that day, she felt something unspeakable about Zhang Huasheng. of fear.

Of course, Zhang Hua couldn't really hang himself, but he just said that, but in fact he just wanted to make things worse.

But Chunfeng didn't dare to think about what kind of situation it would be if she really went to Du Shili's house to make such a scene.

If it's just coming out to Shili's family, in Chunfeng and Shili's plan, it will happen sooner or later, and it won't make her so worried.But if Zhang Hua really wants to do it, everyone will definitely make a fuss.Shili's personality looks cold and cheerless, but Chunfeng knows that she really cares about saving face.If there was such a disturbance, it would be more embarrassing than disturbing.

She was used to the days of being pointed at by others, but she didn't want Shili to experience it too.

Temporarily separating is indeed the best choice for them now.

Back home, Chunfeng refused to communicate with Zhang Hua, and went directly to the room and locked the door.She was lying on the bed in a daze, holding up her mobile phone and planning to send Shili something, but she didn't know what to say.In the end, I suddenly remembered what I told Zhang Hua ten miles before I saw Zhang Hua, so I sent a message "I'm home".

Shili's reply came quickly, "Did your mother say anything else?"

"No."

Both of them tacitly didn't mention the word breakup, nor asked each other's thoughts.Although, they have a lot to say in their hearts.Said a few words neither salty nor light, ten miles to go to work, and ended this conversation.

Chunfeng put down her phone and lay on the bed in a daze, with countless emotions churning in her heart, scrambling to find an outlet to vent, and finally turned into tears, dripping from her eyes.

Chunfeng was very sad, but she was more at a loss. She knew that her handling today would definitely not be good, but she didn't know how to get the best of both worlds in this situation.

This is exactly what she tried to avoid before.

She naively thought that by pushing everything back, things would get better.However, there are always some things that cannot be avoided and must be faced.

Chunfeng once thought that the most difficult thing was how to be with Shili.But now, she put the seemingly unreachable star above her head into her bosom, but someone asked her to take it out and throw it away.

Ji Chunfeng, who was still sad in the room, didn't know that Zhang Hua quickly went out again and returned to the downstairs where Du Shili lived, and Du Shili was waiting for her here.

When the two met, they were not surprised that the other would appear here, and they looked at each other tacitly. After that, Du Shili was in front and Zhang Hua was in the back. They left the community and found a place where they could sit and talk.

"Let me just say it straight," Zhang Hua said immediately after the waiter walked away, "During this time, I also got to know some of you..."

She paused, and said the word very conflictingly, "Homosexuality, the situation. This road is difficult to walk, and this circle is also very chaotic. I absolutely cannot accept my daughter becoming like this. Needless to say, I just beg you to let the spring breeze go."

Shili looked at her quietly, and when she finished speaking, she said, "Auntie, I have known Chunfeng for four years. We were not together from the beginning, and there were twists and turns and times of retreat. I..."

She lowered her head, looked at the texture of the log on the table, and said seriously, "I thought about letting her go, and I also tried to cut off this relationship before it sprouted. If there is an easier way to go, who Are you willing to suffer all this?"

"Our story, Auntie, you may not want to hear it. But what I want to say is that I am still with Chunfeng now, not on impulse, not just for fun, we have considered the difficulties we may encounter in the future, and we are willing to go Accept and get over it, and then make a commitment to each other."

She raised her head and looked at Zhang Hua solemnly, "You may not believe in the so-called feelings, but like you, I am responsible for Chunfeng. I will not give up on her unless I am sure that we really can't go on. "

"You are very good at talking." Zhang Hua was silent for a long time before he said slowly, "But young people don't know the heights of heaven and earth, and always feel that they are omnipotent. The current social environment is like this. Even a normal marriage will become someone else's The talk in your mouth, let alone you?"

Shili smiled, "Since normal heterosexuality will be discussed by others, why don't you live it according to your own will? At least... I feel happy in my heart, it's better than marrying and having children according to social standards, and finally living myself as a joke."

Du Shili's words were sincere, but they were extremely harsh to Zhang Hua's ears. It seemed that Du Shili was blatantly mocking his unlucky marriage.

So her complexion immediately turned ugly, and she gritted her teeth and said, "Who can't speak empty words, but what good life can Chunfeng have with you? Your relationship will not be recognized, you cannot marry and start a family, and you will not be able to get married when you are old." There is no child to take care of. If you deceive Chunfeng, she will not even be able to protect her own interests, because she cannot explain your relationship to others!"

After she finished speaking, she stood up and looked down at Shili, "I'm not here to discuss with you. I'm not interested in knowing how much confidence you have in your future, but you are not qualified to let Chunfeng take risks with you."

"Auntie!" Shili stood up, trying to persuade Zhang Hua to stay, but Zhang Hua had already strode out.After two steps, she could only retreat and stop, not understanding why the good conversation suddenly collapsed.

From this day on, Shili and Chunfeng haven't met each other.

It's not accurate to say that, because I have passed Chunfeng's shop several times in Shili, and I can always see her busy in the back kitchen.But of course, Zhang Hua is also guarding against death.She confiscated Chunfeng's mobile phone and computer, and kept an eye on people 24 hours a day, effectively cutting off all contact between the two of them. Even if it was such a chance to take a look from a distance, it was actually very rare.

This time, Zhang Hua was determined to beat the mandarin ducks, so he planned to go back to Linzhou, so he just had to do it.

In fact, she originally wanted to mobilize Chunfeng to go back to Linzhou with her. After all, staying here is too close to ten miles away, and she doesn't know when the old relationship will rekindle.But this plan was rejected by Chunfeng. The reason is that it is not easy to open a store here. Now that the store is closed, it can't even make back the cost. Moreover, the benefits of opening a store in Linzhou are obviously not comparable to those in Beijing.

Zhang Hua knows that she hasn't given up yet, but it doesn't matter, she has more time to spend with the spring breeze, until the day she can't hold on.

And that seems to be the case.

At the beginning, both Chunfeng and Shili had a kind of anxiety in their hearts, which prompted them to try their best to find opportunities to meet each other. Even if they just had a glance and couldn't talk at all, it was a kind of comfort to them.

But gradually, maybe it's because I'm too busy, maybe it's because the anxious mood has calmed down, maybe it's because this relationship has never seen results... In short, the enthusiasm of both of them seems to be consumed, Not as urgent as before.

Chunfeng changed a mobile phone and changed the number.After the freedom of communication was restored, every time she wanted to restore contact with Shili, she gave up because of a certain timidity in her heart, thinking about waiting, waiting.

As for when to wait, she couldn't tell.

Zhang Hua is indeed very experienced. Sometimes cutting flesh with a soft knife hurts more than stabbing someone directly, and you can't tell.

At least Chunfeng and Shili seem to be used to this kind of life without each other's intervention.

After a long time, there will even be an illusion, as if it is the same whether there is that person or not.The days are still going on, the joys, anger, sorrows and joys are still vivid, and it is not heartbreaking because of someone's absence.

Don't even have to see each other again.

Chunfeng felt that he was in a very detached state.Maybe if you like someone, you really don't have to stay together forever. It's enough to keep each other safe and know that the other is safe.

Until this day, Du Changting came to her.

Apparently, he had just learned the whole story of this incident, and rushed directly into the store aggressively. When Zhang Hua stopped him, he shouted very rudely, "Ji Chunfeng, come out!"

Chunfeng appeared ashamed at the door of the back kitchen. When Du Changting saw her, his eyebrows immediately raised. Regardless of Zhang Hua's obstruction, he rushed in, and said loudly, "Du Shili told me that you have plans for the future, she Everything has been done for you, and this is what you explained to her?"

"What do you mean?" Chunfeng could not help but come out and ask when he heard something in his words.

"What on earth are you trying to do?!" Zhang Hua suddenly raised her voice, and her sharp voice almost spoke at the same time as Chunfeng, barely covering her questioning words.

Chunfeng immediately realized that Zhang Hua might also know about this matter, and she was the only one who kept it from her.

She walked out in a few steps, staring at Du Changting closely, "What do you mean by that? What happened to her in Shili?"

"You really don't know?" Du Changting looked at her suspiciously, "She has already told her family about your matter, and it turned out to be a bad mess. I thought that at least she was with you and had a good time." It's the life she wanted. It turned out to be like this! No wonder she wants to leave Beijing!"

"What did you say?" Chunfeng was still speechless by the previous news, but when he heard the latter sentence, he was shocked, "She is leaving Beijing? When will it happen?"

"It's today." Du Changting seemed to have gotten the answer he wanted, but he seemed much calmer.He nodded towards Chunfeng, "Actually, it's good for you to separate. My sister has been asked to give for others since she was a child, and no one ever asked her what she wanted. I thought that someone would take care of her after falling in love, but now it seems She is still taking care of others, so I guess she doesn't want to continue."

After he finished speaking, he turned around and left without looking at Chunfeng's face.Chunfeng wanted to catch up, but was quickly stopped by Zhang Hua.

With such a stop, his rationality returned instantly, and Du Changting's words echoed in Chunfeng's mind, but he found that he had no way to refute.

With her, ten miles should be very tiring, right?

As if a secret switch was pressed, all the memories and emotions about Du Shili poured out like a flood, completely submerging the spring breeze and making her breathless.

It turned out that it wasn't painless, but I was always sure that person would stand in place and wait, so even if we didn't meet or be together, there wouldn't be any panic.

So much so that she didn't realize that her understanding of the other party has always stayed at a certain moment.

However, people are subject to change, not to mention her so-called certainty is nothing but a heavy burden to Du Shili.

She probably didn't intend to wait any longer.

After a brief daze, Chunfeng took out his mobile phone with shaking hands, and frantically dialed Shili.

The call was connected quickly.

Neither of them spoke, and after a while Du Shili said, "Spring breeze?"

Obviously she knew who it was on the other end of the line.

Chunfeng said "um", she has thousands of words and countless questions, but at the moment they are all wrapped up in a kind of emotional entanglement, and she can't say a word.

It wasn't until she heard the airport announcement on the other end of the phone, urging passengers on a certain flight to board quickly, that she came to her senses, "Are you leaving Beijing?"

"Yes."

"When are you coming back?"

"...I don't know, I haven't decided yet."

Chunfeng licked his lips, his throat was so dry that every rubbing brought pain.

This is Du Shili, giving everything she can, and always being crisp when pulling away.

She knew it a long time ago, but why didn't she take it to heart, blindly thinking that Shili would always be there waiting for her?

She looked around in panic, and her eyes cleared when she met Zhang Hua who was frowning in bewilderment.

"You know that too, don't you?" she asked.

Her expression was very calm at the moment, but Zhang Hua's heart suddenly jumped, "Know what?"

But once Ji Chunfeng thinks about a certain joint, all the context becomes clear, "You can't guess everything after seeing her in the hospital ten miles away, and you knew about her coming out with her family before that... ...Everything that happened in this world has traces, even if her family wants to cover it up, you will always know."

"So what? Their family is so noisy, do you want our family to be talked about like this? Who am I doing this for?"

"Don't say it's for me." Chunfeng stared at her, "You're right, I used to worry too much. But I was worried about this and that, but I never thought about her from Shili's perspective. She I cut off all escape routes from the very beginning, but I failed to persist to the end, and foolishly thought that I could take a long-term plan."

"You do it for face, for other people's gossip, to make me look like a 'normal person'... In short, it's not for me, you don't even care what I want or what I think, you just want me to be what you want. "

The person who really thinks about me has been lost by me.

At this moment, Chunfeng suddenly wanted to see Shili very urgently.

As soon as this idea appeared, it firmly occupied her mind, and it was impossible to get rid of it.Chunfeng hardly hesitated, turned around and ran out.

"Where are you going?" Zhang Hua asked after him.

Chunfeng paused slightly, then turned to look at her, "Mom, I never knew what I wanted, so I did a lot of things wrong, and I don't know if there is a chance to make up for it, but I have to do it, otherwise I will die forever." will regret it."

She paused, and said in a low voice, "Actually, I have never been a good obedient daughter, and I probably won't do it in the future. You can do whatever you want, at worst, I will pay you with my life."

After finishing speaking, he ignored Zhang Hua who was stunned in place, and quickly left the door.

She hailed a taxi at the door, but forgot about the traffic conditions in Beijing and got stuck all the way.However, it was precisely because of this that her attention was focused on the road conditions. It was not until she got near the airport that the car was so jammed that she couldn't move. Then she suddenly remembered that she had never asked about Shili's flight and departure time.

She didn't even know if Du Shili was still at the airport.

The driver turned on the car music, and Ji Chunfeng's ears were instantly filled with old songs that he didn't know when.

"Love always begins beautifully and ends unreasonably, it's a pity—"

Her heart trembled suddenly, the close distance made her unable to continue to sit in the car and wait, Chunfeng settled the tent and got out of the car, shuttled through the traffic and people, and rushed towards the airport.

As if racing against something invisible, Chunfeng's mind was full of "Hurry up, hurry up", and he couldn't spare a single gap to think about his behavior at the moment.

When she ran near the terminal building, a plane happened to take off. The white wings drew a long arc in the blue sky and climbed all the way. The huge roar filled her ears, making her unable to hear any other sounds. .

Chunfeng looked up for a long time in a daze. The sky in Beijing in June was rarely cloudless.

She raised her hand to touch her face.

I don't know when tears are streaming down my face.

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(End of the article)

The author has something to say:

If you think about this story, don’t keep it for the New Year. The QAQ Dog Food Festival written by the author who has a bad cold with his mobile phone is also perfectly avoided.

Because the data is too poor to come up with a notebook, so there is no extra outline, so please feel free to fill in the following content!

He didn't actually go ten miles away, and ran over to see it.

Ten miles from be got on the plane, and then the plane crashed.

Finally, I wish you all a happy new year [guilty heart]

After the new year, this article may end upside down, so please take the time to read it_(:з」∠)_

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