Can't let go

Saturday is the day for routine appointments in Nanjin. Without Aunt Hua and Geng Jie taking care of his daily life, he is too lazy to bother, so he goes out in a T-shirt and trousers.He is fair and thin, very tender, with a bag on his back, he looks more and more like a college student.

Geng Jie moved the car from downstairs to the gate of the community early in the morning, watched him slowly come out of the building, got on the bus, and then drove the car to follow - if he started following him from the moment he stepped out of the building, it might be too obvious .

Nanjin seemed unaware of this, got out of the car at the entrance of the hospital, and walked slowly into the hospital.

Geng Jie's car followed behind at a slow speed, and he couldn't help laughing. It seemed that he was born with wealth and leisure at such a leisurely pace.There are many tired people in this world. If you want to be slow and comfortable, life will force you to rush forward.As for Nanjin, in a group of mediocre crowds, he looks like a big baby lump walking—it’s not a baby lump, who can have such a good life? He probably doesn’t understand why the people around him are in such a hurry. .

Nanjin took a walk around the hospital, went to the supermarket by the way, and bought a lot of things, so he decided to take a taxi.While waiting for the bus, Nanjin crumpled up the receipts in his hands and threw them into the trash can—he didn't throw them right, and they fell outside. He didn't pay attention, and he struggled to carry two large shopping bags.When he got into the car, Geng Jie went to pick up the receipt and put it in his pocket.

It wasn't until he followed Nanjin back home that Geng Jie opened the receipts he picked up and checked them one by one.Seeing that he was carrying such a big bag, most of which were snacks, Geng Jie frowned and couldn't help calling Nanjin.

"Hey?"

Hearing Nanjin's voice, Geng Jie stuck his throat and paused for a while without making a sound. Nanjin asked over there, "Mu Xian?" Geng Jie then said, "Did you go to the hospital today? How is it?"

"Very good, prescribed some medicine."

"Hmm..." Geng Jie heard the sound of plastic on his side, and asked pretendingly, "What are you doing?"

Nanjin replied honestly: "I bought some food."

Geng Jie finally found a way to talk, and said, "Did you buy another bunch of snacks? You have a bad stomach, eat less snacks." But his tone was far from what he had imagined, so gentle that there was no threat at all.

"No……"

Geng Jie wanted to fart, I saw it all, most of them were snacks, because I'm not in front of you, you have learned to lie and deceive people.Without thinking, I heard him say: "...then I won't eat." She was as well-behaved as ever.

Geng Jie's heart suddenly softened: "It doesn't matter if you eat a little bit, you can't delay eating."

Nanjin replied: "Okay."

Geng Jie had nothing to say, and fell into silence, and Nanjin was not someone who would talk to each other, the two just listened to each other's breathing quietly.Probably because he was sure that Geng Jie really had nothing to say, Nanjin hung up the phone silently.

Did not say goodbye.

Geng Jie squeezed the phone, and when he heard the beeping sound, his heart was empty for a moment, and he suddenly remembered that Qin Lie had asked him if Nanjin never said goodbye when he hung up the phone.

He had never discovered that Nanjin had this problem before.

Nanjin always stays at home, or attends classes at school, and his life is simple and clear at a glance.And Geng Jie was out socializing everywhere, so he took a little time out of his busy schedule to care about Nanjin, usually he would call Aunt Hua first, ask what Nanjin did when he was away, and if he was good, and then call Nanjin to pick him up, sometimes tenderly A few words of honey, but it is always inevitable to ask Nanjin to wait for him to go back. In the end, it seems that this is the biggest wish for Nanjin, and there is no need to say "goodbye".

It is never an easy job to leave/identity and run out to start a business. Geng Jie spends his time fighting outside. No matter how far he goes, no matter how high he goes, he always returns to Nanjin.Nanjin needed him, and he was also willing to give Nanjin a sense of security within his power, telling him over and over again that he would come back and never leave him alone.

But now this sentence can't be uttered, and the connection between them is easily broken, as if there is no blood in the atrium, no ground under the feet, empty, empty.

He drove to find Zhong Tong, and stopped her before she got off work: "How is he doing?"

Zhong Tong frowned, obviously very dissatisfied with his behavior: "This is the patient's privacy, no comment."

"Just tell me, good or bad."

"Do you want him to live better or worse after he leaves you?" Geng Jie didn't make a sound, but just stared at her persistently. Zhong Tong stared at him for a while, before finally opening his mouth: "Not bad."

After Geng Jie got the answer, he didn't relax because of it, and then said: "I don't think his appetite is so bad anymore. He still eats three meals a day as usual, but there is very little meat. He prefers to be vegetarian, and no one cares about him outside." He died, and I bought a lot of snacks today - will this be bad for your health? His stomach is not very good, but it should be okay to eat less? He likes to eat snacks very much, and he can’t change it. He needs people to stare at him Only then... Next time, you should advise him to eat less snacks, and he can't always eat vegetarian dishes, but it's better to be able to eat than not to eat, does he still vomit often now?" Geng Jie said seriously and naturally, and held a discussion meeting with him. Same.

Zhong Tong's eyes seemed to have seen a ghost, and he dared not say anything: "What are you doing? Are you crazy?"

But then, she suddenly realized why Nanjin's willpower to fight against the disease was so much stronger than she imagined. She thought that Nanjin would be devastated after leaving Geng Jie, but the fact was just the opposite.

She thought Nanjin had figured it out.

Zhong Tong's expression suddenly calmed down, and she said coldly: "Sorry, no matter what you do, I will not be your eyes to monitor Nanjin, nor will I be your means to control him. And I suggest you—" She originally wanted to suggest that Geng Jie stop this kind of behavior of invading other people's privacy immediately, but when she thought about Nanjin's motives, she suddenly changed her tone, "I suggest you see a psychiatrist immediately."

Geng Jie stood there, his calmness implied madness, his paranoia was covered with rationality, at first glance, he was still a decent person at the top of society, but Zhong Tong only felt terrible.

She pushed Geng Jie away and left work without looking back.

At night, Zhong Tong read Nanjin's pathology report over and over again at home, picked up his mobile phone to call Nanjin, and asked him, "You know Geng Jie is watching you, right?"

Nanjin was watering the flowers with a small kettle, and replied, "He's downstairs at my house."

The flowers were placed by the window, and the light cast his figure on the curtains. Nanjin continued, "He is watching me water the flowers."

The flowers have already been watered to death by him.He is not a person who is good at gardening flowers and plants. He bought this flower by chance when he passed by a small stall a few days ago.At that time, Geng Jie was driving behind him. He bent down and asked the vendor to pick out a pot of flowers. He showed Geng Jie the side face of Yan Yan, who was half smiling, and then went home with the flower pot in his arms.

After watering the flowers, Nanjin put down the kettle and said, "It's time for me to sleep." Then he hung up the phone, turned off the lights, lay down on the bed, and curled up into a ball by himself after a while.

Nights are always tormented, but there is nothing sharp left in the house, and even the tableware is made of stainless steel, Nanjin is a little relieved.

He stuffed the earphones into his ears carefully—as if there was someone who could not be disturbed lying next to him, Geng Jie’s voice came from the earphones: "Hello?...Go to the hospital today? How is it?..."

It seems to be better tonight.